Seo Dawon grabbed my arm to stop me, red-faced from embarrassment, from running away. Then he spoke in a sarcastic tone, âYou followed such nice reasoning for everything in the middle and then suddenly had a logical leap for the kissâŠIs that because you canât stop thinking about kissing me?â
âNo, you just suddenly scared me andâŠDamn it, release my arm!â
âIf I just had a little less conscience, I would be the worldâs first kissing treatment patientâŠâ
âEek!â
Shamelessly, he rested his head in my embrace. Then, as if to sort out all that had happened, he whispered, âAnyway, since Iâve been a bit capricious lately, donât approach me if I seem suspicious. Thatâs all I wanted to say.â
ââŠâŠâ I was still rendered speechless from the lingering uncomfortable feeling that would not subside.
Even though I did not reply, Seo Dawon still released my two arms that he was holding; he still leaned his body into my embrace, however. If I were to push him away, I could stand up chicly; instead, I simply hugged him after hesitating.
I felt a low vibration near my heart; Seo Dawon laughed and looked up at me, âLee-kyung-ie definitely doesnât miss any opportunity.â
ââŠShut up. YouâŠyou also did whatever you wanted.â Even as I said that, I was afraid heâd remove his hands from me and stand up. However, Seo Dawon peacefully remained in my arms.
I thought, âWell, now that I think about it, Itâs been far too easyâŠâ
Even now, when Seo Dawon couldnât show off all of his abilities and is restrained, I couldnât feel any of his limitations.
When something inexplicably goes smoothly, rather than feeling satisfied with your good luck, you may start to feel anxious. As if thereâs a ticking time bomb that may explode at any moment. So, now that the cause of my anxiety had been vaguely pinpointed, I actually felt more relieved. Furthermore, I became more confident about a contradiction I had been pondering for a while now.
âFor servantsâŠtheir master must be an essential existence.â
That must be the reason why such a cumbersome contract method was needed.
After signing a contract with these servants, I had often fallen deep into thought about the significance of my existence. After all, I was being dragged around by those who were worlds apart in ability from me.
It was a bit frustrating, but things tended to work out only when I listened to their orders; even if they were to elaborate beyond the bare skeleton of information, they might take the attitude, âwhat good would it do for you to know?
The fact that all this was unintentional made the situation more miserable. Just as how parents may not tell their children how much they makeâeven though making a living was important for their livelihoodsâit was natural for the servants to act this way since what would change if âChoi Lee-kyungâ knew anythingâŠwhat could he do for them?
As a result, even if we shared the same home, we didnât feel quite like a team. It felt like we were divided into two: me and them.
However, their selfish arbitrariness had led to Seo Dawon handing me some strange self-destruct device. If so, though he may not like to admit it, couldnât it be said that Seo Dawonâs current method had failed?
âSeo Dawon.â
âYeah.â
âBeforeâŠWhen you asked me to âcommandâ you, what did you mean?â
Of course, it wasnât like I was happy at Seo Dawonâs failure, nor did I think âYou reap what you sow.â Actually, wasnât it more weird to think that I would become a necessary existence to someone like Seo Dawon? If I were the Mage, I wouldâve desperately searched for another way besides relying on Choi Lee-kyung.
However, in another sense, I felt refreshed.
I may be able to finally know why it âhad to be me.â
Through a series of serendipitous coincidences, I was able to meet and contract with Seo Dawon. But there were days where I wondered why, except for the contract, I needed to be in this team. I had thought, âIt didnât have to be me, they could have had a more talented Necromancer.â
Thatâs why I tried in any way I could to contribute to the team, but my power was so utterly weak that there was no benefit. In addition, I hated to see Seo Dawon, Jung Garam, or Kim Olim taking risksâleading the front, so I may not fall into danger. In the end, I naturally thought that âsitting around patiently, doing nothingâ was all I could do to help.
However, I felt like I could finally grasp at my purposeâsomething Iâve questioned even as I adjusted my behavior to accommodate them. Seo Dawon was shaking. Now, he looked confused; the distance, which he had stubbornly maintained yesterday, between us had narrowed.
So, I brought up the question I should have asked then. At that time, I didnât want to think deeper because I had simply passed his comment off as mere rejection, but, once you dug deeper, the words he chose were quite strange.
