When my third confession failed, I looked up and threw a tantrum. Even though I was rejected, my reaction was excessive, stubborn, and rude⦠but itās nothing to be worried about.
After all, the person I was confessing to was a 2D heroine inside of a monitor.
ā¦Donāt tell me that this is really pathetic. Iām aware of it myself; after all, Iām sitting here by myself, cursing at a dating sim because I donāt know what to do.
But even though Iām aware of it, I canāt stop shouting at the screen.
āWhatās so bad about meā¦ā
Collapsing on my bed face up, I mumbled like a snobby secondary character as I vacantly gazed at the controller that dropped from my hand.
Itās been five days⦠since I started the dating sim āGolden Tricksā. As for my progress, Iāve captured one heroine a day. I waited until the time was right to start capturing the last heroine, which was my favorite. However, the result of the three confessions to the blond honors student, Frau Heavenly, wasā¦[2]
I groaned while I scratched my head and pulled on my hair in frustration.
āAh~, mou, I donāt get it.. I have no idea where I made the wrong choice.ā
In the beginning, my goals was to capture last heroine in one go without any mistakes. But⦠I made a mistake sometime, and my confession scene failed.
In my surprise, I thought about the choices I made and tried to figure out where I failed. In my second attempt, where I meticulously thought over my choices and was careful about what I said⦠I was rejected again.
When things got to that point, I realized that I was making some fundamental mistake, and I over-enthusiastically challenged it for the third time. Using the quick save and load function, I closely examined all of Frauās reactions from each of the possible choices and intentionally tried my best to stay away from all the other heroines. My perfect confessionāwas a tragic shipwreck.
I threw myself onto the bed while badmouthing the game.
As the strangely melancholic and simplistic ending credits of the bad end rolled, I let out a big sigh.
ā(ā¦Why did things turn out like this⦠Of all people, why am I only bad at this characterā¦)ā
While looking up at the ceiling, I got mad at myself, Amano Keita, for being in this miserable state. It may appear over-the-top for a simple dating sim game, butā¦
To be honest, Frau looked similar to Tendo-san.
ā(ā¦After leaving the heroine that looks like Tendo-san for last, I was tragically rejectedā¦)ā
Actually, none of the reviews and the rumors say that Frauās route was difficult in any sense. In other words, none of the other players had any difficulties clearing her route. I was the only person stuck. I donāt understand how a womanās heart works at all. ā¦No, thatās wrong. Rather than āa womanās heartā, āTendo-sanās heartā would be more accurate. After all, I was able to capture the other heroines without any problems.
Even in this situation, the fact that I had to look up information on the last heroine is irritating. Having said that, going through the game once again takes 40 minutes, even if I skip through all the dialogue. I donāt have a strategy in mind, nor do I have the energy to go through the game a fourth time.
āā¦Hah.ā
I let out a big sigh and turned off the console.
Feeling dead tired, I stayed on my bed and started playing a social network game.
āAmano, donāt call this a love consultation.ā
When my curt friend responded like that, I clung onto him in a panic saying āno no noāand held him back.
It was after school on Wednesday. When I went to go spend my time doing nonsense, or in other words, go to the Gamers Hobby Club, I gathered up my courage and went to Uehara-kun for consultation, but his response was really cold.
After making sure that I had time before Chiaki comes, who was in another class, I kept trying to get him to talk to me.
āIām not here for anything like that. I-I think thisāll help me get closer to Tendo-san. Please?ā
Uehara-kun ignored me, who was desperately clinging onto him, and casually picked at his ear with his pinky.
āI mean, since you have a real girlfriend, Uehara-kun, capturing a heroine in a dating sim should be a piece of cake, right? Please teach me nicely, Uehara-kun.ā
āā¦Amano.ā
āYes?ā
Uehara-kun suddenly let out a big sigh and shook his finger while saying, āOh myā⦠He then crossed his arms and started to talk like he was about to criticize me.
āIām going to tell you the shocking truth starting now, which may be a bit of a surprise for an otaku like you.ā
I sensed that he would say some harsh words, so I looked away and tried to stop him in a panic.
āOh⦠S-sorry, you really donāt have to help! I donāt want to hear!ā
āA dating sim gameāā
āAh, ah, ah, I-I canāt hear youāā
āādoesnāt actually simulate real life dating!ā
āDonāt say it!ā
Having been stabbed by the harsh truth, the herbivorous young boy trembled.
Uehara-kun looked down at me with a pitiful gaze as he continued to talk.
āSo, even though I have a girlfriendāRather, because I have a girlfriend, I canāt give you advice about dating sims. Even though they look similar⦠theyāre two completely different things!ā
āGyaaaaaaaaaaa!ā
When Uehara-kun told me what I had been suspecting, I put my head on my desk, feeling crestfallenā¦.
ā¦I then groaned.
āThen⦠then, all the experience Iāve gotten from the game about talking to girls isā¦ā
āSorry, Amano. Actually, the experience you got is only for your interaction level with the heroines⦠in reality, your interaction level with girls hasnāt increased at all!ā
āW-what!?ā
āThe opposite is also true. So, Iām not able to give you advice. Youāre probably way better at dating sims than I am. Yo, Simulation God!ā
āWhat kind of disgraceful nickname is āSimulation Godā!? I-Iām not a āSimulation Godā!ā
āBy the way, Amano, how many gal games have you completed just during your second year?ā
āUm⦠around 40?ā
āCongratulations, Amano.ā
Suddenly, Uehara-kun handed me a sheet of paper. In big letters, the words āSimulation Godā were written in huge letters with a sharpie. Itās something like a certificate.
After Uehara-kun saw me slump my shoulders, he said āWell, itās just a jokeā, and continued talking.
āActually though, I donāt know even if you ask me. I donāt do those kind of gal games.ā
āY-youāre kidding. Donāt be shy and just say it honestlyāā
āNo, Iām serious. Really. Or rather, itās just Amano-kun. A normal boy wouldnāt play gal games at all. Your sense of values are clearly biased because of your otaku nature.ā
āT-then where do normal boys vent their feelings of desire for girlsāā
āNormally, itās AVs.ā
Although I felt dazed momentarily, I regained my wits and let out a sad sigh in disappointment.
āā¦What is with the youth of Japan these daysā¦ā
āNo no no, thatās what I should be saying to you.ā
āIt would be better if it was an erogeā¦ā
āNo, itās your tastes that are strange. Simply speaking, youāre different. In a sense, your preferences are hardcore.ā
After talking like he was amazed, Uehara-kun cleared his throat and returned to the main point.
āIn the first place, why are you being so stubborn, Amano? If youāre coming to me for advice, just ask online first.ā
It was a reasonable opinion, but I said, āNo,ā while I scratched my cheek in embarrassment.
āThis kind of adventure⦠especially for things like heroines of dating sims, feels a lot more empathetic to make my own decisions while looking over the choices instead of following a guideā¦ā
āHoho, so in other words, you want to learn how to become friends with Tendo-san by yourself. What a man.ā
My heart jumped up when he got it exactly right. I tried to deny it in a panic.
āN-no, what are you saying!? Iām talking about the game, the game!ā
While trying to smooth over the situation, I reflected on my actions. I realized that I had superimposed reality onto games more than necessary, and that I had dug myself into a hole that I couldnāt get out of.
I let out a sigh, thinking about how this whole situation was pathetic. Looking bothered, Uehara-kun scratched his head and started to talk again.
āIf you feel troubled about trying to use your experience capturing heroines in real life, just worry about reality itself. That would work much better.ā
ā? What do you mean?ā
āI mean. ā¦Isnāt it about time that you approach Tendo herself?ā
āEhā¦ā
My eyes spun at Uehara-kunās suggestion.
āWhat are you saying, Uehara-kun? Right now, Iām less than a flea to Tendo-san, so if I were to go up to her now⦠I still need to learn how to talk to girls. Did you forget?ā
āI didnāt forget. Iām telling you this because I didnāt forget.ā
āWhat do you mean?ā
āā¦What do I mean? ā¦Hah. Youā¦ā
āHmm?ā
Uehara-kun looked at me with an expression that seemed to say, āHow did you not realize yet?ā
And then⦠he approached the crux of the matter.
āDonāt you already talk to Tendo rather normally compared to other girls?ā
āāEh?ā
I froze for an instant, thinking about what he said. During that pause, Uehara-kun continued to talk.
āWell, Hoshinomori goes without saying⦠and I donāt really know much, but Iāve seen you talking to Aguri. And then⦠I mean, you talked to Tendo when you guys met and went to play medal games, right?ā
āY-yea, we did go play medal games together, butā¦ā
What is Uehara-kun trying to say? For a mob character like me to talk to Tendo-san normally⦠wait⦠ā¦
āComparatively!?ā
āYou just noticed!?ā
I stood up from my chair with a clang and shouted, eyes wide. Uehara-kun also replied in surprise.
I-I guess thatās true. When we were playing medal games, I was nervous as always and experienced strong feelings of awe, but I feel like I was able to properly communicate. Well, though that may be true, the mood wasnāt very good. Eventually, it became a competition between the two of us. In other words, I ended up losing and showed her my disgraceful side. Yea.
I was going to tell him that, but Uehara-kun said āNo, thatās not what I meantā, and listlessly massaged the back of his neck.
āI wasnāt talking about winning or losing. Because you two played together without special reasons like āclub activitiesā, I think you have already fulfilled the requirements to be considered as āfriendsā now.ā
āU-umm, is that so?ā
Honestly speaking, Iāve never thought about how close I am to Tendo-san. Every time we meet, I only think about my temper or about how I should act.
Since weāre pretty much āacquaintancesā, Iāve always talked and acted like such, but⦠well, itās not like thereās anything more than that between us. Rather, I often think that she still hates me.
Also, the reason why Tendo-san is getting close to me is⦠probably because she wants to get closer to Uehara-kun.
Sheās employing the tactic of āIf you want to aim for the general, aim for his horse firstā to get closer to him and be able to communicate with him. How much can you consider this as ābecoming closerā?
However, I canāt talk about this things with Uehara-kun himself, so all he sees is that Tendo-san and I are getting along.
ā(Mou, this is why the protagonist of a love comedy that doesnāt understand the girlās heart isā¦!)ā
While I was groaning, Uehara-kun looked at me with an exasperated expression for some reason.
āā¦Is the hurdle of āfriendshipā too big for you?ā
āUuā¦ā
Leaving aside Tendo-sanās love, there might be some truth to his words. There might be, butā¦
āBut the other person is Tendo-san, you know?ā
āWhether itās Tendo or a princess, in the end, itās just another person.ā
āBut Iām like a small flea to Tendo-san, or rather, just a big slugā¦ā
āEven if that might have been the case when you rejected her invitation to the Gamers Club, I donāt think itās still like that. You know, Tendo doesnāt really hate you. If she hated you, would she invite you for a walk?ā
āSince she met an acquaintance by chance on the street, she probably invited me out of kindness.ā
For some reason, Uehara-kun said, āAre you seriousā¦ā and held his head. It seems like Uehara-kun was really always worried about my relationships with other peopleā¦
āā¦Iām really happy that Uehara-kun became my friend.ā
āWhy do you only say nice things to me!?ā
He took a few steps back, his face turning red. Right⦠friendship between men should be more manly, yea. Manly⦠friendship between males⦠ā¦
āUehara-kun, do you want to enter a bath with me?ā
āAre you serious!? Youāre not being serious, right!?ā
Uehara-kun pushed aside the chairs and desks in front of him as he scrambled to get away from me. Our classmates that were still in the classroom were all looking at us.
As I looked around the room and bowed apologetically to try to fix the situationā
āOh, uh, Chiaki?ā
āI called to the seaweed-haired girl, who was, surprisingly, standing at the entrance of the classroom.
Uehara-kunās eyes widened in shock. For some reason, Chiakiās cheeks dyed red, and after looking back and forth at me and Uehara-kunā¦
āUm⦠that, that! I-I have something to take care of, so⦠um, um, that⦠g-goodbyeā!ā
She suddenly bolted from the room.
I didnāt understand her reaction, so I tilted my head, confused. Uehara-kun, however, was opening and closing his mouth like a goldfish⦠Suddenly, not caring about his surroundings, he shouted out loud with all his might.
āI canāt let things end like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssss!ā
While I was surprised, he immediately rushed back to his seat, picked up his bag, told me āThe Gamers Hobby Club is over for today!ā, and rushed after Chiaki desperately.
I was still confused about the situation. When I could no longer hear Uehara-kunās footsteps in the hall, I finally realized what had just happened.
āAh, damnā¦! This is definitely thatā¦!ā
Even if I may be oblivious about myself, I have some confidence in recognizing other peopleās relationships.
With a gulp, I rested my chin on my clasped hands and mumbled with conviction.
āThis is a flag that Uehara-kun and Chiakiās love is deepeningā¦!ā
A girl who blushes and run away, and a boy who shouts āI canāt let things end like this!ā and chases after her. I canāt mistake this for anything else, Isnāt this definitely an decisive scene before the ending? Or rather, isnāt this a bad ending?
āAh⦠mou, what should I doā¦!ā
I pulled at my hair for a short while.
Even though I felt uneasy⦠I reluctantly decided to contact Aguri-san.
Tendo Karen
āSo, no matter how many times you ask, I wonāt go out with you. ā¦Huh? A trial period, is it? Honestly, outside of professional relationships, I find that way of thinking disgusting. āTrialā⦠donāt you think thatās rude to the other person?
āā¦No, Iāve already said this before. I donāt want to date anyone. ā¦āThen isnāt it fineāā¦? ā¦Hah. Iām shocked.
āDo you even understand what Iām saying? Just to make it clear, Iāll tell you my final answer once again.
āI do not want to go out with you.
āā¦Hah? If you win the upcoming tournament? ā¦Hah. I donāt understand someone like you.
āWhat do you think I am? Is it fun to look at people as an āextra prizeā at some tournament?
āItās great that youāre good at boxing. I think itās respectable.
āBut thatās a completely different issue than my own emotions. Right?
āYou want me to watch your game? Youāll win for my sake? No thank you. Yes, no thank you. No, I donāt dislike boxing. I am simply saying that as of now, I am not willing to sacrifice my personal time just to watch your match. After all, why would I spend my day off watching someone I barely know in a match?
āWhat? You want to⦠start by being friends?
