The terrace where the white sunlight shines on was a special place in our home. My counselor advised me that exposure to sunlight or fresh air was beneficial to my treatment, so I began to do it, but it has now become a natural habit.
Today, I sat on a rocking chair on the terrace and tried to read while admiring the green garden in the sunlight, but I couldnât focus, so I read and closed three pages.
âKoong-ah, you have to be a person who reads a lot.â
I sighed softly as I stroked my round, swollen stomach. The movements continued under my hand as if understanding and responding to my words.
It had been six months since I had had a dream. Koongi became its fetus name after going through a lot of things, and I liked it because it was cute and sturdy.
These days, I was living a very happy life. I was not sure if it was okay for me to be this happy. Except for the fact that Koongi was a honeymoon baby, and the last time we had sex was six months ago.
There was a dangerous period in the beginning, but now it has entered a stable period, but Choi Sung-hoon does not touch me because Professor Chae, that quack, said that it was better to be patient.
It happened while I was lying in bed, shifting my posture so that my round belly touched Choi Sung-hoonâs firm abs, and gently bringing my hands under my waist. Choi Sung-hoon abruptly got up and looked down at me as I was getting ready to hug him, then left, saying he needed to use the bathroom. It wasnât a bedroom bathroom, but rather a first-floor bathroom.
It was always like that when we had a little skinship. Occasionally, when I toss and turn in bed, it grows so magnificently that I was surprised, but I donât know how he could tolerate it. I guess that was what patience was for.
Except for those minor details, my daily life was perfect. My heart was always overflowing with joy because I have a caring Alpha who loves me and a baby who was growing strong.
I noticed two gray-colored birds flying over while I was repeating myself. The birds flew and sat on the branches of a large maple tree in the garden, rubbing their beaks and wings and making a racket. Then it soon took on a mating position.
Shi-⌠Why did they have to mate here?
âAh, Koong. Iâm not cursing, I was going to say punishment it wasnât a curse word.â
I quickly made an excuse because Koongi was a genius and could hear it.
In any case, this was what was important.
That my heart was as joyful and sunny as the weather.
I was extremely happy these days.
To be so extremely happy that no shadow could fall on it.
But strangely, there were times when I had chest pains. Krit, like electricity.
I was so happy⌠It was really weird.
The weather was nice today, so I decided to go on an outing that I had been putting off for a while.
I packed my cross bag, informed the driver that I was leaving, and then pressed the intercom on the annexâs side.
âYes, Seo-yu-nim. Is there anything you need?â
âYou donât have to come because I will not be having dinner tonight.â
âYou donât have an appetite? Please let me know if there is anything else you want to eat.â
On the intercom screen, the housekeeper begged with expressions that looked like he was about to cry. I assured him that I would meet Choi Sung-hoon for dinner. I havenât yet spoken with Choi Sung-hoon.
I showed the driver the map I found on the internet and directed him in this direction. The driver made an odd expression for a moment before taking the wheel as if he didnât know what he was doing.
Inside the Benz, there was now a mustached gangster-like brother with whom I talked occasionally. Even if he died, he wouldnât tell me his name, but I was closer to him than the other gangster-like brother. When I went out, the gangster-like brother always followed me, so I was used to it by this point.
I took the colorful folder from my bag after a few words of greeting. I inserted an ultrasound image of Koong that I had just received yesterday.
I smiled and flipped over the ultrasound picture.
I could feel the gangster-like brother glancing.
Look at this. Look. It was an ultrasound picture of our Koongi. It has five toes and five fingers. You were curious, right? You want to see it up close, right? It was so cute, right?
I flapped my ultrasound pictures loudly to show generosity.
âThat⌠Is that young master Koongâs new ultrasound picture?â
Finally, the gangster-like brother, unable to suppress his curiosity, spoke up. I quickly showed him the picture.
âI got a new one yesterday. Itâs so cute. It looks exactly like Choi Sung-hoon ssi.â
ââŚYes, its look alike. The straight forehead here is very similar.â
âThatâs the soles of its feet.â
âThis is sucking its finger, this is chewing its mouth, and this is its yawning.â
I explained, page by page. After visiting the hospital yesterday, it took a long time to explain everything to another gangster-like brother.
Haa⌠It was annoying, but I couldnât help myself because everyone was curious. What could I do about Koongiâs adorable and cuteness? Iâd have to work hard for anyone who might want to see this before I get a new ultrasound picture next week. Choi Sung-hoonâs mother, father, Sung-hyun, and Won-jo, I have to show them all. I was annoyed, but everyone wanted to see it.
âIt has vertebrae as well. Itâs adorable. Because he resembles Choi Sung-hoon, it is already powerful. It would be the worldâs strongest six-month fetus.â
I arrived at my destination while showing an ultrasound picture of my fetus.
As I had searched for, it was an open and transparent place, unlike an adult product store. Originally, the gangster-like brother followed up to the inside of the store, but today they waited in front of it.
I chose two boxes of flavored condoms. Anyway, Choi Sung-hoon would have known I was here, so I took a picture and texted it to him.
Sung-hoon⥠[I donât like the second one]
Sung-hoon⥠[There was no size]
How did he know that there was no sizeâŚ
For a moment, my heart was pounding again.
I replied [Hahaha, okay, then Iâll just buy the first one] However, no laughter came out of my mouth.
After leaving the store, I headed to a nearby department store. It was a store where I frequently bought Koongiâs clothes, and every time I went in, the staff greeted me with a bright smile.
