Blinding light shines through the gap between the curtains. A sharp electronic noise rings from my smartphone, telling me that it’s six-thirty in the morning.
“Shut upp……”
I was the one who set the alarm, but the sound that was hurting my ears was unpleasant, this alarm function is so deadly.
I still want to sleep, but big brother will come to wake me up in five minutes.
He wakes me up and prepares breakfast for me every day. I can’t bother big brother any further. Let’s wake up.
Probably because I have low blood pressure, I’m weak in the morning. Unlike usual, I woke up feeling relatively good today.
It’s not as bad as to say that ‘I’m on bad terms with big brother’, but on top of solving the awkward situation,
The situation has changed, and I’m excited to see what other meals I can feast on. My chest is throbbing with excitement.
After the DV[1] incident when I told them that I could hear their voices, big brother escaped and darted outside. Haru-nii who went to chase after him came back after an hour.
Immediately after Haru-nii came back, I teased, “Both of you came back quite late, what were you two doing outside? Ah……so it’s like that. So you won’t be doing it at home from now on.”
Big brother clenched his fist silently, his eyes filled with tears. Too cute, it’s suffocating.
He might end up hating me if I overdo it, so I should do it moderately……I decided.
That’s what I declared, but whenever I see big brother, I just have to tease him. I can’t hold it in.
I went to the kitchen where big brother, the angel, should be at while having a disgusting smile on my face.
“Akira, morning.”
“Morning~”
As I thought, I need this angel’s smile in the morning.
It was really difficult when my big brother wasn’t here, or when there wasn’t any food on the table.
The world was black and white.
Now that my nutritional source–the angel’s smile and the big brother couple– has been restored, my rainbow-coloured paradise has revived.
Ah, I’m glad to be alive.
“If you don’t eat now, you’ll run out of time.”
“Okay~”
I sat down as if I was attracted to the delicious smell.
On the table was my favourite ham and egg toasted sandwich.
“Yay, it’s toasted sandwich!”
I loved the toasted sandwich that big brother made ever since I was young. There was a period of time where I’d requested to eat it every day.
“I’ve caused Akira trouble, so this is an apology, I guess.”
“You didn’t need to do this. It’s fine……but maybe if you made this every day, I’d be happy.”
I looked at him with eyes filled with expectation, but the reply he gave was cold.
“No. I don’t want to see that for a while.”
“Ehh~”
I raised my voice in protest, but big brother was serious about it.
You don’t like it that much?
Perhaps it’s because when I was younger, big brother made a splendid pancake that made me want to butt in and say, “Are you a patisserie or something!” but I said, “I prefer the toasted sandwich,” so he might be holding a grudge on that.
Big brother has that side of him.
It can’t be helped, I’ll patiently wait for my next opportunity.
Let’s enjoy my favourite dish set in front of me for now.
“Sighh, delicious……”
This simple taste of egg and ham is well-balanced.
‘Toasted sandwich’ smells and tastes way better than just a sandwich, it’s the best.
As long as I have the combination of toasted sandwich with cafe au lait, then I feel alive.
By all means, when I leave this world, I’d like it if someone placed it in my coffin.
“For you to be so happy over something so simple…ell, it’s fine if it isn’t troublesome.”
Big brother murmured as he sat on the seat opposite mine, elegantly sipping his black coffee.
I feel like he’s treating me as a simple fool.
“Are you fine with black coffee? Weren’t you influenced by your boyfriend and drank cafe au lait too?”
If the latter’s treating me like that, then I can’t keep quiet either.
The corner of my lips curled. When I grinned at big brother with a meaningful look, blood rushed up to his face and he gave me a sharp glare.
You look cute even when you glare at me like that, kukuku.
The intercom rang and broke the moment with perfect timing..
It’s still too early for them to come, I wonder who it is.
Big brother headed to the entrance to see who it was.
When big brother came back, a big and small figure followed behind him.
“Yo.”
“Aki, morning!”
It was the beautiful siblings, Haru-nii and Hina.
They always come in the morning, but it’s unusual for them to come together and be this early.
