Chapter 15

They’ve turned 16. Finally we enter the main story, when the BL game begins.

Soon enough, we had turned 16. Tomorrow would be the entrance ceremony for the Royal Academy. Yes, the start of the BL game.

In the BL game, ‘my’ position was the villainous noble son. ‘I’ would harass and bully its MC, Louie, in various ways. ‘I’ eventually even attempted to murder him. Following that, ‘I’ would be convicted by Alfred and the others and be sent to the labour camp.

On the other hand, the present me have no intention to be such a character, and neither would I want to be involved in the BL game itself.

So if I don’t want to get pulled into the BL game, I should just avoid enrolling in the academy. It was that simple. After all, the BL game centered on the academy.

For that, I gave all my efforts. I clearly announced that I don’t want to enroll in the academy, and I showed it with my attitude.

I was petulant about not taking the entrance exam, and I even ran away from ‘home’ by saying I just want to be a shut-in at South Lioz, where my grandparents were. I was immediately caught though.

However, it was compulsory for every son and daughter of any aristocrat to enroll in the Royal Academy. On top of that, I was told I should not make Al lose face by being a fiancé who has zero educational background.

I didn’t mind being ridiculed or jeered at, to them I would just respond with ‘Oh’, but I certainly could not implicate Al with it.

Just like during my engagement to Al, I once again felt the ‘compelling force’ of the BL game; I could not change the fact that I would enroll in the academy no matter how hard I tried. My poor struggles were all in vain.

“Fania, may I have some of your time?” With a light knock on the door, Al entered the room. I was sitting on the sofa in my room, lost in thought. Al then sat next to me and softly cuddled me.

This is my room, but more accurately, it’s a room provided to me in the Royal Palace. After I collapsed from the poison, I haven’t returned to the ducal residence at all.

To receive treatment, I stayed at the Inner Palace until my health recovered; and once I was back to full health, I mentioned about returning home. Yet, there was the engagement, and under the name of etiquette training, I was moved to the Main Palace together with Al as Al’s fiancé.

Inconceivable.

Just when would I be able to return to the ducal residence (read: my parents’ home1)? No one listened to my opinions at all. Well, if I could be spared from meeting that scumbag father, that might be for the best.

“You’re making such a face, what’s wrong? You still don’t want to go to the academy? What is it that makes you so troubled?”

“Al….”

The closer it was to the enrollment day, the more unstable I became, I knew that. I was aware how I fret like a kid about it. It was just that, the BL game thing was disturbing me to no end.

I leaned against Al who was hugging me. Since the poisoning incident, Al had been taking care of me without fail. Never once did he make a sour face as he faithfully served me. Four years had passed since then, but his caring attitude still went on.

Al believes that it was his fault that I was poisoned. And also his fault that I was at the brink of death, and my body was impaired. Therefore, he took great care of me, and treated me really gently.

‘I know. I perfectly know that all his attitude towards me is out of guilt. But I…..

“If you really dread the academy, you don’t have to go there everyday. You have a frail body, so it is better that way. It’s just that, if you don’t go there everyday, then I’ll be away from you…. Of course, you are prohibited from leaving the Royal Palace. If possible, I don’t even want you to leave this room.” Al said as he tightened his embrace on me.

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“No, I’ll properly go. Besides, my body is not weak. I’m sturdy, you see.”

After the poisoning, I was nothing but a frail and sick boy in Al’s head. He cherished me like I was some kind of a sheltered princess.

Al was under a misunderstanding here. Not even a year after I was poisoned, my body was back to full health. As for the matter of not being able to have children, only the sperms were lost, but the ‘junior me’ was hale and hearty. Even this morning, it had no problem at all to be fully erect with full energy.

I’m only scared of myself turning into that villain just like in the game. I don’t want to see Al’s eyes that always gently look at me like now, gradually turning cold. Nor do I want to see Al hugging the MC full of love. I’ll hate myself if I end up having a grudge out of jealousy towards the MC as he is being loved by Al.

Since I started to remember the BL game, I was determined to never be that villainous noble son. Nevertheless, if I happened to see the MC next to Al, I think I would inadvertently succumb to the ugly side.

—Unbeknownst to me, I had fallen in love with Al.

I’m scared to be released from Al’s arms. I’m scared that the love Al has been directing towards me to be gone.

Certainly I didn’t want to be convicted and sent to the labour camp, but even more than that, the idea of being coldly discarded by Al scared the hell out of me.

The BL game would begin tomorrow at the entrance ceremony. I really feared the compelling force of the BL game. Until now, I had tried various ways to change the story of the BL game. Even then, not a single thing has changed. I couldn’t change them.

I was so freaked out, I could barely stand it anymore.

I could do nothing but tremble in tears.