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No-no! I swear! I never wanted to force the clothes off of Seo Dawon. Also, I’d *never* thought about stealing a glimpse of his body. I earnestly drove any sexual or lusty thoughts about the Mage out of my head.
Above all, I couldn’t do something like that to Seo Dawon when we were surrounded by the other Servants. And, even if the system were to tempt me when we were alone together…
‘Everyone would notice the moment I make any noise… Then, I’d have to take my own life at that point…’
Because of my class’s *unique ability,* the other Servants were sure to gather around as soon as I made a strange noise.
‘No matter where I hide, those guys are sure to find me.’
At that point, I’d have to explain why I made such a strange noise to the servants that were sure to come rushing through the door…
Just imagining that situation made me want to die. Therefore, I never dared to let such lusty thoughts enter my brain. That was why I was even more shocked. Why…How…Did this message appear? And such timing as well? Why must I suffer through this ordeal?
‘This crazy bastard system!’
The desire to not be caught dominated my thoughts at the moment. Furthermore, I wanted to prevent such strange delusions from appearing in the first place.
So, I hurriedly reached out to exit the system window. However, the problem was Seo Dawon was faster than me. His cold fingers dug into my side; startled, I flinched more than necessary, and I rolled off the bed. “Hnnghaahhhh!”
“…Lee-kyung-ah?” Seo Dawon glanced down at me, who had rolled over the edge. His suspicious gaze roamed over my cold-sweat-drenched face. “What’s wrong?”
“…W-What do you mean? I-I didn’t do anything?!”
Even though I barely managed to exit the [change of clothes] window in time, the Mage’s expression still looked strange. Was I caught? I tried to search for the answer in his face, but I couldn’t read his thoughts.
After a few breath-stopping seconds, the Mage reached out to me. I closed my eyes reflexively, but… I soon felt a chilly hand covering my forehead. When I opened my eyes, he was calmly checking my temperature.
“It doesn’t seem like he’s sick,” Seo Dawon murmured.
“……”
And… Ironically, that cold touch made me even more inflamed. The Mage paused for a moment after seeing my flushed ears. “Hmmm….”
Of course, that didn’t mean he was generous and left me alone; the bastard came closer to me, smiling as I retreated to the wall. His smile was so sinister. “You don’t want me to touch your waist?”
“…I-It’s not like that…”
“Then, can I touch you?”
It was only after I saw his smile that I realized that this man was a pervert that wouldn’t lose to the system, but I was already too late.
Seo Dawon folded me into his arms and gently grabbed my chin. Then, using his fingers, he slowly drew a line along my neck and collar. I jumped to avoid his hand, but…. I failed, of course.
“D-Don’t do that.” Eventually, I grabbed his finger while trembling.
However, Seo Dawon merely lowered his eyes and asked back, “Don’t do what?”
“This…” I was going to point to his touches, but the Mage was faster. He rubbed his lips against my captive fingers. After handing my hand back to me, he started to grope at my neck with his lips. He wasn’t licking me with his tongue or anything, but… What he did was stimulating enough.
Seo Dawon gently chewed at my blushing neck skin; he pressed against my wriggling chest with his palm. Then, he laughed in a low tone once he noticed my galloping heart.
“Heeek… Mmnn…!”
Eventually, I was unable to endure and moans threatened to spill out of my mouth, but the Mage swallowed them all.
The tongue that kept persistently licking at an area of skin that had never been lapped at before made my stomach tense. On top of that, Seo Dawon slowly lowered his hand, which had been pressing on my chest, down my body. The shirt I was wearing slightly opened, exposing skin.
‘At this rate…’
I managed to come to my senses and grab his invading wrist. “Haah….Haa…”
Fortunately, the Mage stopped there. Although…his expression looked deeply unsatisfied.
He looked down at my shaking self, still holding onto his wrist, before bowing his head towards me again. He didn’t touch my body anymore, but, considering our entangled legs, I didn’t count on his audacity and flexibility to give me a kiss. Eventually, I kept my lips closed and turned my head. However, Seo Dawon chewed on my closed lips, a bit painfully.
“Ah!”
“Are you going to continue to be mean to me?”
How shameless–was he rebuking me after nearly ripping off my lips?
I pummeled his shameless shoulders with my fist. “Every…Everyone’s going to hear!”
“Don’t tell me, you didn’t think I’d take care of all of that?”
“What? W-When on earth did you…”
“About when you wanted to take my clothes off?”
“…W-What!?”
Seo Dawon tilted his head, paying little attention to my shocked expression. Then, he looked down at my astonished face and delivered my personal death sentence. “The [Change Outfit] option also notifies the Servant.”
