1ํ™”
โ€œ์•„๋ฒ„์ง€!โ€
โ€œFather!โ€
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๊ฐ„์ ˆํ•œ ์™ธ์นจ์€ ์ € ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ ๋์—์„œ ์ž์‹ ์„ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด๋Š” ๋‚จ์ž์—๊ฒŒ ๋‹ฟ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค.
Leslieโ€™s crying did not reach the man who looked at her at the end of the bridge.
โ€œ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ, ์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆโ€ฆโ€ฆ!โ€
โ€œMother, sister Eliโ€ฆ!โ€
์—ฐ์ด์–ด ๊ฐ€์กฑ์˜ ์ด๋ฆ„์„ ์ „๋ถ€ ๋ถˆ๋Ÿฌ ๋ณด์•˜์œผ๋‚˜, ๋ชจ๋‘๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๋ง์—†์ด ๋ฐ” ๋ผ๋ณด์•˜๋‹ค.
She called every family memberโ€™s name, but they only stared at her silently.
์ œ๋ฌผ์ด ๋˜์–ด ๋ถˆ๊ตฌ๋ฉ์ด๋กœ ๋Œ๋ ค๊ฐ€๊ณ ์žˆ๋Š” ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๊ทธ์ € ๋ค๋คํ•œ ๋ˆˆ์œผ๋กœ ์ง€์ผœ๋ณด๊ณ  ์žˆ์„ ๋ฟ, ์›€์ง์ผ ์ƒ๊ฐ์„ ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค.
They watched Leslie being dragged into a fire as a sacrifice with calm eyes, not thinking about moving.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ์‹œ์„ ์€ ์นผ๋‚ ์ด ๋˜์–ด ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ž‘์€ ๋ชธ์— ๋‚ ์•„์™€ ๊ฝ‚ํ˜”๋‹ค.
And those gazes became blades that pierced her small body.
์ ˆ๋ฒฝ๊ณผ ์ ˆ๋ฒฝ์„ ์ž‡๋Š” ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ ์ค‘๊ฐ„์—๋Š” ์ด์ƒํ•œ ์ •์ž๊ฐ€ ๋†“์—ฌ ์žˆ์—ˆ๊ณ , ๊ทธ์ •์ž ์•ˆ์—๋Š” ๊ฒ€์€ ๋ถˆ๊ฝƒ์ด ๋ฌด์‹œ๋ฌด์‹œํ•œ ๊ธฐ์„ธ๋กœ ํƒ€์˜ค๋ฅด๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
There was a strange pavilion in the middle of the bridge, and it contained fearsome dark flames burning with force.
๊ทธ ๋ถˆ๊ตฌ๋ฉ์ด๋กœ ํ•œ ๋ฐœ ํ•œ ๋ฐœ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋Œ๋ ค๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Leslie was being dragged into that fire pit step by step.
โ€œ์•„ํํ‘โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œAugโ€ฆโ€
๋‹ค๋ฆฌ ๋‚œ๊ฐ„์„ ์žก๊ณ  ๋ฒ„ํ…จ ๋ณด๋ ค ํ–ˆ์ง€ ๋งŒ, ์–‡์€ ๋‚œ๊ฐ„์€ ๊ทธ๋…€์˜ ๋ฒ„ํŒ€๋ชฉ์ด๋˜์–ด ์ฃผ์ง€ ๋ชปํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
She tried to hold on to the bridge railing, but the thin railing did not support her.
์• ๋‹น์ดˆ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์˜ฌํ•ด ์—ด๋‘ ์‚ด๋ฐ–์— ๋˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋˜ ๋ฐ๋‹ค๊ฐ€ ๋Š˜ ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ์— ๋งค๋ฅผ ๋งž์•„ ์™€์„œ, ์ œ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋ฒ„ํ‹ฐ๊ธฐ์—” ๋ฌด๋ฆฌ์˜€๋‹ค.
From the start, this year twelve-year-old Leslie always endured being beaten unfairly.
๊ฑฐ๊ธฐ๋‹ค โ€˜์˜ค๋Š˜โ€™์„ ์œ„ํ•ด ์˜ท์„ ์ž…์„๋•Œ ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์›Œ์•ผ ํ•œ๋‹ค๋ฉฐ ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ๊ฐ€ ๋ช‡๋‚  ๋ฉฐ์น ์„ ์•ฝ๊ฐ„์˜ ์ˆ˜ํ”„์™€ ๋ฌผ๋งŒ ๋จน์ธํƒ“์— ํ•˜์ธ์˜ ํž˜์— ์†์ˆ˜๋ฌด์ฑ…์œผ๋กœ ๋Œ๋ ค๊ฐ”๋‹ค.
On top of that, the mother told her she must be beautiful for โ€˜that dayโ€™ and so she was dressed, only fed with water and soup for many days, while handcuffed.
โ€˜์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์›Œ์•ผ ํ•ด. ์•Œ๊ฒ ๋‹ˆ? ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์›Œ ์•ผ ํ•œ๋‹ค๊ณ .โ€™
โ€˜Youโ€™ve got to be beautiful. Understand? Be beautiful.โ€™
๋Š์ž„์—†์ด ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์›Œ์•ผ ํ•œ๋‹ค๋Š” ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ๋ณด๋ฉฐ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ฌด์–ธ๊ฐ€ ์ „ํ™˜์ ์ด ์˜ค๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•„์ฐจ๋ ธ๋‹ค.
Watching her mother constantly beautifying her, Leslie realized that there was a turning point.
๋“œ๋””์–ด ๋‚˜๋ฅผ ์ข‹๊ฒŒ ๋ด ์ฃผ์‹œ๋Š” ๊ฑด ์•„๋‹๊นŒ? ๊ฐ€๋Šฅ์„ฑ์€ ์ ์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ, ๋‹ฌ์ฝคํ•œ ํฌ๋ง์„ ์ž‘๊ฒŒ ๊ธฐ๋Œ€ํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
Could it be that you finally look at me well? The possibility was small, but sweet hopes have small expectations.
๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ๋ฐ ๊ทธ ์˜ค๋Š˜์ด ์„ค๋งˆ ์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ์ œ๋ฌผ์ด ๋˜๋Š” ๋‚ ์ผ ์ค„์ด์•ผ.