âOh, youâre here? It seems like a long time ago. Isnât it been 6 months?
âYes, I went to get a new ultrasound picture yesterday.â
It was annoying when they wanted to see it, but I wanted to show them at the same time, so when I mentioned it, the staff said they wanted to see it as well.
I felt much better after speaking with the friendly staff, so I purchased more than usual. All household items were already available up to the age of five, but I just bought them all. It was said that every time I swipe the card, the receipt was being sent to Choi Sung-hoonâs phone, but I swiped even more for his enjoyment.
I used to keep it in the trunk of my car, but I decided to deliver it today because I purchased a desk for Koongâs second year of elementary school. When I finished all of the calculations and exited the store, I noticed a shelf in front of my eyes.
To be more specific, I looked at the palm-sized baby shoes that were displayed on the shelf.
A picture of a baby bear was drawn on the blue stripes.
The mustached gangster-like brother came up to me, who stopped in my position and looked at me.
âSeo-yu-nim, letâs go. You have been standing for too long.â
â⌠Yes, Iâll go. Letâs go.â
I barely took my eyes off the shoes.
I got into the car with my hands on my swollen stomach.
âPlease go to Choi Sung-hoonâs ssi company. We will meet and eat together.â
âYes, please fasten your seat belt.â
I fastened my seat belt on my round stomach and rubbed his calves.
My stomach swelled noticeably at six months, and my feet swelled and hurt immediately after standing for even a few minutes longer. I did a search and discovered that every other pregnant person was the same, but the quack doctor said I was on the weak side.
If the quack doctor hadnât mentioned it, I might still be able to have a happy married life with Choi Sung-hoonâŚ
What was the point of buying a condom if I wasnât going to use it.
As my dissatisfaction with desires grew, I went out every few days to buy a condom box, and Choi Sung-hoon simply kept the box I purchased on the bedside. We wouldnât even consider using it. When I asked him what type he prefers, he gave a consistent response. But he had no intention of using it.
I think I would forget how to have sex at this rate.
I told the driver to leave work early, and the only two people left in the parking lot were the gangster-like brother and me. With my seat tilted back, I fiddled with my phone. Choi Sung-hoon probably doesnât know I came here because I told the gangster-like brother not to tell him. It was 2:20 p.m., and Choi Sung-hoon still had an hour before he had to leave work.
Choi Sung-hoon would be on leave beginning next week. Originally, the Alpha side should have had four more weeks of maternity leave, but Choi Sung-hoon resigned and broke the rules, according to father.
I kept thinking about whether to send him a message or not, so I only went in and out of the message chat window with Choi Sung-hoon.
My profile picture was Koongâs ultrasound picture, and Choi Sung-hoonâs profile picture was our wedding picture.
I was very nervous at the time, as the wedding date approached day by day. Choi Sung-hoon would undoubtedly receive congratulations from a large number of guests, but no matter how much I gathered, there were fewer than ten with Won-jo, Ho-in, and former coworkers. My uncleâs family abruptly left because they were emigrating after I registered my marriage with Choi Sung-hoon, so there was no family on my side.
When Choi Sung-hoon asked if I knew that my face was getting darker as the date approached, I replied that I should look for a part-timer who works as a guest.
âBecause I donât have many friends, the seat on the Omega side will be empty. I donât have a family. I found out on the Internet that there is a specialized company.â
Then, Choi Sung-hoon told me not to worry about it. I had the expression of someone who had heard the earth was flat when I heard his response.
In fact, the guest seats were full. There were celebrities, as well as many people from politics and business who appeared on the news. Won-jo, Ho-in, and the people of Sojin company were gathered in a corner because the gangster-like brothers were lined up from the hotel entrance.
The grandfather of the owner of the house I lived in took the seat where my parents should have sat.
Grandpa was in tears throughout the ceremony.
I held back my tears throughout the ceremony, but Won-jo suddenly stood up to sing (only the host and Choi Sung-hoon knew) and I cried in the end because he embarrassed me with his toad-like voice. I sent the video to tease Won-jo, and I also posted it on social media to see if Won-jo liked it. That day, I discovered that my friend was tone-deaf.
âSeo-yu-nim, have you told the director yet?â
The mustached gangster-like brother woke me up from my thoughts. I groaned, wrapping my stomach, and got up.
âHe still has a long time at work. Choi Sung-hoonâs car is here, so heâll come if I wait.â
âI just got a call from Secretary Kim, and he says the director wonât be able to come because of a sudden appointment.â
âWhat appointment? Doesnât Choi Sung-hoon know that Iâm here?â
âItâs a meeting with the ââ groupâs childâŚâ
ââŚWait. Get out of the way.â
I saw two people passing by through the window behind the mustached gangster-like brother. I pushed him aside and stuck close to the window.
Choi Sung-hoon was walking alongside a slender beauty. Even when I awoke from a deep sleep and looked at it with my eyes open, it was Omega. The two boarded a previously seen company vehicle, with Choi Sung-hoon in the driverâs seat and Omega in the passenger seat.
My heart was throbbing again.
âSeo-yu-nim, that person has a fiance.â
âI didnât say anything. Choi Sung-hoon has a spouse.â
I turned my head. I turned off my phoneâs screen. Because I hadnât heard from him that he was late, I assumed heâd be able to wrap up his meeting with that beautiful Omega quickly and get home on time.
âI told the driver to go home. Iâm sorry, but please drive.â
âWhere should we go?â
I donât know where else I could go.
I replied in frustration to go home.