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Italicized texts are the thoughts of a character
[Character name] means that it is that the following part is in that characterās POV(point of view)
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Chapter 17: Sorry
[Blake]
āSorry for being a jerk. I know youāreĀ assuming[1] some things alreadyā¦āĀ He chuckled before he continues ābut seriously speaking, Iām really sorryĀ because I wasnāt being fair to you Blake. Itās just that, letās say that I have to do this for us.ā He approached me and held both my shoulders.
I looked at his eyes and saw clearly that heās going through some hardships. I was going to speak, to ask, and maybe complain butā¦Ā What the heck! Itās been days since he started hurting me and making me hope that he loves me back. Besides, I have a lot of issues on how he treats me. Itās because I donāt have a single clue why heās acting this way. I donāt have any idea why itās like I donāt exist in his life the past few days. Iām so clueless about whatās happening.
āIām really sorry my BlakeāĀ What? My Blake? Waaaah! Just a simple statement and I lost my anger and irritation for him. Uo I was really mad at him. Iām have feelings too you know! Hmpf, who wouldnāt be angry or mad if the one you like started ignoring you and gave you a cold shoulder, and you donāt know why heās acting like that? Right?
Wait! Am I fighting with someone? My gosh! Iām talking to myself again.
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For the second time, I attempted to speak out once more, he cupped my cheeks quickly and kissed my lips.Ā In response, I shut my eyes and let him kiss me however he wants.
[SEHUN]
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āWhat is it really, Sehun? Just tell me what it is.ā
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I donāt know how many times Iāve been asked that and I havenāt tracked how many times I didnāt respond to it. I just told him that we werenāt able to talk much these days because something is bothering me lately. I need to keep it from him, so that it doesnāt bother him too. After all, heās not related to him in any way.Ā Itās my problem anyway.
āYou ned to trust me okay.āĀ I told him, making him fold his arms and pout cutely. He glared at me, sulking.
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Oh, my! Heās so childishly cute.Ā I hugged him from behindĀ and laid my head on his shoulder. I felt his breath catch and he squealed a bit as I nibbled on his neck.
āSehun what theā¦! Itās ticklish.Ā Errrā He leaned back, melting in my arms as I smiled. I continued my nibbling along his neck and hugged him tightly in my arms. I really love this man[2] so much. I donāt know if I could take it if heās gone from my life.Ā I know IĀ am assured of Blakeās love. When the day comes, I hope that he can still accept me and love me despite what Iām about to do.
[BLAKE]
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āAhm S-Sehun ah eh. Ahm⦠Eh a-no ahhā¦āĀ I said brokenly as I see one of his eyebrows raised. āAhm.. you see⦠eh.. ahm. I-I have s-something to ask.ā
āWhat is it my love?ā He asked, smiling.
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Waaaaaah! My love? DId he just call meĀ āmy loveā?Ā I felt all my blood rushing up my face. I bowed my head and shifted, feeling uncomfortable. My heart started beating noisily and I felt my whole body reacting, going berserk.Ā Sehun never fails to make me feelĀ exhilarated.
āYou see⦠Ah ehā I stutter.
What the heck. Why am I only able to say these things?
āWhat is it my love?ā he chided once more.
Waaaah,Ā Stop it Sehun.Ā Do you want me to faint here? Eeeek.Ā Ā I actually want to so that you can perform CPR on me. Teeheeheehee.Ā So flirty.
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I took a deep breath before speaking. āAhm. Sehun. You l-love me right?ā He smiled and nodded his head. āEr, I love you too.ā
Hey, I was having a hard time saying this you know.
āSo what are we?ā
āHuh? Isnāt it obvious?ā
I wasnāt able to respond as I was still looking down.
āHays!ā He signed deeply and approached me. He hugged me. āIām your boyfriend Blake.ā He said which made my heart fill with joy.
Waaaah! Iām Sehunās boyfriend for real! Kyaaaaah! Iām feel like Iām a maiden, getting all excited like this!
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I hugged him back. āI love you Sehun.ā I couldnāt stop myself from telling him this.
I didnāt notice how many minutes have passed in this position hugging each other before we parted, but before Blake stepped back, he grabbed my butt and gave it a squeeze again.
āUgh, you annoying pervert! You better get ready!ā I shouted, scandalized. Despite our room being small, we were like kids chasing each other in the small space available. And because it wasnāt that big of a room, I was able to catch him immediately.Ā I pushed him down one of the beds and started bopping him with a pillow. āNo matter what, youāre such a pervert!ā I wailed at him.
He was laughing while trying to defend against the onslaught of pillow. In a few moments, I stopped my assault. I was going to get up from the bed when he suddenly pulled me back in his arms. I yelped and fell on top of him.
āSehun what are you doing!ā I complained and tried to wiggle away to stand. But because Sehun was obviously stronger, I wasnāt able to break free and ended up rolling underneath me.Ā He is already on top of me.Ā I gulped in anticipation as he smirked at me.
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āI really love you,Ā my Blake,ā He said with a blinding smile.
Oh gosh, Blake! Youāre so flirty no matter what. He just smiled at you like that and you folded so easily.[3]
Slowly. his face approached mine. āWhy is your lips so addictive and tempting Blake? Tell meā as he closed the gap between our lips.
How many times have I been kissed by Sehun. Heās getting way too ahead of me. Iām not the type to just let anyone kiss me haphazardly. He shouldnāt be kissing me all the time.Ā
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Sehun, what the⦠Guys! Help me push him away. Quick!
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Naaaaah! You might steal him away from me. [4]
Our kiss lasted for a few seconds before his lips let me go. But just when I thought that we were finished, he suddenly kissed me again.Ā Iām wrongĀ as he plundered my mouth and traced his lips against mine.
I donāt know if Iām supposed to follow his lead.Ā And all of a suddenĀ I didnāt notice that I was responding back to the kiss.
>To be continued
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T/N:
[1] assuming is used in Tagalog slang as expecting something
[2] He used the word āBaklaā signifying his acceptance to his gay feelings for this man
[3] Note that throughout the story with Blakeās POV, he usually talks to himself. Thatās his internal monologue as he experiences the joy of being excited to death by Sehun. We decided to italicize those internal monologue parts to help differentiate it from other lines
[4] Author suddenly broke the 4th wall Orz
Translatorsā Corner:
Vannie: Now I know why NinjaGal translated Chapter 16-18 in one go!!! Hahaha⦠Asking me why I didnāt post them in a single dump? *evil smile* Because misery loves company~