As I spoke, I shook his wrist and he let go of me. I covered his nose with a handkerchief and put my lips to his eyelids first and then removed them. The place that touched my lips was hot. It felt like something was being ripped off.
Why did he let me hit him without stopping me�
It was my fault that I was angry with him for nothing. It was the first time I had experienced this kind of feeling, so I couldnât really understand it, but maybe⊠it was just getting on my nerves?
Why are you like that?
When you meet someone who is reassuring, you end up leaning on that person for nothing, and you get annoyed and it gets on your nerves.
âŠGetting on my nerves.
It was something that could only be done between really close friends. Grumpiness knowing that the other person will accept it. Iâd never had anyone like that before, both before and after being possessed.
There was a difference between being friendly and being able to rely on others. I liked Amber and Damian and Oscar, though I couldnât rely on them. They were the people I was responsible for.
Of course, Lucian was one of themâŠ
So, this feeling was very unfamiliar. Even though it was unfamiliar, I couldnât stand the feeling of wanting to cry that had already hit me and spit it out.
âWhy were you being beaten like an idiot? If itâs you, you should avoid everything. What would you do when you practiced like that? Youâre getting hit by a weak woman like meâŠâ
I lowered my lips again and lightly pressed them to his swollen area.
Each time that happened, I could see Lucianâs chest swell and sink. I parted my lips as I peered into those golden eyes that were so close that they were out of focus.
What is this feeling�
I was sad and also angry. Though what was this feeling that made me feel so relieved that I felt like I was about to cry?
My lips trembled, and when I pressed it, the blood finally stopped. It was then that I was able to release the strength from my body with peace of mind.
When I glanced around, I could see the chaotic mess around all of a sudden. Everything I didnât know because it was dark was revealed by a single magic lamp.
As I struggled, red traces, presumed to be Lucianâs blood, stood out on the messy bed. Seeing the traces, fear came crashing down like a wave. What if I had another seizure? It had never been like this since I got possessed, so what if I did this againâŠ?
I breathed a sigh and swallowed a cry. I was very accustomed to swallowing my emotions.
âIt would be good to call someone. Wait a minuteâŠâ
Before I could finish my words, Lucian, who had been still, quickly got up and laid me down.
No, to be precise, he grabbed my shoulders and pressed them.
He, who had already taken over me, still stared at me without saying a word. It was a tenacious gaze as if he was going to dig into everything about me⊠As if he was looking deep through my eyes.
I wanted to turn away, but I couldnât take my eyes off the golden eyes that were brighter than the magic lamp.
He stared at him with trembling eyes, and his face grew closer and closer. The white face that had been smeared with redness was still beautiful. It seemed to prove that nothing could cover up his beauty.
Blink.
The black eyelashes went down for a moment and then went up. I blinked my eyes following him without realizing it, and something hot touched my lips.
It felt like a burn on my lips.
Before I knew it was his lips, he covered my face. He moved slowly sideways as though trying to feel the texture of my lips.
I couldnât breathe and I was frozen. I couldnât even open my closed eyes, and I was so stiff, holding only his blood-stained handkerchief.
Kiss.
He moved up and down, then bit my upper lip and let it go.
Kiss.
This time he bit my lower lip and released it. Every now and then, the sound of sticking and falling was clearly audible.
With my lips together, he stood still. It was like someone trying to wait for me to breathe through my lips. I couldnât hold it any longer and let out a breath I had been holding on to. I took a deep breath as if I had fallen into the water and came out.
At the same time, Lucian kissed my lips again. Without missing the gap, he pressed his lips together again.
However, a different, hotter piece of flesh than before came rushing into my mouth.
Unlike the dry lips, the flesh that invaded was moist, and unlike the lips that were carefully matched, it moved freely into my mouth.
As if this place was originally his placeâŠ
âUummâŠ!â
My heart was burning hot, and I couldnât stand it. I gasped and tried to get away from him, but I could see why he grabbed my face.
I seemed to be holding his hand on my face, though I couldnât get out of it at all.
My mind was confused.
What� What is this?