But that day is the day when she would become a sacrifice for sister Eli.
โ€œ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆโ€ฆโ€ฆ. ์•„๋ฒ„์ง€โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œMotherโ€ฆ Fatherโ€ฆโ€
๋‹ค์‹œ ์™ธ์ณ ๋ณด์•˜์ง€๋งŒ, ์—ญ์‹œ๋‚˜ ๋Œ€๋‹ต์€ ๋“ค๋ ค์˜ค์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค. ๋˜๋ ˆ ์ด์   ์งœ์ฆ ์„ž์ธ ๋ˆˆ๊ธธ์ด ๋‚ ์•„์™€ ๊ฝ‚ํ˜”๋‹ค.
I tried to shout again, but I didnโ€™t get an answer. Flying by, in its announcement now seemingly irritated eyes.
โ€œโ€ฆโ€ฆ๋ญ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฑฐ๋žŒ.โ€
โ€œโ€ฆWhat are they doing?โ€
ํ™”๋ คํ•œ ๋ ˆ์ด์Šค๋กœ ์žฅ์‹๋œ ๋ถ€์ฑ„๋ฅผํŒ”๋ž‘์ด๋ฉฐ ์—˜๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์งœ์ฆ ์„ž์ธ ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ ๋กœ ํ•œ๋งˆ๋””๋ฅผ ๋‚ด๋ฑ‰์ž, ์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘ ์ด ํฐ ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋กœ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๋Œ๊ณ  ๊ฐ€๋Š” ํ•˜์ธ๋“ค์„ ๋…์ด‰ํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
As Eli had spoken out loud with a colorful lace-colored fan, Marquis Sperado also urged the servants to drag Leslie with a loud voice.
โ€œ์–ด์„œ ์ง‘์–ด๋„ฃ์–ด! ์ด๋Ÿฌ๋‹ค๊ฐ€ ํ•ด๊ฐ€ ์ง„๋‹ค๋ฉด ๋„ค ๋†ˆ์„ ์ € ๋ถˆ๊ตฌ๋ฉ์ด์— ์ง‘์–ด ๋„ฃ๊ฒ ๋‹ค!โ€
โ€œThrow her in already! If the sun sets before you finish this, I will shove you in the firepit as well!โ€
โ€œ์•„, ์•ˆ ๋ผ. ์ œ๋ฐœ, ์ œ๋ฐœ์š”โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œN- No. Please, pleaseโ€ฆโ€
์ต์ˆ™ํ•œ ์–ผ๊ตด์˜ ํ•˜์ธ์„ ์• ์ฒ˜๋กญ๊ฒŒ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด์•˜์ง€๋งŒ, ๋Œ์•„์˜ค๋Š” ๋Œ€๋‹ต์€ ๊ทธ๋…€๊ฐ€ ์›ํ•˜๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
She looked at the servantโ€™s familiar face pitifully, but the answer wasnโ€™t what she wanted.
โ€œํฌ์œฝ, ์ฃ„์†กํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ ์•„๊ฐ€ ์”จโ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œKeuk, Iโ€™m sorry. Miss Leslieโ€ฆโ€
์ฃ„์†กํ•˜๋‹ค๊ณ  ์—ฐ์‹  ๋งํ•˜๋ฉด์„œ๋„ ๋ชฉ์—๊ฑธ๋ฆฐ ์ค„์„ ์žก์•„๋‹น๊ธฐ๋Š” ํ•˜์ธ์˜ ๋ฌด์‹ํ•œ ํž˜์— ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ฐ˜ํ•ญํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Leslie could not resist the idiotic power of the servant who pulled the string caught in the neck, saying that he was sorry.
์ง€์ด์ต-.
However-
๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ์ˆ˜๋‹จ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ”๋‹ฅ์— ์†ํ†ฑ์„ ๋ฐ•์•„ ๋ณด์•˜์œผ๋‚˜ ๋Œ๋ฉ์ด์— ์†ํ†ฑ์ด ๋ฐ• ํž ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋งŒ๋ฌดํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
As a last resort, she tried to put my fingernails on the floor, but they did not fit in the stones.
๋˜๋ ˆ ๊ดด์ƒํ•œ ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋งŒ ์šธ๋ ค ํผ์ ธ, ๋‹ค ๋ฆฌ ๊ฑด๋„ˆํŽธ์— ์„œ ์žˆ๋˜ ์„ธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์˜ ๋ฏธ ๊ฐ„์— ์ฃผ๋ฆ„๋งŒ ๋งŒ๋“ค์–ด ๋ƒˆ๋‹ค.
Only a strange sound echoed, and only the wrinkles between the three people standing on the other side of the room were produced.
โ€œ์ˆœ์ˆœํžˆโ€ฆโ€ฆโ€ฆ ๋”ฐ๋ผ์˜ค์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค!โ€
โ€œCalmlyโ€ฆ Follow me!โ€
์‹ซ์–ด! ๋ถˆ๊ตฌ๋ฉ์ด๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ€๋“ ์ฐฌ ์ •์ž ์ž…๊ตฌ์— ๋„๋‹ฌํ•œ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ํž˜์„ ๋‚ด ํ•„์‚ฌ์ ์œผ๋กœ ๊ธฐ๋‘ฅ์„ ๋Œ์–ด์•ˆ์•˜๋‹ค.
Hate! Leslie, who reached the entrance to the pavilion filled with fire, with her last forces, she hugged the pillars for dear life.
โ€˜์ฃฝ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์ง€ ์•Š์•„!โ€™
โ€˜I donโ€™t want to die!โ€™
์‚ด๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด. ์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋งŒ์„ ์œ„ํ•œ ์‚ถ ์ด์—ˆ์–ด๋„, ์˜ค์ง ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์กด์žฌ ์ด์œ ๊ฐ€ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ์˜€์–ด๋„. ๊ทธ๋ž˜๋„.
I want to live. Even if I dedicated my whole life for sister Eli, even if sister was my only reason for existence. Still.
โ€œ์‚ด๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด์š”โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œI want to live โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
์šธ๋จน์ž„์€ ๊ฒฐ๊ตญ ๋ชฉ์„ ํƒ€๊ณ  ํ˜๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜์™”๊ณ  ๊ฐ„์ ˆํ•จ์€ ๋บจ์„ ํƒ€๊ณ  ํ˜๋Ÿฌ๋‚ด๋ ธ๋‹ค.
