â One of the girls I hung out with didnât dare invite me to the party. I know she wants to stand out the most at the party, but she shouldnât have thought about it like that and put it into practice.
â Thatâs why I stole the clothes for her debutante ball and told you to mend them. Soon her partner will show up at the mansion to pick me up. What would her expression be like if she lost all the attention she wanted to receive on the most important day of her life? Arenât you curious?
Just for that reason? The debutante ball was one of the most important days of Janeâs life. It was every girlâs dream, and it was also a place to make friends as well as meet someone to marry in the future.
â No matter how beautiful the clothes you make are, if the makerâs status is low, it will be a lowly garment. Even if itâs sad, I canât help it because this is what class is all about.
Since ancient times, there has been a great wall between nobles and commoners. And now that the times have advanced, another wall of âwealthâ has been created.
Poor aristocrats were sometimes inferior to commoners.
She had to keep her dignity, but she didnât have the money for that. In order to earn money, such ones had to give up their dignity, so even if they were poor, there were aristocrats who died like a noblemanâ, Jane was a poor aristocrat.
â I will be your patron. I will give you a new identity and I will spare no effort to support you so that you can succeed. Because I feel good today.
She thought she wouldnât have suffered so much if she had been born into a good family. If she was lucky and was born as the daughter of a powerful family, would it have been okay to look down on people like this? She was upset. She was upset, butâŠ.
â I will.
Jane was fed up with poverty. She wanted to end her days of barely satisfying her hunger with porridge boiled with only potatoes and flour because she had nothing else to eat.
She didnât like the situation of losing all the money she had saved up in an instant if she caught a cold even if she worked hard.
â Great. You will be my distant relative from now on. You will say you lived in the Kendall region and came up here a while ago. What would be a good nameâŠ..
Lady Miserian stroked Janeâs brown hair and shook her hands as if to shake off the dirt.
â Twal Rose. Letâs go with Twal Rose. Madame Twal Rose. Dye your hair pink to match the name. The more unconventional the first impression is the better.
Having destroyed everything related to Jane, she had lived as Twal Rose from that day forward. Name, appearance, behavior, tone of voice, taste, pastâŠâŠ
She changed everything she could.
When she was finally ready, she carved the name Janeâ on a tombstone next to her husbandâs tombstone. She no longer looked back when she heard the name Jane.
Twal Roseâs salon quickly took over the social world. She made a small selection of beautiful dresses that fit the ladies perfectly, one couldnât even dream of getting her dresses unless they bought it faster than everyone else.
The nobleâs servants walked in and out of Twal Roseâs salon door and handed out invitations to her. If she ever showed up at an invited place, they would flirt with her and fret to get a dress. Among them, there was a household where she had once been their paid seamstress.
It was funny. She had changed everything from her appearance, habits and manner of speech, but the only thing that remained the same as before were her sewing skills.
But no one recognized any traces of Jane. So even though Twal Rose had all the wealth and fame in her hands, she sometimes felt empty.
She looked in the mirror and saw a strange woman standing there. There was nothing left to prove her past self, that is, her true self.
All for âTwal Roseâ, not âJaneâ. A life full of lies was choking her neck.
Even though she would never get caught, she sometimes dreamed of falling down after being discovered that she was Jane.
She sometimes dreamed of her husband. Each time her husbandâs face faded, she felt sorry for him, but she had no way of remembering him. Even if she digs his grave right now, only a skeleton would be waiting for her.
The emptiness stung her. But she had no one else to consult with. There was only one person left in this current world who knew she was âJaneâ.
â Youâve been thinking a lot. Do you think there is anyone in this world who only tells the truth? Do you believe that there is a person who is completely clean?
â How much of the âreal meâ do you think you know? How much do you think you know me? Will there ever come a day in your life when you will know the âreal meâ?
â Iâm kidding. Why do you think the faked figure isnât the real you? Who decides that? If you truly believe that you are who you are, then that is also you.
â Donât let others judge you. You judge yourself.
As she watched her black storm-like hair fluttering in the wind, all her worries seemed insignificant. Beautiful things sometimes make you forget all your thoughts. Thatâs why mankind has longed for beauty for so long.
He honestly didnât think Iâd say no. He was staring at me with his mouth wide open. He also seemed confused. He chose his words for a while and managed to open his mouth.
âThis is not the time to build self-esteem, young lady.â
âIf I was going to build self-esteem, I would have accepted your offer.â
âThen why the hell!â
âI hate you.â
Jason raised his voice, but I cut him off. As I pulled out the stone stuck in my fingernail, I added, speaking softly.
âNo matter what people say, going out with you as a partner is even more annoying.â
âWhy do you hate me so much? I apologizedâŠâ
âDid I accept that apology? Not from my memory.â
Iâm not obligated to forgive you just because you are apologizing. An apple is just an apple after all. Even if I forgave him, what would that mean? Heâd constantly be rambling on and repeating his empty apologies.
How easy has it been that he lived a life that is so comfortable that he doesnât even think about other peopleâs feelings and only insists on his own opinion and stubbornness?
Now, I even marveled at Jason.
Envy him.
Because he is a person who is tolerable no matter how many times he makes a mistake. He seems to have lived with people who understood him even when he said that, but not me.
âYou mean you donât want to see me for the rest of your life? Itâs because I⊠was hostile to you in the first place? Only for that reason?â
âHow can it be considered âonlyâ? Isnât it as if the trust has really been broken? How can I believe that someone who once hated me wonât betray me
again?â
âIf I prove it, will you believe me then?â
Meaning of âlaneâ: The name Jane is of English origin and means God is gracious.