The method to achieve happiness is to fall in love with like-minded people. I agree with that saying. Similar values, similar family environment, similar academic background, similar economic status, and similar levels of appearance. The same type. I was an intelligent child who knew very well that was the freeway to the happiness that everyone sought.
Then, I realised I fell into that suffocating love when I turned seventeen. But maybe I only realised just now that I fell in love at first sight. Even so, I am someone who prides myself immensely in the fact that I am rational and logical, so I ignored it believing it was merely the first disease of a high school student.
But those balled up feelings obstructed my throat and, in the end, they killed me.
“Please go to Shinsa Station.”
Currently, I was watching the daybreak landscape of the city passing by. That was the fault of a call that snatched away my daybreak, almost as if it were a murky promise that wanted me to see it.
After receiving that call, I sat in bed before getting up and muttering curses under my breath. Apart from the sleeping housekeeper, there was no one in the house to catch me leaving. So, I went.
When I left the front gate and waited for a taxi, I noticed a motorcycle parked all alone in an alley against the wall of the house next door. A year ago, a new family moved into the house where my old neighbours left as if running away. However, I had never once met the new family that had moved in. I thought it was something that couldn’t be helped because of the nature of the neighbourhood so full of mansions that, even if you look up, you still can’t see the end of the wall very well. When I saw the motorcycle, I guessed it was a house with a punk a bit older than me.
That motorcycle was usually left out in front of the gate like that, or it was hidden in the corner of the alley and tied securely to a chain. Its appearance seemed as if it was looking straight at me. Towards dawn, I indifferently looked at that motorcycle and passed by it.
After getting in the taxi, I looked out the window the entire time. However, because of my inability to stay in cars for a long time because of severe motion sickness, I soon gave up watching the scenery and closed my eyes.
“……”
For some reason, I haven’t been able to digest well since about a year ago. I set aside the feeling of indigestion that seemed to tightly suffocate me and showed no signs of leaving and let out a weak breath. I tried not to be swayed by the emotions that made me uncomfortable. Fortunately, after a lot of hard work, I managed to endure until now with a face that said nothing was wrong. As if I could get off the taxi that had arrived just now and head towards the hotel.
I entered the hotel, biting my lip and clenching my fist once before opening it and looking at the short number inside. And I stood there and slowly knocked on the door three times.
“Hey, Han Joonwoo. Hurry and open the door.”
I paused for a moment at the door that didn’t respond to the knock, looked into the air, and then exhaled. Then, I clenched my fist tightly and knocked on the door again.
“Open the door!”
This was the current situation. To be honest, I really felt like shit. I already expected what dirty and filthy things had happened in this room last night, but I couldn’t stop my hand from knocking on the door. It was because Han Joonwoo asked me to come and get him. The reason I put up with this disgust and listened to Han Joonwoo’s request was because the man who gave me my first disease was Han Joonwoo.
“Why do you call me for no reason when you have a one-night stand? You useless son of a bitch!”
Oh, how horrible.
The life of an eighteen-year-old.