āā¦No, Iām not sure about that. In the first place, what do you mean by āfriendsā? Since I didnāt want to go out with you, youāre trying to⦠get closer to me by any means possible, right?
āUnfortunately, I do not want to be that kind of friend.
āIāll say this honestly⦠I am fully aware that what I am about to say may be rude, since this is our first time meeting, but I will still be direct.
āFrankly speaking, I donāt want to be friends with you.
āOur sense of values are different⦠or more importantly, I feel like we wouldnāt click. Obviously, a friend doesnāt have to have the same hobbies and preferences, but I think itās very important that their human nature is compatible.
āIn that sense, and although it may be unfortunate, after having heard your confession, I do not think that I like your personality.
āSo, taking all my earlier points into consideration, Iāwait, what?ā
I suddenly realized that Andou-san, who was in the boxing club from a different school, had disappeared from my vision.
āYouāre as unpleasant as the rumors said! Ah, no, please stop!ā
While hurling insults, Andou san ran out of the cultural clubs building, the floorboards creaking with every step.
While sighing, I looked at his back until he disappeared from my sight. Suddenly, I felt someone pat my shoulders from behind.
āGood work, Tendo-san.ā
ā? Oh, Misumi-kun. Youāre early.ā
Turning around in surprise, I looked at Misumi Eiichi-kun, who was standing still with an awkward and strained smile plastered on his ever refreshing face.
Noticing his expression and the nuance in his words, I asked him a question, feeling slightly ashamed.
āā¦Did you see?ā
āUh-huh. I felt guilty, but⦠in the corridor leading to the clubroom, itās pretty much unavoidableā¦ā
āYea, I guess. No, I should be the one sorry for blocking the hallway.
āWell, the only one waiting for the confession to end was me, so itās no big dealā¦ā
Misumi-kun looked like he wanted to say something more as he scratched his cheek. When I asked him, āWhatās wrong?ā and urged him to talk, he hesitated at first and then continued.
āTendo-san, um⦠you turned him down pretty harshlyā¦ā
āHuh? Ohā¦ā
I wryly smiled as I leaned against the wall of the hallway, trying to recover some of my depleted energy, and respondedā¦
āIām pretending to be a pro at love when I say this, but the worst thing you can do is to give an ambiguous answer. If you reject them gently, theyāll have a strange sense of hope and the situation will become even worseā¦ā
That was the conclusion I got from my experience rejecting countless number of people.
Misumi-kun looked impressed as he crossed his arms and muttered.
āHaha, I see. You know, Tendo-san⦠even I wouldāve cried a bit when you completely rejected him.ā
āUu.ā
I was at a loss. ā¦I timidly asked him another question.
āMisumi-kun. Was I⦠really that harsh?ā
Misumi-kun saw me looking uneasy and blinked in surprise.
āEh? Yea, it was harsh, but⦠isnāt that what you were trying to do?ā
āI mean, thatās true, but⦠ā¦I was wondering if Iāve been more aggressive than necessary when I refuse these daily confessions lately.ā
I was trying to be sincere to those who were sincere, and harsh to the ones who were superficial, but⦠itās a bit of a problem if the other party thinks itās overly harsh.
Misumi-kun went āHmmā¦ā while scratching back of the head, feeling uncomfortable. While thinking back on the confession that just happened, he started talking.
āHonestly, when I first saw him, I didnāt think so highly of him, butā¦ā
āR-right? He looked like someone without good sense.ā
Yes, I wasnāt wrong. My response was definitely the right oneā
āBut even though your compatibility may be bad, I think he had good intentions. Since Tendo-sanās reply was basically a complete rejection, he got a strong impression that you were like a demon.ā
āUgu!?ā
An arrow deeply stabbed my chest. ā¦C-certainly, that might be true. I didnāt want to date Andou-san at all, and I didnāt really like his personality, but⦠but, he did come to confess with pure intentions.
On the other hand, even though I was being sincere, my words of rejection may have been overkill.
Misumi-kun lightly smiled and gave me some advice.
āBefore, you mightāve gone in while thinking, āReject his confessionā, but this time, Tendo-san went in while basically thinking ānoā, right?ā
āOh⦠when you say it like that, I guess thatās true.ā
āOr rather, it seems like itās become a habit. You would āwalk in and reject his confession, then give him a reasonā, or some pattern like that.ā
āā¦Yeaā¦ā
Something came to mind. ā¦Oh, right. Ever since rejecting confessions became something ordinary, my thoughts unconsciously became āreject them from the beginning and keep things stable.ā
Misumi-kun still had a gentle smile on his face.
āI donāt think itās very good to make too many habits. Even though you reject because of your original feelings, it seems like youāre going in reverse.ā
āSo youāre saying that I start with the fact that Iām rejecting other people, then tell them my feelings as if Iām giving an excuse afterwards?ā
āYup, thatās what I mean.ā
āThatās certainly⦠an unfavorable thing to do as a person.ā
Lately, I⦠the person known as Tendo Karen, have been aware of that issue and could understand what he was talking about.
ā(Itās like the time when Amano-kun rejected my invitation to the Gamers Club⦠I can be really stubborn at times. I wonder if Iām just unable to adapt to the situation.)ā
Iāve been arbitrarily deciding ābecause of this, this is probably trueā for a lot of things.
Because Amano-kun likes games, he probably wonāt reject my invitation to the Gamers Club.
Because he plays games for fun, he probably doesnāt care about winning or losing.
Because Iām going to reject their confession, itās probably better for me to start off with a complete rejection.
I thought I looked perfect at a glance because of my resolute actions, but⦠rather, my flexibility was lost and I became unable to react to situations
ā(ā¦My shameful actions when Amano-kun refused my invitation to the club are a perfect example of thisā¦)ā
Even now, my cheeks turn hot when I think back on that incident. Everything that happened was because of my stubbornness.
When I became depressed after having reflected on my past actions, Misumi-kun followed up in a panic.
āNo, um, I wasnāt saying that you should completely change how you live. Um, how should I put it⦠I was just saying that you should be aware of itā¦ā
Misumi-kun stared off into space for a while, then looked like he hit upon a good idea.
āHow about trying to increase your awareness?ā
āIncrease my awareness?ā
āYea. From my perspective, it seems like you always put on this facade of āthe ideal Tendo Karenā, for better or for worse. Well, during clubtime, it somewhat disappears.ā
āAhā¦ā
āWhenever you have a conversation, how about taking off that facade, then feel what the inner Tendo-san is thinking? I think doing things in that order would be better.ā
āIn other words⦠first, talk with my true feelings in mind and then try to apologize afterwards⦠right?ā
āYea. In Tendo-sanās case, I think that would be better.ā
āā¦I see.ā
I put my hand under my chin while I thought over what he said and agreed with his words. However, Misumi-kun was muttering something at the same time.
āāā¦If you donāt, youāll never get closer to Amano-kun, no matter how much time passesā¦ā
āHuh? Did you say something?ā
āNo, it was nothing. ā¦If you couldnāt even hear that, then you definitely wouldnāt hear Amano-kun⦠Ah, it looks grimā¦ā
Misumi-kun said something again, but I couldnāt hear what he said, so I guess it doesnāt have anything to do with me.
After having finished talking for now, we went to the clubroom and started playing our respective games. Howeverā¦
āStart by being honest with my feelings. Be honest with my feelings. Be honest with my feelings. Donāt start with a rejection. Donāt start with a rejection. Donāt start with a rejectionā¦ā
I unconsciously repeated the same words over and over throughout all of club time.
Uehara Tasuku
āS-s-sorry, I seem to have jumped to a wrong conclusionā¦ā
āYea, completely wrong.ā
I let out a sigh in exhaustion while standing next to the apologetic Hoshinomori.
We were walking side by side towards the downtown area, with the school building dyed by the rays of the setting sun behind us.
Hoshinomori usually took the bus in front of the building, but it looks like she has some shopping to do today. So, I walked with her and cleared up her BL suspicions, and thus we arrived at the current situationā¦
I stole a glance at the girl walking next to me and sighed in my mind.
ā(ā¦In the end, Iām walking with Hoshinomori again. How strange.)ā
Usually, I would hang out with my girlfriend Aguri every day after school, but our relationship got strained a short while back.
Thatās still how things are these days. As soon as I realized my love for Aguri, our time together rapidly decreased, and somehow I started spending more time Amano and Hoshinomori.
ā(This can only be Godās harassmentā¦)ā
Iām not a devout person, but I canāt help but think that this foolish situation is someoneās foolish prank that is changing our fates.
ā(And what does this god even want to do in the end? Even though the thread of destiny clearly links Amano and Hoshinomori, heās still creating other opportunities between Amano and Tendo, as well as me and Hoshinomori.)ā
Oh, and Amano and Aguri recently. ā¦What a complicated mess. What kind of youth report is this?[3]
I noticed that my serious middle school self with his hair parted to the side within me was looking at this and laughing through his nose. No, my middle school self. I know. I wish that a ghost shark would quickly come and attack these party people in this love web at a beach resort.
However, I want you to look at this situation again, my old self. Youāll notice something right away.
All the characters in this love rectangle or whateverānone of them have had their first kiss yet.
If I said in the style of Kitano Takeshiās movies, it would be āEverybody, virginā. What is this, Miura Junās world view? Ah, yes, yes, did you know that the word āvirginā originally applied to girls as well, my old self?[4]
ā¦Hey, donāt look at me with those eyes, my middle school self. This is far from being a youth report or a high school report; donāt say that this is on the level of a middle school studentās diary. Thatād be rude. ā¦to the middle schoolerās diary.
Anyway, itās like we are currently mixed up in these really ridiculous, soap opera-like circumstances, and then producing relationships using love tips from something like āSawayaka 3 kumiā.[5]
I put my hand to my forehead as I felt a headache coming. Hoshinomori noticed and looked at me in worry.
āU-uehara-san, are you alright? Are you sick or somethingā¦?ā
āHmm? Oh, no, itās nothing. Itās just that⦠I was suddenly hit by the cruelty of this world.ā
āOh, so you were being attacked by something after all.ā
Hoshinomori came to a conclusion by herself and nodded. I no longer have the strength to fix her misunderstandings.
The surroundings gradually became more busy as we headed towards downtown. Suddenly, I started talking about a topic that Iāve been thinking about for a while now.
āBy the way, what do you think of Amano latelyāā
āI wish heād get on a Capcom helicopter already.ā[6]
āStill want to kill him, huh.ā
Their fate seems to be in a direct retreat. Definitely not going well in any way.
As soon as I brought up the topic of Amano, her mood immediately became worse as she continued talking.
āI still canāt understand how Keita has a super cute girlfriend like āAguri-sanā.ā
āO-oh, I donāt understand that eitherā¦ā
In a different meaning from Hoshinomori, though. I tried to keep talking, but she went āRight!?ā, and took initiative of the conversation.
āThis is really strange! Even now, when I remember Keitaās useless, self-confident expression while he talked fondly about his love, Iām so irritated, irritated!ā
āā¦I-is that so? ā¦H-hey, Hoshinomori. Are you sure you werenāt misunderstandingā¦ā
āIt was the first time seeing a boy look so damn proud while talking about his girlfriend!ā
āā¦ā
ā? Huh? Whatās wrong, Uehara-san? You donāt look very good.ā
āNo⦠itās nothing. Yea. ā¦Letās change the topic.ā
āHaa, well, itās fine, butā¦ā
Hoshinomori replied, looking curious. I let out a big sigh, prepared my heart, and asked her another question, but from a different angle this time.
āThen, what do you think about Tendo?ā
She replied while playing with the curly tips of her hair.
āTendo-san? Hmm⦠What, you ask? Weāre classmates, but we never talk, so⦠well, if you were to compare us, I would be like a pile of trashā¦ā
āWow, even your self-awareness is the same.ā
āUm, but, I do respect her. Since we both like games, if she became my friend one day, even though that thought is more or less⦠but, that would be really amazing! P-p-please forget what I just said!ā
āā¦Go out with Amano already. Please. Itās not even on the level of just being āsuitableā.ā
ā? Um, howād you reach that conclusion from this conversation?ā
Hoshinomori tilted her neck, looking completely lost. āWell, is that so? I donāt understand.ā I donāt feel like explaining if she said that. No matter what I say right now, I know that it wonāt affect how these two view each other.
After walking in silence for a bit, it was Hoshinomori who spoke up first this time, though looking uneasy.
āU-uehara-san, what do you think? About⦠Tendo-san.ā
āHuh? My⦠impression of Tendo?ā
I blinked in surprise from the unexpected question and repeated her question. Hoshinomori looked down in embarrassment, and nodded slightly. ā¦Well, I donāt really see why she asked the question, butā¦
No, wait. Perhapsā¦
ā(As a person whoās close to Amano, is she asking because she unconsciously views Tendo as a rival?)ā
Hoshinomori seems to have misunderstood Aguri as Amanoās girlfriend for some reason (ā¦haha, right?), but on the other hand, the radar of her mind must have perceived Tendo as the true rival.
If thatās the case⦠Thereās only one response I can give.
I suddenly stopped, drawing Hoshinomoriās attention.
I fearlessly smiled, andāwith all my power, I will fan the flames of rivalry within her heart!
āI think Tendo Karen is the best girl there is. No boy can avoid falling in love with her!ā
āAs I thought, Uehara-san thinks that of Tendo-sanā¦!ā
Hoshinomoriās face became pale after receiving some kind of shock.
ā(Oh, isnāt this a pretty good response? Itās proof that sheās aware of Amano.)ā
After looking at her state and confirming my thoughts, I unintentionally let out a laugh.
āFufuā¦ā
āUgh! That delightful smile on Uehara-sanās face⦠itās⦠itās my first time seeing such an expressionā¦ā
Hoshinomori was unsteady on her feet, which was a reaction somewhat beyond my expectations. Hey, isnāt that great? As I thought, sheās actually very conscious of Amano.
Feeling satisfied, I patted her head to cheer her up from her depressed state.
