No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I try, I can only look at her, who exists in a place that is never within my reach.
The outcome had been fixed from the beginning.
The character Kururi Kurumizawa cannot escape defeat.
There was nothing I could do for her.
āHahaha ⦠I, you know, wanted to be āspecialā more than anyone else.ā
With a resigned, powerless smile on her face, she looks up at the sky.
The darkened night sky was covered with thick clouds, and the moon could not be seen.
It was somewhat unnatural for her to stare at the night sky, which was not very beautifulā¦, as if she was holding back tears.
āAnd this hair color, isnāt it odd? I know pink is bizarre and I know it stands out. But you know, this color made me more āspecialā than the people around me. I wanted people around me to think that Kurumizawa Kururi was anything but ordinary.ā
What was said was the full story of Kururi Kurumizawaās character.
The reason for her existence was finally explained.
āI was a privileged person, if I do say so myself. I was born into a wealthy family, had good looks above average, and was gifted with outstanding talents ā¦, but despite being so blessed, Iām just one of the āothersā.ā
Her stats are excellent.
But she still referred to herself as āmediocreā.
āBecause nothing happened in my life. I entered my first year of high school without any exciting incidents, exciting encounters, or incredible events ⦠I hated being that way.ā
So she made an effort to be special, apparently.
āI changed schools because I had the desire to āchange somethingā⦠I changed my hair style, I changed schools at the middle of the year, I did things that were out of the ordinary, and I made myself specialā¦ā
Thatās when she and I met.
āNakayama⦠I canāt ⦠explain it well, but you seem to have something mysterious about you, and I was attracted to you. I was kind of curious about you, kind of attracted to you, and kind of liked you. I thought that if I could connect with you, with that special something, I could proudly say that I was āspecialā.ā
I donāt think so.
I am not special.
But it seemed to her that I was.
I think thatās why Kurumizawa-san fell in love with me.
āBut someone once told me. The feeling of ālikingā without a reason is just a āfakeā ā thatās what they said. When I was told that, I thought about the reason why I liked Nakayama. But that didnāt come to mind.ā
āIs that soā¦?ā
āYeah. After all, I was just longing for āspecialā, and I didnāt really like Nakayama much. So right after that, I had a fateful encounter with Ryuzaki and fell in love with him. Because he was more āspecialā.ā
When it is said, it certainly seems to make sense.
But Kurumizawa-san herself didnāt look convinced.
Do you really think that was the case?ā
Maybe she is not so sure of herself now.
So she spoke at length, checked her logic, and uttered rationalizations.
But on an emotional level, she didnāt seem convinced.
āI guess I really didnāt like Nakayama⦠I really liked you then. Thatās why I donāt understand. I met Ryuzaki and suddenly I went haywire, like I wasnāt myself anymore.ā
Yeah, thatās probably true.
I know what caused it.
But I canāt talk about it.
Because even if I said it, there is nothing Kurumizawa-san can do about it.
Because she is just a subheroine.
She is simply a servant to the story.
Therefore, she does not need to know why.
If she knew, she would only be hurt⦠I think she would be happier if she didnāt know.
The only thing I could do was whisper it in my mind.
(Kurumizawa-san was āchosenā for Ryuzakiās romantic comedy.)
Unfortunately for you, youāre caught up in his harem romantic comedy.
Because of that you are changing your mind to suit his story.
Itās so sadā¦, but I felt a sense of emptiness at not being able to do anything about it.
(No matter how much I try, I canāt clear Kurumizawa-sanās mind)
Because she has been poisoned by Ryoma Ryuzaki.
Because of the protagonist-samaās abnormal nature, her love for him is twisted.
In other words, I canāt do anything.
Nevertheless, itās the same thing, because even if I could do something, ⦠there is nothing I could do as a result.
(I can only love Shiho anyway, so I couldnāt help her anywayā¦)
I am aware of that.
But the girl suffering in front of me was so painful that I couldnāt help but feel sorry for her.
I have seen girls like this many times before, but I still canāt get used to it.
Azusa, Kirari, Yuzuki, and Mary were all suffering.
And now Kurumizawa-san has become one of them.
I guess that was the story this time.
The role of the subheroine, Kururi Kurumizawa, was fulfilled and she was twisted into the plot.
(The only person who can make Kururi happy now is Ryuzaki.)
That is an area that is untouchable by mob characters.
If that guyās romantic comedy is not completed, the subheroine Kururi Kurumizawa will not be rewarded.
With this, the character Kururi Kurumizawa has been exhausted.
Having completed her role, she is off the stage.
This time I did not get to see the whole of her story.
So Iāll fill in the blanks here and there, but hereās a synopsis of the story.
First off, Ryuzaki was rotten. He thought of himself as a mob character and fell apart.
Spoiled by Yuzuki and never recovering, Ryoma Ryuzaki was kicked to the bottom of the earth.
But something happened, and that guy came back to life.
No, not just revived, Ryuzaki was awakened.
And the awakened protagonist-sama stole the love of the sub-heroine who loved the mob character.
In short, Kurumizawa-san was probably placed there to measure Ryuzakiās greatness.
The protagonist-sama became so awesome that the sub-heroine who loved the mob character changed her mind ā she was twisted all around just to create that convincing effect.
What an unrewarding character.
When I think about it, ⦠I still felt so sorry for herā¦