I am currently OBSESSED. Every week I'm counting the hours until the next chapter releases. The translator is doing an amazing job. This story does have a manhwa adaptation, but I feel like it is only mediocre in comparison to the novel.

Quite a typical story of ABO but has more in depth background that makes it enjoyable.

The MC is a recessive Omega, harassed at his workplace, and has suicidal tendency. MC has a lot of ex-es lol and he still keep in touch with some of them

ML is an extremely dominant alpha ~~especially in bed~~ , typical cold to everyone but his omega. It makes my heart melt!!! Literally my perfect ideal of fictional character 😩😩💛

They got smutty pretty quickly ~~which is~~ ~~my most favorite scene.~~

Really love how the their love story is unfolding!!!!

This is pretty angsty in the sense that you can really feel the depression and struggle in the main character’s voice and train of thought. It’s fluffy in their relationship but angsty in MC’s misunderstanding. ML really loves MC so that’s where it’s fluffy - he takes good care of him and makes the external tribulations and such better.

Spoiler if you are concerned about certain triggering topics, I will include them here: Spoiler

Some triggering things to note: Depression, suicidal ideation, suicidal thoughts - As someone with depression for almost 15 years, I cried A LOT while reading because I found I had echoed thoughts and sentiments. This may be triggering for those who have depression. Negative thought cycles - Please be fully aware that MC displays a lot of the negative thought cycles typically experienced by depressed folks (or folks with anxiety). This is a maladaptive method of thinking and can also be triggering. I once thought similarly but I always reframe my thoughts with learned/taught techniques. If you’ve had depression, trauma, or anxiety, you may have to constantly remind yourself to use adaptive coping strategies. (Thanks therapy lol). Previous abuse from exes - Another thing to consider. MC has a lot of thought patterns that were caused by his former relationships with abusive exes. His thoughts echo a lot of the abusive language directed at himself. PTSD - Self-explanatory. He also has a lot of grief related to the death of his family members. Anxiety/Anxiety Attacks - You see smidgeons of this.

Finally, what I want to say is this - if in the course of reading this novel, you find yourself relating to the protagonist, I would like to encourage you to seek professional help, whether from a therapist, psychologist, or psychiatrist. I give this advice from both a personal perspective (as someone who has suffered from depression, anxiety, trauma, suicidal thoughts, maladaptive thinking, etc. For more than 15 years) and from a professional point of view (I’m in a better place now AND I became a psychologist to help others.) Please take care of yourselves lovely readers.

Main story seems to be about 46-50 chapters + side stories, not sure how many side stories. I really enjoyed this book, it was just painful to read (see spoilers, painful as in emotional hurt). The story is good and I feel the author may know what such sorrow truly is like. I can’t wait to see more fluff. It was so satisfying to read when ML took care of things for MC lol and also took care of him. Smut was good too hehe. Anyway, I’d suggest it, if you are stable (no negative meaning intended, see spoiler) and can handle the crying LOLLL. I am soft for MC and ML I just want to see all the happy side stories and ending. I want and need to see at least 40 chapters of fluff and warmth or more. PLEASE AUTHOR 😭

Finally, thank you translator for your hard work!! Super appreciated.

The beginning of the novel is the MC attempting to kill himself. From then on you learn about how hopeless he feels in his life and what’s led him down this path.

MC temperamental and kinda b*tchy but I love his personality, because it shows he's human. He has lots of one night stands and ex lovers. He's 27yo omega that’s terrified of being alone and is desperate for a lover. He’s suicidal and has PTSD (has frequent hallucinations and panic attacks). The novel is told mainly from MCs perspective, so you can often see his warped sense of reality and how he perceives himself/the world around him that is very common in suicidal mentalities. He’s an unreliable narrator and it’s important to know that. He’s pathetic and sometimes snarky but he’s also aware of his own charms.

MC... he has a LOT OF EXES... people at his work call him a sl*t and his exes belittle him. He has an extremely warped understanding of relationships because his ex-lovers would often abuse him and he expected it was normal because he’s a recessive omega. This means physical, emotional, and sexual abuse.