“Morning. Why are both of you here? Is there something happening?”
“Nope. I was checking whether all of you were getting along with each other! I’m glad, it seems fine?”
“I said that we’re fine already, didn’t I?”
“I can’t trust big brother’s ‘fine’.”
It seems like I’ve made Hina extremely worried.
She talked about the mysterious ‘teacher’, and it seems like we went down the right track. I need to thank her.
“Thanks, Hina.”
“Yup! It’s good that you’ve made up with Mako-nii.”
Big brother and I looked at each other and smiled.
Big brother seems a little awkward.
Well, the cause of the problem was ‘jealousy’ after all.
“Mako-nii and big brother too, it’s good that you can return to being lovey-dovey with each other!”
Hina said, smiling widely.
Hm?
……Oi, wait a minute.
I feel uneasy.
As I took a quick glance at big brother, he was frozen in place.
“Hina……! I said that I’d wait for the perfect timing!”
“Eh? But Aki knew about it too, right? Then didn’t you talk about it already?”
“I haven’t said it yet, idiot!”
“Ehh!?”
Haru-nii and Hina were exchanging looks and whispering to each other.
It’s completely visible and we can hear you!
I grasped the situation and started to feel nervous.
Perhaps big brother sensed it already……which is the reason why he’s frozen in place without a doubt.
I thought I had no choice but to explain the situation, but Haru-nii turned his gaze towards us.
“The truth is, Hina knew that we were dating too.”
It was the subject that I had expected to be mentioned.
“……No way, really?”
I knew about it, but I just wanted to confirm.
I would understand if you were talking about normal couples, but I didn’t expect Hina to realize the BL type of couples.
Hina had no idea that her brothers would be a couple, so I was shocked because I was under the impression that she wouldn’t understand even if she thought it was strange.
“Just recently though, I found out about it. When I asked big brother, his silence kind of spoke for itself……”
“So that was it.”
“Did Aki find out way before?”
“Well, kind of……?”
The ‘kind of’ is a lie.
I’m in the midst of listening to their conversation as much as I can.
But I probably don’t need to tell Hina about it.
Perhaps it’s because we were talking about them, but Haru-nii looked restless.
And big brother is still frozen in place.
“I see, that’s amazing. I mean, I didn’t even realize until teacher told me about it.”
She mentioned ‘teacher’ again.
“Oi, oi, does that teacher know about us?”
Oh my, judging by Haru-nii’s reaction, he didn’t know about that ‘teacher’.
Since it seems like Hina got advice from them, I thought he knew about it, but……
“Eh, yeah? Teacher was the one who gave me the advice, ‘Isn’t he just jealous of him,’ they said. Didn’t I tell you about it?”
“I never heard of that! So that wasn’t your opinion. Then, when you realized about our relationship, it was because of that person? And previously when you gave me that advice, it was from that person too?”
“Yeah.”
Uwah……just stop already!
Big brother will become a robot that stopped functioning due to overheating!
Hearing the word ‘jealous’ again, he’s receiving huge damage.
Besides, big brother seems reluctant to let people know about their relationship.
I don’t think it’s because of a negative reason, but he’s simply just embarrassed.
He’s panicking so much just by having Hina know about it. If other people knew about it, the angel’s heart wouldn’t be able to handle it.
“Haru-nii, why don’t you head to school earlier today!?”
It’s becoming a public execution, hurry up and help out!
Keep him away from the indiscriminate weapon called JK!
“Y-you’re right! Makoto, let’s go!”
“Hina. Just don’t……Definitely don’t tell anyone about this, okay……”
“S-sure.”
When he left the kitchen, he left while muttering in devastation.
Big brother’s back was filled with grief.
Haru-nii, I’ll leave big brother to you……
“Did I do something wrong?”
“Haha……”
“But for Mako-nii to be jealous, he has a cute side to him too.”
I could only let out a dry laugh.
I knew that she didn’t mean harm, but……innocence is a scary thing.
“Well, just leave them alone. Don’t tell anyone about it, okay?”
“Y-yeah, okay.”
I spoke strictly just in case, but Hina was despondent.
