âCerera, you are amazing! Where did you get the courage to talk to the Emperor like that?â
Elaine started complimenting Cerera as soon as we returned to our room. I also joined in praising her.
I had given her my applause along with Elaine.
*Clap Clap*
âYou were so cool!
How can you just state right in front of the Emperorâs face that his hair was âdurityâ?
Well, you are not wrong. That is âdurityâ to me. Everything except food is âdurityâ!â
âHuh? What?â
However, it seems that Cerera had no clue why Elaine was praising her.
As Cerera placed me in the crib, she cocked her head questioningly.
âHuh?â
âWhat you saidâŚâ
âWhat?â
âThat, thatâŚâ
Elaine diligently tried to explain herself. Unfortunately, Cerera had no idea what she was talking about and frowned.
âNanny, what sheâs trying to say is about that thing earlier! Agh! Why canât you just get it?!
Earlier that, that.â
âDurity. When you said Durity.â
Elaine was so frustrated she hit herself on the chest. Only then did Cerera seem to understand what was going on. Her face lit up brightly then it turned sullen.
âSo, what about it? It was durity.â
âHuh? What is this?â I gave her a slightly surprised look.
âCerera youâŚ
I knew you were amazing, but do you also have an attitude? The Emperor was laughing but his entire face froze when you said his hair was durity. Did you not see that?!â
I honestly thought her head was going to fly off at that point. She also pulled me out of his arms without asking and wiped my mouth. After that, she checked inside my mouth in case there was any of his hair still stuck in there â while she was right in front of Caitel.
âAh. So did you not see his expression?â
âPrincess, donât eat hair. It durity. Durity.â
I looked into the green eyes that gazed into mine and cheerfully laughed.
âNope. I wasnât trying to eat it but chew it.â
âMrs. Cerera, you have an unexpectedly large liver.â ( )
As I heard Elaine mumbling to herself, I also agreed with her. I didnât know, but my nanny really was Superman. I had always assumed Cerera would just shake and cower in front of Keitel but it turned out I was wrong about her, or was her concern for me so great that she overcame her fear?
I felt slightly strange. Itâs true that she is my nanny, but I am not her real child. How can she pour so much love onto someone elseâs child that is not her own?
I felt a lump form in my throat.
âWhat are you saying? Stop talking nonsense and bring me a warm towel.â
Elaine stuck out her bottom lip and left the room. Her expression was full of complaints but I was so used to it by now and it looked cute to me which made me get serious.
âTo think that human being looked cute to me, I am really out of my mind.â
As soon as Elaine left, Cerera took a chair and sat near my crib. Then she proceeded to pat my chest as I laid there. When our eyes met, her eyes gently turned into half moons and she gave me a smile that was like a sunny spring day. It was the kind of smile that was welcoming, like flowers swaying in the gentle breeze with plenty of dew drops sprinkled on them. Her smile was that peaceful.
âItâs great that the Emperor cherishes you so much.â
âWhat theâŚ
Actually, Nanny, heâs not really cherishing me. Heâs just playing with me. On top of that, the bastard treats me like a thing. He says Iâm his. Heâs a funny Japong! I like jajangmyeon way better.
No, wait a minute thatâs not the point.â
âPrincess, you only have your father on your side.â
âHuh? What are you saying?â
I slowly looked up at Cerera. She was looking at me with a sorrowful expression and her eyes were glazed with tears.
âWhy are you suddenly crying?â
âItâs true the Emperor gets fingers pointed at him for being a tyrant, and other empires and kingdoms condemned him as a mass murderer and an invader, but this is not just his problem.â
I just quietly gazed into Cerera eyes.
This frail and delicate lady was quietly explaining herself to me who canât possibly understand what she was saying. It was as if she was confessing her sins to God. To me, it seemed to the act of praying. I held back my breath and watched her.
Her face grew dark.
Her face wasnât angry or fearful, but rather sorrowful.
âI wish for the Princess to grow up cherished and to be able to show the Emperor what true happiness is through the experience of raising and protecting what is his, rather than through the act of stealing other peopleâs things and stepping on them. That is what I hope for.â
Everything she said was things I couldnât possibly accomplish. They were all things I didnât know how to do myself. âWhat is the feeling of wanting to protect something and raising them and getting to know them?â I looked far away as I got lost in my own thoughts
For a second, Cerera laughed so brightly, like the sun that chases away the darkness.