āCheer up, Hoshinomori. If you ask me, youāre a great girl. You wonāt lose to Tendo at all.ā
āHah⦠but⦠Well, if Uehara-san is happy⦠wait, what!? Fuee!?ā
Hoshinomori flushed a deep red from my words, and backed away in a panic. ā¦Oh, sh*t. Was it bad to carelessly touch the hair of a shy girl? No, when I thought to cheer up Hoshinomori, it seemed like she had a complex about her hair, so I touched her hair to reassure herā¦
ā(Aguriās the type to cling onto me, so lately, my sense of distance with girls seems to have gotten a bit strange.)ā
While I was reflecting on my actions, Hoshinomoriās eyes started spinning around in circles, and her body temperature shot up, as if steam would start shooting out of her head at any moment. At last, it seemed like she reached her limit. She squeezed her bag, lowered her head, andā¦
āE-e-excuse me for today!ā
āAh, hey, waitāā
She dashed away even before I could stop her. ā¦Like Tendo, is it some kind of trend for beautiful girls to leave by dashing away? Something like Zenryoukuzaka.[7]
āā¦Hah.ā
Feeling tired all of a sudden, I let out a sigh. I inadvertently turned around, and for the first time, I noticed that we were walking on the sidewalk right in front of a family restaurant.
ā(Sh*t, was I seen by a customer?)ā
No, far from just being seen, the customers sitting on the side facing the road wouldāve probably heard the conversation. Even though I felt embarrassed from that possibility, I didnāt have to worry about the part of the restaurant I glanced at. The table I saw had a glass and a cup of coffee, but there was no one sitting there. Did they already go home, or did they go to the drink barā¦? Either way, it seems like our exchange wasnāt seen.
I let out a sigh of relief. While thinking about what I should from now on, I quickly left the restaurant.
Amano Keita
ā⦠ā¦D-did he leave? Hurry up, Amano-chi, look!ā
āWait, donāt rush me, Aguri-san! ⦠ā¦Oh, it looks like he left.ā
I peaked out from under the seats to check that Uehara-kun was leaving, and put my hand over my chest in relief.
]Aguri-san also peeked out from under the table to look outside.
āā¦ā
We absentmindedly kneeled on the floor of the family restaurant for a short while. ā¦And then.
āā¦D-dear customers?ā
āOh.ā
When we heard the waitressā cramped voice, we finally noticed how suspicious we looked. After sitting back on the seats in a panic, we looked at her with awkward smiles, as if to say, āThereās nothing to see here.ā
āā¦P-please take your timeāā
She was clearly suspicious of us. Trying to avoid getting involved with us as much as possible, the waitress quickly walked away from our table.
We kept smiling as we watched her leave⦠and when she disappeared into the kitchen, we both let out our breaths.
āHah.ā
We both collapsed onto the table. When my gaze incidentally rested on the coffee cup, I said, āOhā.
āWas it fine⦠for our cups to be on the table?ā
I talked while I was still collapsed on the table. Aguri-san replied, also in a similar position.
āIsnāt it fine as long as he didnāt see us?ā
āAh, I guessā¦ā
We talked back and forth while looking at the ceiling, feeling out of it.
The reason beingā¦
ā(Uehara-kun is definitely cheatiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnngggggg!)ā
After all, enough proof of cheating just appeared right in front of our eyes.
ā(Saying that Tendo is the best girl, then smoothly patting the head of another girl⦠Uehara-kun, youāre impossibleā¦! If this were the KISUMAI BUSAIKU rankings, you have the potential to get first place every time!)ā[8]
I canāt even say anything anymore. I propped my head using my arm.
On the other hand, Aguri-san was still looking up at the ceiling, muttering something.
āA spell of restoration!? Or rather, what generation are you from, Aguri-san!?ā
ā? What are you saying? Aguri was just mumbling the words that came from the bottom of my heart in this nothingnessā¦ā
āWhat are the chances of that!?ā
A heaven-sent child of the gaming industry was sitting in front of me, naturally spewing out spells of restoration as a means of recovery from a shocked state. Itās a miracle. But the sad part is that this person has absolutely no interest in games. Itās a useless miracle.
As if it was the effect of the spell, Aguri-san finally returned to her normal state and started sipping her now lukewarm oolong tea.
āHaa⦠the scene we just came across is rather refreshingā¦ā
āYea, definitely. Rather than worrying about trusting or doubting others, it probably feels more relaxing.ā
āHey, can you not talk like you understand, you hikki otaku bocchi boy?ā
āYes, Iām sorry.ā
I sat up in my seat. Lately, thereās one that that Iāve learned about human relationships. That is, no matter how much time and effort you put in, there are some relationships where it is impossible to get close.
Having been influenced by RPGs, I mistakenly thought that spending long amounts of time together would help a group of people trust each other and become friends.
āAmano-chi, more juice.ā
āYes, right away. ā¦Um, which one?ā
āā¦ā
āOh, right. This is a chance for me to show my sense by picking myself. Excuse me.ā
āI feel like this power relationship will stay this way for my whole life. Weāll never become lovers, close friends, or anything of the sort. This is the limit to how close we can get.
I went to the drink bar, got a mixed fruit juice drink, and put it down in front of Aguri-san after returning to our table.
āMixed juice, huh. ā¦And your reasoning?ā
āI thought youād like something bittersweet.ā
ā12 points.ā
āSo low!?ā
āFeelings donāt always match with what someone wants to drink; thatās what a maidenās heart isāā
While talking, Aguri-san started to drink her mixed juice through the straw. As I sat down, I asked her a question.
āThen what was the correct answer?ā
āA short caramel macchiato from Starb*cks.ā
āThatās an unreasonable demand!ā
āYour inability to think of such things is related to why youāre bad at games, Amano-chi.ā
āDonāt talk like you know about games, you riajuu girl!ā
I also get mad if you say something like that! However, Aguri-san completely ignored my words and looked out the window as she kept sucking on her straw.
I let out a sigh, then realized that I didnāt get my own drink. Reluctantly, I drank my coffee that had become cold. The bitter taste was strong, but it strangely matched how I was feeling right now.
Both of us looked out the window in silence for a while⦠then, Aguri-san started to talk as if she was talking to herself.
āEven then, Aguri loves Tasuku.ā
āā¦ā
I didnāt say anything and sipped my coffee again. ā¦Itās really bitter.
āā¦What should I doā¦ā
āWhat should I do, huh.ā
I bitterly smiled and repeated Aguri-sanās words. ā¦As a loner, I didnāt think that love troubles were so worrisome.
Especially the fact that the simplest solution of āThrowing away your feelingsā is the worst idea.
It would be better if Uehara-kun was a hopeless boyā¦
I let out a sigh and started to talk.
āIām not trying to stick up for a friend, but⦠I donāt think that Uehara-kun doesnāt mean anything bad, you know? He wouldnāt ever try to hurt Aguri-san.ā
āThat goes without saying, Amano-chi.ā
Aguri-san laughed and talked proudly.
āTasuku is really good at taking care of people. Thatās why Aguri came to like him⦠He also attracts other rivals like Amano-chi.ā
āI see you counted me as one of Uehara-kunās heroines without hesitation.ā
āEh, am I wrong, then?.ā
ā⦠⦠Iām sorry, it terrifies me that I couldnāt deny it immediately.ā
Uehara-kun might be stolen away! If Uehara-kun makes another gaming friend, Iām certain that I would say āKiiā! Who is it!?ā. I now recognize that I have some of those feelings against Chiaki. That seaweed girl is a beast. Sheās going to steal my position as his āwell-informed game buddyā.
āAmano-chi, Amano-chi, donāt bite your nails with such a terrifying expression.ā
āHa! Sorry, Aguri-san. What were we talking about? Were we talking about my top 1000 picks for game music?ā
āWe werenāt talking about that, I have no interest in it, and never bring it up again for all of eternity.ā
āI thought we were talking about where to rank Chrono Crossā¦ā
āWe werenāt.ā
āPersonally, I want to include all the songs from Final F*ntasy 13ā¦ā
āAmano-chi, Amano-chi, can I say something?ā
āWhat is it, Aguri-san. I wonāt stop talking about games so easily! The only thing that can dampen my passion for games is something appropriatelyāā
āGross.ā
I fell silent as my heart shattered from those five letters. Even an apology doesnāt come out. I stayed silent, my hands shaking. I felt like crying.
Suddenly, a group of 6 middle schoolers sat down at the table nearby, their voices audible from where we were sitting. There were three boys and three girls. A boy, whose uniform didnāt really suit him, stood up and told a joke. The girls laughed at his joke, saying āStop that, you~ā.
āā¦ā
āAmano-chi, Amano-chi, donāt make such a gloomy expression.ā
āEh, was I?ā
āYea, yea. Your expression was full of NEET-like hatred and envy.ā
āNEET-like is too much, but⦠well, I certainly did have some negative emotions there. Sorry. I was just wishing that those students who came to a family restaurant with girls would explode.ā
āAmano-chi, your true feelings are leaking out. But I mean, you are at a family restaurant with a cute girl right now.ā
āEh⦠⦠ā¦.ā
āEh, why are you making such an annoyed look? Iām the one thatās annoyed.ā
Aguri-san glared at me in dissatisfaction. I thought for a bit and replied.
āNo, sorry. Somehow, the āfamily restaurant riajuuā is so different than what I had imagined.ā
āWhat is this new term, āfamily restaurant riajuuā?ā
āJust as it sounds like. I use it mainly for middle to high school students who frolic around in family restaurants.ā
āWait. Amano-chi, have you never gone to a family restaurant with a friend other than Aguriā¦ā
āā¦ā
āIām somewhat sorry.ā
She somewhat apologized. I let out a sigh and continued talking.
āWell, I am somewhat jealous that these boys and girls are laughing and having fun, but more importantly, I always think, ādo they even have enough spare cash to spend at family restaurants?ā or ājust go eat at homeā and feel hatred for these students who come to eat at family restaurants.ā
āArenāt you being excessively nitpicky!?ā
āIāve never thought that my thoughts were āexcessively nitpickyā in my whole life.ā
āNo, but youāre talking with a cute girl at a family restaurant right now.ā
āā¦ā
āLike I said, why are you making such an annoyed expression? Iām the one thatās annoyed!ā
Aguri-san then glanced at the group of middle school students and sighed as she went āWellā¦ā
āAguri understand what Amano-chi is saying, though. Actually, Aguri was also kind of like Amano-chi back in middle school.ā
āRight!ā
āBut not all students who go to family restaurants are like what Amano-chi thinks. For example, look at that girl at the end of that seat.ā
I reluctantly turned towards the middle school students that Aguri-san was pointing at. As I glanced over in that direction, I saw a plain girl who was awkwardly smiling.
āFor example, that girl is similar to Amano-chi, if anything. But unlike Amano-chi, she is able to go along with the flow, and she can be one of the āfamily restaurant riajuuā that you talk of. The amount of effort she put in is amazing. Then, Amano-chi, do you think someone like her should also go explode?ā
āThatāsā¦ā
Aguri-san smiled as I struggled to reply.
āThe Amano-chi right now and that girl are similar. There are a lot of things in the world you canāt understand just by glancing at the situation.ā
āAguri-sanā¦ā
I teared up, feeling moved from her unexpected adult-like behavior.
Howeverā¦
āWow~! Look, look, itās a belly button⦠itās so risque!ā
āStop, youāre the worst, hahaha.ā
āI really think they should go explode!ā
I hit the table when I saw the middle school students finally take off their clothes in high spirits!
āAmano-chi, Amano-chi, youāre too loud!ā
āLook, Aguri-san! The āplain girlā you were talking about is completely the opposite! Look! Sheās poking his belly button without any restraint! Kiiā!ā
āOk, ok Amano-chi! Aguri understands, so stop making matters worse!ā
āIām not making matters worse! Iām right! Absolutely right!ā
āThatās what I mean by making things worse!ā
Aguri-san tried to calm me down as I flared up in anger.
And then, while roughly breathing, I was about to sit down, having somewhat calmed downā¦
āAhaha.ā
Aguri-san let out a laugh, looking like she was enjoying herself.
She laughed by herself for a bit while I still felt envious of those middle school students.
While wiping tears from the corners of her eyes, she continued to talk.
āThanks, Amano-chi.ā
āW-what are you talking about?ā
Feeling slightly startled, I averted my gaze. However, Aguri-san continued to talk as if she saw through everything.
āNo, itās nothing.ā
āIs that so?ā
āYea.ā
We both looked out the window as we conversed.
I wonder what she realized. Looking refreshed, Aguri-san suddenly said āOk then!ā in a loud voice.
āLeaving aside Aguri and Tasuku, how about her, Amano-chi?ā
āHer?ā
āYouāve resolved yourself, right? About Tendo-san.ā
āā¦ā
I started to sweat and averted my eyes without answering the question. Aguri-san let out a sigh on purpose.
āā¦Amano-chi, donāt you have any motivation? Shouldnāt you be taking action?ā
āEven if you say thatā¦ā
Feeling down, I glanced at Aguri-san. For some reason, she looked seriously angry. ā¦I think that this part of her is really similar to Uehara-kun. Suddenly, I wondered if this was how it would feel to be helped for a marriage interview by an old, married coupleā
āAmano-chi, are you thinking of something rude right now?ā
āOf course not. I was just thinking about how Aguri-san is nice for helping out.ā
āI see. Then, Amano-chi, you should go make a move on Tendo-san soon.ā
āI take back my words. Youāre a demon.ā
I then wondered if this was how it would feel to be pestered by an annoying relative that was trying to persuade me to do a marriage interview.
Aguri-san shrugged her shoulders and continued.
āAmano-chi. Aguri was originally a really plain girl, but I changed myself with great effort. In the end, I was able to go on the attack against Tasuku and reached this point, you know?ā
āSo youāre at this point after your boyfriend practically cheated on you, I seeāā
She pinched my cheeks with all her strength. It wasnāt like one of those gentle, love comedy-like pinches on the cheek; it was strong enough to have left a mark. Scary. Girls are scary.
As I rubbed my cheek with tears in my eyes, Aguri-san glared at me.
āIn other words, just because you put in the effort to improve yourself doesnāt mean anything will change!ā
āNo, but you can raise flags with heroines just by raising your parameters in Tokimeki Memorialā¦ā
āAmano-chi. Just think about it. A girl who gets closer to a boy as soon as his looks or his parameters improve⦠Amano-chi, what would you think of her?ā
āAt the very least, I wouldnāt want to be her friend.ā
āThen, from your point of view, is Tendo-san someone like that?ā
āDefinitely not!ā
I strongly hit the table. Aguri-san continued, looking somewhat taken aback.
āThen you understand, donāt you? Regardless of how much you improve yourself, if you donāt talk to Tendo-san, nothing will come of your efforts in the end.ā
āI get what youāre saying, butā¦ā
If I donāt talk to Tendo-san, I probably wonāt be able to get closer to her.
