Having made the mistake of carelessly falling asleep and being watched over lovingly (?) by His Highness as well as receiving the lukewarm gazes of the knights, I returned to the room that I shared with Cecil-kun.
There, I found Cecil-kun seated at the desk, running through some papers with his brush. Without entering Cecil-kunâs side, I called out to him. I didnât know if Cecil-kun had noticed that Iâd returned since he didnât give a response and simply remained silent, wrestling with his work
It was obvious even to the naked eye that he hated me.
In response to this method of rejection, ignoring my existence, I hardened my face and stood on the boundary line. Yet, Cecil-kun continued to ignore me, which felt a little like I was being snubbed.
ăCecil-kună
Again, he didnât respond when I called out to him. So, after making up my mind, I called him out on it.
ăI know that Cecil-kun considers me an eye-sore. I also know that you hate meă
Frankly, I felt that he was being unreasonable, disliking me to such an extent. Nevertheless, I have no doubt that he finds my mere existence unpleasant.
The movement of the brush, which Cecil-kun was using â as he continued to ignore me â stopped. So he had heard me even though he didnât respond back.
ăHowever, please properly talk to me when weâre working. I know you find me sickening, but I canât accept that you despise and ignore me when you donât even know my characteră
Caldina-san was on Cecil-kunâs side and not mine âŠ.. Or rather, she probably knows about Cecil-kunâs past and was, therefore, his ally. Cecil-kun being Cecil-kun, finds me detestable. That wonât change.
The fact that Iâd unconsciously hurt him was implicitly pointed out to me by Caldina-san. Vaguely, I understood the reason. To him, I was an intolerable woman.
After thinking and worrying about this, I came to a conclusion âŠ.. I will confront him directly. Itâs not like Iâm being timid. My excuse is that my emotional stability is due to my body and soul not being in harmony.
If he knows me well enough and still dislikes me, then Iâm resigned to the result. It would be useless to even struggle at that point.
However, Cecil-kun doesnât know anything about me. And even if he does, itâs just a surface level understanding. And arbitrarily hating, resenting, and treating me like an enemy â that felt unreasonable. It was too one-sided. I could not agree with it.
If Iâm to be hated, then he should at least know everything about me. If he still hates me after that, then Iâll be fine with it. However, I refuse to be hated when we havenât even discussed or come to a mutual understanding with one another.
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Slowly, Cecil-kun looked languidly in my direction. Faced his usual gaze, I stared directly at him.
ăYou donât know anything about me, please donât hate me when you arbitrarily decided to do so on your ownă
ăâŠ.. You donât know anything about me eitheră
ăI donât despise you. Weâre both at fault for not getting acquainted with each other. If we hate each other without even making the effort to understand one another, then weâll never be able to come to an agreementă
Truthfully, I rarely disliked people. With the exception of two people, that is.
ăIf Iâve hurt you, then I apologise. However, I wonât ever say I hate someone when I donât understand anything about them. Even if this is just my willfulness, I dislike being judged by my appearance. I donât know how or to what extent you despise me, but at the very least, please tell me the reason for ită
Asserting myself in a firm manner, Cecil-kun made an obvious grimace and clicked his tongue. Even being shown that particular childishness, I firmly stared at him without changing my attitude.
The look I received from Cecil-kun was bone chilling; when I watched him intently as he looked away before âŠ.. *Bang*, Cecil-kun knocked the desk and stood up. *Splash* Even as the ink bottle broke and the contents spilled out, Cecil-kun paid it no heed and glowered at me.
His mouth opened slightly. Then, biting on his lips vexingly, he pushed me aside from where I stood next to the boundary line and exited the room. Falling on my rear, I was also immature and let out a sigh.
ăâŠ.. It would be good if it was just like a kids squabbleă
I can say with certainty that Cecil-kun has a very mature way of thinking. Though his form of outbursts are childlike, overall, he was maturely considerate. I wonder if he has never felt inferior about his abilities compared to adults? âŠ.. Hence why, he probably hates me.
Itâll be good if he could properly talk to me tomorrow â I muttered to myself, burying my face into my knees.
*******
ăLiz-chan, what did you do to Cecil-kun?ă
The next day as I walked into the laboratory, Caldina-san called out to me in an anxious voice. Ah, when I woke up this morning, Cecil-kun seems to have properly returned to the room and was also awake. He even greeted me good morning, albeit still in an unreasonably bad mood, which was made apparent by the clicking of his tongue â it wasnât cute.
ăYesterday, I indirectly picked a fight with himă
ăâŠâŠ Hold onâă
ăHe can dislike me after he knows everything about meă
Because I knew Caldina-san would stick up for Cecil-kun, I went ahead and said it.
ăHowever, when I requested him to tell me what he disliked about me, he left. I can fix it if itâs within my capabilitiesă
ăItâs often said to the person himself. Ah well, Cecil-kun isnât the sort to just frankly speak his true feelings, ya know~? ă
ăI suppose. But itâs unreasonable to not even say the reason to me and hate me. How unpleasant. If all of this is just because of my abilities, then that repugnance leaves me with mixed feelingsă
Being resented just because a person has abilities would make the world an incredibly difficult place to live in. This seems common no matter where in the world one is. Well, I wouldnât know much about it, but I have been involved in an assassination attempt and kidnapping before. However, Father has been silencing these through various means.
Itâs not like Iâd wished to be born with these powers. I use them because I have it and there are people who find that disagreeable. Why am I being blamed for not concealing it? Despite understanding it this far, it worries me a little.
ăUntil we can amicably come to terms with each other, I will keep at it. I want to get along with himă
ăHaha~ In that case, good luck, Liz-chan~ă
Upon hearing that I wanted to get along with him, Caldina-san grinned and laughed, giving her support. Although Caldina-san was Cecil-kunâs ally, it seems that becoming a friend was alright by her. She must be worried about Cecil-kun being all alone.
Yosh, steeling myself to give it my best shot, I lightly fist pumped. Seeing that, Caldina-san grabbed and buried me within her arms as she rubbed her cheeks against mine. The fact that she seemed rather lonely was a completely different matter.