“……”
“You hesitated about taking off my top.”
I immediately kicked the Mage and tried to stand. Of course, despite my efforts, I failed to achieve anything meaningful since Seo Dawon didn’t move.
The Mage grabbed me by my ankle and spread my legs; he didn’t seem to care that he got kicked. He then held my ankle high above his shoulders and perched his cheek against the lateral malleolus. 1
“Pervert,” he sulkily condemned me, eyes wide open.
I lost my mind; I shouted, “No! I’ve never thought about–not even a little…!”
“Not even once?”
“T-That’s…! No, never! Never!!” I was gradually being drawn into his cross-examination.
All kinds of delusions–fantasies–that sometimes appeared in my dreams passed through my head in the blink of an eye. That was why my denial came a beat late. I belatedly tried to fix my mistake, but Seo Dawon was already giggling.
“So, you totally used me like some side dish…” 2
“……”
“How impressive–And you looked so innocent, too.”
Tears gathered in my eyes.  Seo Dawon did not quit even though he saw my shameful tears. Definitely not–forget about quitting, he came closer and kissed my frowning face here and there.
“I’ll say it! [Seo Da–….]!” I tried to use my last resort, unable to stand my shame, but Seo Dawon was faster and blocked me.
He looked down at me with a cheeky smile that wouldn’t be out of place on a gangster. “I understand. I won’t go further than this, today, so…”
“……!”
“Don’t push me away, yeah?” He removed his hand and landed a kiss on me.
The Mage kissed more fervently than before. Every now and then, his lips lifted off mine so he could spout even more shameful demands. ‘Suck my tongue well. Don’t let our drool dribble down–try swallowing.’
I had no choice but to move my lips against Seo Dawon, responding to his requests with feathery brushes, until my lips were tingling. Whenever the Mage said something strange, I hit him on the shoulder. However, ironically, the more I seemed to detest the idea the more his playful side was activated.
* * *
“Choi Lee-kyung, what’s with the mask?”
“I guess Lee-kyung-ie caught a cold.”
“Really?”
Seo Dawon answered calmly on my behalf while I flinched and trembled at the onslaught of questions pouring my way.
I shook the Mage’s hand off my shoulder while sucking kale juice up a straw through a gap in my mask. Undaunted, he touched my ears gently. The slight touch brought back memories of what had happened yesterday.
Boom–!
I jumped to my feet, ran to my room, locked the door, and buried my face in the bed.
Soon, however, the Mage slowly stroked my back. My fists clenched–what use was the lock on my door?
Regardless of my anger, he asked, “Does it hurt?”
“Don’t touch me…!”
“You asked me to touch you yesterday.”
I turned to him as soon as I heard those words. Seo Dawon promised to take what happened yesterday to his grave–to hold my shame as a secret, but he immediately broke that promise.
He shrugged at my angry expression, “What is it?”
“You said you wouldn’t talk about what happened yesterday!”
“What’s wrong–it’s only the two of us here.”
“……”
“I said I cast [silent] onto this bedroom, right?”
I glared at Seo Dawon–the Mage spoke as if he were currying compliments from me.
Despite my ugly expression, the Mage still hugged me and rubbed his face against the small of my back. I lost all confidence in our distance–I couldn’t predict whether or not the Mage would stop here or do something senseless like what had happened yesterday.
So, I pushed his face away with my hand…at least, I did until he did something crazy like licking my palm.
I couldn’t resist shouting, “Are you seriously out of your mind?”
“I was joking…” He giggled, hugging me and kissing me on my cheek to try and alleviate my anger. However, when I avoided even that affection, he took my chin and looked into my eyes. Then, in a wicked tone, he whispered, “If you take all you wanted from my body and then become so cold right afterwards… What am I supposed to do?”
TL: O.O I guess we’ll learn what they *did* in the upcoming chapter. As well as further hangups and relationship issues that Lee-kyung and Dawon have. Especially Seo Dawon–I’ll probably talk about his weirdness regarding relationships and physical affection next chap. However, Lee-kyung has an interesting hang-up about sexuality. It seems like he feels almost inherent shame for having lust…but lust is in *almost* all of us. (Like when he felt ashamed that Seo Dawon reminded him that he said he wanted the Mage to touch him.) I wonder what ya’ll think?
I wonder if that’s internalized homophobia. I knew an ex-gf that felt that way all through highschool. Like she idolized the romantic relationship but felt deep shame about wanting sex. But who knows! Certainly not me >.<
Footnotes
The bone that juts out on the outside of your ankle. Side dish, here, meaning wank material. Aka Choi Lee-kyung had fantasies about Seo Dawon in the lust bank.