It seems that a person who loves his brother so much like my older brother is called a “Brocon”.
Just to what extent is he being a brocon, first of all, he’s not leaving from my side. He tried to accompany me to the bathroom so Nicole had to stop him.
I thought that it won’t be good at this rate, so I tried distancing myself from him a number of times but…
[Nng]
[What’s wrong? Are you hurting somewhere?]
When I release a weak voice unintentionally, they’d suspect that my health has worsened, and even when I try to free my body, they’d still take it as if I’m hurting and they’d worry some more. (TN: Whew… this is hard)
I can’t speak what I want to say because I’m not even able to say a word.
I tried telling him through hand gestures, but maybe because we’ve been too close lately, I couldn’t do it well, simply leaving my in frustration.
[Recently, you seem to be wanting to stretch your arms, huh. Still, don’t force yourself, ok? If there’s something you want to do, I’ll do it for you.] (TN: “something”. uhehehe)
Our mother has been smiling while looking at my brother and I stick together, but Nicole’s daily rhythm seems to be disturbed, there’s an impression of a vien throbbing in his temple.
Even when he was back at the dorm, he used to write letters every single day……Honestly, I can’t figure out a way to get him away from me.
In the meantime, I must get back my strength and be able to speak easily, that is my goal.
[Sheryl-sama, how about here?]
[N]
I shook my head, indicating that it’s fine.
When I was able to conciously release Mana, I have never suffered from any major pain.
I can also freely use Mana even while inside the sea of memories, which even I think is amazing.
Gradually, my health is getting better and I’m able to communicate a little with everyone, so I feel that everyone’s smile has increased.
And now, in front of me are different types of ingredients.
Food with high Mana content will aggravate(?) the Dreaming Illness so they’re properly sorting those.
It was discovered that I could tell accurately how much Mana I have inside my body two days ago.
After sorting out the ingredients, this time we’re waiting to confirm on the cooking method.
[Shina’s(it’s probably a fruit) essense is no good. Should we stop here for now? Because a lot of materials have been prepared, Bellom-sama will be delighted as well.
[Un!]
Probably because I haven’t raised my voice in a long time, my voice didn’t sound quite right. (?) (TN: 言葉を発しない日々が多かったせいか、まだ上手く呂律が回らない。 I’m completely lost. Please don’t ask me where I got what I wrote donw. :'( )
Although I can only nod my head as a form of conversation, but I was genuinely glad that the materials have increased that a smile floated from my face.
Although it’s not for certain that it’s gonna go well with the Dreaming Illness.
Nicole also look as if he’s about to smile as he’s taking care of the ingredients.
Apparently, other people seems to have no idea of the exact amount of Mana they possess.
When I asked how much Mana the ingredients have, it is said that even high-levelled magcians are not able to tell.
Is this due to me becoming conscious about the flow of Mana from the memory of the previous life?
I strongly believe that it will become the first step to find a cure for diseases rooted in this world by selecting food ingredients at least.
Now, I can properly release my Mana and my physical condition improved somewhat, which I believe to be because of “His” so-called past life.
Because other people are unable to obtain what I have, I’d like to do what I can with all my best.
[I hear that Bellom-sama will be visiting again soon. Lately, since his condition has been well so I hope they’d be able to talk a lot]
[You’re right.]
Odilon Bellom.
The Sensei who’s looking after my Dreaming Illness, was a secretary of state magic agency.
As the name implies, the Magistrate Agency is a government agency that gathers magicians and is undertaking magical research at the same time.
As the top brass of the agency, I wondered why he’s personally looking after my illness as even though I’m a noble’s descendant, I’m on the lower class. It appears that of all the patients with the congenital type of Dreaming Illness, I’m the only who lasted the longest..
If I continue to live even longer, it will become a record.
When Bellom-sensei who visited me in order to have my brother return to the dorm saw me in a lively condition, he was shocked.
Even though these words are horrible, but he seriously thought that I would be hopeless this time around. That’s how my condition was.