In the end, tears flowed down my neck and desperately stream down my cheeks.
โ€œ์ œ๋ฐœโ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œPleaseโ€ฆโ€
๊ฒฐ๊ตญ, ํ•˜์ธ์€ ๊ฑฐ์น ๊ฒŒ ์ •์ž ์•ˆ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ€์–ด ๋„ฃ๋˜ ์†์„ ๋ฉˆ์ถ”์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Eventually, the servant stopped his hand, which was pushing her roughly into the pavilion.
๊ฒจ์šฐ ์—ด๋‘ ์‚ด์ด ๋œ ์•„์ด๊ฐ€ ์‚ด๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด์„œ ํ•„์‚ฌ์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋งค๋‹ฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ชจ์Šต์—, ์ž๋ฆฌ์— ์žˆ๋˜ ๋Œ€๋‹ค์ˆ˜์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ๊ณ ๊ฐœ๋ฅผ ๋Œ๋ ธ์ง€๋งŒ, ํ›„์ž‘๊ณผ ํ›„์ž‘ ๋ถ€์ธ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์—˜๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ œ์™ธ์˜€๋‹ค.
The majority of the people in the place turned their heads to the desperate wish of life of a child who was only twelve years old, except for the Marquis, the madam, and Eli.
์˜คํžˆ๋ ค ๊ทธ ๋ชจ์Šต์€ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ํ™”๋ฅผ ๋‹ ์› ๋‹ค.
Rather, it aroused their anger.
โ€œ์ฏง, ์“ธ๋ชจ์—†๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๋“ค.โ€
โ€œTch, you useless fools.โ€
์˜†์— ์„œ ์žˆ๋˜ ๊ฒฝ๋น„์›์—๊ฒŒ์„œ ์ฐฝ์„ ๋นผ์•—์€ ์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘์€ ์„ฑํผ์„ฑํผ ๋‹ค๊ฐ€์™”๋‹ค.
After taking the spear from one of the guards standing beside him, he approached with big strides.
โ€œ์•„๋ฒ„์ง€โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€
โ€œFatherโ€ฆโ€
์ž์‹ ์„ ๊ฐ„์ ˆํžˆ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด๋Š” ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๋ณด๋ฉฐ ํ›„์ž‘์€ ๊ฑฐ์นจ์—†์ด ์ฐฝ์„ ๋†’๊ฒŒ ๋“ค์—ˆ๊ณ .
Leslie looked up to him earnestly, then-
ํฝ!
Fwak!
์ฐฝ๋์œผ๋กœ ์ œ ๋”ธ์„ ๋ถˆ๊ตฌ๋ฉ์ด ์†์œผ ๋กœ ๋ฐ€์–ด ๋„ฃ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
He pushed her daughter into the fire pit with the spear.
โ€œ๋„ค ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•ด ์ฃฝ๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ๋‹ค ๋„ˆ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ๊ธธ์ธ ๊ฒƒ๋„ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ณ ! ํ•œ์‹ฌํ•œ ๊ฒƒ, ์“ธ๋ชจ์—†๋Š” ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์œผ๋‹ˆ๋ผ๊ณ !โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t you know that you dying in the place of your sister is your destiny?! Pathetic thing, youโ€™re useless!โ€
ํ˜น์‹œ๋‚˜ ์ž์‹ ์„ ๋ฐ๋ฆฌ๋Ÿฌ ์˜ค๋Š” ๊ฑด ์•„๋‹๊นŒ. ํ˜น์‹œ๋‚˜, ํ˜น์‹œ๋‚˜ ํ•˜๊ณ  ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ ์žˆ๋˜ ๋ฏธ์•ฝํ•œ ํฌ๋ง์€ ๋“ฑ ๋’ค์—์„œ ๋Š๊ปด์ง€๋˜ ๊ณ ํ†ต๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์‚ฌ๋ผ์กŒ๋‹ค.
Just in case you havenโ€™t picked it up. The weak hope that I had, in any case, disappeared with the pain that I felt in the back of my back.
โ€œ๊บ„์•„์•…!โ€
โ€œKYAAA!โ€
๋งˆ์น˜ ๊ธฐ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๋“ฏ ์ž์‹ ์„ ์žก์•„๋„๋Š” ๋ถˆ๊ธธ์— ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋น„๋ช…์„ ๋‚ด์งˆ๋ €๋‹ค.
Leslie screamed in a flame that caught herself as if they were waiting for it.
์ด๋Œ€๋กœ ์ฃฝ๋‚˜?
Am I going to die like this?
์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ์ œ๋ฌผ์ด ๋ผ์„œ, ์ด ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์ฃฝ์–ด์„œ, ์˜์›ํžˆ ์ด ๋ถˆ๊ธธ ์†์— ์‚ด๊ฒŒ ๋˜๋Š” ๊ฑธ๊นŒ.
A sacrifice for sister Eli, will I die like this, to forever live in the fire?
โ€˜์‹ซ์–ด!โ€™
โ€˜No!โ€™
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ํž˜์„ ์งœ๋‚ด ๋„๋ง ๊ฐ€๋ ค๊ณ  ๋ชธ๋ถ€๋ฆผ์ณค์ง€๋งŒ, ์น˜๋ ์น˜๋ ํ•œ ์˜ท์— ๋ถ™์€ ๋ถˆ๊ธธ์€ ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๋†”์ฃผ์ง€ ์•Š ์•˜๋‹ค.
Leslie tried to squeeze out her last strength, but the flames on her clumsy clothes did not let her go.
๋ชธ์— ๊ฑธ๋ฆฐ ์ˆ˜๋งŽ์€ ๋ฆฌ๋ณธ์€ ์ˆœ์‹๊ฐ„ ์— ๋ถˆ๊ธธ์„ ๋จธ๊ธˆ๊ณ  ์„ธ์ฐจ๊ฒŒ ํƒ€์˜ฌ๋ž๋‹ค.
Numerous ribbons that hung in the body quickly burned in flames.
