I stroke Miyagiâs hair, who is maturely in my arms.
The sweet smell of shampoo makes the hot room feel even hotter.
ăI think I got it right just now, too.ă
With a small voice, my blouse is pulled on. I loosen my arm and Miyagi looks up from my shoulder.
I knew Miyagi should have asked to see me during the winter holidays, but I didnât expect her to offer to teach me her studies in exchange for a kiss. Miyagi boringly tells me that I should teach her to study during winter break as well. That was about all I could think about.
ăYou didnât do it properly.ă
I moves my body slightly away and denies Miyagiâs words.
ăWhere?ă
ăIf you donât understand, shall I teach you?ă
I stroked her lips and pushes my thumb into her mouth just a little bit.
My fingertips brushed against her teeth, and Miyagi pressed my shoulder. I silently let go of my finger, and Miyagi, who seemed to have guessed what I meant, gave me a difficult look.
ăâŠThis is a condition of the exchange, right?ă
She told me to be sure.
I am the only one leaning towards Miyagi.
So I thought I should correct my inclination, but I was wrong. A balance that is too far out of whack is better off more out of whack than back in. If Miyagi leans the same way, or even more, balance will be irrelevant.
ăI know that.ă
I answered shortly and Miyagi let out a small breath before grabbing my arm. Her face slowly comes closer to mine. I kept eye contact with her and she glared at me as if to tell me to close my eyes.
I close my eyes because I donât want to offend her. Immediately something soft touched my lips and her hand gripped my arm.
After a short pause, Miyagiâs tongue enters my mouth with discretion and touches it a bit.
It was sweet.
I think itâs like the candy I just ate. But maybe Iâm imagining that the kiss is sweet, and Iâm the only one who feels that way. I didnât expect Miyagi to kiss me like this without complaint, and I didnât think the addition to the exchange would be acceptable, so my senses seem to have gone haywire.
I stretched my tongue out a bit.
It lightly hits that of Miyagi.
I would like to touch it more.
But nothing more happened.
Miyagiâs tongue is running away from me.
ăIs this fine?ă
Miyagi says without making eye contact.
I donât think itâs not good.
Miyagi doesnât kiss me in jest, and she doesnât like to kiss me like she does now, to the point of biting my tongue. With that in mind, I know that I should allow this much.
But I donât think I want it to end like this.
ăI donât know if thatâs enough now.ă
Today, I felt like I can be more selfish and still be listened to.
ăYou did exactly what I told you to do.ă
ăThen it means Iâm not doing it right.ă
This is an accusation and an intractable one.
Miyagi looks dissatisfied, but I think itâs natural.
ăThatâs just Sendai-sanâs standard, isnât it?ă
ăIf itâs an exchange, shouldnât you be held to my standards?ă
ăâŠâŠYou may be right, butâŠă
Normally, she would have complained that I was being a nuisance, or that I was being a latecomer, but todayâs Miyagi was very bearish.
I came to teach her how to study during the winter break.
I am unable to come on strong just to make such a trivial thing happen.
ăOkay then.ă
Sheâs not going to listen to me when I say no, so I cover her lips before Miyagi can say anything.
I put my hands around her waist and pull her closer to me. Her lips, which are usually tightly closed, are thinly open and I reach Miyagiâs tongue without any resistance. I was able to touch her easily without being bitten as I had been sometime ago.
The first kiss was enough of an exchange, but I was going to let her take advantage of me.
I catch the tongue that seems to have no place to stay and twirl it. This time, instead of escaping, Miyagi pushes my tongue back. Soft and resilient, it is still sweet. I pull back my tongue a little and Miyagi follows, her teeth on her tongue lighter than a bite of fudge.
Our lips that are touching each other are so hot that they seem to melt. I am dizzy, not knowing how to breathe.
I separated my lips and pushes Miyagi down.
Miyagiâs back is on the bed so easily that itâs a bit of a letdown.
When I brought her face close to mine, her open eyes closed and I kissed her deeply once more.
I guess the condition of a âproper kissâ is still in effect, because Miyagi responds when I extend my tongue to her. The tips of our tongues touch, then separate, and our breathing becomes a little raspy.
I unbuttoned Miyagiâs blazer and loosened her tie. She pressed hard on my shoulder and I pulled my face away. My eyes met Miyagiâs, who was trying to say something, but nothing was said. I unbuttoned her blouse and touched her sides, and she finally opened her mouth.
ăThis is not a kiss.ă
Miyagi says as she adjusts her breathing, which is almost disrupted, and grabs the hand that rests on her side.
ăMiyagi didnât give me a proper kiss, so I included this in the exchange.ă
ăDonât just decide for yourself.ă
With a low voice, the hand at her side was removed.
But now I can chant the magic words that only Miyagi can hear today.