From there, I was asked how I was able to recover, then I explained to him how I released my Mana. I am one who does not have enough endurance to continuosly speak for long. I took a long time, but Sensei listened patiently to my explanation.
As expected, I couldn’t tell them about the Chinese part, so I changed the “flow of ki”(energy) to “flow of chi”(blood). (TN: It seems I made a mistake in the previous chapter. Sorry.)
Even so, as I’m currently bedridden, while Sensei kept praising me for how I was able to come to such ideas and my mother on the side repeatedly saying “My child is such a genius!”, I could only shrink myself on my bed.
Because it requires fine control of the imaginatio to control magic, I would’ve become an outstanding magician if only not for the Dreaming Illness, or so Sensei kept on saying.
I wonder if it’s sad for me to be able to release Mana but unable to produce magic?
[Sheryl-sama, can you handle a massage before the meal?]
This routine also started just recently. I nod my head signaling Nicole to continue.
Even though it’s called a meal, it’s still just liquid food, and I had Nicole massage me to relax the muscles for easy digestion.
Maybe because the Mana used to be accumulated inside my body, a lot of pain used to shoot up just from being touched, but thanks to the continuous discharge, not a lot of pain comes while being massaged.
Even still, it hurts a lot depending on the place so I gradually on from where I can tolerate the most.
[Well then, please excuse me.]
Nicole unbuttons my sleepwear.
Nicole, with his dark-brown skin and black eyes, seemed mature to me.
His hair flowing down from his neck was glossy and shiny, and seeing his eyelashes up close, they were also long and black, which I thought was only natural. (Because his hair is black… .)
[Please tell me if you feel cold.]
He took out my arm from my sleepwear and started massaging my shoulder.
Anyway, my body is gradually getting warmer so there’s no way I’ll get cold.
Every time I see my arms which are as thin as a branch, my courage to look at the mirror disappears.
The cheeks on my face also probably lacks some meat, however, it should not be to the extent where my bones would be clearly visible.
It’s a bit sad to be unable to look at your own face, isn’t it?
[Does it hurt anywhere?]
[N]
With his hands covered in oil, Nicole stroked my arms.
The touch which could only be counted as a brush, gave me a ticklish feeling.
With such a comfortable feeling of being stroked, my eyes slowly closed.
What should I do when I become able to move? In the mean time, I would like to go out to the garden and watch the flowers while inhaling the air outside.
Even while I was continuously discharged Mana from my fingertips, Nicole didn’t mind when his hand went down to my hand.
I must’ve gotten used to it and put my guard down.
[Tss..]
[I’m sorry!]
A sharp pain ran throughout my body after a long time.
Even if it was for a moment, Nicole’s face looked like he was about to cry.
I want to say that I’m fine.
However, my mouth won’t move right after the word “It’s”.
I was frustrated, but I somehow managed to give a smile as I stretched my finger to his cheek.
When I tried to stroke an outline(?), he seemed to understand what I mean.
However.
[I’m sorry.]
As he talked, he placed my fingers into his lips.
What for?
[N…If it’s like this, does it still hurt?] (TN: Woah, this guy knows his thing….)
「…………」
Uhmm, did he mean to ask which causes more stimulation, the lips or the fingers?
Uhh….
[Uhh… uhmm… N..]
Whether he understood from my reaction that it didn’t hurt, he continued to stimulate them.
Even I don’t know if it’s necessary to continue the massage at this point.
When our eyes meet occasionally everytime he checks how I was doing, Nicole’s cheeks would start to turn red.
It’s more embarrassing for me who’s looking up at you…!
I unconsciously started using my Mana to search for anyone approaching the room. The Mana is already in its release mode so even when I don’t activate it, I would still notice when someone comes.
[N…chu…haah…haah…]
Finally, lip sounds are coming out!
Must be due to the oil covering his hands a while back, Nicole’s lips are shining. Between the gaps is a red tongue.
The wetness I’m feeling must be my imagination, right?
[Chuu… chuu…N..]
[Ah..]
My fingers went in.
Where?