Even then, I⦠feel like Iāve gotten better at talking to other people lately (at least, enough to stop my rehab), but does that mean I can talk to the most popular girl in Otobuki High School?
In other words, isnāt it the same thing as trying to challenge the last boss like a hero after feeling satisfied by becoming level 3 from defeating slimes?
As I was about to say my doubts out loud, Aguri-san crossed her arms and sighed.
āAmano-chi, what level do you feel like you should be?ā
āHuh? Thatās⦠well⦠about level 60?ā
āThen, when do you think youāll reach that stage at the rate youāre progressing at?ā
āā¦ā
I couldnāt say anything. Certainly, If I waited until then, my high school life would have ended.
With a somewhat sympathetic gaze, Aguri-san continued to speak.
āYou know, Amano-chi, life isnāt a game.ā
āI agree. Even then, I think that games are an amazing, fun representation of lifeāā
āYouāre too loud, shut up.ā
āYes, Iām sorry.ā
āAmano-chi. Are relationships between two people defined by things like what ālevelā they are? After earning āgood pointsā with someone, it doesnāt mean that they automatically become your friend starting from that point in time.ā
I was startled. Aguri-san is sharp in these areas. Even though Uehara-kun jokes around that sheās a āstupid girlā, she does her best to enjoy the real world, unlike me⦠She really understands the truly important parts.
āAmano-chi. In this world, 1 plus 1 doesnāt equal 2.ā
āYes.ā
I replied seriously to Aguri-san, who also spoke with an earnest gaze.
After a pause, Relationship Master Aguri-san made a declaration as I waited for her next words.
ā1 plus 1 is⦠love!ā
In that moment, the serious atmosphere of our conversation instantly vanished.
āā¦Hah⦠love?ā
āItās love!ā
ā¦I guess what Uehara-kun said is true. I mean⦠I donāt know what she meant by those words, but it felt quite lacking. Sheās kind of slow.
Also, her words have some kind strange indecency to them. 1 plus 1 is love. ā¦It sounds like one of those sayings that you keep saying because they sound wise, but are actually pretty stupid when you think about it.
I made a vague smile so as not to dampen her spirits since she looked really proud.
Aguri-san nodded and continued by herself.
āUnlike games, lovers donāt just pop out of nowhere.ā
āIām taking you at your word, Aguri-san, but that doesnāt happen in games eitherā¦ā
āShut up! Thatās not the point here! Amano-chi, you have to do something!ā
āNo, in the first place, I just want to be friends with Tendo-san⦠no, I just want to be recognized by herā¦ā
āSame thing. No matter what your goal is, you have to talk to her or else nothingās going to happen.ā
āā¦Yes, butā¦ā
I hung my head, feeling restless. Actually, Iām completely aware of my own cowardice and my indecisiveness. I know, but⦠itās still scary for me to try, knowing that Iāll fail. Itās like saying, āAlright, letās climb Mount Everest!ā after buying a light down jacket from Un*qlo. Thatās what Iām trying to do just because I got the chance to talk to her a bit. Thereās so much risk involved.
Nonetheless, our conversation was going in circles. Aguri-san didnāt look like she was going to give in anytime soon.
As a last resort, I changed the topic.
āUm, Aguri-san, how did you confess to Uehara-kun?ā
āEh? Youāre asking that? You want to hear about that? Wow. Umā¦ā
ā(Oh, dear.)ā
When I saw Aguri-san bashfully playing with the tips of her hair and clearly about to launch into a long speech and talk fondly about her confession, I felt weary.
After about 30 minutes of introduction, she finally reached the confession scene.
I returned to reality and paid attention to her story, having ended my game of āmental tetrisā.
āAnd then, Aguri mustered up all of her courage, called out Tasuku, and said this!ā
Aguri-san said with a boastful expression.
āāUehara-kun, please go out with me.āā
āā¦Heh?ā
I accidentally let out a tiny voice. Aguri-san interpreted that as āI didnāt hear youā and said it again.
āI said, āUehara-kun, please go out with meā, Amano-chi.ā
āā¦Thatās⦠really?ā
After talking on and on about Uehara-kun, her simple confession was anticlimactic. I was dumbfounded.
However, Aguri-san just nodded to my question and continued talking.
āWell, I heard that Tasuku liked less serious girls. But, even if that wasnāt the case I probably wouldāve said the same thing.ā
āIsnā that way too simple for such an important confessionāā
āItās the opposite, Amano-chi.ā
āHuh?ā
Aguri-san smiled maturely unlike her age.
āThe most important things are the most simple, and so they come out naturally.ā
āā¦ā
I didnāt say anything. Aguri-san continued in an unusually kind tone.
āThatās why, Amano-chi, if you really want to become friends with Tendo-san, or to become closer⦠your honest feelings should naturally come out without forcing it.ā
āā¦Is⦠is that so?ā
Iāve always made Tendo-san angry. But perhaps, I might not be so hopeless⦠unlike Aguri-san, I might have been trying too hard to get of rid of all good will towards me.
āAguri-san, Iā¦ā
I gripped my empty cup with both hands and drank the remaining bitter liquid that was left in the bottom of the cup.
With determination, I made a declaration to Aguri-san, my friend that I respect.
āTomorrow, Iāll challenge Tendo-san, even if I fail!ā
Tendo Karen
On my way back home from club, I thought over the advice that Misumi-kun gave me.
āDonāt start with a rejection, be honest with my feelings firstā¦ā
Usually, it wouldnāt be such a difficult thing, but ever since I was young, Iāve learned to act in a manner like my outward appearance, rather than acting on my true feelings.
ā(However, after having resolved myself, I, Tendo Karen, will completely follow through with my decision.)ā
Even if other girls might go back on their word, Tendo Karen will never do the same.
āDonāt start with a rejection. Reply with my honest feelingsā¦ā
As I walked down the street while muttering the same lines over and over again, I lightly bumped shoulders with another girl walking in the opposite direction who was clearly not paying attention to her surroundings.
The somewhat flashy student noticed just before she bumped into me and tried to avoid me, but to no avail. She lightly apologized.
āOh, sorry.ā
āOh, no, it was my faultā¦ā
After saying that much, I suddenly realized something, and tried again.
āYes, it was a bother. Please try not to take up the whole sidewalk as you walk.ā
āHuh!? Oh, o-okayā¦ā
She stopped from my unexpectedly harsh words. It looked like things would take a turn for the worse.
āIām very sorry for my rude words. Well then, goodbye.ā
I lowered my head in apology, smiled, turned around, and gallantly walked away.
After walking for a short while⦠I fist-pumped, feeling like I had accomplished something.
ā(Perfect!)ā
This is definitely what Misumi-kun was trying to say. I spoke my true feelings, then covered it up. Honestly, this feels unexpectedly nice.
ā(Iām in great condition. I didnāt start off with saying ānoā immediately, and instead started by speaking my true feelings and following up afterwards. This is it. This is it!)ā
While letting out my breath, I pushed my bangs to the side and smiled in satisfaction. As I thought, I have a strong will. I think thatās one of my strong points. Itās probably because Iām an actorās daughter. After all, I would always set my mind on achieving something, and I would always become that idealized image I had in mind.
Itās the same thing this time. I decided to āstart with my true feelingsā, and on the very same day, I achieved my goal. My ability is amazing, even to me.
Feeling confident, I stopped my self-reform, and looked in front of me as I kept walking. Before I noticed, I had reached the downtown area.
Since Iām here anyway, shall I visit the game shop? As I pondered over whether or not I should goā¦
ā(Thatāsā¦)ā
I saw a girl with disheveled hair running in my direction. Although I was startled for a moment, as she gradually got closer, I noticed that the student was one of my classmates. Right before she was about to run past me, I called out to the panicked girl.
āHoshinomori-san?ā
āā¦!?ā
She pulled a short distance past me, suddenly stopped, and turned around to look at me.
āTe⦠Tendo-san?ā
She was tightly squeezing her bag to her chest as she panted from running.
Honestly, I didnāt have much in common with her, so after some hesitation about what to say, I decided to start with a harmless greetingā
ā(Hah!? Thatās bad, Tendo Karen! Start with my honest feelings! Yea!)ā
Noticing my close call, I called out to the panting girl with a smile.
āFor a moment, I thought that seaweed could fly.ā
āA direct hit!?ā
āOh, but not in a bad way, of course.ā
āAnd then a really messy follow up! What is this!? What the hell is this!?ā
Hoshinomori started tearing up all of a sudden. ā¦How strange. Did I do anything wrongā¦
I cleared my throat and tried to fix the situation with a smile.
āSorry, I called out to you just because I recognized your face.ā
āHuh? Ah, y-yes, um, this, is an honor, for you to talk to someone like meā¦ā
For some reason, Hoshinomori-san played with the tips of her hair as if she was nervous.
While keeping Misumi-kunās advice in mind, I continued the conversation.
āBut I honestly donāt really know anything about Hoshinomori-san, so I donāt know what to talk about.ā
āThatās what you say!? You talked to me to say that!? I-I guess itās true, butā¦ā
āOf course, I donāt mean anything bad by that.ā
āUm, you know, that follow-up doesnāt work every time!ā
I see, is that so? Thatās not good. Iāve pretty much removed how to speak honestly from my consciousness, so my follow up is pretty sloppy. Focus, Tendo Karen.
ā¦Alright.
āHoshinomori-san, youāre beautiful, have great style, and have such fair skināhow wonderful!ā
āSuch a sudden backhanded compliment! I-Is this some new way of bullying me!?ā
Strange. Hoshinomori-san is trembling. I thought my praise was just perfect, but⦠I wonder what the reason Hoshinomori-sanās unexpected reaction⦠thereās one thing that comes to mind.
āUfufu. Hoshinomori-san, youāve changed.ā
āEeeeeeeeehhhhhhhh!?ā
She had a somewhat upset expression. Yup, Hoshinomori-san definitely changed. However, we arenāt communicating properly right now.
Thereās also no point in continuing this useless conversation. I thought about what topic she would want to hear about the most, and talked about that.
āHow is it with Amano-kun lately?ā
āHuh?ā
Hoshinomori-san tilted her neck in confusion. I continued to talk with a friendly grin.
āIām talking about your relationship with Amano-kun. Did you make any progress?ā
āHa-hah. ⦠Um⦠I, I donāt know what Tendo-san is trying to askā¦ā
āYouāre such a vague person! I donāt know either!ā
āEeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhh!?ā
āI just wanted to ask one thing.That is, how are things with Amano-kun?ā
āH-how, you say⦠well, the same as ever, butā¦ā
She replied hesitantly.
āā¦The same, is itā¦ā
I thought back on the time I visited the Gamers Hobby Club. Certainly, Amano-kun and Hoshinomori-san were close enough to call each other by their first names, but I only saw them have a loverās quarrelā¦
āā¦Lucky.ā
āWhat!? Tendo-san!? Are you feeling envious for some reason!?ā
When I muttered my true thoughts, Hoshinomori-san shot another unexpected tsukkomi once again. ā¦Her tsukkomis and reactions are more severe than her usual, quiet self. Sheās similar to Amano-kun in that aspect. Similar⦠to Amano-kun⦠Similarā¦
āā¦Unfairā¦ā
āLike I said, what is it!? Tendo-san!? Why are you suddenly pouting!?ā
Hoshinomori-san kept fidgeting with her fingers, looking more and more frantic as she kept asking questions.
ā¦This is bad. I feel like Iāve been too honest about my feelings.
I took a few quick deep breaths in succession, and put on the Tendo Karen facade once again.
āFufu, itāll be fun seeing how long this Gamers Hobby Club will last!ā
āSo suddenly!? Why the sudden ojou-sama-like rival character!? Tendo-san!?ā
āSorry, I made a mistake. Ahem. ā¦Oh, how nice to see you, Hoshinomori-san.ā
āSuch a quick change!? W-well, this is certainly how Tendo-san always acts, butā¦ā
Somehow, it seems that my appearance was successful. I started the conversation once again.
āThen, Hoshinomori-san. Has the Gamers Hobby Club ended for today?ā
āEh? Ah, um, talking about that, um, in the first place, todayās meeting was a complete failureā¦ā
ā? What do you mean?ā
Right then, a middle-aged office worker walked past us as he said, āExcuse me.ā I noticed that we were talking right in the middle of the sidewalk. After I said āSorryā to the man, we started to talk as we walked.
She apparently also had some business in the downtown area. But then why was she running away in the opposite direction earlier? When I asked, her cheeks turned red as she explained the general outline of what had happened.
After she finished telling her story, I crossed my arms and let out a big sigh.
āGood grief, even Uehara-kun is hopeless.ā
I always thought he was an easy person, but I didnāt think he went for anyone and anything.
However, as I was evaluating his character, Hoshinomori-san quickly followed up in a panic.
āUehara-kun is a very nice person! Thereās nothing hopeless about him!ā
āHmm, is that so? However, I do hear that he talks to a lot of girlsā¦ā
ā? Really? But, um, itās not like he actually has a girlfriend, so I donāt think there are any problemsā¦ā
I hesitated a little from Hoshinomori-sanās words.
āThatās⦠my memory is vague so I may not be correct, but I heard that he did have a girlfriendā¦ā
āEh, i-i-is that so?ā
āYea. I heard that it was that Aguri-sanā¦ā
āHuh?ā
Hoshinomori-sanās eyes spun from my words. She gulped.
In the next momentāshe held her stomach as she laughed.
āAhahahaha, Tendo-san, thatās definitely wrong! Aguri-san is Keitaās girlfriend! She has nothing to do with Uehara-san!ā
āBut I heard from other people thatā¦ā
āAh, Iām definitely sure that Aguri-san is Keitaās girlfriend! I mean, weāve talked about his girlfriend together too, even though itās a painful experience because Iām a loner! Really!ā
Considering that it was a guess, Hoshinomori-san spoke with great conviction. I was overawed by her certainty.
ā(T-thatās possible. They must have had the opportunity to talk about each otherās partnersā¦)ā
However, to be frank, I really canāt see Amano-kun and Aguri-san dating. She fits much better with Uehara-kun. Howeverā¦
ā(P-perhaps I just want to avert my eyes from the truth that Amano-kun is dating someoneā¦!)ā
Hoshinomori-san, in a strangely good mood, continued to talk as I held my head in my hands.
