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Chapter 16: Sudden Change
[Blake]
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“Where are you going?” I asked Sehun who is currently facing the mirror while fixing his hair. He’s wearing a collared top, jeans, and running shoes. He’s so handsome to look at with his current get up. It’s quite obvious he’s going out.
(TN: Implied that Blake is assuming that Sehun will be out on a date due to being dressed up.)
“I’m just heading out somewhere.” He casually replied.
“You’re not going to attend class?” I asked once more. It’s Tuesday and he’s got class today.
“Nope” He replied curtly. Why are his answers so abrupt?
“Is it a very important da-?” I couldn’t finish my sentence as he cut off.
“Can you stop it Blake? Don’t ask too many questions.” He responded, pissed off as he slammed his comb on the table. He also slammed the door loudly on his way out. Me being surprised, I wasn’t able to respond.
Is Blake really mad at me? Why did he suddenly change how he treated me? It started when I asked him who the girl was that went here? I felt that that’s the time when the cold treatment started.
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But how about the kiss and his confession to me that he likes me? Is it true? If it is, why did he suddenly change? Does this mean he’s just toying with me? No! It’s not. I believe that everything is true. I think he’s not playing around with me and I feel his sincerity.Â
After attending classes for the day, with Leon shadowing me the whole time, I finally arrived back to the apartment. And speaking of Leon, he still continues his pursuit of me. He’s always hovering around and talking to me the whole time. I’m not that uncomfortable around Leon anymore. At first I felt discomfited, but after a few days of his courting, I’m not as flustered as time passed and I got used to it.
As nighttime was approaching, Sehun still has not arrived yet. I texted him to ask what time he’ll arrive but he didn’t even bother replying, not even once. I was worried about him. I wonder where Sehun went? He doesn’t go out this late at night or arrive after hours? Wait! Maybe he went home at his parents house. Yeah! That might be it.
Around 11PM, he’s still not here. I’m waiting for him because I can’t stop fretting plus I couldn’t sleep.
After a few hours more, he finally arrived. I immediately stood up to open the door for him,
“Why are you late Sehun?” I asked him which surprised him. He’s probably surprised I’m still up at this time. It’s way past midnight.
“Why are you still up?” Oh shoot! I asked first but now he’s the one asking questions.
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“I couldn’t sleep” I casually answered.
“Just go to sleep. We still have classes tomorrow.” He said as he went to the shower. I was going to respond but then thought better and chose to remain silent since we’re separated by the walls. I just went to my bed and lied down trying to force myself to sleep. What’s happening to Sehun? Why is he suddenly acting weird?
 A few moments later, I felt him exiting the shower and laid down in bed. My back is turned facing him while I pretended to sleep.
A few minutes later, I still couldn’t bring myself to sleep. Sandman won’t come visit me. I dont know. My mind is a jumbled mess.
“I love you” I heard from Sehun once more. What did he say? Shit! Is he telling this to me? I slowly turned to face him. When I slowly peeked at him, oh! He’s asleep. Is he sleeptalking? I thought he was telling it to me. I look foolish looking hopeful, oh so helplessly hopeful.
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“I love you Annika.” Sehun said once more in his sleep.
Annika? Who is that?
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Why is he saying I love you to her? Does Sehun love her? Are they in a relationship? Is he referring to that girl who knocked on our door and the girl who hugged him a few days ago? Is he talking about that one? So does this mean there’s something going on between the two of them?
I didn’t notice that tears started streaking down my face as I suddenly felt like something sharp was piercing my chest. It hurts.
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I approached him and put my face close to his face. Even without his permission, I kissed him lightly on his lips. It was fleeting and I immediately moved away my face.
“I thought I had a chance with you? Why can’t it be me Sehun. Please, pick me.”
The next morning, I woke up with Sehun gone. What time is it anyway? I checked the clock. It’s still early. Two hours before his next class. Where did he go?
I rose up from the bed an went to the bathroom to take a shower. I ate breakfast and fixed myself, readying myself for school. I went out of the room, but still, no sign of Sehun. Did he really go to class this early? Seems impossible.
I was going down the stairs when I heard someone calling me. I turned around and saw Leon running after me.
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“Good morning Blake. Let’s go to school together.” he greets filled with joy. He’s grinning ear to ear.
“Good morning to you too Leon. Sure.” I lifelessly answered.
His forehead wrinkled in concern, “Are you alright?” he questioned as I shook my head in response. “No! It looks like you have a tough problem?” He insisted doubtfully.
“No. No I don’t have any problems. Let’s just head to school.” I evaded in response, motioning to head down the stairs when he grasped my hands.
“Why?” I asked, confused at his actions.
It felt like eternity before he responded. His face filled with worry. “Ah no! Ne-never mind, let’s go ahead.” He retreated his query and dragged me down the stairs.
My day was pretty uneventful without anything out of the ordinary. Attend class here, attend class there, take a break, attend next class, and another until I finished the day. It’s boring and I felt like I was so out of it during that time. My mind was all jumbled up and I still felt the twinge of pain in my chest from last night.
A few days has passed and I’m still in the same situation with Sehun. I rarely get to talk to him and even during conversations, I couldn’t talk to him properly. He always comes home very late. And he doesn’t tease me or joke around with me unlike before which I sorely miss.
I don’t know what he’s doing or what’s up with him anymore. I tried to ask him multiple times if there’s a problem but he keeps brushing it off.
I also asked him about why he’s always coming back late. His only response is that he’s just going somewhere but he never tells me with whom and where.
I don’t know why but I have the gut feeling that his nightly outings are with that girl. That Anika. What’s up with them anyway?
I don’t want Sehun to get pissed off or get mad at me so I try to hold back and force myself not to ask any more questions about that girl and chose to stay silent.
And in those few days, I felt my chest hurt every single day. I couldn’t avoid getting hurt this badly because of my feelings for Sehun. You see, I’ve fallen so hard for him.
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I really love him.
 \nAfter a few days, same old same old. Things with Sehun are on a standstill. It’s like nothing has changed and nothing can bring back our previous arrangements. I feel like he’s slowly drifting away from me. It’s like we’re normal room mates who don’t bother acknowledging each other’s existence.
I was probably assuming a lot of things back then. I thought, after Sehun has confessed his feelings for me, that there’s something between us. I thought he’s going to become my boyfriend. I know it’s kinda lame but that’s what I concluded. Can you blame me? But what can I do? Is this heading somewhere?
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Argh! Messed up! Everything is so messed up! So frustrating!