์ „์‹ ์— ๋ถˆ๊ธธ์ด ๋ชฐ๋ ค๋“ค๊ณ  ๋œจ๊ฑฐ์›€๊ณผ ๊ณ ํ†ต์— ์ •์‹ ์„ ๋†“์œผ๋ ค ํ•  ๋•Œ, ๊ฐ‘์ž ๊ธฐ ๊ท“๊ฐ€์— ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋“ค๋ ธ๋‹ค.
Suddenly I heard a voice in my ears as my whole body flashed and I was trying to put my mind to the heat and the pain.
ใ€Œ์–˜, ๋„ˆ๋ผ๋„ ๋„๋ง๊ฐ€.ใ€
ใ€ŒYou, run away.ใ€
๋ญ์ง€, ์ด๊ฑด ๋ฌด์Šจ ์†Œ๋ฆฌ์ง€? ์ƒ๊ฐ์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ธฐ๋„ ์ „์— ๋ถˆ ์†์—์„œ ๋‚˜ํƒ€๋‚œ ์ž‘ ์€ ์†๋“ค์ด ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๋– ๋ฐ€์—ˆ๋‹ค.
What is this sound? Even before thinking, the small hands in the fire pushed her.
์‚๊ฑฑ.
Creak.
๋ชธ๋ถ€๋ฆผ์น˜๋Š” ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋ฏธ์•ฝํ•œ ํž˜๊ณผ๋ถˆ ์†์— ๋“ค์–ด์˜จ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ€์–ด๋‚ด๋Š” ๊ทธ ํž˜์—, ์ •์ž๋ฅผ ๊ฐ์‹ธ๊ณ  ์žˆ๋˜ ๊ฑฐ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์œ ๋ฆฌ์ฐฝ ํ•˜๋‚˜๊ฐ€ ๋’คํ‹€๋ฆฌ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
A gigantic power pushed Leslie into the fire and the huge glass window covering the pavilion started to twist.
์•…์ทจ๋ฏธ์ ์œผ๋กœ ์ œ๋ฌผ์ด ์ฃฝ๋Š” ๋ชจ์Šต์„ ๋๊นŒ์ง€ ์ง€์ผœ๋ณด๋ ค๊ณ  ์„ค์น˜๋œ ๊ฑฐ๋Œ€ ์œ ๋ฆฌ์ฐฝ์€ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋ณด๋‹ค ์†์‰ฝ๊ฒŒ ํ‹ˆ์„ ๋ฒŒ๋ ค ์ฃผ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Watching the sacrifice dying, the giant window cracked open easier than I thought.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ํ‹ˆ์œผ๋กœ ๋งˆ๋ฅธ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋ชธ์ด ๋น ์ ธ๋‚˜๊ฐ”๋‹ค. ๋ฉฐ์น ๊ฐ„ ์ˆ˜ํ”„์™€ ๊ฐ์ž ํ•œ ์•Œ๋งŒ ๋จน์—ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์ด ์šฉ์ผ€๋„ ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ์‚ด๋ ธ๋‹ค.
Then, through the crack, Leslieโ€™s body slipped away. For a few days, she had only eaten potato soup, enough to keep her alive.
โ€œ์•ˆ ๋ผ!โ€
โ€œNo!โ€
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰์„ ์ง€์ผœ๋ณด๋ ค๋˜ ๊ฐ€์กฑ๋“ค์€ ๋น„๋ช…์„ ๋‚ด์งˆ๋ €๋‹ค.
The family who tried to watch Leslieโ€™s end screamed.
๊ทธ ๋น„๋ช…์€ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ๋ง‰๋‚ด๋”ธ์„ ์œ„ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ โ€˜์“ธ๋ชจ ์žˆ๋Š” ์ œ๋ฌผโ€™์ด ๊ทธ ์“ธ๋ชจ๋ฅผ ๋‹ค ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๊ณ  ์‚ฌ๋ผ์ง€๋Š” ์•ˆ ํƒ€๊นŒ์›€๊ณผ ์ ˆ๋ฐ•ํ•จ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ๋น„๋ช…์ด์—ˆ๋‹ค.
The screams werenโ€™t for their youngest daughter, but for the desperation that the โ€˜usable sacrificeโ€™ vanished without its usefulness.
์ ˆ๋ฒฝ์„ ๊ฐ€๋“ ๋ฉ”์šฐ๋Š” ๋น„๋ช…์„ ๋“ค์œผ ๋ฉฐ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ณ ํ†ต ์†์—์„œ๋„ ์ €์ ˆ๋กœ ์›ƒ์Œ์ด ํ„ฐ์กŒ๋‹ค. ๊ทธ๋™์•ˆ ์ž์‹ ์ด ์–ด๋–ค ์‚ถ์„ ์‚ด์•˜๋”๋ผ?
Listening to the scream that filled the cliff, Leslie laughed spontaneously in pain. What kind of life did I live in the meantime?
์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ์‚ถ, ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์ณ ์ค„์‚ถ์œผ๋กœ ์ฒ ์ €ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ์‚ด์•„์˜ค์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋˜๊ฐ€.
A life dedicated to my sister, I did not live my life thoroughly to support my sister.
ํ›„์ž‘์€ ์–ธ์ œ๋‚˜ ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ์“ฐ๋ ˆ๊ธฐ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์ทจ๊ธ‰ํ–ˆ๋‹ค. ์ด์œ ์กฐ์ฐจ ์•Œ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์—†์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Marquis has always treated her like a piece of trash. Couldnโ€™t know why.
โ€˜๋„ค ์–ธ๋‹ˆ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ง๋Œ€๊พธ๋ฅผ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค์ง€. ์“ธ ๋ชจ์—†๋Š” ๊ฒƒ. ์˜ค๋Š˜ ๋ฐฅ์€ ์—†๋‹ค. ๋„ค ๋ฐฉ ์—์„œ ๋‚˜์˜ฌ ์ƒ๊ฐ ๋งˆ๋ผ.โ€™
โ€˜I heard you talked back to your sister. You are useless. There will be no food for you today. And donโ€™t even think about leaving your room.โ€™
์–ธ์ œ๋‚˜ ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๋ณผ ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค ์ง€๋‚œ ์ผ์„ ๊บผ๋‚ด๋Š” ํ†ต์— ์ผ์ฃผ์ผ์— 3์ผ์€ ์‹์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ๊ฑธ๋Ÿฌ์•ผ ํ–ˆ๋˜ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜€๋‹ค. ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๊ดด๋กญํžˆ๋Š” ๊ฑด ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ ์—ญ์‹œ๋งˆ์ฐฌ๊ฐ€์ง€์˜€๋‹ค.
