After the day we parted our ways, after drinking coffee together at Antris, I met Tobias Miller once more.
We sat on the terrace of a quiet restaurant and chatted while eating sandwiches. To say that I was the kind of person who could sit in front of an unfamiliar man and eat well. Itâs surprising.
When he finished eating, he said, âDid you know that the Royal Academy Gardens are great for strolling?â
Thatâs how we ended up walking side by side inside the academy fence. There were many times when I passed by on my way, but it was my first time visiting in person, so I felt new.
I unconsciously thought about Alan Leopold, who was once a student here. The nickname of the Academyâs top honour student followed him throughout his school days. It was last year that he quit because he was helping his fatherâs business, maybe.
There was a time when I dreamed of entering the academy just because Alan was in the academy. Itâs been a few years already, but seeing the beautiful building as beautiful as the palace directly and the fresh garden lined with evergreen trees made me envious of the students here again.
But I am a realistic person. I am well aware that I will never be admitted here. This is because my motherâs theory that a woman needs only enough education to marry a good man is so strong.
Of course, the tuition fees itself is not at a level that we can afford, anyways letâs stop thinking about
thisâŠ..
Through two meetings, I learned quite a lot about Tobias.
He is the son of a pastor who is in charge of a small parish and is currently attending the Royal Academy He said that he came to the capital city during the time for admission to the academy last year.
In other words, he was a pretty late student, but I thought it was worth it. Maybe it took a few years for him to make the decision to enter the academy. Itâs rare to find a person to be as cautious as Toby.
Oh, he is twenty-six years old. He was six years older than me, but he was so considerate that it was okay.
âIf you suddenly ask me why he is considerate, I can explain it like this. Iâve never felt that I couldnât communicate with Toby, who is neither my age nor my interests.
I just acted like usual, and it is self-evident that all of this was due to his consideration.
âOh my gosh, thatâs so good!â
When I talked about Toby, Viola always applauded and welcomed me. The reason why it feels strange is that the reaction of Viola is surprisingly the same as that of my mother.
âSo, so? So? Did you have feelings for him?â
ââŠ.. What are you talking about, weâve only met twice.â
When I answered while pretending to be calm, Viola hugged me.
âMy Melissa! Iâm so proud of you!â
âWhat are you talking aboutâŠ.â
âYouâre flustered, arenât you? What are you talking about? You forgot everything else, right?â
ââŠâŠ.â
âŠâŠIt wouldâve been right to be embarrassed. This situation itself doesnât matter when Iâm talking about being with a man.
âMel! Donât do that, tell me more about him.â
ââŠâŠ Thatâs all I said earlier. Heâs learning trade at the academy, his father is a pastor, and he has a caring personality.â
Viola became very excited.
âThe family must be quite relaxed, seeing that he went to the academy at a late age. Heâs perfect to be your groom.â
âNothing âŠâŠâ
Once again, I almost gave the same answer, but I quickly covered my mouth with my hands. Weâve only met twice, so what groom?
âHe must have a gentle personality because heâs the son of a pastor! It suits you perfectly!â
âWhen Iâm with him, I donât get nervous and I feel comfortableâŠâŠ Itâs fascinating.â
âOh my god!â
Despite my plain answer, Viola squealed as she bounced up and down. Because of the recoil, even my body, which I was sitting in bed with, shook wildly.
âViola! Be carefulâŠâŠ!â
âWhat about appearance? Handsome? Tall? Is his physique strong? What do you think?â
âAsk me one by oneâŠâŠ.â
I felt like my face was about to burst. I became shy for talking about someone for so long who isnât even my lover
âI think his physique and height are okayâŠ.. His face is normal. An innocent impression.â
âMel, youâre not saying heâs normal because youâre used to sir Alanâs face, are you? When I see him I hope heâs handsome.â
âItâs not like thatâŠâŠ.â
As I stretched my words, Viola blew me away with a playful look. Like someone whose only hobby is weaving Toby and me.
âSo, when are you going to meet next time?â
âI donât know yet. Since itâs exam season soon, I think weâll meet again soonâŠ..â
âAh! I canât wait!â
Why are youâŠ
âI have a feeling, Mel. On the third day you both will meet, something is bound to happen!â
Viola clasped her hands and her eyes lit up. Somehow I felt strange. I canât believe that meeting a man is such a hot topic.
ââŠâŠ. Making such a fuss. Even if we meet, thereâs nothing much. Just talk about this and thatâŠâŠâ
âWhat do you mean, nothing special? He has a strong crush on you, Melissa! Youâre pretending you donât know, right?
âIn addition, he isnât a bad guy either. However, in my opinion, that is not the case, right?â
It is not easy to deceive an old friendâs eyes.
âHeâs not badâŠâŠ.â
Tobias wasnât a bad person. Heâs a really good man.
Of course, there was no such thing as love at first sight, as I had with Alan. However, he said that he has a crush on me. Unbelievably.
I heard that you wrote a letter just because of my eyesâŠ.?â
ââŠ..No way. The elegant and modest appearance was beautiful, Miss Collins. As soon as / saw you, I fell in love with you.â
My heart beat uncontrollably thinking that I was like Alan to him. I wondered if this was really possible.