ăYou want me to teach you how to study during winter break, right?ă
I whispered in Miyagiâs ear as she was trying to button up her blouse, and she stopped moving. This time, she strokes her side and doesnât grab my hand.
Todayâs only magic was very good.
ăââItâs not fair to put that out after.ă
ăEven Miyagi was postulated before this.ă
ăYes, but this is too much.ă
ăYouâre right. Iâm overdoing it.ă
Miyagiâs voice was not very flattering, but she didnât bite or kick, so she mustâve not hate me. If she really wanted it to stop, I would have already been bitten and kicked.
So, even if I know Iâm was overdoing it, she cannot stop.
ăIf Miyagi says she really doesnât want to do it, Iâll stop, just let me knowââ How far will you allow me to go today?ă
At summer vacation, she allowed me to go a little further.
So, what about today?
I slowly slide my hand on her side.
Miyagiâs body trembled a little as I stroked her ribs from below, as if counting them. As if to cover it up, a hand reached out and grabbed my shoulder. But I know that its power is weak and allows me to go on this way.
When I look at Miyagi, her cheeks are lightly stained.
I want to kiss her, but I canât because Iâm afraid that doing so would make Miyagi change her mind.
This is different from the summer when we touched each other as if we were floating in the heat.
With the impurities of exchange conditions mixed in, we are both looking for a compromise, instead of going forward on emotion alone as we did that day.
Though not consciously aware of it, we touch each other slowly, step by step, as if exploring.
I slid my fingertips over that silky, touchable skin.
I stop my hand a little below the breast and exhale.
Miyagiâs body moved slightly when I touched her breasts over her underwear.
But that was all it took for me to hear her say,ăStop.ă
Her heart is pounding loudly.
Only the palms of my hands feel burning hot.
Miyagi doesnât grab my hand.
So I unhook it and shift the underwear covering her breasts. Miyagiâs body stiffens as a little of the modest bulge is revealed.
I want to know what expression she has on her face now, but I canât look at her face because I feel like I would be stopped if I saw her face.
I push her bra up and immediately her breasts, which are not large but well-shaped, are revealed.
I have seen peopleâs breasts at hot springs and on school trips. It was natural, but I didnât think anything of it at the time. Today, it was different.
I want to touch Miyagiâs chest.
I strongly feel so.
Slowly move your hand closer to her chest.
I felt body heat on my fingertips.
ââI feel as if I am.
The reason I say it vaguely is because Miyagi pulled me to her and hugged me without even a moment to confirm the feeling, no, I didnât even know if I really touched her.
I lost my balance and had to put my hands on the bed to support myself instead of on her chest, and I couldnât move because Miyagiâs body was so tightly attached to me that there was no space left.
It is always hot in this room, and today I am taking off my blazer. I can feel Miyagiâs body heat and the touch of her body through my blouse, but even that thin cloth is disturbing me. Without clothes, I wish I could feel Miyagiâs body more.
I pecked at her side for direct contact, and something warm and raw touched my neck, and soon a hard object was thrusting against me.
ăOuch!ă
Needless to say, the thing on my neck is a tooth, and the pain is due to the bite. Perhaps, Miyagi is biting me without restraint. The evidence is a burning pain in my neck.
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ăMiyagi, hold on! If you chew too much, Iâll get marks.ă
After a floppy tap on the side, I finally get relief from the pain.
ăSendai-sanâs erotic fiend. Lewd, pervert.ă
ăWhat do you mean, by erotic fiend?ă
ăBecause Iâm right. I didnât say you could look at it, I didnât say you could touch it.ă
She clawed me hard in the back.
ăHey, it hurts!ă
ăSendai-san is wrong. I didnât allow you to do what youâre doing now.ă
ăButââă
I was about to say that she didnât resist, but then I stopped talking.
If I told her, Miyagi would be even angrier.
ăWhat?ă
ăItâs nothing, and I wonât do anything else, so let me go.ă
ăâŠReally?ă
ăReally. Absolutely not doing it.ă
When I assured her, the arm around my back loosened.
Freedom returns to my body and I left Miyagi a little.
My gaze naturally moves down, and my focus almost falls on the chest, but before I can see it clearly, it is interrupted by Miyagiâs hand.
ăDonât look. Close your eyes one more time.ă
Miyagi, covering my eyes, says in a miffed voice.
ăItâs closed.ă
I do as I am told and the hand covering my eyes comes off.
ăTurn your back.ă
If I open my eyes here, Iâm going to be kicked out of the room, so I raise myself up and turn around with my eyes closed.
I cannot see what Miyagi is doing.
But I can tell that she is probably getting dressed.
ăIs it okay already?ă
I waited three minutes before asking.
ăYou canât. Look away for the rest of your life.ă
She seems to be in a bad mood, and I can hear her voice. In addition, I am hit on the back with what seems to be a pillow.
ăYouâre not going to tell me that Iâm not doing enough after all this, are you? You promise me youâll keep your word.ă