It was Leslie who had to eat three days a week to get her work done every time she saw her. And it was the same with her mother who harassed her.
๋งค์ผ ๋ฐค ์ฐพ์•„์™€ ๊ทธ๋…€์˜ ์ž์กด๊ฐ์„ ๊ธ์–ด๋จน์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Every night she came to visit and scratched her self-esteem.
โ€˜๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ, ๊ฐ€์ •๊ต์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ•˜๊ธธ ์ด๋ฒˆ ์งˆ๋ฌธ์— ์ œ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋‹ต์„ ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ–ˆ๋‹ค์ง€?โ€™
โ€˜Leslie, the tutor said you couldnโ€™t properly answer the question?โ€™
โ€˜์•„์ง ๊ทธ ๋ถ€๋ถ„์€ ๋ฐฐ์šด ๊ณณ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ ์„œ์š”โ€ฆโ€ฆ.โ€™
โ€˜Itโ€™s because I havenโ€™t learned it yetโ€ฆโ€™
โ€˜๋ง๋Œ€๋‹ต, ๋ง๋Œ€๋‹ตํ•˜์ง€ ๋งˆ! ๋„ค๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ ๋‚˜๋งˆ ๋„ค๊ฐ€ ์“ธ๋ชจ ์žˆ๋Š” ๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด ๊ณต๋ถ€์ธ ๋ฐ! ์ด๋Ÿฐ ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๋„ ํ•ด์„œ ๋„ค ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ› ์ณ ์ค˜์•ผ์ง€! ๊ทธ๋Ÿด ์ƒ๊ฐ์€ ์•ˆ ํ•˜๊ณ  ์ œ ๋†€๊ธฐ๋งŒ ๋ฐ”๋น ์„œ!โ€™
โ€˜Answer, donโ€™t talk back to me! The only useful part about you is studying! You should at least be able to do these measly things to support your sister!โ€
๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋ฉด์„œ ๋ถ€์ฑ„๊ฐ€ ๋ถ€๋Ÿฌ์งˆ ๋•Œ๊นŒ์ง€ ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๋•Œ๋ฆฐ ์ ๋„ ๋งŽ์•˜๋‹ค.
And many occasions, they hit her until she broke.
๊ฑฐ๊ธฐ๋‹ค ์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋Š” ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์ง‘์•ˆ์˜ ๋ถ„์œ„๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋น ๋ฅด๊ฒŒ ํŒŒ์•…ํ•˜๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋…€๋ฅผ ๊ดด๋กญํ˜”๋‹ค.
In addition, sister Eli quickly grasped the atmosphere of the house and tormented her.
์—˜๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์–ด์ฉŒ๋‹ค ๋„˜์–ด์ ธ๋„, ์Œ์‹์„ ๋จน๋‹ค ํ˜€๋ฅผ ๊นจ๋ฌผ์–ด๋„, ์ˆ˜๋ฅผ ๋†“๋‹ค ๋ฐ” ๋Š˜์— ์ฐ”๋ ค๋„, ์†Œํ’์„ ๊ฐ€๊ธฐ๋กœ ํ•œ ๋‚  ์— ๋น„๊ฐ€ ์™€๋„ ๊ทธ๊ฑด ๋ชจ๋‘ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ํƒ“์ด ๋˜์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Whether Eli had fallen, whether she had bitten her tongue while eating, whether her embroidery gets stuck, or it rains when she decided to go on a picnic, it was all Leslieโ€™s fault.
ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ์€ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ํ•ด์„ํ•œ ์‹ ์–ด๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ๋ชจ์ž„์— ์ฐธ์—ฌํ–ˆ๋˜ ์—˜๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ฐจ๊ฐ€์šด ๋ˆˆ๋น›์œผ๋กœ ๋Œ์•„์™”์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Once, Leslie translated Godโ€™s words in a meeting in which Eli participated, and returned cold eyes.
์—˜๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ž˜๋ชป ๋‹ตํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ, ๊ทธ ๊ฑด ๋ชจ์กฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ž˜๋ชป์ด ๋˜์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Eli was wrong, but it was Leslieโ€™s fault.
โ€˜์ผ๋ถ€๋Ÿฌ ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค ์•ž์—์„œ ์ฐฝํ”ผ๋ฅผ ๋‹นํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๋ ค๊ณ  ์‹ ์–ด๋ฅผ ์—‰ํ„ฐ ๋ฆฌ๋กœ ํ•ด์„ํ•ด์„œ ๋‚˜์—๊ฒŒ ์ค€ ๊ฑฐ์ง€.โ€™
โ€˜You deliberately mistranslated godโ€™s words to embarrass me in front of all those people.โ€™
โ€˜์•„, ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”. ์–ธ๋‹ˆ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”. ์‹ค ์ˆ˜์˜€์–ด์š”. ์ •๋ง์ด์—์š”.โ€™
โ€˜N- No. Sister, youโ€™re wrong. I was a mistake. I swear.โ€™
์ œ ์‹ค์ˆ˜๋Š” ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ, ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ณ ๊ฐœ๋ฅผ ์ˆ™์˜€๋‹ค. ์—ฌ๊ธฐ์„œ ๋ฐ˜ํ•ญํ•œ๋‹ค๋ฉด ๋” ํฐ ๋ฒŒ์„ ๋ฐ›์„ ๊ฒŒ ๋ป”ํ–ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ.
It wasnโ€™t her fault, but Leslie bowed her head. If she rebelled here, sheโ€™d get a bigger punishment.