āEhehehe, I was surprised that you said that Uehara-san was dating someone. Tendo-san, having those kind of misunderstandings is an unexpected side of you.ā
āU-uu!?ā
Ah, maybe. After all, I face away from the truth and try to insert my own misunderstandings into the story. On the other hand, Hoshinomori-san accepts reality and acts with a clear mind and open heartāI should be like that!
As my thoughts kept swirling around in my head, Hoshinomori-san changed the subject, feeling that the current discussion had come to a conclusion.
āBy the way⦠Tendo-san, are you on bad terms with Keita?ā
āā¦Eh?ā
The unexpected question made me look up and put a pause on my troubled thoughts about Amano-kunās girlfriend.
Hoshinomori-san continued, tilting her neck in curiousity.
āUm, that is, I donāt really know about the relationship between you two. Um, I know that you invited Keita to the Gamers Club, and that he refused, but nothing elseā¦ā
āYea, that sounds about right, Thereās nothing wrong there.ā
āFumu fumu. That means that Keita and Tendo-san have slightly delicate relationship⦠or, speaking frankly, itās not a very good relationship⦠right?ā
āThatāsā¦ā
While I was at a loss for words of explanation, Hoshinomori-san kept talking.
āHowever, Tendo-san, you came to one of the Gamers Hobby Club meetings a few days ago, no? Even though Keita was there. So I thought that maybe there was no way to turn down the offer, but⦠after all, the two of you converse pretty awkwardly. Especially Keitaāheās very brash and rude towards me, but when he talks to you, heās strangely obedient.ā
āT-thatās because your relationship is somewhat specialā¦ā
āEven so. I always thought that the relationship between Keita and Tendo-san was always strange. Then then, how is it actually? Are you on bad terms? D-do you consider Keita a horrible person just like I do? *tremble*ā
āEh, ah, no, thatāsā¦ā
I involuntarily hesitated. Now that she mentioned it⦠my relationship with Amano-kun is strange.
Just like she said, Amano-kun is probably aware of me. Even when he rejected my invitation to the club, he probably did so with his tail in between his legs.
Then, what about me?ā
ā(Regarding the matter of the Gamers Club⦠itās too bad, but even now, Iām not really mad.)ā
Honestly, right after he rejected my invitation, I immediately flared up in an emotion similar to anger and thought āWhy!ā, but contrary to my own expectations, that feeling vanished right away.
ā¦But then, why, and when, did it vanish?
ā(ā¦Oh right. Certainly, when I saw him arguing with Uehara-kun⦠heā¦)ā
I know⦠that he seriously considered the Gamers Club⦠and me. Andā¦
At that point, I noticed that my cheeks felt unusually hot. Hoshinomori-san looked at my face in worry.
āW-w-whatās wrong, Tendo-san!? Your face is red! Are you okay!?ā
Hoshinomori-san was sincerely worried about me. Sheās so similar to Amano-kunāa nice, pure person. As I thought, sheās much more suitable for him than Aguri-san.
āUgu!?ā
āT-tendo-san!?ā
āT-thereās a weird stinging feeling in my chestā¦!ā
āIsnāt that really serious!? S-should I call an ambulanceā¦!?ā
āWait, Hoshinomori-san!ā
I stopped her in a panic as she reached for her smartphone.
She was looking at me with a worried face. I smiled at her to reassure her.
āHonestly, heating up, fast heartbeat, and pain are common symptoms for me. Thatās why itās fine!ā
āIsnāt that excessively bad!? Rather, why havenāt you gone to the hospital yet!?ā
āI donāt know. Itās just that my mind screams, āItās not a hospital-related issue!āā
āAre you a spoiled child!? Youāre not a child, so please go to the hospital!ā
ā⦠ā¦And if I said no?ā
āWhat kind of argument is that!? I-itās also bad to say that with such a serious face! N-no matter what you say, e-even if you hate me, Iām going to call an ambulance!ā
Like a mother who scolds a bad childāstrict, yet gentle⦠with teary eyes, Hoshinomori-san reached for her phone once again.
In this clumsy yet kind girl, I see traces of Amano-kun⦠as my heart strangely calmed down, and as my red cheeks cooled down, I gave her a sincere, honest smile.
āIām already fine.ā
ā⦠ā¦C-certainly, you look like youāre already fine, but⦠butā¦ā
Even now, Hoshinomori-san didnāt put away her smartphone. I smiled at her again, and walked towards downtown again. Hoshinomori-san hurriedly followed after me and walked next to me.
āā¦Y-youāre really fine⦠right?ā
āYes, definitely. Thanks, Hoshinomori-san.ā
āN-no, I didnāt do much⦠ā¦or, um, rather, Iām sorryā¦ā
ā? Why are you apologizing?ā
āUm⦠um, I made a commotion for no reason⦠n-now that I think back on what I did, it was an overreaction⦠oh⦠how embarrassingā¦ā
This time, it was Hoshinomori-san who turned red. Burying her face in her hands, she groaned in embarrassment.
I watched her feeling somewhat peaceful for a while⦠then, looking up at the evening sky, I brought up the previous topic once again.
āā¦The feeling I have towards Hoshinomori-san is the same as I feel towards Amano-kun.ā
āHeh? Your feelings towards me⦠is the same as your feelings for Keita?ā
Hoshinomori-san stopped covering up her face and tilted her neck. I smiled and said, āYeaā, and after thinking for a tiny bit, she answered with a difficult expression.
āā¦The same as a low-life being that should go disappear from this world?ā
āYour evaluation of Amano-kun is so low that it scares me.ā
āEhehe, how embarrassing.ā
āYea, itās nothing to be embarrassed about.ā
We continued to banter back and forth. Afterwards, I smiled at her again and honestly told her my feelings without being embarrassed.
āI want to be friends with you⦠and get to know you better.ā
āā¦ā
Hoshinomori-san stopped in an instant and looked at me in a daze. I stopped walking as well and looked at her for several seconds. She became flustered so suddenly.
āW-with someone like me!? ā¦I-I-I am honored!ā
āāI am honoredā, huh?ā
I feel like I heard the same words from Amano-kun recently. Thereās a limit to how similar you two can be, you know.
āAnd for Keita to be friends with Tendo-san⦠itās too good for him, so he deserves to die!ā
āHow low is Amano-kunās existence to youā¦ā
Somehow, I feel a bit sad. To think that there are people this similar, yet so antagonistic towards each other in this world. Itās a bit of a culture shock.
As I was thinking to myself, Hoshinomori-san cleared her throat and averted her eyes away from me, as if to hide her embarrassment.
āI-i-if youāre ok with me, then please take careāā
āYes, gladly!ā
Suddenly, a loud voice interrupted us from somewhere nearby. After looking around again, I noticed that we were right in front of a bar. A cheerful waiter kept repeating the same lines over and over again, as if he was taking multiple orders one after another.
And before I noticed⦠Hoshinomori-san was trembling, looking down at the ground with teary eyes.
ā(Ahh, right as I was about to accept her request, that loud waiter just ruined the mood! I canāt say it now! Under these circumstances, I can no longer use the words, āGladly!ā I donāt want to use it! I donāt want to be like the waiter!)ā
However, it looked like Hoshinomori-san didnāt have a backup plan. Or rather, the waiter was still saying āYes, gladly!ā over and over again, and so she couldnāt think of any other word. It was the same for me as well.
In the end, after she finally stopped shaking⦠when I thought that she would look at me with tears in her eyes, she instead turned around and ran away as fast as possible while shouting out loud.
āIām sorry for some reasonāāāāāā-!ā
āI am too for some reasonāāāā-!ā
I replied in confusion to the girl running away.
I watched her leave until I could no longer see her⦠and then I feebly smiled
āWhy did our meeting go that way⦠I probably wonāt be able to talk to Amano-kun eitherā¦ā
I was probably much more awkward than I thought I was.
For some reason, I couldnāt sit still when I that thought came to my mind.
āā¦Start with my honest feelings. Donāt start by rejecting them. And then, be genuine like Hoshinomori-sanā¦ā
Eventually, I started to make my way back home, muttering the same words to myself as I walked alone.
Amano Keita
After Aguri-san and I said goodbye to each other, I returned home, had a quick meal with my family, and took a short bath. I hurriedly went to my room, deciding to go to bed early for today.
9 oāclock, night time. I turned off the lights, covered myself with my blanketsāthen plugged in my game console. The title of the gal game in the console lit up the monitor. I, the otaku boy, smiled.
ā¦N-no, wait. I hesitated when I thought about how helpless I was.
While it is true that I am playing this gal game in my pajamas, hiding from my family, that was my plan from the start. After allā¦
ā(Before I ask Tendo-san to be my friend tomorrow⦠I want to clear this route at least!)ā
With a determined look, I looked at the heroine Frau Heavenly, who was right next to the title of the game, āGolden Tricksā.
Yes, today⦠even if it takes me all night, I have decided to make sure that I will confess successfully without looking at a guide.
ā(Then⦠I feel like I will definitely have the self-confidence tomorrow. Iāll have the courage.)ā
Itās almost like a prayer to a god. But even then, will she even want to become my friend if even the Tendo-san-like heroine is so hard to capture?
ā(If Uehara-kun was here, he would say that those two things are completely different matters⦠I understand it in my mind, but⦠but, I canāt give up. I will capture Frau.)ā
I wonder if there are any other boys who play love sim games as seriously as I do.
Skillfully handling my controller, I used my skips to start on capturing Frau.
First of all, being as careful as always, I examined each of the choices that affect Frau, and picked the best response. However, Iāve tried this method before. Naturally, I was rejected in the end. At 40 minutes, I had reached my first failure.
ā(Well, that was to be expected, but⦠dammit, I still donāt know whatās wrong.)ā
After having been defeated by the game, it was time to wonder about which situations were the most difficult and think, āI donāt know where I went wrong.ā When I keep losing to a strong opponent in an action game because my skills are lacking, I always play with the hope that āIāll get him next time.ā And even if I eventually throw in the towel because itās impossible, even if my attempts failed, thereās some sense of accomplishment. Even if itās a difficult puzzle where all I can do is guess, I can get close.
However, if itās a situation where I canāt win, where I canāt solve the problem, then itās different.
For example, a situation where an opponentās attack that was easily avoidable mysteriously becomes a direct hit. Or a solution to a puzzle where I think, āThis is definitely the answer!āāand the answer turns out to be wrong. Whenever such situations happen, I feel the cruel despair in my heart.
Furthermore, if it wasnāt a bug, I just give up.
Trying to capture Frau is exactly that. Also, this game has so many choices that it would be unrealistic to try every combination possible⦠If I wanted to do that, I wouldāve just looked up a walkthrough. I want to capture her with my own efforts.
ā(Iāve already tried everything that I thought was right⦠anything more would be useless. ā¦Then⦠I honestly donāt feel trying any more, butā¦)ā
After that, I started my second attempt. This time⦠I tried thinking differently.
ā(Then, Iāll try to make her hate me this time!)ā
Well, if this actually clears her route, Iād feel complicatedā¦
While having those thoughts, I finally got to the confession scene. Well, like expected, I was brusquely rejected. Second attemptāfailure.
ā(That was expected. I didnāt deliver Frauās lost item, and I ran away as fast as possible when Frau was having a hard time. Thereās no reason she would fall in love with someone like that.)ā
Rather, in the first place, itās strange that the staff would choose to put in these bad choices. Itās so bad I would suspect that it was one of Iremās works.[10]
However, I still donāt get it. Roughly speaking, the choices that I select are most likely correct. Even then, my confession always fails. What in the worldā¦
While agonizing about my troubles, I continued to play and aimlessly tried over and over again. Once I finished two more runs, I put down the controller, lied down, and covered myself with the blankets. ā¦It was about to become midnight.
ā(ā¦Is this a hint that Iām fatally incompatible with someone like Tendo-san in the first placeā¦?)ā
I realized that I still couldnāt see the light from here. The route that is an easy clear for the rest of the world is impossible for me. ā¦Even games, my favorite thing in the world, just showed me once again why I was a loner.
ā(ā¦Am I being conceitedā¦?)ā
Iām aware that the difference between Tendo-san and I is like the moon and a turtle. But the thing that irritates me is⦠the fact that I still hold onto the ridiculous dream of getting closer to Tendo-san. ā¦Even though I was the one to reject her invitation. Iām a shameful, lowlife person. But⦠butā¦
āā¦ā
I quickly got up and grabbed the controller again. If it was the old me, I wouldāve given up already. Because I play games to have fun, or something like that. Because thereās no point in doing something impossible.
My fundamental values remain the same. Howeverā¦
ā(This game⦠isnāt just to play! I donāt want to give up so easily!)ā
With renewed determination, I tried again for the 5th time. However, right as I reached the first set of choices, I noticed that my smartphoneās notification light was blinking.
ā(Oh right, I turned off vibration and sound to focus on the game.)ā
I stopped playing, unlocked my phone and checked my notifications.
There was a notification from the messaging application that Aguri forcibly downloaded, and one from my social networking game.
ā(Oh, itās from Aguri-san and Uehara-kun. Wow, Iām super happy.)ā
Even though I received a text message when I first downloaded the application, this was my first time getting a message after that.
ā(Ahh, I get to experience things like this in my life tooā¦)ā
I received a chat from a friend. ⦠After savoring the small happiness I got from the message, I cheerfully looked at the message from Aguri-san.
[Amano-chi, you should go to sleep and look forward for tomorrow!]
[Your complexion is reeaaallly important in affecting otherās impressions]
[Donāt play games all night!]
[Ah, but even Amano-chi isnāt that stupid. Sorry. Good night!]
āIām really sorrrryyyyy!ā
I kneeled on the bed and prostrated myself towards my smartphone. I then immediately sent a reply.
[Thank you very much for your concern! This unworthy Amano feels very honored! Farewell!]
I sent some strange texts because I was nervous. Even then, I feel like my enthusiasm got through at least.
After calming down and controlling my breath, this time, I opened Uehara-kunās message.
[Hey Amano, I heard youāre planning on talking to Tendo tomorrow]
[If thatās the case, Iāll gather some people because itāll be a special event!]
[Letās do it in a huge crowd, this event!]
[Then if Tendo becomes friends with you, your standing will increase immediately!]
[Yea, itās a good idea, a good idea! Thatās why Iām acting quickly!]
