It was meant to point out the speaking habits of someone who mentioned pigs daily. Shin Heejae also hesitated for a moment, as if he understood the meaning.
But soon, he smiled and spoke.
“Hm. Well every day……. I do think about eating.”
“……?”
Then he glanced at me, and as soon as I realized the meaning of those words while frowning as his unpleasant gaze, I immediately kicked the table aside and stood up.
“I’ll kill you!”
“All the sudden?”
When I saw his abominable face acting innocent, I got angry and tried to kick his shin. But he quickly dodged by spreading his feet. I didn’t give up and tried to at least grab him by the collar, but…….
“…….”
After meeting the dead eyes of the convenience store part-timer who glanced at me, I had no choice but to sit down for now even though I was shaking.
I glared at Shin Heejae and gritted my teeth. Then I warned him in a voice as low as possible.
“Say one more word…….”
Of course, he was the type of person who wouldn’t even blink at my warning. Seeing my face that looked like I was going to die of rage,Shin Heejae laughed silently for a long time.
After laughing like that to his heart’s content, Shin Heejae talked to me, pretending to please me.
“Is there nothing noona wants to eat? I’m good at cooking.”
But it didn’t get through to me, who was already thoroughly offended.
“Die.”
“How come you don’t even have soy sauce and salt at home? You must really not cook.”
“So what.”
Even though I talked sharply multiple times,Shin Heejae wasn’t intimidated and acted as he liked.He extended his hand and spoke confidently.
“I’ll have to go grocery shopping. Give me your card.”
“What?”
“No. Let’s go buy them together when you get off work? There was a supermarket nearby.”
“…….”
“Do you come home early today?”
He seemed to have no doubt at all that I would listen to him. No, his smile was full of confidence as if no matter how irritating I was, I was in the palm of his hand.
When I saw that face, in the end I lost all my irritation and anger. No matter what I said, he would only interpret it as he pleased.
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Of course, when Shin Heejae said that he had to go to the mart, the thought of toilet paper or detergent that was almost finished rose up in my mind. Ususally, I ordered all my daily necessities online since I couldn’t be bothered to go the mart, but since Shin Heejae had a car…….
‘I’m gonna let this guy carry all the luggage.’
When I made up my mind to dump all my luggage onto him, I figured grocery shopping would be worth doing. So, I nodded as if I gave up.
After that, I wondered as I walked out of the convenience store towards the subway station alone. Am I going to keep living with Shin Heejae like this somehow? I suddenly thought.
‘No, putting aside his perfectly fine house, why necessarily with me…….’
But it was like that last night too, when I thought about how he could really be gay, was it really okay to live like this? I had those kinds of concerned. To be honest, if Shin Heejae didn’t do that sort of stuff with me, I didn’t exactly hate living with―.
‘Crazy……. what am I thinking??’
Before anyone saw, I shook my head and tried to drive away the strange idea that had just passed my mind.
‘……Did I really get infected?’
After hanging out with an unconventional guy, it seemed that I was out of my mind for a moment. At the same time, I felt uncomfortable getting used to him like this.
‘There are other things to get used to…….’
I shook my head thinking about how this really wasn’t right, and went into YouTube to clear my head.
But out of all days, the moment I turned on the app what came into my eyes was Shin Heejae’s channel. Of course, I didn’t intend to watch it, but I got hooked on the title [Heejae’s ideal type is…?] and the thumbnail covered with mosaic and ended up watching it.
“Shit, it’s my success to brag about, after all.”
I left a malicious comment saying [please don’t live like this] and pressed the ‘do not recommend’ button. Then I watched a few videos I hadn’t seen in the meantime.
While doing so, I naturally scrolled down, but I felt emptiness as if something was missing.
“……?”
I put in a few keyboard and searched for the video. However, no matter how many times I changed the keywords and searched, the result I was looking for didn’t come up.