I wonder if she thought that I was angry.
I’m not angry, but……It’s something important, so I might’ve sounded too strict.
She looked like she was going to sink into the ground, so I changed the topic and asked a question cheerfully.
“But who’s this ‘teacher’?”
I haven’t eaten my favourite dish and I’m running out of time already.
I moved my hands again while talking to her.
As I looked at Hina, she returned to normal after realizing that I wasn’t angry.
“They told me to keep it as a secret. She told me that it’s since she’s the type of person who lives underground.”
“What’s with that, is she an underground person?”
“It’s something like, she knows a lot about our brothers’ type of BL.”
“!?”
The moment I heard the word ‘BL’, I was about to spit out the food in my mouth.
I was desperately able to hold it in, but it’s hard to breathe.
How do I explain this……I never thought that I’d hear the word ‘BL’ coming out from Hina’s mouth.
Hina seems to be unaware that I was panicking, so she continued the shocking conversation.
“Ah, BL means boys love, and it’s love between boys. There are ‘seme’ and ‘uke’……”
I know, I know more than you do!
I never thought that there would be a day where someone would explain BL to me, the person who clung onto BL even when I reincarnated……
Moreover, it’s Hina.
Hina’s recitation of someone’s ‘BL lecture’ is still ongoing, but to be honest, I’m not listening at all.
Isn’t that teacher just a fujoshi?!
”
”
Who is it?
It’s most probably someone around Hina, I wonder if it’s her friend or something.
But it’s not like I know all of Hina’s friends, and I can’t think of anyone who knows about that.
In any case, it may be better to be cautious if a fujoshi is nearby.
I don’t want anyone to know that I have a fujoshi’s mind.
I was a hidden fujoshi in my past life as well.
I wasn’t the type of higher class fujoshis where they’re in a train, heading to an event and having a debate whether that person was a ‘seme’ in a loud voice that would make people think,’Are you having a broadcast in the train or something!” But I was the type that pretended to be a normal person that just happened to be on board.
After all, I got off at the same station and got swept away by the torrent of the same people, stuffed thin books in a paper bag made by my favourite club and returned home. It was messy and I struggled pointlessly in life.
In any case, I should restrain myself from having a rotten mind at school.
“Ah, sorry. This kind of conversation, Aki isn’t interested in it, right.”
“Eh. Well, yeah……”
Rather than not interested, I just can’t say, ‘I’m only thinking about that kind of stuff,’.
”
”
I faced down and desperately swallowed the remaining food in my mouth.
I instantly lost my appetite ……
Speaking of which, I wonder what the normal JK Hina thinks of our brothers.
“What do you think of our brothers?”
She was startled for a moment, but the next moment, she hung her head awkwardly.
“To tell you the truth, I hated it at first. I mean, they’re boys you know? ‘There are many cute girls around them, both of them are so popular, so why did they end up as a couple!’ I thought.”
You’re right.
I felt bad for some reason.
But I want to say, “That’s the reason why they’re precious.”
I can’t say it out but I’d like to insist on that!
“But when I was watching our brothers, I wanted to cheer for them. Neither big brother nor Mako-nii are in this relationship with half-hearted feelings, and they really do like each other.”
“……I see.”
”
”
I’m glad that Hina is a good girl.
She looked innocent and cute as she muttered, “I’m so jealous,” as opposed to mine.
I want Hina to stay like this.
I can’t wish for her to get poisoned by her fujoshi friend.
Dear Rotten God, I beg of you to kindly spare Hina.
I will present many offerings to you in Hina’s stead.
“What about Aki? You didn’t hate it?”
“I’ve never thought of hating it, but I thought that they were a good match.”
“I-is that so?”
It seems like my answer was unexpected.
Well, obviously.
Accepting it without opposition would be more unnatural.
I don’t plan on explaining that though.
As I was being silent, Hina glanced at me as if she had something to say.
“What?”
I urged her to speak while I was drinking my cafe au lait.
It’s not like she needs to be cautious with me, I wonder what she’s hesitating for.
“H-hey. Can I ask you something weird?”
