As I walked down the Imperial Palace corridor, my steps suddenly stopped.
Beyond the hallway window, the cries of summer bugs could be heard. A distant building shook in the haze.
âWhoa. Itâs hotâŠâ
I muttered while fanning my hands involuntarily. To hell with the nobleâs dignity. Iâm going to die from the heat.
âI donât even think about training on a day like this.â
âThatâs right. If you do it wrong, youâll faint from heatstroke.â
Agoth, who was following me, responded to my words. Agothâs face was also flushed red from the heat.
âHaa. I donât have a schedule today, so why is Commander Dalton callingâŠâ
When I was grumbling about Dalton.
âOh my gosh, Princess.â
A soft voice came from behind.
Ho, and when I looked back, it was the empress and many servants.
Next to her empress was Yulika Brande. When our eyes met, Yulika avoided my gaze with a face that expressed Ugh.
âHow have you been, Your Ladyship?â
âThank you, Iâm fine. Are you here to teach?â
âNo, Iâve come to see the Red Knights today.â
âThe Red Knights? Ah, they say the young duke Peresca is the deputy commander.â
The empress said with a bright smile.
With only a friendly tone and this casual conversation, there seemed to be no way of knowing that this woman and I were standing on a pole and aiming swords at each other.
âYoung Lady Brande, long time no see.â
Rather, Yulika, who had a disgusted look, was more comfortable to deal with.
I greeted Yulika with a smile. Yulika received my greeting with a light bow.
âHmm. It wouldnât be a good idea to talk about what happened last time now.â
On the day I had met Yulika at the bookstore, she had promised to take a closer look at the pattern engraved on the body of the monsters.
âIâd like to ask her a question, butâŠâ
Weâre not close friends, and since the last party, the air has gotten even sharper, so we canât even talk.
Iâm in trouble.
âPrincess, have you received a proposal from the crown prince?â
I was immersed in various thoughts about Yulika and suddenly came to my senses when the empress asked a random question.
âPardon?â
âI think everyone knows your relationship by now, but why is it still so quiet?â
The empress smiled and hurried my answer. Instead of answering, I looked at Yulika.
Yulika was biting her lip bloody, dropping her gaze. I could see her lips trembling.
âNot yetâŠâ
âWhy?â
â⊠What do you mean?â
âWhy is the crown prince hesitating to propose to the princess? Isnât it strange?â
The empressâs thin smile looked like a mask.
What is this woman trying to find out from me? It was not easy to read her thoughts because she was a woman whose emotions were not revealed on her face.
âYouâre so mean to talk about this with Yulika standing next to you.â
Yulika got mad that I sympathized with her, but look. How could I not sympathize?
âI donât know. I donât even want to know.â
âYou donât want to know?â
âI donât need to be nervous. He can do it when he feels like it or doesnât have to. The same goes for me, too. If I like it, I will accept it, otherwise, I will reject it.â
âReject it?â
The empressâs eyebrows went up. As if my answer was breathtaking.
âYou are going to reject a marriage from the imperial family? Princess, you are mistaken. This is politics, not love games.â
âI guess so. But Iâm in a love game.â
I smiled deliberately at the empress.
âAnd if Your Ladyship thinks this is politics, wouldnât it be fair to ask my father that question instead of me?â
â⊠I thought you were a smart person, but you are still too young.â
âThatâs right. Iâm still young.â
Oh, sheâs angry.
I thought as I watched the empressâs eye narrowed.
She was usually an empress whose expression would not collapse at all, but unexpectedly, she was choked by these words.
âIt is best to avoid it.â
There was nothing good about touching her for nothing.
I bowed slightly to the empress.
âI have something to do, so Iâll excuse myself.â
I quickly passed by the empress. Agoth, who was following me, bowed and hurriedly followed after me.
Behind my back, I could hear the faintly angry voice of the empress.
âI envy the spirit of young people. Enjoy that love game to the fullest.â
I stopped walking but didnât look back.
âYou shouldnât have any regrets about first love that wonât come true.â
It was not until I heard it that I looked back at the empress. The empress was looking at me with a smile on her face.
âAh, fortunately, âmy first love that wonât come trueâ has already passed.â
Yulikaâs eyes widened.
The empress also frowned.
Heh, think about those words to your heartâs content, you fools.
I walked out of the hall, leaving them to think about whatever they were imagining.
***
As I was sitting in Daltonâs room, drinking cold tea, the door suddenly swung open, and Caesar came in.
He was out of breath, sweating, his face burning redâŠ
He approached me with a thud and asked me like a threat.
âWho is it?â
âWhat are you talking about out of the blue?â
âHelenaâs first love.â
âHeeeh?â
No, how did he already know what I was talking about with the empress just a few minutes ago?!
âNot me? Is it not me?â
âWhat kind of self-consciousness is that?â
âIs this your first time? You said I was the first! Did you deceive me? Were you kidding me? Did you make fun of me?â
âHey, stop making weird assumptions!â
Even if I just stood still, I might die from the heat, but now my face grew even hotter because of Caesarâs choice of words.
You bastard, are you doing this on purpose?
âTell me out loud! Whoâs your first love?â
Caesar was desperate.
What is this? How can this child be so desperate?
âBrother Leonard.â
âWho the hellâ What?â
âMy first love. My brother, Leonard.â
âNoâ Why?â
Caesar asked back with trembling lips as if the unexpected answer broke him.