โ€˜์‹ค์ˆ˜์ด๋“  ์•„๋‹ˆ๋“  ์ค‘์š”ํ•œ ๊ฑด ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ž€๋‹ค, ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ. ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ์ฐฝํ”ผ๋ฅผ ๋‹นํ–ˆ ๊ณ , ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ๋งŒ์œผ๋กœ๋„ ๋„ˆ๋Š” ๋ฒŒ์„ ๋ฐ›์„ ์ด์œ ๊ฐ€ ์ถฉ๋ถ„ํ•ด. ๋„ค ๊ฐ€์น˜๋ฅผ ๋‹ค ํ•˜์ง€๋ชปํ–ˆ์ž–๋‹ˆ? ๋„ˆ๋Š” ๋‚˜๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด๋‹ˆ๊นŒ.โ€™
โ€˜Itโ€™s not about mistakes, Leslie. I have still been embarrassed, and that alone has enough reason to punish you. You didnโ€™t use yourself to the fullest? You are here for me.โ€™
๋ถ€๋ชจ๋‹˜์˜ ๋งํˆฌ๋ฅผ ๊ทธ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋”ฐ๋ผ ํ•˜ ๋ฉฐ ๋จธ๋ฆฌ์นด๋ฝ์„ ์žก๊ณ  ๋งˆ๊ตฌ์žก์ด๋กœ ํ” ๋“œ๋Š” ํƒ“์— ๋ญ‰ํ……์ด๋กœ ๋จธ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋ฝ‘ํ˜”๊ณ , ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋จธ๋ฆฌ ํ•œ์ชฝ์ด ๋น„์–ด ๋ฒ„๋ ธ์ง€ ๋งŒ ์–ต์„ผ ์†์•„๊ท€๋Š” ๋–จ์–ด์งˆ ์ƒ๊ฐ์„ ์•ˆ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
As she followed her parentsโ€™ tone and grabbed her hair and shook her head, her head was dumped by a bunch of balls, and Leslie had one of her heads empty, but the bouncy hands did not think to fall.
์ž˜๋ชปํ–ˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ˆ˜์—†์ด ๋นŒ๊ณ  ๋นŒ์–ด์„œ ์—˜๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋งˆ์Œ์ด ์กฐ๊ธˆ์ด๋‚˜๋งˆ ๋‚˜์•„์ ธ์•ผ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์กฐ๊ธˆ ์‰ด ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ํ•œ์—†์ด ์ž‘๊ณ  ๋‚ก์€ ๋‹ค๋ฝ๋ฐฉ์—์„œ๋ผ๋„.
After apologizing for the numerous mistakes, Eliโ€™s heart needed to get better, and Leslie could rest a bit. Even in a tiny, old attic.
๋ถ„ํ’€์ด๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ์•„์ด, ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ ์˜€๋‹ค. ์–ด๋Š ์ˆœ๊ฐ„ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ์ œ๋ฌผ์ด ๋ผ ๋ฒ„๋ฆฐ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์ง€๋งŒ.
Taking it out on the child, thatโ€™s Leslie. Which was also a sacrifice for her sister, the same as trash.
โ€˜๋ฐ”๋ณด ๊ฐ™์•˜์–ด.โ€™
โ€˜I was naive.โ€™
ํฌ๋ง์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฑฐ, ๊ฐ€์ง€์ง€ ๋ง๊ฑธ. ๊ทธ๋žฌ๋‹ค๋ฉด ๋‚œ ์ฃฝ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์„ ํ…๋ฐ.
I shouldnโ€™t have hoped. I want to live.
๊ณง ๋•…์— ๋–จ์–ด์ ธ ์ฃฝ์„ ํ…๋ฐ๋„ ํ–‰๋ณต ํ–ˆ๋˜ ์ˆœ๊ฐ„์€ ๋– ์˜ค๋ฅด์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค.
Even though I would soon fall into the ground and die, my happiest moments didnโ€™t come to mind.
์˜ค์ง ์žผ๊ณผ ๋ฒ„ํ„ฐ๋ฅผ ๋“ฌ๋ฟ ๋ฐ”๋ฅธ ๋นต์„ ์ฒ˜์Œ ๋จน์–ด ๋ณธ ๊ธฐ์–ต์ด ํ–‰๋ณตํ•œ ๊ธฐ์–ต์œผ ๋กœ ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ž๋‹ค. ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ์ „๋ถ€์˜€๋‹ค.
Only the first time I ate bread full of jam and butter came to my mind as a happy memory. That was all.
ํ•œ์—†์ด ๋ฐ‘์œผ๋กœ ๋–จ์–ด์ง€๋Š” ๊ฐ๊ฐ. ๋ˆˆ ๋ฌผ์ด ์†Ÿ๊ตฌ์ณ ์˜ฌ๋ผ๊ฐ€๋Š” ๋ชจ์Šต์„ ๋ณด๋ฉฐ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ˆˆ์„ ๊ฐ์•˜๋‹ค.
A falling sensation underneath. Leslie clutched her eyes as water started to accumulate in her eyes.
์‚ด๊ณ  ์‹ถ๋‹ค.
I want to live.
๊ทธ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋งŒ์ด ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋จธ๋ฆฟ์†์„์ง€๋ฐฐํ–ˆ๊ณ , ๊ทธ์— ์‘๋‹ตํ•˜๋“ฏ ๊ธฐ๋ฌ˜ํ•œ ์–ด ๋‘ ์ด ์ ˆ๋ฒฝ์˜ ๋ฐ‘์œผ๋กœ ํ•œ์—†์ด ๋–จ์–ด์ง€ ๋Š” ์ž‘์€ ๋ชธ์„ ๊ฐ์‹ธ ์•ˆ์•˜๋‹ค.
Only that thought dominated Leslieโ€™s head, and the odd darkness, as it responded to it, enveloped her tiny body falling under the cliff.
์ฟ ์›…!
Bang!
์ปค๋‹ค๋ž€ ๊ต‰์Œ๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋ชธ ์€ ์ ˆ๋ฒฝ ๋ฐ‘์— ์•ˆ์ฐฉํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
With a big roar, Leslieโ€™s body rested under the cliff.
***
โ€˜๋‚˜๋„.โ€™
โ€˜Me too.โ€™
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ™”๋ คํ•œ ๋น› ์•„๋ž˜์—์„œ ํ™˜ ํ•œ ์›ƒ์Œ์„ ์ง“๋Š” ์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด ์•˜๋‹ค.
Leslie looked at Eli, who was laughing brightly under the gleaming light.
์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘๊ฐ€์˜ ๋ณด๋ฌผ์ด๋ž€ ๋ง์ด ๊ฑธ๋งž์„ ์ •๋„๋กœ ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์šด ์–ธ๋‹ˆ๋Š” ํ™€๋กœ ๋น›๋‚ฌ๋‹ค.