[Well, if you fail, everyone will see lololololol]
āThat isnāt something to ālolololololā abooooouuuuuuuuttttttttttttt!ā
What is he doing!? This person, what the actual hell is he doing!? Uehara-kun!? Arenāt you having way too much fun!? No, heās been having way too interested in my relationships to begin with! Also, why is he assuming that Iāll succeed!? Does my relationship with Tendo-san look that good!?
I immediately started typing out a reply in a panic.
āLetās say, āDonāt do anything excessiveā¦ā ā¦ā
But at that point, I went back and deleted what I just wrote. After thinking about it for a short while, I started typing again.
[Thank you. Although Uehara-kunās expectations may be, frankly, a bit too high, I will do my best to meet them]
I let out a sigh.
āā¦For someone who worked this much for me⦠I canāt reply with such a harsh tsukkomi.ā
Heās overestimating the relationship between me and Tendo-san, and I canāt help but think that his help is too excessive.
Even then, heās a friend that has always helped me, I canāt help but feel thankful.
Afterwards, I pressed the home button and opened the social networking game. It looks like I received a message from someone. How strange.
I quickly opened it, and⦠like I thought, it was from the only player I talk with, MONO.
[Letās do our best]
It was only one sentenceālike always, it was plain and simple. I think they probably want me to participate in defeating the current raid boss (a limited time boss).
ā(MONO is probably a shy, awkward person.)ā
But thatās why I really like that person. ā¦Iām saved by our tiny connection.
[Yup, letās do our best]
I sent my own short reply, finished the quest, checked that I received no further messages from Uehara-kun and Aguri-san, then turned off my phone.
However, for a while⦠I continued to look at my smartphone.
ā(ā¦Thank you Aguri-san, Uehara-kun, MONO.)ā
I realized that despite feeling like the lowest of the low a few minutes ago, I felt a lot better right now.
With renewed fighting spirit, I set my smartphone aside, grabbed my controller and looked at the screen.
On the screen, it was the main characterās childhood friend, not Frau. The first set of choices in the game is deciding whether or not to walk home with her or not.
Naturally, to aim for Frau, I had to make sure to stay away from her. Like always, I was about to refuse her offerā
āā¦Wait.ā
Right then, I suddenly stopped my hand. ā¦Maybeā¦
It was an idea that never came to me before. However, a strange conviction filled my heart.
Using the D-pad, I scrolled over to the option to accept her invitation and selected it.
ā(Maybeā¦)ā
While thinking, āThis may workā, I went through the playthrough, being nice to everyone and not just to Frau. I went on dates with my childhood friend, helped out my kouhai, and cheerfully did favors for my senpai. This is usually a strategy seldom used for any route other than the harem end. I made sure to not go on that route, though.
Of course, using such a method also decreases my time with Frau. My date event with Frau was still out of reach. However, even thenā¦
ā(This is⦠perhapsā¦)ā
I kept acting according to my strange conviction in my heart and got closer to all the heroines.
At lastāI reached the confession scene.
Like always, the main character started talking first.
āPlease⦠please go out with me!ā
I had been hearing those words too many times to count over the past few days. And then, Frau would also say the same words with a troubled faceā
āā¦Iām gladā¦ā
āEh?ā
My reaction and the main characterās reaction were the same. After all, Frauā¦
Frau had a tear-stained, yet delightful, expressionāone that I had never seen before.
With a slightly embarrassed smile⦠and with tears dripping down her cheeks, she responded.
āYes, please take care of me. ā¦My kind hero that I love.ā
Her smile looked like it was wrapped in light as the scene faded out and the ending credits started to roll.
āā¦ā
However, I continued to look at the screen, feeling dumbfounded.
ā(Did I⦠clear it?)ā
I canāt believe it at all. I canāt believe it because I was completely stuck and thought it was nearly impossible. I thought that the best I could do was to look at a guide or give up.
Even then, this time⦠I was able to reach the ending. Furthermore, using my own powerā
ā(ā¦No, thatās wrong.)ā
orrecting myself, I looked at my smartphone that I put to the side. ā¦It was thanks to Aguri-san, Uehara-kun, and MONO that I realized that I shouldnāt āfocus only on my relationship with Frauā.
No matter how much I love a person, it doesnāt mean that I should treat everyone else rudely. Thatās obvious. This world doesnāt consist of only two people.
ā¦For a loner like me⦠because I was someone who was so desperate to make a single friend, that thought never came to me. Thatās why only I was unable to capture Frau⦠who cared about everyone around her and treated them as important people.
āā¦Thank you.ā
Once again, I turned towards my smartphone and showed my gratitude.
After watching through and enjoying the final moments, closing with Frauās smiling expression, I turned off the game console and lied down under the blankets.
Right now, I donāt feel nervous at all. However, itās a bit different from feeling confident.
ā¦I realized something.
ā(Even if Tendo-san hates me⦠Iām already happy.)ā
I looked at my smartphone lying next to my bed.
If thatās the case⦠I wonder what Iām afraid of right now.
With the covers up to my neck, I fell into a deep sleep while thinking over and over again about the main characterās gallant figure in āGolden Tricksā.
Uehara Tasuku
During lunch, Tendo is going to go see Amano again.
I heard the news from students of class F when I got to school.
It wasnāt certain, there was no proof, and in the first place, no one knew that I spread the rumor⦠so it was a rumor that had no credibility at all.
However, thatās why people were so interested. Actuallyā¦
āNee nee, tell me the truth, Uehara!ā
Mika, who loved to gossip, grabbed onto the rumors and started talking about the subject like I thought she would. She doesnāt know that Iām the source of those rumors.
It was before homeroom in the morning. As Amano entered the classroom, clearly confused by the mood, and looked at my direction, acting a bit suspiciously. I replied, āWho knows?ā to Mika.
āIām not really close to Tendo. I donāt know her every move.ā
āHmm~? Ah, no way~.ā
Mika pulled back, seemingly understanding. Looking around the room, I noticed the suspicious gazes of Reina nad Daiki who are particularly perceptive. I averted my eyes from the two of them and thought back on the morning.
Actually, my reply to Mika was about half truth, half lie. It is true that Iām not that close to Tendo, but I did ask her to come to class F during lunch break.
āI think Amano has something important to say, so come over to my class during lunch.ā
When I went to class A and told her early in the morning, Tendoās face was blank.
ā(Itās probably since getting called out for a confession during lunch is an ordinary thing now.)ā
Once I told her that Amano had something important to talk about, it was clear that she was disturbedupset, her eyes swimming. However, she didnāt blush, so she probably didnāt misunderstand that as a confession. Or maybe Tendo has a bad imagination.
ā(Well, in Tendoās case, sheās always rejected by Amano in the first place.)ā
He rejected her club invitation, always gets in a fuss with Hoshinomori and Aguri, and always talks about his different values about gaming. Since someone like that has āsomething important to sayā, she would obviously be more wary than happy.
However, this is another one of riajuu Uehara Tasukuās ingenious tactics.
ā(If she goes in thinking that itāll be something bad, the chances of the friend request being successful goes up!)ā
Yes, this is one of the basic techniques of business and fraud. Itās the same thing as marking up a product that originally costs 50,000 yen up to 100,000 yen, then holding a big 50% off sale and bringing the price back to 50,000 yen. The buyer leaves feeling like they saved money.
After making Tendo feel anxious, sheāll spend the morning having thoughts like āIs it about not joining the Gamers Hobby Club?ā, or āHave I been rude to Amano-kun lately?ā, or āMaybe heās going to tell me to stop being concerned with him because it makes him stand outā¦ā However, once she hears Amanoās actual question⦠āPlease become friends with meāāsheāll immediately feel relieved!
Afterwards, Tendo would reply with āOh, if it was about that, then of course itās fineā, and the chance of success will practically be a 100%!
āFufufu⦠Amano, this is how winners act.ā
āTasuku, what are you muttering with such a smug look?ā
I realized that I looked creepy to Masaya. Clearing my throat once, I stood up and left the classroom to go to the bathroom. On my way, I sent a look towards Amano.
As I walked in the hallway slowly, I heard the footsteps of someone jogging towards me from behind.
āWhat is it, Uehara-kun?ā
Amano asked while walking next to me. I sent him a sidelong glance and replied.
āOh, come with me to the bathroom, Amano. I have something to talk about thatās difficult to say in the classroom.ā
āā¦ā
āHey, why are you pulling back?ā
I noticed that Amano had stopped walking.
āā¦Sorry Uehara-kun, I donāt swing that wayā¦ā
āHey wait, you bastard. If you make a misunderstanding like that Iām going to get super angry at you.ā
After sending him another sharp look, Amano silently walked next to me again. After letting out a sigh, I started talking about the issue at hand.
āUehara-kun. Tendo-san is coming to the classroom at lunch. Why?ā
āOh, you already heard about it? Who told you?ā
āYour conversation with your friends.ā
āYouāre the same gloomy, eavesdropping loner as always.ā
āI think itās better than a bully who sets up other peopleās confessions on their own.ā
Amano replied, looking sullen. For some reason, it seems like heās somewhat seriously mad. I forgot about this lately, but he doesnāt like to yield, and is the unexpectedly aggressive type.
Once we walked away from the classrooms and arrived at the bathroom, which didnāt have many people walking around, I leaned against the wall.
āIt was my bad to do things on my own. But if you donāt like it, Iāll undo everything Iāve done.ā
āI-if I donāt like itā¦ā
As Amano hesitated, I continued on.
āYea. Actually, since you were going to talk to her today, you wouldāve probably come to me to call Tendo, right? I think itās too high of a hurdle for you to go directly to class A and call out to her.ā
āUu⦠T-thatās true, butā¦ā
In the past, he was super nervous to even call out to Hoshinomori, whoās also a loner. I think itās impossible for him to call out to someone like Tendo in class A.
Amano was shakingāI mustāve hit the bullās eye. Even then, he sent a dissatisfied glare at me.
āIām thankful for setting this up for me, but⦠but couldnāt you make it more private? Itās not the two of us, but do your friends and acquaintances really have to be there?ā
āDidnāt you get my message? If you do it in front of a lot of people⦠in other words, weāre also aiming to increase your social position by doing it in front of class F.ā
āI donāt want to increase my social standing and get along with Tendo-san at the same time.ā
Amano looked at me with a manly look that shocked me slightly. ā¦Seriously, this guy is troublesome as always. Thatās also one of his good parts⦠but thatās also the biggest reason I canāt be a casual friend.
I scratched my head and replied with my own logic.
āā¦I already said this before when we were arguing, but I think that even the most superficial of relationships are important.ā
āā¦ā
āIf I use your words, what is useless to you is important to me and other people. In anime, manga⦠and even games, thereās no one, not even a rock, that doesnāt care about their social standing. Since I think itās necessary to live, I think I have help you out.ā
āThatāsā¦:
Amanoās eyes wavered. ā¦Right now, Iām acting selfishly. Fundamentally, heās the type to put priority on his own hobbies and his own wishes. His sense of priority is different than mine, so itās strange that Iām pushing my logic onto him.
But even thenā¦
āHey Amano, what type of person do you think I hate the most?ā
āWhat now? ā¦Are you trying to say that you hate indecisive people like me?ā
āRegrettable, but thatās wrong. Thatās the type of person I hate the second most.ā
āI am pretty disliked!ā
āThe type of person I hate the most isā¦ā
I looked at his eyes as I paused for effect.
āPeople who wish to hold onto their āhonor of not fussing over honor or social statusā.ā
āā¦ā
āI could respect a fool that really didnāt have any aspirations or was super prideful. However, staying aloof because they believe that theyāre so cool even though theyāre alone isnāt a difference in belief or a way of thinking; itās just the carelessness of a narcissist who lacks ambition.ā
āā¦Thatās harsh.ā
āNo, I wasnāt talking about you. All I was saying is that either way, youāre the stupid type.ā
āH-how embarrassing.ā
āThatās not a compliment.ā
āIs that soā¦ā
Amano looked despondent. This guyās emotions are really hectic. Wait, that might be my fault.
ā¦Well, canāt help itāIāll simply summarize everything I want to say right now.
āHey, Amano. This is for your future. Try imagining this for a bit. For example, if you and Tendo become friends⦠what will the other students think when they see you two walking together?ā
āā¦Ah, I seeā¦ā
Amanoās eyes opened wide in realization. I continued to talk.
āA relationship that isnāt recognized by other people is difficult to maintain, Amano. It might be⦠a bit overkill to relate it to a story like Romeo and Juliet, but there isnāt a healthy relationship is this world that lasts if itās only recognized by the people in the relationship.ā
āI guess. Itās strange that Iām trying to get closer to Tendo-san for no reason, after all.ā
No, I didnāt go that far. Rather, it would be a pain to follow up, so I just continued to say what I wanted to say.
āIn other words, thatās why itās good to have a few people see you ask her to be your friend. Itās also good to do it in a place with some distant acquaintances who will irresponsibly spread the information about it. Maybe an area like downtown where strangers walk by. And, to fulfill all the conditions, somewhere where itās easy to ask herāā
āClass 2-F! Thereās lots of people, and enough time during lunch break!ā
āYup, itās perfect.ā
I smiled. For some reason, Amano looked really excited and grabbed my hand.
āAs expected of Uehara-kun! Youāre amazing! Sorry, I was being foolish! Thank you! Thank you very much!ā
āNo, no, I did nothing.ā
I stayed humble. Right then, the chime rang through the hallway. Letting out a voice in panic, he returned to the classroom. While chasing after him⦠I secretly let out a crooked smile.
ā(āBut that was all a superficial reason!)ā
While looking at his back, I laughed evilly.
ā(My true aim is to see how Aguri will look!)ā
Naturally, Aguri will also come to todayās lunch event to watch.
When Amano asks Tendo to be his friend⦠Iāll be hidden among many students and will be properly able to observe Aguri! I may be nice to Amano, but I also have my doubtsāsheās my girlfriend!
ā(In a circumstance where only Amanoās acquaintances are watching, Aguri might try to conceal her actual reaction! Thatās how it is in a classroom full of people! However, itās difficult to completely hide your reaction! Since everyoneās eyes will be on Tendo, Aguri wonāt even have a hint that Iāll be there watching her!)ā
That was my aim.
Right when Amano asks Tendo, I have to look for Aguriās initial reaction.