Like most modern BLs it’s fueled mainly by misunderstandings (some HUGE misunderstandings) but the romance here is really endearing and I find that MCs struggles with depression and the depiction of it to be 1000000000/10 even if I have some other minor faults with the series. The ML is also probably the most caring ML ive seen in a long long time...

Opinion on ML with some spoilers for second half of novel:

Spoiler

One thing I think is interesting about the ML... The ML has an extreme lack of empathy (this is stated by everyone around him) and he cares only for the MC after they meet and ML falls in love. It starts out as a s*x relationship after a one night stand, but the ML starts to pine extremely hard and do whatever he can to make MC happy and comfortable (even as MC struggles with his depression). This novel starts off with sex/adult topics and then you get to see the relationship blossom from those moments. The MLs lack of empathy and how they touch on it is actually... really interesting? The MC does get pregnant (yes, there is mpreg in this novel, I was surprised at first lol) and there are complications w his first pregnancy and he miscarries. The ML starts going to counseling to try and learn how to empathize with the MC over losing their first child (ML only cares for MCs well-being first and foremost). It’s... interesting. But I think the fact that they even address it instead of leaving it as “stone-cold yandere overbearing possessive alpha who is borderline a psychopath” like so many other series do

This novel is a happy ending and frankly I don’t think there was anything about it that left me unsatisfied??? Man, is it depressing though. The MC goes through so much and you sympathize with him greatly. I was reading the reviews and so many people said they cried within the first 5 chapters... I understand why.

I feel a bit weird about giving it 5*, but I can’t really find anything faults that would need me to rank it way lower... I think your enjoyment of this purely depends on the tastes you have already.

The smut is really well written too!

Ah, the guilty pleasure of reading this and giving it a 3.

Felt like the drama caused by MC's past trauma and s*upidity was harshly/overly used. I've seen many ridiculous misunderstandings and this one just newly added to the list. HOWEVER. I enjoyed this story because I like CHEAP DRAMA/tragedy with overly protective MLs. This book presented the perfect conditions to create what I like.

Yeah, it was entertaining but that doesn't change it overly petty moments. In my heart it's a 2-star story, I just can't turn a blind eye to the bullshitty moves that the MC did.

Also, don't read the manhwa! It skips so many chapters and sweet moments from the book + ML's V shape body is a damn square in the comic. LMAO.

Anyway, thanks for the translation! :≫

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I could relate to MC's struggles with mental health but I feel like his IQ is really lacking. He easily misunderstands, doesn’t communicate with ML properly (It’s ML's fault too, It’s actually his fault in like 80%) and doesn’t notice obvious signs of pregnancy. It isn’t that hard to buy a pregnancy test, especially If you know you forgot to take a pill and have symptoms. What does MC do tho? He drinks alcohol and takes medicine. He gets over It in like 5 minutes (after a frustrating talk with ML) in hospital tho and names the Fetus ignoring the doctor that tries to delicately tell him that the Fetus may not survive

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I could relate to MC's struggles with mental health but I feel like his IQ is really lacking. He easily misunderstands, doesn’t communicate with ML properly (It’s ML's fault too, It’s actually his fault in like 80%) and doesn’t notice obvious signs of pregnancy. It isn’t that hard to buy a pregnancy test, especially If you know you forgot to take a pill and have symptoms. What does MC do tho? He drinks alcohol and takes medicine. He gets over It in like 5 minutes (after a frustrating talk with ML) in hospital tho and names the Fetus ignoring the doctor that tries to delicately tell him that the Fetus may not survive

update: I'm a sucker for an ABO but still, I thought it was really good. I liked the characters, it was engaging, the couple have a non toxic relationship, and I didn't feel stressed out reading it. Thank you to the translator for all your hard work!

It is not your typical ABO story where there is love at first sight or first pheremone smell. The characters have depth, maturity and interesting backgrounds attached to them.

Looking forward to the updates and to see the characters grow.

update: I'm a sucker for an ABO but still, I thought it was really good. I liked the characters, it was engaging, the couple have a non toxic relationship, and I didn't feel stressed out reading it. Thank you to the translator for all your hard work!