Inside Nicole’s mouth. (TN: I originally planned to stop here because my eyes started getting heavy… But for the sake of earlier smut(not so much) exposure.. here we are…)
My fingertips are being wrapped in something moist and warm.
[N…n… *slurp*]
I’m being licked. My fingers are being eaten and licked.. (TN: He’s saying this in a polite manner. Too bad i still don’t have the ability to showcase it’s humour in english… demo gambarimasu! <- like this.)
[Wa… Nn… chuu.. chuu…]
I can feel the heat from his breath being exhaled.
The moisty black eyes saw me.
[Ah… Hahhh.. haa…ngh..]
STOP. DOING. THAT!
Eh? What? A “finger bj?” ……I don’t have such information!
I hate the memories of the past life that answered me heartlessly.
It’s totally turned into a “finger bj”, but where’s the switch?
[Chuu.. kuchuu.. ngh.. nngh…]
Without minding my reaction, Nicole took in the third finger and started sucking on it!
While he was sucking, he started licking and rolling his tongue over my fingers.
At the same time I looked at his hips which’re swaying a little, Nicole noticed my gaze and let out a loud voice.
[Aah… I’m sorry, I just can’t… hold it any longer..]
PART 2
「…………」
Please restrain yourself there! I pleaded with my eyes. (TN: You’ll just look more adorable, I guarantee it.)
You shouldn’t use your master as masturbating material!
[Yes… I won’t use my hands… I’ll also restrain from moving my hips..]
What the heck is this guy saying while extending his groin?
It’s useless, my complaints are not reaching him.
Aside from that, let’s stop eating my fingers, yeah?
[Unmhh… chiyuum, ngh… haa… I’ll finish it with this here, okay?]
With an ecstatic expression, Nicole wiped my hand which is covered with oil and saliva.
And then he lifts my other hand.
Aah, as I thought, you’re eating that side, too, huh.
At the end of my sight, my fingers are placed on top of Nicole’s tongue.
[*slurp*, *schlurp*…Nnghh..]
Even though the pain shot up when I was being rubbed, why are the parts being sucked alright?
Maybe because it’s being sucked? There’s no way.
[Haa… nguh… chuu… haah, haah..]
Nicole’s tongue entwines itself with my fingers.
While I was being licked in the gaps between my fingers, I suddenly felt a chill on my back.
Having a bedridden body sure is annoying.
Even so, he’s still stubbornly licking my fingers, and when I see Nicole’s misty eyes, I was attacked by a strange feeling.
I wanted to get back at him so I pushed my sucked fingers inside for a bit. (TN: Oh-hoh~)
[Nguh… aahh, fuua…Sheryl..-sama~ah!]
When I did, my fingertips hit the roof of his mouth making Nicole’s body shudder.
My fingers are still inside his mouth. From that same mouth, drool is dripping down.
As I was watching it fall, my body moved on its own.
I held onto Nicole’s shoulders as I was about to fall off when I approached his body and wiped the saliva off his face.
[Aaah… huu..ch..]
When he was about to hold me up, Nicole’s body started twitching as he shuddered.
The fingers which were previously in his mouth also fell.
His rough breathing filled with warmth hit my ear.
[I, I’m sorry…. I, I ended up…. cumming…]
Eehh?! With just that?! Even though I just copied my brother?! (TN: There are people like me who get satisfied easily.)
Although I deliberately shoved them in, I didn’t particularly touch anything, you know?
…Let’s give Nicole the title of Perverted Butler. Although his personality’s like that, he’s still my butler and I can’t really do much without his help.
[Aah, Sheryl-sama… Sheryl-sama.] (TN: I see the birth of an M butler… I’d like Nicole to be an uke… Not with Sheryl but with somebody else.)
With a feverish voice, Nicole repeatedly calls out my name.
I could feel my cheeks burning.
For the time being, I would like to ascertain what has become of my standing to him.
◆◆◆◆◆◆
[Hou~! This is magnificent!]
When Bellom-sensei received the summarized report that I had Nicole bring to him, he raised his hands up in praise.
With his gray hair flowing down his back while stroking his abundant white beard and shining eyes, I can only see him as an old magician.
