āEven if this is within the Shrine, the roads are dangerous at night. Why donāt you stay here for today?ā
Said the oblivious, insensitive, airhead Kami-sama, which I turned down as politely as I could before excusing myself. The sun had completely set as I headed towards the dorm with heavy feet.
āIn the endā¦ā
The night breeze that was too cool for summer blew on me, and I bit my lips while pondering.
A heavy sigh escaped me when I recalled the conversation we had inside that room.
āNothing was explained ā whether itās the reason for his transformation, or even that divine aura.ā
We did talk about a lot of things after that, but the only thing I managed to grasp was that āKami-sama himself doesnāt know whatās going on.ā
The filth was still within him, his memories still forgotten. He has that much divine aura, but he doesnāt even know what heās capable of.
āHe insisted that Adoracion-sama is just obligingly sincereā¦ But, is that really true? No matter what, isnāt he too oblivious about this? Oh, but I feel like Kami-sama was serious when he said that!ā
But! ā I shook my head.
If itās airhead Kami-sama, it does make sense that heās too clueless about himselfā¦ butā¦
The cold expression that he showed for just an instant flashed in my mind.
Unfathomable eyes, a smile totally devoid of feelings ā chills ran down my spine just by the memory of that.
At that time, that momentā¦
Kami-samaās appearance was too ā godly. He truly looked like a proper deity.
āHeās scarier than Adoracion-samaā¦. I wonder if he really doesnāt know anything about himself like he claims.ā
But if heās aware , then did Kami-sama deliberately put an airheaded act in front of me?
Maybe heās just pretending not to know anything, lying, glossing over it.
In truth, he already knows everything ā could it be that heās just deceiving me?
āNo.ā
I immediately shook my head in face of those thoughts.
Iām not even sure. Itās way absurd for a mere human like me to even think of deciphering a deityās lofty thoughts.
āHe seemed happyā¦ā
I didnāt want to think that Kami-samaās smile whenever our eyes met as he gazed on me is just a lie.
That soft, gentle smile oozing of joy thatās beyond words ā just thinking about it made my cheeks burn up.
āā Ack! No! Itās not burning up! Never!ā
I clapped my hands and hurriedly shooed those thoughts away in a fluster.
Iām currently contemplating serious matters, serious matters it is.
Ugh, what am I gonna do with myself, turning cold one moment then burning after right the next second?
āI-I might develop emotional instability at this rate!ā
Unsure whether I was getting goosebumps or blushing, I pressed my cheeks in an attempt to keep my expressions in check.
Iām sure Iām gonna melt down at this rate if I leave it as it is. That can never happen. Absolutely.
āArrghhhh!! Itās useless wracking my brains on my own!ā
I shouted and shook my head, trying to gloss over whatever I was feeling.
The number one solution for times like this is to talk it over with somebody else.
Butā¦
Thinking about the person I wanted to consult the most made me heave a deep sigh.
Lydianne ā sheās the one I wanted to talk to, but weāre in the middle of a fight. Currently ā
Nobody in the Shrine doesnāt know of the fact that Lydianne is best buddies with Amalda.
Tsk.
Hi everyone, Hanazakura here, thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Hungry for more? Great news! You can read 5 chapters in advance (from free chapter release) for as low as $3 at Patreon š