The overloaded head flickered like a flashing light. After fainting, my brain, just after waking up, seemed to refuse activity. When I opened my eyes, I had the illusion that golden light was pouring down. I couldnât get out of it when my eyes got entangled again.
He stared intently into my eyes, slowly scanning my teeth. Every time the soft touch tapped my hard teeth, my body trembled. My toes clenched as his pointed tongue scraped the roof of my mouth.
He tapped as if waking up my frozen tongue. It was wrapped around him, not missing the moment it moved in surprise.
Hot flesh met each other and moved slowly.
Not breathing properly, not even closing my eyes, I couldnât show any reaction. Lucian hugged me tightly, who could only follow him as he moved. He dropped his lips with a nibble, squeaking sound, and then stuck them all over my face and then pulled them off over and over again.
For a long time, without saying a word, he tormented my face, then whispered in my ear in a shallow voice from a distance close enough that I could even feel his breath.
âI like you.â
Even though I had heard it a while ago, it sounded completely different. They were so different that I wondered if they were really the same word.
SoâŠ
LikeâŠ
It seemed to be claiming that it was completely different from the âI like you,â he said.
I didnât quite understand. My frozen brain could no longer think, and I stared at him with an expression of not understanding it and muttered the same words again.
âI like it, too.â
My murmur cracked his face. He bit his lip, making the expression I often see.
I didnât know.
What he wanted me to say, now I didnât even know. The pride that I had been quick to notice even the slightest change in his expression was no longer found in me.
I donât know him anymore.
What does he want?
When I opened my eyes again, he was nowhere to be seen. Instead, only the bright sunlight that seemed to prick my eyes greeted me.
âLady, are you awake?â
â âŠAmber.â
Even though I said small words, it felt like my throat would be ripped apart. After that, it seemed like I have a feverâŠ
âIâŠâ
âLady, stop talking. It must have been a disaster this time around.â
âWhy?â
Even in my small voice, Amber understood and answered.
âDo you know how high your fever was? You havenât woken up in two full days.â
ââŠTwo days?â
âNow, donât say anything. You still have a fever.â
I nodded at her words.
âHere, have some water.â
Amber got me up and made me lean against the head of the bed. She brought a glass of lukewarm water to my lips.
The water I drank was the most delicious Iâd ever drunk.
âHua.â
âWait a minute, Iâll bring you some soup. And, Iâll have to bring a doctor as well.â
It sounded like she was speaking calmly, but I could feel Amberâs hand trembling as she wiped my face.
âThanks.â
âReally⊠Why do you surprise people like this? Donât say anything and just stay there. Iâll be right back.â
After meticulously covering me with a blanket, Amber hurriedly left.
I laid blankly, leaning on the bed. When I heard the door open, I just turned my head. Naturally, I thought it was Amber, and I spoke to the person who came in.
âDukeâŠâ
It was the Duke I had not seen in a long time. He smiled with a rather emaciated face.
âArenât you going to call me father? Are you mad that I didnât meet you?â
Even though he said that, he was still friendly and sat down next to me. He gazed at my face and reached out, and gently wiped my face.
âYouâre weak, too. I guess you have to eat healthy food.â
âHehe, it just feels like a cold.â
âYou shouldnât look down on a cold. Lie down comfortably.â
âYesâŠâ
Although the Duke didnât say anything, he looked at me with deep eyes. He seemed worried. Seeing that, It felt ticklish for no reason. I felt like a child in front of the Duke.
As I bashfully laughed, he scolded me.
âWhatâs so funny that youâre laughing?â
âBut, itâs been a while, hasnât it?â
âItâs been a long time, though youâre sick?â
âIâm sorryâŠâ
His eyes deepened at my apology. He glanced into the air for a moment and then turned his gaze to me.
âRay.â
âYes.â
He opened and closed his lips several times as if to say something before calling me again.
âRay.â
âYesâŠâ
âMaybeâŠâ
âYes.â
âIf theâŠâ
What did he want to say�
Contrary to usual, he rarely got up to the main point. However, after a small sigh, he stared at me as if determined.
âIf you want to leave this place, be sure to ask this father.â