He’s actually the Commissioner of the Magic Agency, though.
[This discovery will definitely become a new hope to fight the Dreaming Illness! However, Sheryl…]
Towards Bellom-sensei who suddenly turned serious, I also nodded my head as a reply.
[The sharpness of your Mana perception can’t be done by anyone else. As a magician of high level, even I can’t determine just how much Mana you have. Even when you discharge your Mana near me.]
To an ordinary magician, when an inanimate object comes to life, it just gives a “not enough” feeling. (TN: They must be hard to please.)
That’s why the amount of Mana that food contains has been overlooked.
[I don’t know if it will turn into a benefit when it comes to the Dreaming Illness, but that sharper sense of yours will definitely become a force to reckon with depending on how it’s used. However, rare powers often brings trouble along with it. Just as I said before, only I and your family should be the only ones to learn of this for now. With regards to your health, you can just say that you’ve eaten something bad and had gotten sick and it should be fine.] (TN: Is it supposed to be that simple?)
Whether it’s to lighten up the dampening mood, Bellom-sensei honorably said while laughing.
Also, seeing my face loosen up after being carried away with the atmosphere, Mother spoke.
[Aah~! With this, Sheryl’s name will resound throughout the world, won’t it?]
Please stop it, Mother. It’s embarrassing.
I wonder why they react exaggeratedly when it comes to me?
[That’s right. In the official document published by the Magistrate Agency, your name appears in the form of a collaborator. You should become well-known if it’s done to that extent.]
By the way, regarding the recovery of my Mana, Bellom-sensei had previously lined up various medicinal plants taken from the back, and among them are the ones used to create a Mana-recovering medicine for me.
Regarding the data this time, since it’s written that I got ill from eating something, it should be fine for now.
When I feel better and my endurance is raised, I plan to eat as much as I possibly can.
[I also heard that Jule has remarkably improved his swordsmanship. What a bright future our house is headed.]
[Fuofofofo, it’s such a wonderful thing, is it not?]
[Yes! Bellom-sama, I deeply thank you for coming despite your busy schedule.]
[I would like to say the same. As of now, overseeing Sheryl’s condition has become my “lifework” after all.] (TN: The author wrote it in english.)
[My, how reassuring.]
[Fuofofo]
[Ohohohoho.]
These two have been controlling the flow this entire time. Although it’s good that they’re having fun.
I, who’s the main topic of the conversation, is full of nothing but fear.
Before this, when Mother brought over the country’s Prince, I couldn’t close my mouth.
That’s right, he’s the previous life’s sister’s favourite character.
Ron’Ares Kingdom’s First Prince, His Highness Rafael, holds an amount of Mana rarely seen in recent years and he seems to be shining brightly among the famous magicians due to such powerful emissions.
That prince is said to be blindingly beautiful, and since we’re both of the same age, Mother decided to invite him over.
PART3
I’ve never had any visitors since I’m in this condition, Mother said that I couldn’t help how I look, as I am in the middle of recuperation from the Dreaming Illness, even if I compare myself to the prince.
That’s impossible. As I thought,it’s impossible after all, Mother. I sure have extremely outrageous parents, huh.
Or is it that because I look like her, she does not want me to lose when it comes to beauty? Besides, I’m just from the Baron house and comparing myself against a royalty is somewhat worrisome.
Bellom-sama who’s been listening on the side the whole time just laughed, but I really hope nothing disastrous happens.
[Oh, that’s right. I forgot. I’ve brought you the manual to learn magic.]
「！」
Before I could even speak, Nicole swiftly and steadily arrived to support me. He’s normally efficient to begin with, though.
[Don’t be so flustered. It’s fine to study but when it comes to practical tests, you must have someone else with you, okay?]
[Oh? Bellom-sama, isn’t Sheryl supposed to be unable to use magic…?]
[That’s right, it’s impossible for the Dreaming Illness patients. But I just thought that it’s possible if it’s Sheryl. He might be able to use magic in a different way.]
[Such a thing is…!]
