I started to write in this diary since Usato-san said I should.
Today marks the day where I was reborn. Although it sounds cool, I actually ran away the other day. It was only thanks to Usato-san that I could finally find my own starting point in life. But Iâm still a young boy who is a coward. I couldnât meet all of Usato-sanâs expectations for the training either.
Usato-san encouraged me to join the Rescue Squad but I was actually really worried about what to do. I would probably just be a burden to Usato-sanâs group. I feel anxious when I think about the distant future. From what I hear, Usato-sanâs Master is also a frightening person. I donât know whether thatâs true or not but she was the person who taught Usato-san.
I should write about my training.
In comparison to how Mina treated me, the training was much more severe.
I finally realized just how much Usato-san was holding back in yesterdayâs training. Usato-san said it was just an act but I suspect that this was another personality he possessed. It could be that Iâm venting my displeasure here. Usato-san would yell at me as I desperately ran to my very limits. Whenever I did something wrong, he would knock me down and heal me with a kick. I really didnât know if he was acting or not⊠It felt like he discarded any trace of his own conscience once training started.
In my head, Usato-san is a monster during training. But outside of training, heâs human.
My hands are trembling as I write in this diary. Thereâs nothing wrong with my body since I had healing magic. In fact, my body is in really good shape right now. Iâm shivering because of fear. I feel uneasy at seeing the good and evil sides of Usato-san.
When I imagine Usato-sanâs smile and what he plans for tomorrowâs training, my trembling wouldnât stop.
Itâs no good, I didnât have the will to continue on writing.
Iâll end Day 3 right here.
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Day 4
Iâm sorry for being so inexperienced.
I ended up fainting in the hallway.
I was desperately reaching for my pen and trying to write in my diary. It was a first experience for me. I strongly remember how flustered Kyou-san was when he witnessed this scene.
At any rate, I should record todayâs events.
Letâs start with the abuse in todayâs training.
According to Usato-san, my stamina was unbelievably weak. Even so, he also said my stamina wasnât that different from an average personâs. But this kind of stamina wouldnât suffice for the healing magician that Usato-san wanted me to be. He said my body was feeble like a sheet of paper⊠And if I were to take one punch from the Rescue Squadâs Leader, all the bones in my body would shatter. With that being the case, he combined the magic training with some measures to help me overcome this problem.
I was finally able to get a feel for the magic training so I lamented a little once he told me this.
I thought I reached a stable foundation for healing magic.
I was wrong.
I couldnât have been more wrong.
I wrote about how I had a starting point yesterday but let me revise that. Nothing had actually begun for me. In the first place, the real training only started once I developed a feel for my healing magic.
The training intensified.
The abuse became fiercer.
I was optimistic that I could manage with yesterdayâs training but it had completely changed today.
This new training was simple, I just had to avoid these magic spheres. Since my body wasnât all that strong, I just had to avoid getting hit. Or at least that was the idea behind this trainingâŠ
But Usato-sanâs way of using healing magic was wrong on so many levels.
Actually, why would he do something like throw a magic sphere?
There had to be a mistake somewhere⊠He was definitely born in the wrong species.
The speed of his magic sphere exceeded Minaâs.
Just what does he think Iâm fighting against?
The most unreasonable part was that I would get knocked back if I got hit and Usato would blame me âDonât get hit, dammit.â When I tried to say that it was impossible, he grabbed me by the collar said âI was pounded with fists!! Getting hit by some magic balls shouldnât be a big deal, right!?â I had no excuse once he said that.
Since the sphere was made of healing magic, it didnât hurt. I only felt the impact when I got hit. But even that was more than enough to scare me.
I was also a healing magician though, so maybe I could do it too.
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It was impossible.
I didnât have that kind of monstrous strength to begin with. Being able to inflict that much impact with a sphere of healing magic wasnât normal either.
Of course, it didnât end there.
Usato-san continued to restore my fatigue with his healing magic and I ended up doing this training for the entire day.
I really thought that this type of training was a little too insane. I couldnât feel tired even if I wanted to. Whenever I got hit with a magic ball, it would heal me. I had no choice but to keep on dodging. And although I didnât want to admit it, I was able to sense the flow of healing magic whenever I got hit by a magic sphere.