Marquis Sperado treasured that dazzlingly beautiful sister that shone alone.
โ€˜๋‚˜๋„ ์ €๋ ‡๊ฒŒ.โ€™
โ€˜Iโ€™m like that too.โ€™
๋งˆ์Œ์„ ์ ˆ๋กœ ํ’์š”๋กญ๊ฒŒ ๋งŒ๋“ค์–ด ์ฃผ ๋Š” ๋ฐ€์ƒ‰ ๋จธ๋ฆฌ์นด๋ฝ๊ณผ ๊ท€ํ•œ ์—๋ฉ”๋ž„๋“œ ๋ฅผ ์„ธ๊ณตํ•ด ๋ฐ•์•„ ๋„ฃ์€ ๋“ฏ ๋ฐ˜์ง์ด๋Š” ๋ˆˆ๋™์ž, ํ–‡๋น›์„ ๋ณด์ง€ ์•Š์•„ ์ƒˆํ•˜์–—๊ณ  ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ต๊ฒŒ ๋น›๋‚˜๋Š” ํ”ผ๋ถ€.
Shiny eyes as embroidered precious emeralds, with silky hair that enriches the heart, and a white, beautifully radiant skin that does not see the sunlight.
๋งˆ์น˜ ๋„์ž๊ธฐ ์ธํ˜• ๊ฐ™์€ ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์›€ ์€, ๋ฐ์€ ๋ฏธ์†Œ๋Š” ์ œ1 ํ™ฉ์ž์˜ ๋งˆ์Œ์„ ๋Œ์–ด๋‚ด๊ธฐ ์ถฉ๋ถ„ํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
The beauty with a porcelain-like complexion, and a bright smile, it was enough to draw the heart of the Imperial prince.
์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘๊ณผ ํ›„์ž‘ ๋ถ€์ธ์€ ๊ทธ ๋Ÿฐ ์—˜๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์ง„์‹ฌ์œผ๋กœ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜๊ณ  ์•„๊ผˆ ์œผ๋ฉฐ, ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘์„ ์–‘๋ถ„ ์‚ผ์•„ ์—˜๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋”์šฑ ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ต๊ฒŒ ๋น›๋‚ฌ๋‹ค.
Marquis Sperado Marquis and Marchioness dearly loved and cared for Eli, and Eli shone more brilliantly as a part of their love.
์„ธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ ์‚ฌ์ด๋Š” ์ •๋ง ๋‹ค์ •ํ•œ ๊ฐ€์กฑ ๊ฐ™์•˜๋‹ค. ๋ถˆ์ˆœ๋ฌผ ํ•˜๋‚˜ ๋ผ์–ด๋“ค ์ž๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์—†์ด ์™„๋ฒฝํ•œ ๊ฐ€์กฑ.
The three people seemed like a really friendly family. A perfect family without a spot of impurities.
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋Š˜ ๊ทธ ๋ชจ์Šต์„ ๋จผ๋ฐœ์น˜์— ์„œ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค.
Leslie always had to look at them from a distance.
โ€˜๋‚˜๋„ ์ €๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘๋ฐ›๊ณ  ์‹ถ๋‹ค.โ€™
โ€˜I want to be loved that way too.โ€™
ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ํ—›๋œ ํฌ๋ง์ผ ๋ฟ์ธ ๊ฑธ, ๋ ˆ์Šฌ ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋„ˆ๋ฌด๋„ ์ž˜ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
But it was only a hopeless wish, Leslie knew it so well.
***
โ€œโ€ฆโ€ฆโ€
๋ˆˆ์„ ๋œจ๋‹ˆ ๋‚ฏ์ต์€ ์ฒœ์žฅ, ์ต์ˆ™ํ•œ ๋ฐฉ ์ด์—ˆ๋‹ค.
I saw a familiar room with a familiar ceiling when I opened my eyes.
์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘๊ฐ€์˜ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ข๊ณ  ๊ฐ€ ์žฅ ์ž‘์€ ๋‹ค๋ฝ๋ฐฉ์ธ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋ฐฉ.
Leslieโ€™s room was the narrowest and smallest attic room Maquis Sperado owned.
๊ณฐํŒก์ด์™€ ๋จผ์ง€์˜ ๋ƒ„์ƒˆ๊ฐ€ ํ›… ์ฝ”์— ๋‹ฟ์•˜๊ณ  ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ์ œ์ผ ๋จผ์ € ํ˜„์‹ค๊ฐ์„ ์ผ์œผ์ผœ ์ฃผ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
The smell of mold and dust reaches the nose, and it made a sense of reality come.
์‚ด์•˜๊ตฌ๋‚˜. ์‚ด์•„๋‚จ์•˜๊ตฌ๋‚˜.
You lived. You survived.
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ž๊พธ๋งŒ ํ๋ฅด๋Š” ๋ˆˆ๋ฌผ์— ๋ˆˆ์„ ๋‘์–ด ๋ฒˆ ๊นœ๋นก์˜€๋‹ค. ๋ฌด์„œ์šด ๊ฒฝ ํ—˜์ด์—ˆ๊ณ , ๋‹ค์‹  ๊ฒช๊ณ  ์‹ถ์ง„ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค.
Leslie repeatedly blinked her eyes and tears started flowing. It was a horrible experience, and she did not want to suffer it again.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ด๋ฒˆ ์ผ๋กœ ํ™•์‹ค ํžˆ ๊นจ๋‹ฌ์•˜๋‹ค.
And Leslie certainly realized this.
โ€˜๋‚˜๋Š” ์ •๋ง๋กœ ์ด ์ง‘์•ˆ์—์„œ ๊ฐ€์กฑ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด.โ€™
โ€˜No one really thought I was part of the family.โ€™
๋ˆˆ๋ฌผ์ด ์ ˆ๋กœ ํ˜๋Ÿฌ ๋ฒ ๊ฐœ๋ฅผ ์ ์…จ๊ณ , ๊ณง ์ด์–ด์„œ ๊ผญ๊ผญ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ž‘์€ ์ž…์ˆ ์„ ํ†ตํ•ด ํ˜๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜์™”๋‹ค.
Tears flowed and the pillow was wet, and soon the sound of the whirling flowed out through the small lips.