Ah, this is bad. Mother’s eyes are shining again.
It’s still a matter of possibility!
Please rejoice after I’m able to actually use magic!
[You’re currently discharging Mana consciously, aren’t you? Originally, that’s something the body does unconsciously. But since Sheryl could trace its path, maybe he can control it manually. If you do, you can also accumulate the necessary amount of mana for activating magic outside your body……Although all of these are just my theories.]
I see, even though I have just been releasing Mana so far…. Should I give it a try?
This may be worth a try. Let’s immediately do it tonight.
[Yes, yes, your eyes are looking good. Since this is the Magic Agency’s summarized research, it’s gonna be more difficult than the normally circulated ones. However, since the specific details have been omitted, it’s perfect for studying from scratch. I thought it’d be more useful to you this way.]
[Un!]
Thank you! I gave a big nod filled with gratitude.
Even while having general knowledge, I’m in a condition where I can’t really do much.
Even if the difficulty somewhat increases, and if it allows me to apply it to myself, it is better.
I really want to learn how to use magic after all…!
[Aren’t you glad, Sheryl? Mother will also help, so let’s study it together, okay?]
[By the way, didn’t Walt Cadio come here? He’s my fellow researcher from the academy and we used to study together. After graduation, that guy pursued the butler’s path but if you have questions about the basics, he should be able to answer you.]
Goodness, so the Butler Grandpa was a fellow student of the Director?
Huh? Doesn’t the higher academic research institute only accept the ones who are talented in magic……Moreover, he’s the same level as Bellom-sensei.
I wonder why Butler Grandpa became our butler?
[Fufu, although difficult, if it’s a question that he’s studied before, he’ll be able to properly answer it. There’s no need to be afraid.]
When Mother said while stroking my head, I tried to recall my memories of grandpa.
Looking back at it, I’ve never talked to Butler Grandpa before, have I?
Although I do know where he’s at with the help of Mana. I remember how surprised I was when I saw his Mana emission was greater than Father.
Its atmosphere was definitely… A very quiet feeling.
When my memories went up to there, my eyelids started getting heavier. I wonder if this is due to Mother’s healing touch.
[I seem to have stayed for too long. I’ll leave it up to here for now and see what’s gonna happen in the future.]
[Bellom-sama, thank you for today, too.]
[You don’t need to send me off. Just please look after Sheryl.]
[I thank you for your thoughtful words.]
While Mother was holding me, she gave a bow with just her head.
Nicole lead him out on behalf of my mother.
[Sheryl, you might be curious about the book but let’s rest for now, okay? I will wake you up when dinner’s ready.]
Since I can’t fight even if I try, I put the manual behind my head (literally) and obediently lied down.
If I’m able to use magic, the action itself will automatically release the pent-up Mana inside the body regardless of the amount, helping me recover from the dreaming illness.
For the dreaming illness patients, being able to use magic is such a pleasure.
◆◆◆◆◆◆
I unexpectedly woke up and looked around.
It’s probably night now. There’s no light passing through the curtains.
The only company I have is the light from the night.
With the only sound coming from the insects outside, I ended up thinking that I’m in a different world.
After eating dinner, Mother asked me to read the Manual I was given today.
Although I’ve learned about the letters, I could only read simple words so I needed help to study.
But I’m happy with that.
I have a lot to do and it’s still increasing.
I’m able to confirm that I’m alive..
I still have a lot I want to do.
By the way, although the contents of the manual is complicated, with my understanding, I believe it’s gonna be fine.
I don’t know the memory of the past life has appeared. Although it gives me unnecessary information at times, it has made me expand the way I see things.
Speaking of which, I was told by sensei not to try to gather Mana inside my body from the outside.
I got too excited because of the manual that I totally forgot.
I looked at the stars over the wall just under the boundary with the ceiling.
Because the curtains are closed during the night, Big Brother painted them while on Father’s shoulders as a replacement for me who couldn’t see the stars.
Whether he used a white crayon, the stars’ shape looks like the ones I saw in my previous life.
Even if this is a different world, knowledge still remains.