I continued to move my body until Usato-san used up all his magic.
Although my body was fine, my mind was exhausted. I have heard from my lessons that your mental state has an effect on your body. It seems like itâs true.
Even as Iâm writing in this diary, I feel like nothing matters anymore. Rather than worrying about my fight with Mina, Iâm thinking about how I will survive my training tomorrow. I can tell that there is something wrong with my current state.\nItâs no good.
I donât really get it but I know itâs no good.
I should sleep. Iâll end the diary right here.
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Day 5
The final day of training.
The only thing I could think about was training.
Whether it was the spectators or the bulliesâŠ. None of that mattered to me anymore.
Ran, blown away, yelled at, blown away, blown away, ran, blown away, blown away, yelled at, dodged, blown away, blown away, ran, blown away, blown away, yelled at, yelled at again, blown away, got kicked into the air, blown away, ran, dodged⊠After repeating this for the entire day, the training finally ended.
In the end, I could only dodge Usato-sanâs healing magic ball a few times.
Usato-san muttered âDid I overdo itâŠ?â but I felt satisfied.
Thank you very much, Usato-san.
And prepare yourself, Mina.
I didnât want revenge nor did I have any grudge towards her.
I just wanted to settle everything by cutting this tie. Then Iâll be able to proudly stand next to Usato-san and join the Rescue Squad. There was also one more reason and it was something I didnât tell Usato-san. This match is going to be how I will say farewell and separate from that unpleasant family of mine. I wonât be bound anymore. My life will then truly begin. For that sake, I⊠I wonât yield anymore.
Iâll defeat Mina.
Wagering everything I have, Iâll beat her down.
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After reading this in Nackâs diary, I closed it. I saw that it dropped on the floor in his room so I picked it up.
And then I thought.
Healing magic training changed people into demons. Just a few days ago, Nack was a timid boy. But now he had completely changed.
âIs this really going to be okayâŠ?â
He had already left to fight with Mina.
I planned to head out as well. I wonder if Nack would be able to win against Mina. It was a little hard to imagine.
ââŠIâm sure Usato has something in mind. Yeah.â
Even if Nack got heavily injured, Usato should be able to heal him.
As I nodded and withdrew from reality, I placed the diary back on the desk. I then prepared to head out with Kyou and Satsuki.
*
Today was the day of Nackâs fight with Mina.
Amako and I were at the crowded entrance of the school wedged among the students. Nack had already left a moment ago. Bluerin was back at the stable. As expected, I couldnât bring an irregular existence like Bluerin to a place like this.
Once I told my reason to Amako for not taking Bluerin along, she commented in astonishment âYou actually considered itâŠâ But since I was open-minded and generous, I forgave her after flicking her on the forehead with healing magic. Amako held her forehead like she was in pain.
âUsato!â
âOh, you came.â
While ignoring Amakoâs spiteful glare, I responded to the voice that called my name.
I could see Inukami-senpai and Kazuki making their way towards us. We waited here for no reason other than these two.
We hadnât met at all while I was training Nack. I guess I was worried that Senpai would do whatever she wanted and interrupt the training. And there wasnât really a reason to meet during this time.
âHeey, Usato-kun. Itâs been a few days since we last met. I wonder if this phrase is appropriate in this context? âŠAmako, whatâs the matter?â
âUsato bulliedââ
âWow! Itâs been a few days since weâve last seen each other! Kazuki, howâve you been?â
âYeah, Iâve been good. It looks like you were quite busy, Usato!â
Amako was trying to seek help from an annoying person so I quickly greeted Kazuki and used him as cover. I wonder if Senpai heard? On the other hand, Kazuki was giving a radiant smile.
As always, Kazuki was a handsome young man who could give such a dazzling smileâŠ..
âWhat were you guys up to?â
âWe went to places like the grand library and did things like practice magic⊠Basically anything we could only do here. I really wanted you to come along, UsatoâŠ. But you had your own circumstances so it canât be helped.â
Kazuki responded.