์ฐธ์œผ๋ ค๊ณ  ์• ์จ ๋ด๋„, ๋ง‰์œผ๋ ค๊ณ  ์ž… ์ˆ ์„ ๊นจ๋ฌผ์–ด ๋ด๋„ ํ˜๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜์˜ค๋Š” ์†Œ๋ฆฌ ์— ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ฒ ๊ฐœ์— ์–ผ๊ตด์„ ํŒŒ๋ฌป์—ˆ๋‹ค.
She tried to hold it in, but sounds came out while Leslie had her face buried in the pillow.
๊ทธ๋™์•ˆ ์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ๋…ธ๋ ฅํ–ˆ๋˜๊ฐ€. ์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘๊ฐ€์˜ ์ด๋ฆ„์— ๋จน์น ์„ ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š ๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด, ์•„๋ฒ„์ง€์™€ ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ์˜ ๊ธฐ๋Œ€์— ๋ถ€์‘ํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด, ์—˜๋ฆฌ ์–ธ๋‹ˆ์™€ ์กฐ๊ธˆ์ด ๋ผ๋„ ๊ฐ€๊นŒ์›Œ์ง€๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด ์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ๋ฐœ๋ฒ„ ๋‘ฅ ์ณค์—ˆ๋˜๊ฐ€.
How long has she been trying. In order not to ruin the Speradoโ€™s name, how much she stroked to get closer to Eli and to meet her father and motherโ€™s expectation.
๋ชจ๋“  ํฌ๋ง๊ณผ ํ’ˆ์–ด ์™”๋˜ ๊ธฐ๋Œ€๊ฐ€ ์ „๋ถ€ ์‚ฐ์‚ฐ์กฐ๊ฐ์ด ๋‚˜ ์‹ฌ์žฅ์— ๊ฝ‚ํžˆ๋Š” ๋“ฏ, ๊ฐ€์Šด์ด ๋„ˆ๋ฌด๋„ ์•„๋ ค ์™”๋‹ค.
All hope and all the expectations I have borne have been shattered, my heart was so sad.
์ œ๋ฌผ. ๋ถ„๋ช… ์ž์‹ ์„ ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ถˆ๋ €๋‹ค.
Sacrifice. Thatโ€™s what they called her.
๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ €๋„ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ฒŒ ์ œ ์†์„ ๋ฐ” ๋ผ๋ณด์•˜๋‹ค. ๋Œ๋กœ ๋งŒ๋“ค์–ด์ง„ ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ์— ์† ํ†ฑ์„ ๋ฐ•์•„ ๋„ฃ์–ด ๋ชจ๋“  ์†ํ†ฑ์ด ํ‰ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๊นจ์ ธ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
Lelie looked at her hands without understanding. She put her fingernails in a stone bridge so they were all broken.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ์†์œผ๋กœ ์กฐ์‹ฌ์Šค๋ ˆ ๋“ฑ์„ ์“ธ์ž ์šฑ์‹ ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
And there was a throbbing part in the back of her hand.
๊ฑฐ์šธ์„ ๋ณด์ง€ ์•Š์•„๋„ ์‹œํผ๋Ÿฐ ๋ฉ์ด ๋“ค์–ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
She could see that there was a bruise even if she did not look in the mirror.
์ŠคํŽ˜๋ผ๋„ ํ›„์ž‘์ด ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์ฐฝ๋์œผ ๋กœ ์ฐ”๋Ÿฌ ๋„ฃ์€ ๊ทธ ์ž๊ตญ์ด์—ˆ๋‹ค.
That was the mark Marquis Sperado put on her when he pushed her into the fire.
๊ทธ ๋ชจ๋“  ์ƒ์ฒ˜๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์•„ํ””๋“ค์ด ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ์—๊ฒŒ ์†์‚ญ์˜€๋‹ค.
Leslie whispered to all the pain and injury.
โ€˜๋„ˆ๋Š” ํ•„์š” ์—†๋Š” ์•„์ด์•ผ.โ€™ ๋ผ๊ณ .
โ€˜You are not a child.โ€™ she said.
๋ถ€์ •ํ•˜๊ณ  ์‹ถ์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ, ์ด ์ด์ƒ ๋ถ€์ • ํ•  ๊ณณ๋„ ํฌ๋ง์„ ๊ฐ€์งˆ ๊ตฌ์„๋„ ์—†์–ด ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ•œ์ฐธ์„ ๋ฒ ๊ฐœ์— ์–ผ๊ตด์„ ๋ฐ• ๊ณ  ๋ˆˆ๋ฌผ์„ ํ˜๋ ธ๋‹ค.
She wanted to deny it, but there was no way to do so, and the hopeless Leslie buried her face in the pillow and shed a tear.
์•ˆ์“ฐ๋Ÿฌ์šด ์šธ์Œ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋ถ„๋ช… ๋ฐฉ๋ฌธ์„ ํƒ€๊ณ  ํ˜๋Ÿฌ ๋‚˜๊ฐ”๋Š”๋ฐ๋„ ์•„๋ฌด๋„ ๊ทธ๋…€ ์˜ ๋ฐฉ์„ ์ฐพ์•„์˜ค์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค.
A sad cry came through the door, but nobody came to her room.
๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ํ•œ์ฐธ์„ ํ™€๋กœ ์šธ๊ณ , ์šธ๊ณ  ์šธ ๋‹ค๊ฐ€, ๋ˆˆ๋ฌผ์ด ๋งˆ๋ฅธ ํ›„์—์•ผ ๋ ˆ์Šฌ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ณ ๊ฐœ๋ฅผ ๋“ค์—ˆ๋‹ค.
She cried alone for a long time, crying and crying, and after the tears were shed dry, Leslie lifted her head.
์ด์ œ ์„ ํƒํ•  ์‹œ๊ฐ„์ด์—ˆ๋‹ค. ์—ฌ๊ธฐ์— ๋‚จ์•„ ์ œ๋ฌผ ์ทจ๊ธ‰ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์กฑ๋“ค๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์ด์ง€๋‚ผ ๊ฒƒ์ธ์ง€, ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ฉด ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ถ์„ ์‚ด ๊ฒƒ์ธ์ง€.
It was time to choose. Whether you want to stay here with your family or live a different life.
์ด๋ฏธ ๋‹ต์€ ๋‚˜์™€ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.
The answer was already there.