Why did he use the word, âcommand?â There were many other gentle methods to reject me. Itâs not as if he wasnât the type of person who would be smooth enough to reject me kindly.
However, thatâs what Seo Dawon said.
If so, did that âcommandâ contain another meaning?
âI meant it literally. Since youâre the master, thereâs no need to walk on eggshells around me.â
ââŠâŠâ I couldnât really tell what he was thinking just through his expression. I couldnât tell if I was dense, or if Seo Dawon was deliberately hiding his emotions, butâŠ
I gripped onto Seo Dawonâs arms when he tried to stop leaning his head on me, sit up, and straighten his back. If not this time, I donât know when this distance between us would narrow again. Fortunately, Seo Dawon did not remove my hold and gently downcast his red eyes.
âT-then, if itâs my commandâŠâŠ Are you saying that you would like me?â
âThe command has to be specific. âLike meâŠâ Itâs not clear what kind of behavior you want me to showcase.â Seo Dawon naturally continued.
I realized he was giving me advice: a reminder that when a Master gives a command, he must give specific instructions that a Servant could comprehend and act upon straight away.
So, I took his advice and âcommandedâ him. âAnswer the questions I ask. Donât lie, either.â
Seo Dawon, knowing that he was given a âcommand,â raised his head as soon as I spoke. Normally, his eyes were like transparent glass, but somehow they looked hazy and decadent now. I hesitated, feeling a hint of resistance from him, but Dawon soon slowly lowered his head.
âYes,â he responded, quietly. He adopted an attitude of total obedienceâenough that I suspected it was a prank to ridicule me.
* * *
A few minutes passed by; I couldnât find the words to speak easily. I was flustered by the completely transformed atmosphere, and Seo Dawon was still utterly tranquil. And then, right before my eyes, a system message popped up.
[Conditions have been met to expand or transform certain skills unique to your class.]
âSkills unique to the classâŠâŠ?â
ââŠ..â Seo Dawon continued to look at me with that placid expression. It was as if he was paying great attention to the words that came out of my mouth.
I reminded myself that I was in the middle of âcommandingâ him and subconsciously covered my mouth with one hand and hastily closed the system message with the other. After all, I can check the contents of this message laterâŠ
âHmmmâŠI mean, s-soâŠyou canât answer the questions I ask from this point on by lying, right?â
âYes.â
âI canât get used to him using such formal languageâŠAh, n-no.â I stuttered.
When I saw Seo Dawon with a face devoid of any expressions, I felt like I was doing something malicious to him.
I cleared my throat and once again asked the question I wanted to ask, âWhy did you suddenly place such a strange taboo on me?â
The thing that bothered me the most was the unknown skill that Seo Dawon applied to me just recently.
And, as soon as I closed my mouth, he answered straight away without any hesitation. âThatâs a taboo placed just in case I attempted to murder you.â
MurderâŠ
Goosebumps raised along my arms at his word choice, and I felt slightly depressed that Seo Dawon would dislike me enough to kill me. Further, it felt unfairâwhy would he hold those sorts of feelings for me?
âWhy do you want to kill me?â I asked
âIâve never wanted to kill you. Iâve told you earlier that the taboo was placed in order to stop me from murdering you.â
Again, another strange response.
No, thatâs what Iâm askingâyou said you placed a restriction just in case youâd murder me. There must be a reason, then, right? Only his speech was formal, his speaking style still left an unpleasant aftertasteâŠ
I judged Seo Dawonâs expressionless face as one of contempt, and, rage rising, I continued to question him, voice wheezing. âSo! Thatâs why Iâm askingâŠWhy you might want to murder me!? What I wanted to know was the reason behind it all!â
âItâs because of your blood.â
TL: Itâs been a while hasnât it? Iâve been swamped with IRL work (grading papers T_T). Iâve informed the discord server people that this break would happenâif you havenât joined, thatâs alright! I do update about any potential breaks there, though. As promised, Iâll do 4 chaptersâ2 today, 2 tomorrow!
Also I do know that thereâs a webtoon thatâs out! Although, I have no idea if thatâll divert more or less people to this, haha.