If Aguri and Amano were really just friends, Aguri would cheerfully support Amano and Tendoās friendship from the bottom of her heart.
However, if she shows an expression of mixed feelings, then she is definitely cheating. Itās proof that Aguri has been charmed by Amano.
ā(ā¦Well, the worst possible reaction is if Aguri awkwardly sees me, who is worthy enough to be her boyfriend, looking at herā¦)ā
I set up this event with Tendo as a facade to see if Aguri and Amano were together⦠In other words, I cannot be seen. If Aguri looks at me with an awkward expression⦠Uwa, Iām shaking just from the thought! Well, that still isnāt the worst case!
ā(Anyway, this will settle things. I should know Aguriās true feelings!)ā
So, this event is pretending to be āAmanoās friend requestā⦠but itās actually litmus test for Aguriās feelings!
ā(Donāt underestimate a riajuuās strategic prowess!)ā
I let out a war cry in my mind to no one in particular. However, I feel like my middle school self is still looking down on meāwhat does this have to do with you!? Be quiet, you studious bastard! Your studying is finally being useful for once!
Yes yes, I also have another reason why I got Amano to ask in front of class 2-F. That would be to get Hoshinomori to see it as well.
ā(If there were only a small amount of people, she would definitely not come, but she might watch since there will be a lot of onlookers in this situation. And then, if Amano and Tendo become friends, sheāll feel jealous, and if they donāt become friends, sheāll feel sympathetic for a fellow loner, then develop a crush on him! No matter what happens, Iām a genius!)ā
If I say so myself⦠my mind is terrifyingly sharp. In this world, do you think there are any other high school boys that are this good at manipulating human relationships? Nope, I think not.
As I followed Amano into the classroom and went to my seat, I was no longer able to hold back my grin.
āFufufu⦠kuku⦠kufufufufufu!ā
āNo, Tasuku. Honestly, youāre so gross today. I wish you werenāt my friend anymore.ā
Ignoring Masayaās words, I marveled at my own professional human relationship skills, and kept laughing creepily.
Aguri
ā(Amano-chiās gonna ask during break, huhā¦)ā
Itās third period right now. Aguri is skillfully spinning her pen as she gazes at the boring kanji written on the blackboard.
ā(ā¦Aguri doesnāt mean to incite anything, but honestly, Aguri thinks that something will go wrongā¦)ā
Aguri let out a sigh.
ā(Somehow⦠even though thereās no evidence, Aguri has a hunch that things wonāt go as planned. Aguriās sixth sense is tinglingā¦)ā
After hearing Amano-chiās story, Aguri doesnāt think that thereās no hope at all regarding Tendo-san. After all, Amano-chi is really self-deprecating, so his words didnāt seem like they were just wishful thinking. Also, Aguri thinks that their relationship isnāt bad to begin with. Butā¦
āSomehow, it feels like Amano-chi and Tendo-san have a different relationship than Aguri actually thinks they do. Itās strange.)ā
Itās doesnāt seem particularly bad⦠but if Aguri had to say something, then it feels like their fate is fatally bad?
Aguri stopped spinning her pen and started to draw circles and arrows to create a relationship diagram.
ā(Amano-chi likes Tendo-san⦠or rather, admires Tendo-san. Aguri likes Tasuku. No, love. Itād be great if that could be confirmed right now, butā¦)ā
Aguri canāt move her pen anymore. ā¦Even though there are lines drawn from Tendo-san and Tasuku to Amano-chi and Aguri, Aguri canāt confirm their feelings. Furthermore, with the addition of Hoshinomori Chiaki, things are even more complicated.
ā(Amano-chi hates that girl⦠is what Aguri would like to say, but those two clearly get along well. Yea. Well, itāll be fine to just write my guesses too.)ā
This time, Aguri included all the unconfirmed information too.
ā(Tendo-san feels⦠well⦠normal? Towards Amano-chi. It doesnāt look like she hates him. And then, Amano-chi and Aguri are comrades. Then, Tasukuās feelings towards Tendo-san is⦠love, it seems like.)ā
After drawing a line from Tasuku to Tendo-san, Aguri wrote āLove?ā. ā¦The tip of my pen is shaking. ā¦Uu, donāt cry, Aguri! Donāt cry! Aguri is strong!
ā(Well then, the problem is this girlā¦)ā
Hoshinomori Chiaki. Sheās honestly harder to read than Tendo-san. Aguri doesnāt know much about her. Well, if Aguri were to write what she does knowā¦
ā(Clearly she has feelings⦠towards Tasuku, right?)ā
Again, Aguri drew a line from Hoshinomori Chiaki to Tasuku and wrote, āLove?ā. ā¦Well, Tasuku is the coolest person on the planet, so it canāt be helped that heās so popular. Itās not a shock. Itās completely not a shock.
The problem is, what does Tasuku think of herā¦
ā(Hoshinomori Chiaki⦠even Amano-chi says that sheās a quiet, boring otaku girlā¦)ā
For some reason, it seems like Amano-chi tends to underestimate girls, so his words were untrustworthy. Honestly, sheās super cute. Howeverā¦
ā(But Tasukuās type was⦠a cheerful, light-hearted girl, right?)ā
At least Aguri thought that was the case, so thatās why Aguri is the Aguri now.
But thinking back on it⦠Tasuku has never been super into the Aguri now! Even back then, Tasuku was always kind to Aguri, and Aguri thought that was really nice, and Aguri really likes him, really really likes, ahh, Tasukuā¦
ā(ā¦Hah! No, no, I got off topic!)ā
Aguri has to focus. Not on the lesson, but on this relationship diagram.
ā(Thinking about it again⦠maybe Tasuku just likes everyone.)ā
Tasukuās always nice to everyone without discriminating. In other words⦠he might not like cheerful, light-hearted girls, but he might also like cheerful, light-hearted girls.
There are various events lately that line up with this theory. Butā¦
ā(Uuā¦)ā
Oh no, tears are forming. What is this, this is bad! Aguri might actually start crying in the classroom. Thatās no good. A girl who cries about her boyfriend during class is seriously scary. Aguri knows that. Calm down. Calm down, Aguri.
ā¦Fuu. Alright⦠letās writeā¦
ā(The line from Tasuku to Hoshinomori-san isā¦)ā
The tip of the pen kept shaking as Aguri started to write the word āLikeāāthe pen escaped from the piece of paper. The braid-glasses class chairman sent me a look, but Aguri ignored it and held her head in her hands.
ā(What is this great resistance!? When it was Tendo-san, Aguri was barely able to draw the line, but⦠when Aguri thinks that Tasuku might like Hoshinomori Chiaki, a girl just like the plain, boring Aguri, Aguri hates it!)ā
As expected, Aguri wonāt allow this. Aguri doesnāt want to allow this. ā¦No, even though Amano-chi and Aguri already saw the definitive evidence⦠s-still, Aguri doesnāt know yet! Yea! Thatās right! Aguri might be mistaken!
ā(Y-yea, Aguri still doesnāt know. So⦠letās confirm it again! Letās do that!)ā
Aguri suddenly came up with a good idea and raised her head from her desk.
ā(First of all, if Tasuku actually likes Tendo-san, he wonāt like Amano-chiās request. He might be helping since Amano-chiās his friend and he canāt help it, but⦠if he doesnāt like it, itāll definitely show on his face!)ā
Also, among a huge crowd, he wonāt bother to hide his feelings!
ā(And then, if he really likes Hoshinomori-san⦠Tasuku wonāt be looking at Amano-chi, but at Hoshinomori-san instead! Heāll be wondering what Hoshinomori-san thinks of Amano-chi! Heāll definitely look at her reaction!)ā
At the very least, Aguri can figure out if Tasuku likes Tendo-san or Hoshinomori-san.
Oh, butā¦
ā(The worst thing that could happen is if Tasuku looks over at Aguri. After all⦠if he sees his girlfriend while meeting the person he cheated with, mou, I donāt know how a cheater thinks! Well, Tasuku probably wonāt do that, though!)ā
At any rate, everything Aguri learns during lunch will be the truth.
In other words⦠Amano-chiās event has turned into a litmus test to find out Tasukuās true feelings by focusing on his expressions!
ā(Ah, Aguri is such a smart girl! As expected of Tasukuās girlfriend and Amano-chiās shishou! Aguriās craftiness is amazing!)ā
While ignoring the lesson going on, Aguri let out quiet laughter.
āUfu⦠fufu⦠kufufufuā¦ā
āA-aguri-san?ā
Ignoring the class chairmanās worried look, Aguri marveled at her own professional human relationship skills, and kept laughing creepily.
Hoshinomori Chiaki
It looks like Tendo-san will go to Keita during lunch.
I heard the information from my classmates during break timeāor, more accurately, after I overheard my classmatesā conversation, I stopped using up my stamina in my social networking game and contemplated over the information by myself.
ā(Tendo-san⦠has business with Keita? I wonder whyā¦)ā
I peeked at Tendo-san. The concerned person was in the middle of the classroom, having a pleasant chat with the other students. As always, sheās beautiful, even to me. A sight for sore eyes, one could say. ā¦For some reason, a sigh leaves my mouth.
ā(Obviously, people other than Uehara-san would like herā¦)ā
Itād be absurd to call her my rival in love. Thereās a huge difference between her and me, whoās currently sitting down in the corner of the classroom, playing a social networking game quietly. Or rather, I feel like I havenāt said a word since I left the house. Even though itās break time after 3rd period. ā¦I think my vocal cords are deteriorating.
While thinking about such things, I looked at Tendo-san again. Obviously, the rumors about what will happen at lunch havenāt reached her friends in the middle of the classroom. The people talking about the rumors were still hanging around the edge of the classroom, looking towards the middle.
ā(Isnāt the evidence really weak? No, no⦠butā¦)ā
I looked at Tendo-san again. ā¦Fumu.
ā(The normal Tendo-san would clearly say whether a rumor was true or notā¦)ā
This aspect of her is really refreshing, and itās probably part of the reason why sheās so popular.
Thinking about it that way, even though there are rumors floating around about Keita, the fact that sheās not reacting to it shows that the situation isnāt normalā¦
ā(W-wait. Is she really going to see Keitaā¦)ā
For some reason, I feel uneasy.
ā(I mean, I really canāt see the reason. Sheās stopped trying to ask him to the Gamers Club⦠so for her to go see Keitaā¦)ā
Since even I canāt tell why, even though I know their circumstances pretty well, other people would be even more doubtful. Well, butā¦
ā(Like the rumors are saying, I donāt think itās a confession. Between Keita and Tendo-san⦠well, at best, it would probably be something like āplease be my friendā?)ā
That might be the case. ā¦I mean, I donāt really want to admit it, but Keita and I have a similar sensitivity to things. And for a while now, Iāve felt restless because I wanted to get closer to Tendo-san, who also likes games.
ā(Rather than Tendo-san going to Keita, she was probably called there instead. Class F is more or less Keitaās home.)ā
After that thought, my curiosity disappeared. I didnāt really want to see Keita get rejected by Tendo-san. Since weāre so similar, I really want to run away from that.
Letting out a sigh, I went back to my social networking game⦠but as I reopened the application, my hand stopped suddenly.
ā(Huh? Doesnāt Keita already have a girlfriend? Aguri-san. Even then, heās calling out to another girl?)ā
Although itās probably not related to love, it felt a bit strange. I suddenly remembered Tendo-sanās words from the other day.
ā(Oh right, Tendo-san⦠said that āI feel like Aguri-san is actually dating Uehara-kunāā¦)ā
Honestly, I donāt remember it too well, but I feel like thatās what she said.
Looking up from my smartphone, I started to fidget again.
ā(No, no, that canāt be. After all, Iāve seen Keita and Aguri-san together before. I feel like Keitaās love for Aguri-san is deepā¦)ā
Then, I suddenly hit upon a good idea!
ā(Then, then, is Keitaās love for Aguri-san super one-sided!?)ā
My body stiffened like it was hit by lightning.
ā¦No way⦠But everything makes sense that way. I always thought that Keita and Aguri-san didnāt really match, and wondered why a beautiful girl was dating a water flea-like presence. Everythingā¦
ā(If we assume that Aguri-san doesnāt have any feelings for him, then various things are explained!)ā
My lips trembled.
I-itās clear to me now. Keita is really the same as I am!
ā(After all, Keita and I are super easy!)ā
When someone does something remotely nice for us, we stick to them, and if itās the opposite gender, then we fall in love with them. Thatās the history of a loner like Keita and me.
Originally, Aguri-san is like a person from another world for us. However⦠by some small chance, she mustāve done some minor nice thing for Keita sometime.
ā(Itās not strange that Keita fell in love in one blow!)ā
Feeling confident, I nodded. In the beginning, Aguri-san wouldāve ignored a small flea like Keita. However, that developed into a girlfriend-boyfriend relationship.
How did that happen?
ā¦Thereās only one answer.
This is love detective Hoshinomori Chiakiās excellent love sleuthing skills!
ā(Keita is being played with by Aguri-san!)ā
This is the only possible truth.
Having glimpsed at one of the frightening mysteries of the world, I trembled.
ā(Since Keitaās body isnāt her goal⦠i-itās probably money. Asking him to pay at the game center⦠or, now that I remember, getting him to pay when they went to the cafe togetherā¦!)ā
The more I think about it, the more Iām convinced.
ā(H-how scary. T-thatās why people like us canāt go outside! All riajuus are evil! Theyāll have us on the palm of their hand, dressing up as angels even though theyāre actually the devil! Oh, but Uehara-san is different.ā
Iām amazed at how easy Keita is. Good grief, that hopeless chibi fell in love just because someone was somewhat nice to him. Good grief.
ā(I⦠I have to make sure!)ā
I looked up with a determined look. ā¦I really hate Keita, but I canāt stand to see someone so similar to me get played by a riajuu.
ā(I-I have to make him see the truthā¦!)ā
I, the love detective, suddenly noticed something.
ā(Thatās rightā¦! Asking Tendo-san to be his friend⦠is an SOS from Keita! Since he canāt separate from Aguri-san by his own will, this is the best SOS he can do!)ā
Having noticed the desire of someone just like me, small tears formed in my eye.
ā(I got it, I got it, Keita. Todayās lunch break. I⦠having received your message, will go to class F to confirm the truth about the devil! Tendo-san please receive his message as well!)ā
I sent a strong look towards Tendo-san, who turned around to look at me, as if she sensed it. In response, I nodded my head in a deliberate manner.