At that warmth, I lost all the words I wanted to say. I was just melting away from all this gentleness.
âPrincess, you can surely do this, right?â
âWhy do you expect this from me?â
I started to whine at this impossible situation where I couldnât say yes, but I felt I shouldnât say no either. This was more difficult for me than the phenomena of the seven wonders of the world.
âCanât you ask me a question like, âWho do you love more, mommy or daddy?â Ask me that instead!â
âMrs. Cerera.â
For the first time since I met her, Elaine did a good deed. As soon as Elaine walked in, Cerera stood up and took the towel from her. Then she cleaned my face and cheeks thoroughly. Her movements were gentle and full of consideration.
âI feel it all the time, but I feel Mrs. Cerera treats Ariadna as if she were your own daughter.â
I guess Elaine felt the same way I did as she observed Cerera.
Cerera laughed at Elaineâs admiration and took care of me with gentle fingers.
âShe is my daughter.â
Her voice was firm and strong as she said this.
âAh, I shouldnât get emotional over every single thing.â
Even as I said this, I knew it was too late and my heart was greatly moved.
I tried to hide my tears by forcing myself to laugh.
Cerera noticed my tears and assumed I was sleepy.
Well, I am pretty sleepy.
âWhat about Mr.Graecito who is at your relativeâs place?â
Elaine acted out of character and said something heavy.
I guess watching Cerera take care of me made her heart heavy.
âAnyway, Graecito?
I guess thatâs the name of her son whom she left with her family.â
At the mention of her sonâs name that she didnât hear for a long time, Cereraâs face grew heavy.
âHuh?â
Then her cheeks started blushing and her suddenly lively face surprised me.
âIn fact, Iâm going to see him tomorrow.â
âOh, really?â
ââOh, really?â, indeed. I want to ask her too.â
I tried to attract her interest by shaking my hand and foot at her.
I guess Cerera was shy because she just lowered her head and nodded a few times.
âAt most, itâs only for six hoursâŚâ
âIâm so happy for you!â
Elaine clasped Cereraâs hands.
I also wanted to grab her hands.
âItâs great! Itâs really great!â
I was always grateful to Cerera for taking such good care of me, but as soon as I heard that she had to leave her own child behind at her home to take care of me I had felt an unknown feeling grow larger in the corner of my heart. However, I now felt it suddenly clear up.
The burden in my heart had lessened.
âCerera, you must become happy one day.â
This was a thought that came naturally to me, and one which I carried with me at all times.
âThatâs right, this woman must become happy.â
âOh my, the Princess is happy for you too.â
Thanks to Elaine looking at me, Cerera turned around to look at me too.
Seeing my happiness, Cerera looked like she was going to break out in tears any second.
âOur kind Princess.â
Cerera held me up. As soon as she embraced me I kissed her cheek.
It was something I shouldnât be able to do yet due to my age, but I wanted to do it for her.
Obviously, it was a big surprise to them.
âOh my! The Princess kissed Mrs. Cerera!â
Cerera stared at me with a surprised face.
I smiled back brightly.
âCerera!â
Elaine was going nuts by her side.
She threw a fuss saying âOur Princess is good!â and how she loved her âto deathâ and was âan angelâ but despite all these praises I just looked at Cerera.
âMy pretty nanny, Cerera. I really like you a lot.â
âOur princessâŚâ
Her voice shook and there was a great change upon her face.
She was barely holding her tears in.
I grabbed her hair which fell into my hands.
âDonât feel pain. Donât cry. And please be happy okay?â
I guess she must have heard me because she didnât cry a single tear. She only laughed.
âTch.â ( )
I heard Elaineâs voice come from my side.
The both of us stared at Elaineâs face which was filled with jealousy.
âAre you jealous?â
âNo, no. Not at all.â
âShe isâŚâ
I laughed.
âOh, Elaine, you are an idiot.
Stupid Elaine.â
But I donât hate that moron, so I held out my hand.
âOh, oh, oh?!â
It was the first time I held out my hand out to her that Elaine was caught off guard.
She didnât know what to do and just stuttered with shocked eyes.
âYeah, you find this strange right?
I find it strange too.â
âMa-Ma-â
âAh, Ah- is she calling me mom?â
âWhat in the world?!â Iâm just yelling randomly, but Elaine looked greatly moved.