I folded my fingers tightly and explained kindly.
âWhy not? Nice, smart, hard-working, handsome, good family. Is there any reason I canât like him?â
I loved Leonard so much when we were children. Even now, I still thought my brother was the best in the world.
âIf he werenât my biological brother, I would have done something about it.â
âWhat would you have done?â
âWell, many things.â
âDo that to me! To me!â
âHonestly, compared to Caesar, isnât my brother much better? Mm?â
Caesar grabbed me by the shoulder with a flustered face, shook me, and cried in pleading.
âHelena and Leonard are family. You can never be loversâŠ!â
[T/N: Caesar was speaking in formal form]
Mm, he must be very flustered, seeing that heâs using all the honorifics. By the way, I think Iâm going to get motion sickness, so youâd best stop shaking me.
Then the savior appeared.
âWhoaa, was Helenaâs first love me?â
Leonard entered the room with a natural, innocent smile. As expected of my older brother. You know the timing.
âAh, Brother.â
I got up and ran to Leonard. Then I hugged him.
âCaesar. Iâm going to confess now, but we arenât real siblings.â
âHa! What a lame jokeâŠ!â
Caesar raised one corner of his mouth and smiled sarcastically.
But when he saw Leonard hugging my waist, his expression cooled.
âYour Highness, Iâm sorry to deceive you. In fact, I had already promised to take responsibility for Helena when I was a child.
Leonard said naturally.
Well, thatâs not a lie. He indeed promised to take responsibility for me until I became an old lady.
Caesar began to sweat at Leonardâs words.
Even if he couldnât trust my words, he was worried about Leonardâs words.
Actually, I was a little surprised too. The angelic Leonard would play along with my mischievous jokes.
âH-H-How⊠How could you do this to meâŠ!â
Wah, this is a big problem.
I definitely like Caesar.
But why is it so much fun to watch Caesar struggling?
Then the door opened, and Dalton, the owner of this room, finally appeared.
Dalton, who had entered the room, stopped at the sight of this strange situation.
âUh⊠What is this situation? Itâs like a scene from a crazy novel that shouldnât be interrupted.â
Dalton scratched his neck, appraising the fiery atmosphere.
Your eyes are quite accurate, Sir Dalton. Thinking like that, I finally burst out laughing.
***
Dalton, Leonard, and I were seated around the room.
Caesar, who did not need to be involved in todayâs conversation, also took a place. And the seat next to me, above all. Itâs hot, so stay away from me.
âWhat can I do for you today?â
I asked Dalton first.
âOh, itâs not a big deal. Actually, Iâm going to a training camp.â
âA training camp?â
I frowned and tilted my head. What does that have to do with me?
âWell. The imperial family owns a villa near the seashore. The knights take turns training there. We are the next batch.â
âI see. Therefore?â
âItâs a coastal city, and the beach is just around the corner. There is also a fairly large tourist town just a short distance away. The scenery is also very beautiful.â
âAha, I see. So what?â
âThere is no other vacation spot like this in the world, Instructor.â
Dalton continued to brag about the campsite. I donât know the point, and the conversation just goes round and round.
Eventually, I gave up talking to Dalton and turned to Leonard.
âItâs such a nice place, so what?â
âThe commander is asking you to come with him, Helena.â
âHeeeh?â
No, why would I?!
âDonât you want to go on a summer vacation, Instructor? Then letâs go together.â
âBut this is not going to be a vacation, is it?â
âAyyy, do you think Iâm going to ask you to teach? You just need to rest, play, and have fun.â
âNo, Iâm stuck in the house, and Iâm not coming out.â
âYou should enjoy your short life. Did you hide anything in the house?â
âBut itâs going to be annoyingâŠâ
Iâve seen the beach many times in my past life. Itâs not like I miss it, so why should I go see it again?
âNo, butââ
I shut my mouth and fell into thought.
I had decided to be more careful with the hearts of those around me. In that case, I have to avoid laziness in moderation and be more active.
âIâd better go. Well, butâ I mean, I can just go and play, but Iâm sure theyâll ask me to watch the trainees trainâŠâ
Hmmm, I pondered for a long time with a deep wrinkle between my forehead. It felt like a fierce battle between determination and desire within me.
âIs this something you have to think about so seriously?â
Dalton asked me with an expression of concern. Leonard, sitting next to him, let out a bitter smile.
âBut I think sheâs improved a lot, seeing that sheâs thinking about it, sir.â
âI guess thatâs true. Itâs something I couldnât have imagined before.â
âHuh? Was it that bad?â
Even Caesar nodded, and Dalton was genuinely surprised.
No, donât be so surprised. How embarrassing.
âFine. Letâs go together.â
In the end, I made a decision.
Then Leonard and Caesar were startled by my answer and jumped up from the sofa.
âWhat?! Are you serious?!â
They even asked the same question at the same time in harmony. Seriously, you guysâŠ
âHelena, youâre not forcing it, are you? You donât have to go if you donât like it.â
âDid Hamilton threaten you again? If so, you better speak up. Iâm going to beat him half to death.â
Caesar and Leonard scrambled to persuade me. It wasnât even funny.
Dalton, who watched the situation with interest, said with a grin.
âWhat kind of life have you been living to this point, instructor?â
âDonât ask. I donât know either.â
I covered my face with both hands and muttered.
My resolution had more obstacles to overcome than defeating a dragon and protecting the world. It was a summer day when I felt slightly sad at the thought.