ā???ā
Tendo-san acted like she was confused. ā¦Goodness, what a good actor. Since sheās smart, she mustāve noticed all of Aguri-sanās evil deeds and decided to accept Keita the fleaās invitation. Why is she such a nice person?
I nodded at Tendo-san once again.
Finally going back to the game I held off on playing⦠I entered the battle against the voluptuous female raid boss and thoroughly crushed her.
Tendo Karen
Itās lunch right now. Iām on my way from class A to class F.
Like always, I was walking down the hall confidently with my chest puffed out⦠but unlike my outside appearance, I was feeling uneasy inside.
ā(Ahh, I donāt get it at all! Why did Amano-kun call for me!?)ā
After Uehara-kun called out to me first thing in the morning, the doubts and anxiety swirled around in my mind. As I headed towards the stairs to get to class F, I still couldnāt think of a reason.
Passing in front of class C, I was still frantically thinking for a reason.
ā(Honestly, the most likely thing is⦠breaking off relations.)ā
The blood drained from my face. I didnāt want to think about that case, but when I think about our delicate relationship, itās the most probable answer.
ā(For someone who likes to play games calmly, interacting with someone like me does great damage and gives him no advantages at all. Whenever we meet, he looks uncomfortableā¦)ā
And then there are the troubles with the Gamers Club too. Amano-kun and I still feel awkward about that incident.
And, ordinarily, itās really strange that Amano-kun and I still talk now and then. In the end, I also refused his invitation to the Gamers Hobby Club, so weāre not really related in any way. Even then, we still went on a walk for some reason.
Also, I know that Iām more or less a special person here. Itās just a fact; Iām not trying to brag.
ā(Since Amano-kun is a timid person⦠talking with someone like me is a definite noā¦)ā
Itās not like heās being excessively self-conscious. Itās a fact that I stand out. Itās not something Iām particularly proud of⦠but I wonder. Is that also suspicious? At the very least, I thought that Amano-kun would naturally join the Gamers Club because I invited him, but maybe that was being too haughty.
ā(Iām⦠probably an annoying person to him.)ā
Iām confident in my abilities. Iām also aware of the effort I put in. I think my popularity and my reliability have to do with my effort and my ability.
But honestly, I think itās questionable if Iām a ācharming personā.
The way he acts with me is clearly different than how he interacts with Uehara-kun and Hoshinomori-san.
Heās always flustered whenever he talks with me⦠and always⦠looks uncomfortable⦠and, only talks clearly to say that his opinions differ from mine.
ā(Thatās⦠no matter how you put it, our relationship is bad.)ā
Passing by class D, I let out a small sigh, trying not to let others see it.
Feeling a tiny bit depressed⦠in the next moment, I looked to the front and let out my fighting spirit.
ā(Hold on, Tendo Karen! Even if you encounter a bad situation, at least you can make it through by behaving like your usual self!)ā
The girl known as Tendo Karen is resilient in the most crucial moments. No matter how much I may waver, in important moments, I can conduct myself with firm resolve, as if I was confident from the very beginning.
Passing by class E, I warned myself.
ā(Under these circumstances, you have to prepare yourself, Tendo Karen! You have to respond honestly and truthfully!)ā
Yes, I will honestly and truthfully face myself. Using Misumi-kunās advice and the practice I got with Hoshinomori-san, now is the time to put it into action.
ā(First, I will listen to Amano-kunās words sincerely. Afterwards, I wonāt put on a strange facade and reject, but I will answer him with my honest feelings.)ā
Thereās nothing to it. The essence of everything is always simple.
ā(I will face Amano-kun from the front. Thatās it.)ā
With renewed determination, I walked into class F with an invigorating smile.
āExcuse me. Is Amano-kun here?ā
Amano Keita
āExcuse me. Is Amano-kun here?ā
When Tendo-san appeared at the entrance, my heart felt like it was going to jump out of my mouth.
ā(S-she came! She came!)ā
Although I prepared for it the whole day, I didnāt believe that she would come and say my name, and I was starting to think that she might not come.
āI-Iām h-h-h-here!ā
All of the gazes in the room turned to Tendo-san. I stood up while raising my hand as I trembled all over.
As I did so, all the gazes the turned towards me. ā¦U-uu!
Tendo-san was composed like always and had an elegant smileāshe looked like a model with her beautiful posture and her gait as she walked towards me.
In the crowded classroom, filled with people from other classes who had heard the rumor, Tendo-san was like Moses parting the red sea as she walked.
I felt the same dizziness from the attention I got when I was invited to the Gamers Club, but uehara-kun grabbed my arm and said āHeyā, bringing me back to my sense.
Looking around the classroom, I obviously saw Uehara-kun, and Aguri-san in the distance⦠and, looking like she had followed Tendo-san, I saw Chiaki poking her head out around the entrance.
And, those four people⦠unlike the other onlookers, who were smirking at the situation, they all had earnest expressions.
ā(Everyone⦠to go so far⦠for meā¦)ā
I was really moved. Even though I donāt want to include seaweed girl⦠well, I guess sheās still a friend. Iām grateful.
āGood afternoon, Amano-kun.ā
Standing in front of me, Tendo-san greeted me with a smile. For a moment, my throat was blocked and I sounded like a domesticated chicken as I stuttered out, āG-g-g-g, gooā!ā, but looking at Uehara-kun and everyoneās faces again⦠I calmed down my mind, looked straight at Tendo-san, and replied confidently.
āGood afternoon, Tendo-san. Sorry for calling you here today.ā
āNo, itās fine. Thenā¦ā
Tendo-san hesitated for a moment, but immediately recovered and asked me a question with a smile.
āThen, Amano-kun. What business do you have with me today?ā
āY-yea. About thatā¦thatāsā¦ā
Right then, I noticed that all the gazes in the classroom were focused on us.
ā(T-thatās natural. Untill now, everyone was just glancing at us⦠everyone must have noticed that āthings are starting nowā and are looking over hereā¦)ā
I was conscious of all the attention that we were gathering.
āā¦?ā
Tendo-san tilted her neck as I sunk into silence. While trying to ignore the surroundings, I continued to talk with trembling lips.
āU-um, thatās, um⦠um⦠i-itās really hard to say, butā¦ā
ā!ā
Right then, Tendo-sanās face looked really sad. I tilted my neck, thinking that her reaction was odd.
ā? T-tendo-san? Whatās wrong?ā
āN-no, itās nothing. Continue, Amano-kun. ā¦I am prepared.ā
āH-ha.ā
Wait, āpreparedā? Iām only asking her to be my friendāis that really necessary?
But then, I just realized!
ā(O-oh! Sheās prepared to refuse!)ā
I was astonished. ā¦I guess my loss has already been determined.
Tendo-san spoke up as I stood still.
āAmano-kun? What is it?ā
āHuh? Oh, no⦠itās nothāā¦ā
I slumped my shoulders in disappointment and replied.
ā(ā¦Should⦠should I just quit?)ā
I abruptly looked up.
After all, this⦠this has no meaning. Itās pointless to be bold here.
Itās like using up a valuable recovery item during the boss fight that determines whether or not I lose.
āUm⦠Tendo-san. Itās really nothāā¦ā
While talking, I peaked at Uehara-kun to see if he was angry.
However, he wasā¦
ā(Eh? It looks like heās not even looking!)ā
I donāt get it. He was looking at somewhere else with much focus.
Or rather, I noticed that Aguri-san and even Chiaki werenāt even looking. ā¦What is this. What are you guys doing? Why is everyone looking somewhere elseā¦
I noticed their aim. Theyāre not trying to be cruel. If they were so heartless, they wouldnāt have come in the first place. They didnāt come just because they were curious. They must be seeing how things are going with me and Tendo-san.
But then, what are they looking at?
Thereās only one answer.
ā(Everyone⦠everyoneās being so considerateā¦!)ā
Knowing that Iām weak to attention, seeing my heart get discouraged⦠everyoneās so considerate!
Theyāre trying to reduce my burden by looking away! Really, even though they want to watch, even though things wonāt change!
ā(Everyone⦠all this⦠for meā¦!)ā
Inside my heart, a light shone once again.
Suddenly, I recalled⦠the events of last night, when I cleared āGolden Tricksā.
ā(I see⦠thatās right. Iām borrowing everyoneās power⦠Even if I think Iāll lose, that doesnāt mean I canāt try my best!)ā
What do you mean, ābecause my loss has been determinedā. Do I intend to show my back as I shamelessly scurry home after having borrowed the strength of my amazing friends?
Thatās wrong, Amano Keita!
Even though Iām a mob character and not the main character of a story, that doesnāt matter now!
This is, as a person, as a man, what I should do! In other wordsā¦
ā(Showing my friends my proud loss⦠this is a man!)ā
Having resolved myself, I looked at Tendo-san with an earnest gaze.
āā¦!ā
To my change in attitude, Tendo-san sat up straight, and the tension in the class rose.
I looked at my friends, who were looking somewhere else just like before, and smiled.
I started to talk with courage.
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
Uehara Tasuku
ā(Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Why is Aguri looking at me super awkwardlyyyyyy!?)ā
While Amano and Tendoās event moved along nicely, I⦠was amazed how I was able to guess the worst reaction that Aguri could have.
ā(I-i-if sheās looking at me in this situation⦠that means⦠that means that sheās completely in love with Amano, and is thinking how easy I was to triiiccckkkkkkk!)ā
But what is that super awkward expression!? Iām the one that feels awkward! Itās been decided! Let alone cheating, doesnāt that mean that heās your favorite!? Thatās a lie! But before I knew it⦠with Amanoā¦!
Then, in an unrelated matter to my intense shakingā
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
āBefore I knew it, the climax of Amanoās event had come.
Aguri
ā(Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Why is Tasuku looking at Aguri super awkwardlyyyyyy!?)ā
While Amano-chi and Tendo-sanās event moved along nicely, Aguri⦠was amazed how Aguri was able to guess the worst reaction that Tasuku could have.
ā(I-i-if Tasukuās looking at Aguri in this situation⦠it means⦠it means that Tasuku is a player who goes around seducing girls! Not Tendo-san, not Hoshinomori-san, but heās awkwardly looking at Aguri, his girlfriend⦠this is definite proof that heās cheatiiiiinnnnnngggggg!)ā
But what is that super awkward expression!? Aguriās the one that feels awkward! Isnāt it certain now!? Itās been decided! Itās been decided that heās a cheater! This is a lie, right!? But when⦠when did he abandon Aguriā¦!
Then, in an unrelated matter to Aguriās intense shakingā
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
āBefore Aguri knew it, the climax of Amano-chiās event had come.
Hoshinomori Chiaki
ā(Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Why are Uehara-san and Aguri-san are looking at each other super awkwardlyyyyy!?)ā
While Keita and Tendoās event moved along nicely, I⦠was amazed how I was able to guess the worst reaction that the two of them could have.
ā(I-i-if theyāre looking at each in this situation⦠that means⦠that means that theyāre secretly dating, and are purposely thinking back on uncomfortable memories to pretend thereās nothing going onnnnnnnn!)ā
But what is that super awkward expression!? Iām the one that feels awkward! Isnāt it certain now!? Itās been decided! Doesnāt that mean that sheās using Keita for her convenience and is actually going out with Uehara-san!? Or rather, is she using Uehara-san too!? This is a lie, right!? But before I knew it⦠leave Keita aloneā¦!
Then, in an unrelated matter to my intense shakingā
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
āBefore I knew it, the climax of Keitaās event had come.
Amano Keita
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
Right as I said those first few words, the various events that happened recently flashed before my eyes like a revolving lantern.
Miyamoto-san, who wanted a copy of Kurikure 3, Chiaki, who I argued with in our meetings of the Gamers Hobby Club, Misumi-kun, who somehow won a game tournament, and Tendo-san, who I had a medal game showdown with.
And, the most memorable one being the most recent event.
Those unsuccessful endings of āGolden Tricksā that I saw over and over again. Even now, the words of the main character still stuck to my dreams.
Yesterdayās meeting with Aguri-san at the family restaurant. There, I decided to ask Tendo-san. I decided to imitate Aguri-sanās simple, anti-climactic confession.
Gathering my determination through my memories, I paused once in my words.
I cleared my throat, as if to clear the air of all the tension.
And then, once again,
Thinking of the confession scene of āGolden Tricksā and Aguri-sanās stories, I looked into Tendo-sanās eyes and started over.
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
Tendo Karen
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
As Amano-kun started to talk with such an earnest look, I went over everything that had happened since yesterday.
Misumi-kun saw how coldly I rejected a confession and admonished me about how I was using my facade, then I tried it on Hoshinomori-san.
ā(First, reply with my honest feelings. Then, donāt immediately say a rejectionā¦)ā
Ever since then, Iāve been constantly telling myself that.
ā(Itās wrong to immediately reject someone I just met like I always do. He⦠Amano-kun is one of the people I respect the most. These are his words. Even if this is his rejection of me. I⦠have the obligation to reply to his words from the bottom of my heart without a facade.)ā
I resolved myself. Looking determined as well, he started to talk again.
āTendo-san, pleaseāā
This is just right. Following my beliefs of ānot starting with a a rejectionā and āreplying with my honest feelingsā, I cut into his words slightly as I responded with a positive reply.
āYesāā
Amano Keita
With many students looking on, the fateful moment had come.
In that moment, the whole group let out surprised voices that shook the whole building.
āThus, on this day,
An unprecedented event that no one expectedāeven the people involvedāoccurred. On this day, in this classroom, an unexpected couple was accidentally created between two very different people.
Notes:
1. Flying Get means pre-ordering and obtaining items such as books, CDs, and DVDs before the date they officially go on sale.
2. Frau means woman in German. So, her name means āheavenly womanā.
3. In these next few paragraphs, there are a lot of parts where I think there are references, but I donāt really watch/read too many series, so I have no idea what they refer to. If anyone knows, please comment!
4. The Japanese word used for āvirginā here (ē«„č²) typically refers to boys/males.
5. Sawayaka 3 kumi is a Japanese educational TV show geared towards kids.
6. Capcom loves crashing their helicopters.
7. Zenryoukuzaka is a TV show about female idols running.
8. KISUMAI BUSAKU is a TV show about males trying to prove how cool they are.
9. A spell of restoration from Dragon Quest when they were actually used.
10. Irem is a video game company that produces arcade and early console games.
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