“Like I said, what is it?”
“……Aki isn’t BL, right?”
I was about to spit out my cafe au lait this time.
It can’t be helped that she thinks that since his older brother is like that, then his younger brother is too. But having my childhood friend that’s also the opposite gender from me, face me and ask “Are you BL,” made me feel tired and speechless.
“I’m not.”
“I see, obviously, right! Yeah, I’m glad! I’m glad that you’re not BL!”
“What’s with that confirmation? Rather, don’t mention it that much in front of our brothers, okay?”
“Ah, you’re right. But I’m not saying that BL is bad, I was just happy that Aki isn’t……sorry!”
“No, you don’t have to apologize.”
Maybe I was the one that was too concerned, but I want my brothers to be calm and zealous as much as possible.
I’d like to receive some words that motivate me.
Even if I didn’t, they found out that I knew about it, so they wouldn’t be doing it at home that much anyway.
After that, Hina and Kaede, who lost to her, would come at the same time.
They said that they’d come earlier tomorrow, but I want them to stop competing with each other.
Sooner or later, they would be coming over while I’m sleeping.
We were running out of time when we left the house, and in the end, we reached school just in time.
As I was patting my chest to calm down a bit, I happened to bump into Sasaki-san at the school gate where the Red Demon, the gatekeeper of hell, used to be at.
“Morning.”
We greeted each other……except Kaede.
Sasaki-san looked at Kaede and called him, but he looked away and ignored her.
Kaede was being prickly towards Sasaki-san, who had a pleasant smile on her face for some reason.
They look like a patient maid and an arrogant prince.
We stopped for a while, but I remembered that HR was going to start soon, so the four of us entered the school building in a hurry.
We arrived at the entrance, and when we were going to part with Hina and Sasaki-san who were in a different class from us, someone hit my shoulder.
As I turned around, Sasaki-san was grinning and talked to me.
I thought something happened to Kaede, but……it was something completely unrelated.
“Hey, Amachi-kun. What is the opposite of ‘seme’?
“……Huh?”
My brain stopped working by the sudden question.
What is it, so sudden.
”
”
But my brain that was starting to slowly return back to normal quietly flipped the ‘cautious’ switch.
This question……
Right, it’s that.
It was that ‘Fujoshi detection type of questions’.
I wonder why she’s asking me this kind of thing.
Perhaps……she’s suspecting me!?
As soon as I figured it out, my cautious level became MAX in an instant.
I’m in serious trouble, I have to think of something……!
“I-i wonder, seme is ‘offensive’ so……is it ‘defense’, ah, ‘to defend’?”
“……Hmmm? That was a great reference. Thanks. I’m sorry, I stopped you~ See you……”
She said that, and went after Hina as if nothing happened.
Was I able to avoid the crisis?
I was sweating profusely.
For her to ask me that kind of question, she must be suspecting that I’m a fujoshi, no, a ‘fudanshi’.
This is bad, really bad!
I wonder what caused her to suspect me.
I wonder if I made a mistake that made her suspect me somehow.
No, I think it was fine until now……
Then I remembered the fact that ‘there’s a fujoshi somewhere near Hina”.
‘The ‘teacher’ was Sasaki-san?’
If that was true, then I can understand why she asked me that question.
I wonder if she heard from Hina and guessed it from there.
‘So Sasaki-san is a ‘fujoshi’……’
She didn’t seem like one, but there are many types of fujoshis.
Since Hina had said, “She said that she lived underground,” she might be the hidden type of fujoshi.
She was very friendly and was easy to talk to, but she was the same bird of a feather.
I think I was able to deceive her well, but……I wonder.
I think that the content of the question was too specific, so there’s a high possibility that she wasn’t judging by my ‘answer’, but rather ‘the flow of it’.
That was terrible……was it better to say ‘uke’ without thinking. Rather, I wonder if it was better to pretend that I didn’t know the answer and think about it since it was a sudden question.
Well……I guess there’s no use thinking about things that are over.
I have to stay alert and be careful from now on.
Really, I’ve pointlessly used up my strength in the morning.