That is whether this place was also created or not.
However, operating Mana requires the use of the mind…
In that sense, I’m really grateful to the knowledge of the past life.
I think about myself gathering Mana.
Is it the same as filling up a cup? But if that’s the case I will need to prepare an additional substance.
「……？」
While I was wondering what to do, someone got caught in my Mana perception.
Someone’s entering the room. At this time, just who on earth……With this amount of Mana, is it the butler grandpa?
[Oh my, you were still awake……To think that his master’s still awake and he still hasn’t noticed, Nicole still has a lot to learn.]
If Nicole, who’s sleeping next door, wakes up just because I woke up, I’ll be the one who’ll get scared.
[I am observing the surroundings. Because you were always asleep, you wouldn’t know, though.]
… I can’t tell him I saw him through the Mana perception. I was actually asleep. I think explaining that difficult situation is a lot harder the blood’s flow.
Grandpa walks towards me without changing his facial expression while carrying a pitcher.
[If you have awakened, it’s better to get yourself hydrated.]
[N..]
When I nodded my head, Grandpa helped me up the bed and placed the cup of water in front of my mouth.
Of course, I’m already done with the cloth!
I took a breath after gulping down the water.
[There’s still time before morning. It is fine for you to go back to sleep.]
[Nn…]
Although I get it, sleep just doesn’t seem to come.
I would also like to think how to gather Mana.
When the preferences start lining together, I could feel my eyes sway as grandpa lightly patted my chest.
Mother also likes to do this when she’s sending me to sleep.
Although grandpa’s expression remains the same.
Un… will this be effective?
Perhaps I’m weak against other people’s body warmth. When I feel a person’s warmth, my tension immediately plummets down.
[Until you’re asleep, I will stay here by your side.]
[N…]
Although Mother spoke to me as if I was afraid of him, but I didn’t find him scary with our direct contact just now.
He certainly has a poker face so I guess small children will get scared. Because he’s Nicole’s grandfather, he’s also a looker which is just too much.
With his white hair falling straight to his waist I’ll acknowledge that he’s old, but he looks like he’s younger than his real age.
While thinking that he has the same color as me, I fell asleep.
Within the darkness of my consciousness, as I was thinking about a cup filled with water…
◆◆◆◆◆◆
After falling asleep, I entered the sea of memories while thinking how to gather Mana.
If only I could recover from the dreaming illness, I won’t have to distance myself from my brother.
As expected, it would be a pain to always stick together so I’ll gradually keep a safe distance.
How about treating the gathering Mana as if I was pouring water into a cup?
In this world, there’s an item called magic stone where we store Mana in it.
Those without mana are colorless and transparent, and the color changes according to the attributes of mana that can be stored.
Just like how magic stones near the volcanoes are red in color because the are filled with fire attribute and so on.
And in particular, magic stone mined in places without fixed attributes has less mana content and many colorless ones.
Common magic stones were mainly used as fuel for lamps and used both at home and in public facilities.
Even among manastones, rare ones with a high mana content can be used for attack magic, so the country seems to be managing it.
Since the magic stone itself does not suck mana, I have no choice but to gather it myself, but it seems the quickest way is to use the colorless ones.
But then, it would be useless.
Once it’s stored inside the stone, the Mana would be cut off from and will turn into “the magic stone’s Mana” instead of mine.
But with just using the Mana on the magic stone, my Mana won’t be converted to magic.
To store the Mana inside my while being linked… I see, it’s to “bind” it!
To be precise, it’s a thread.
I wonder if I can discharge Mana like threads and instead of letting it flow out freely, I’ll do it just like how silkworms spit out threads.
And then I’ll spin them into a cloth……No, rather than a cloth, would a ball be better? Just like the description, I am spinning Mana thread into a ball of Mana.
Yeah, let’s try it with this image.
While also searching for Mana, I started spinning my own into a ball little by little.
I make an image of Mana coming out from my ten fingers as threads
as if searching for it. (?)
I took my time inside the sea of memories to prevent the making of the Mana thread from scattering.