♥ Arcadia killer combination with my lover♥
I was wondering what it was, but it was that the video was deleted.
“What is this…….”
Of course, I hadn’t liked the video since before. I once even told Shin Heejae to take the video down because it was embarrassing.
But at the time, while going back and forth between listening to me and ignoring me, Shin Heejae perseveringly kept it posted. So, in a way, the video being taken down now was what I wanted…….
“…….”
A person’s feelings were truly fickle.When it was up, I was embarrassed and told him to take it down, but now that the video was down……. no, to be honest it was obvious it would be removed since he found out I was a netkama, but I felt a strange feeling of betrayal for some reason.
Just in case I looked up all the other videos as I remembered them, and I could see that within the videos he had posted, only that video was deleted.
In addition, in different videos it seemed there were people who remembered the video like me and even in the most recent video, there were some comments asking things like [why did you take down the video with your girlfriend?]. And whether Shin Heejae was ignoring it or didn’t see it, he didn’t respond at all.
‘No. Whatever the reason, it’s Shin Heejae who took it down……. It’s none of my business, is it?’
I tried to pass over it coolly, but contrary to my feelings, my hand kept pressing Shin Heejae’s messenger. Then, when I noticed his messenger profile picture had also been deleted, I hesitated again.
‘Wasn’t it my picture until yesterday, even?’
Even though I was aware I was caring about all kinds of stuff, I kept switching back and forth between the app and his YouTube channel as if I was possessed.
Then, I even went over to the clan discord channel and while looking for Shin Heejae’s chats, almost missed the station I needed to get off at. Only then did I come to my senses and shoved my phone into my pocket.
‘Am I out of my mind.’
From then on I purposefully didn’t look at my phone and after arriving at the center office, only worked silently.
Then around lunchtime, I saw a message from Shin Heejae and ended up feeling bewildered.
[Heejae]
noonaㅇ.ㅇ
something came up for a moment so I don’t think I can go grocery shopping with you im sorry ㅇ_ㅇ
you keep raising senyangie, okay?
[Me]
what?
Even after that brief remark, my message was ignored. My irritation began to rise like crazy at his attitude of doing whatever he wanted from one to ten.
I felt the same even when I got home from work.
Obviously, it should have naturally been a happy occasion that Shin Heejae was not at my house, but strangely, I felt angry at my feelings of disgust and couldn’t enjoy my time alone.
Even though he wasn’t around, It was almost as though I kept thinking about him.
* * *
[Heejae]
noona are you sleeping?? ㅇ_ㅇ
what level is senyangie ㅇ.ㅇ?
It would be good if I’d slept like this guy was saying, but in the end I hadn’t slept a wink. I was laying in bed in the middle of constantly cursing Shin Heejae and repeatedly thinking about him.
Then as 1am approached, I finally got a message from Shin Heejae. I grinded my teeth while reading that nonchalant message. It was really unfair that he was tactlessly joking around while I couldnt sleep and was angry because of a certain someone.
[Me]
deletingthe character
[Heejae]
why lolol
[Me]
because im angry
In response to my message saying I was angry, Shin Heejae sent me a response saying [lolololol]. Then, after reading my message, he called me out of the blue without saying anything.
I was thinking about whether to answer it or not, but answered it for now. As soon as I answered Shin Heejae’s call, he asked right away.
“You dozed off, right?”
“No? I told you I was mad.”
“Why? What kind of bastard?”
“Raise your fist……. and try hitting your own face.”
At those words, Shin Heejae only giggled and laughed. Then, he loudly guessed wrong.
“My producer suddenly called me to have a meeting at the agency, so I’m just visiting Seoul.”
“Ah, really?”
“When I come back I’ll play a lot with you, so please calm down.”
“What kind of nonsense are you talking about?”
“I have to earn money to feed and live with noona too.”
Shin Heejae was completely mistaken, thinking that the reason I was angry was because he couldn’t go grocery shopping with me today.