I have never known that even ordinary people like me can shine like stars in someoneâs eyes.
Of course, no one knows how long that personâs heart will last. Love is not as solid as you think.
Nevertheless, this feeling of being fully loved is quite addictive.
I felt a powerful force from his friendly eyes that even my long sense of inferiority died down. I feel like a part of me that I didnât even know is finally awakened. I feel like Iâm truly aliveâŠ..
I couldnât even imagine. That a stranger who I had known for less than a month would give me such great feelings.
âYour face is so red, Mel! Donât you really like Toby?â
ââŠNo, thatâs not it.â
âHow can you guarantee that? Youâve never been in a relationship.â
Cheeky Viola stretched my cheeks without hurting me, but there was nothing to refute.
âI think itâs possible enough. You were just shy and naive and didnât realize it.â
âWhen you see him next time, do whatever you want!â
âWhat do you mean, whatever I wantâŠ?â
When I blushed in embarrassment, Viola shrugged.
âYou are an adult. Who cares?â
I sometimes tearfully envy the pride and shamelessness of Viola. If I were Viola, I would have forgotten Alan a long time ago.
Tobias Miller is thoughtful and delicate. He also speaks with beautiful words. Is that all? He even gave me amazing feelings.
So I canât deny that I feel a human favor beyond gratitude to him.
However, I donât love Toby. Iâm sure of it. My face is burning and my heart is beating faster because of the overwhelming feelings he has made me feel, not because of him. (T/N: ugh this is a bit confusing ig(?) She means that she is feeling like this because of the feelings that Toby made her feel and not because of him, it doesnât makes sense because she is justifying herself in a nonsensical way, she doesnât want to admit she likes him, ig)
If I say this, Viola might run wildly, saying what kind of contradiction is that. But itâs so obvious. Tobias canât make my heart flutter.
Right. This is it.
âViola, I know.â
âWhat do you know? How do you feel about Miller?â
Sheâs reallyâŠ
ââŠâŠ. That person canât make me excited. So, I donât like that person.â
âMelissa.â
Viola laughed. I didnât know the meaning of the laugh, so I tilted my head.
âThink of it like a fruit. Then itâs easy.â
âWhat fruit?â
Viola patted my shoulders lightly.
âItâs just freshly formed and itâs still green, but if you think you want to eat it, thatâs weird.â
âBut itâs all formed, right? If you work hard while giving the sun and water, it will ripen red. You know what I mean, right?â
ââŠ..you mean that Iâm going to like him?â
âYes.â
Viola stretched and answered. There was no bandage anymore around the legs that stretched forward with her slim arms.
âNot all love falls at a single glance like lightning strikes. Many of them, often happen slowly, like a fruit ripening and a blooming flower.â
I somehow liked her words.
âWhen I see you now, I think you can grow this fruit well in the end, so Iâm saying this.â
âIs that possibleâŠ. I donât know.â
âYouâll find out if you watch it!â
Viola laughed. Adding with a pleasant voice.
âBy the way, isnât that person such a perfect guardian
angel?â
âGuardian Angel? It is true that he has a good influence on me, butâŠ.â
âHe hasnât appeared since then, did he? That stalker.â
âAh!â
Only then did I realize that I had completely forgotten about the stalking commotion.
Of course, the commotion may have been caused by Gregâs illusion, but it was true that I had never felt strange since that day.
âItâs faster to show a reliable man to such a gloomy
man.â
What did I say? Viola said with a proud voice,
But then we didnât know. That this terrible commotion is not over yet.
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It had been less than a week since I met Tobias again. Toby, as always, has set time and place with respectful correspondence.
After meeting this time, I would not be able to meet him for a while due to his exams. Perhaps because of that thought, I arrived at the Antris coffee shop much earlier than the appointed time. It was the first place where we met.
When I realized that waiting for Toby wasnât very boring, I finally thought that he and I could become lovers someday.
How long has it been? Toby ran to me, sitting in the terrace seat and enjoying the sun.
âMelissa!â
âTobyâŠâ
The fact that we decided to call each other by name belatedly made me blush.
âYou came early. I also came early.â
With a wistful smile, he sat down on the opposite of me.
âIs your friend already gone?â
ââŠ.. What do you mean friend?â
I couldnât understand what he was saying suddenly, so I vaguely asked back.
âThe person standing right behind youâŠâŠ Wasnât he an acquaintance of yours, Melissa?â
âWhatâŠâ
âI saw it from a distance. A tall man with long red hair. His face was covered by hair so I couldnât see him
well.â
âTobyâŠâ
Toby looked worried when I suddenly began to tremble.
âAre you okay? Your faceâŠâŠ.â
âLâŠâŠâ
I definitely didnât feel any signs, but howâŠâŠ.
âI feel like Iâm being stalked.â
Comments from Korean readers
She looks so beautiful just by looking at the picture. Isnât it just the female character who thinks like that?
This is a real romance thriller. There are times when Iâm scared, but Iâm totally into it. Even though itâs my second time watching it⊠The supporting actors are all vivid, and I like viola and Melissa. 5. Both of them are cute.
Red-haired Alan, the person who was at the cafesiblings, or himselfâŠ