âHey! I wasnât calling you mom!â
âUmmm Ahhh~â
After I screeched out one more time Elaineâs expression changed.
âGood. She understands now.â
âSo she wasnât saying, mom.â
Cerera laughed at Elaineâs tantrum.
She caressed my head one more time and smiled brightly at Elaine.
âShe seems happy.â
Elaine walked up to us. Then, she grabbed my hands that were hovering aimlessly in the air. When I saw how small my hands were in her hands, even I thought my own baby hands were just too cute. Elaine laughed nonsensically after seeing that I stuck out my bottom lip.
Time flies by quickly for children. Soon enough, I had become a six-month-old baby. There wasnât anything especially different about turning six months old, but I did have one good news. I could sit up! âNow give me applause!â
*Clap Clap*
âHeh heh, I like it.â
When I turned around five months old, even I felt the difference in my development. I started to slow down in growth which made me think it was a bad thing, but seeing as Cerera remained calm, I guess it was normal at this stage. I was able to put more strength into my legs and hands so I thought I could start crawling but damn! My hopes were dashed. I ended up pushing myself on my stomach and failed numerous times. Numerous times I wailed inwardly and looked for Cerera so I could ask her when could I start crawling.
âCerera, I canât crawl!â
âOh, my Princess are you sitting up again?â
âYup, I really wished for this to happen.â
I unconsciously answered her and then realized suddenly.
âWhen did you get here?â When I was playing with my toys Cerera appeared out of nowhere and looked down at me.
âReally, sitting up again? Isnât it obvious? You shouldnât say it like that.â
I giggled and Cerera laughed with me.
Cerera could now see her child once a month because I played well with the other servants, and so she could relax and visit her child with peace of mind. I guess thatâs why she looked happier these days. It felt like she was growing prettier day by day.
âAh, to be honest, I donât like the other servants but, for Cereraâs sake, I try my best to play along with them.â
âPrincess, please eat this.â
I cocked my head as she pushed a bowl in front of me.
âIsnât this solids? Itâs solids! Yum
I will eat it, but isnât it too early to eat solids?â
Then I remember how my nanny would spend a long time checking out my mouth after she bathed me. I think she was checking if I had teeth⌠âI have teeth!
Ah, is that why Iâm starting on solids? Oh, can I start talking now?â
âUghwahhâŚâ
Even I think that that wasnât a sound a human could understand, but these days I feel so light-hearted that I unconsciously let out screeches randomly. âDamn.â
*Sob Sob* âIâm not a monster.â
âHere, say âah~â.â
As soon as a spoon came toward me I automatically opened my mouth. What nanny usually gives me is fruit. Today, itâs fruits again. The only thing is that I have no idea what kind of fruit it is because itâs mashed beyond recognition. Also, my taste buds were dull due to the fact that I only had milk for several months.
âAnyway, this is delicious!â
âEat slowly. Good girl.â
âWhat kind of fruit is this?â I unconsciously asked her but unfortunately, no human words came out. So Cerera just ended up patting me on the head and that was the end of it.
Damn, I gotta get out of this baby phase so I can actually do something.
âWas it that delicious? Good girl. Have some more.â
âYup, thatâs right.
For now, Hand over that bowl. It is pretty good.
I feel like Columbus discovering a new continent. Is this a whole new world?â
It was solids but, instead of chewing it, it was more accurate to say I was just swallowing the puree whole. In other words, it was like drinking fruit juice. At first, I thought solids were too much for me when I didnât have teeth, but Cerera was a master at early childcare development.
âCerera, youâre the boss! I believe in your abilities!â
As I ate up the small snack, Cerera smiled and left the room.
Japong is a popular Korean spicy noodle soup that is loaded with various types of seafood.
Depending on the restaurant, it can have various types of ingredients that can be quite random.
When you make it at home, you end up mixing all sorts of stuff in a spicy broth.
So if someone compares you to as a funny japong it means youâre random and weird. Itâs not a compliment. Donât go around saying this.
I havenât heard this expression in years. Itâs dying out.
I like jajangmyeon way better.
Japong is the most enjoyed (take-out) delivery food in Korea along with jjajangmyeon. Itâs like if you go get burgers there will be fries there, right? Itâs the same with japong. The restaurant will always have both choices. Our MC is just playing around with words. The last part is unnecessary. \n