I spat those words out before turning my back to Kami-sama.
I glared at the wall before angrily scrubbing it with my rag.
Even so, the irritation I felt didnāt subside.
The black emotions that swirled within me, and I gritted my teeth to stop myself from taking a ragged breath.
āI shouldāve just taken a day-off today.ā
It was too ridiculous of me to diligently come to Kami-samaās room considering what happened yesterday.
Why did I have to worry about him after not seeing him for a day? Just why did I have to think that I should bring him food?
āEven though Iām just a proxy.ā
I became more irritated by the second as my mind turned.
No matter how hard I scrubbed the wall, the scenes yesterday kept on flashing in my mind with no intentions to stop.
āAmalda was the one chosen for this role, and yet she forced this on me.ā
In reality, it was Amalda who was supposed to be here, not me.
I glared at the dirt on the wall that wouldnāt come off no matter what, before shaking my head in disgust.
Unwittingly, I looked around me, and the shadows in the poorly lit room filled my view.
Kami-samaās room was dark even at noon.
Moreover, it was very cramped, shabby and extremely old.
The furniture that looked as if it didnāt belong here all came from Lidianne.
He couldnāt even get his own food.
The priests treated him poorly. No one, not even the saintesses, treated him humanely.
And besides, more than any of that ā
āEleanor-san.ā
I still had my back on him when Kami-sama called out to me.
It was really obvious from his tone that he was very worried, but I unwittingly gritted my teeth harder.
āIām concerned about you. I canāt leave the ācurrentā Eleanor-san alone.ā
I couldnāt see what Kami-sama looked like now since heās behind me.
Even so, I could imagine how he must be trembling like usual.
His round and black body didnāt have any human traits in it, but he was probably peering at me.
Anyone would be repulsed by his appearance.
āPlease feel free to talk to me about what happened. I can only listen, but āā
The voice I heard from behind me was gentle beyond words.
His soft voice was infused with tenderness, shyness, and even familiarity ā but I didnāt want to listen to it.
āEven though I donāt want these wicked thoughts.ā
I couldnāt stop my mind from thinking.
Saintess Amalda with the Supreme Deity Granverite, known to be a peerlessly handsome man.
The priests gave her special treatment. Father and Eric were so smitten with her that they didnāt even have eyes forĀ me.
āEleanor-san.ā
The bottom of my heart felt sticky, more like goo.
I couldnāt help it, I couldnāt stop these emotions from overflowing.
I didnāt want to think about it, I didnāt want to say this, but ā
āI want to be your strength.ā
After hearing those powerful words, I whirled around to face the black mass before me.
I breathed hard as I stared at that gently jiggling appearance of his.
āStrengthā
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My voice trembled as the words spilled along with the ragged breath.
Kami-sama stiffened as if bracing himself.
However, it was too late.
The words were out, I couldnāt stop them.
āYou āā
The overflowing emotions were undeniably filled with spite.
My face warped because of my ugliness that was way beyond more horrifying than Kami-samaās wretched figure.
āJust what can you, the Incompetent God, do!?ā
Silence filled the room at that instant.
Kami-sama shook heavily without a word, obviously hurt.
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