âI thought you would probably be busy training Nack. So I did my best to not visit and get in your way.â
Inukami-senpai thoughtfully said.\nâI see⊠I feel bad for letting you take so much consideration for me.â
But Iâm glad.
Even though it was an act, I didnât want these two to see me acting like Rose. I didnât really get it myself but Kiriha and the others seemed to have witnessed something dreadful.
âWhat about Welsey-san?â
âShe had some matters to discuss with Gladis-san. Theyâre probably discussing that letter.â
One week had passed since we delivered the letter. They might have made their decision by now. I forgot all about the letter during training⊠At the very least, nothing major was decided yet.
âShall we go? Although we still have a bit of time left.â
âThereâs nothing wrong with going a bit early. Letâs go.â
âIâm extremely curious as to what kind of fight Iâll see from someone personally taught by you, Usato.â
We were going to see Mina and Nackâs mock battle.
Nack should be able to fight with the training he received from me in these 5 days. There was nothing else I could do. The rest of it depended on Nackâs own power.
ââŠ.Amako, what are you doing? Youâre going to be left behindâŠ?â
âWhy you⊠Iâll definitely never forgive you⊠I wonât forgive youâŠâ
Seriously, I only flicked you on the forehead. It wasnât that big of a deal.
I guess it canât be helped.
While Amako was still glaring at me with resentful eyes, I placed my hands on her sides, picked her up, and walked towards Kazuki and Senpai. People were glancing at me with strange gazes. It was a little odd to carry a girl who was wearing a hood like this but I was already used to people looking at me like this when I trained Nack.
âUsato-kun, is Nack going to be alright?â
Although Inukami-senpai looked at me suspiciously because I was carrying Amako, she asked me this question instead.
âHeâll be fine. I like to believe Iâve done everything I can for him already.â
âDoes that have anything to do with how the people around us are looking at youâŠ?â
ââŠ.Who knows.â
This Senpai of mine was really sharp. She already noticed it.
While I smiled and played dumb, I took a look around at my surroundings. The students immediately averted their eyes.
Whatâs with their reactions? Am I some kind of gangster?
âYou did such an amazing training? Enough to shock all the students here!â
âY-yeah⊠I donât really know if itâs that amazing or not. It was just the training I received before. Stop looking at me with those eyes beaming with curiosity, Senpai. My training is really plain. All I did was make Nack run and dodge some magic ballsâŠâ
âYouâre really good at smooth-talkingâŠâ
Be quiet, you little fox girl.
When I saw that Kazukiâs smile had stiffened at Amakoâs words, I started to shake her up and down.
âThis is your punishment! Become nauseous!â I thought as I kept shaking Amako. But before I knew it, Senpai was staring into my eyes with a doubting gaze.
âIt looks like youâre getting along really well with her now.â
âEh? Well, I guess. We were together and allâŠâ
âTogether, together⊠Huh.â
What was she getting at? Senpai who had been walking in front of me had turned around. She placed both of her hands onto her cheeks and looked at me with upturned eyes.
ââŠI wonder⊠Am I jealousâŠ?â
Hearing such sweet words and seeing the lovely expression on Senpaiâs beautiful face⊠I couldnât help but think that the people back at our school would faint at this sight, regardless of gender. In reality, I was confident that this would have applied to me too⊠If it was the Senpai from before.
âAh, I see. What kind of magic practice did you do, Kazuki?â
Even if you acted like a maiden now, it wouldnât change your deplorable aspect.
Ignoring Senpai who was looking at me, I caught up with Kazuki.
âHmm? Let see⊠I was working on controlling my light magic better. You saw me perform it during the training right? At the moment, I canât control it without putting all my concentration into it.â
âWell, in my case, I canât fire out any magic. But maybe you could try thinking of a different method to control it. It might work out for you.â
âWait. Just wait a moment!!â
As I was having an enjoyable conversation with Kazuki, Senpai suddenly shouted from behind and vigorously gripped my shoulder.
What is it? So bothersome.
âShouldnât you have a better reaction than that!? Are you a deadpan person!?â
âHow impolite. If it wasnât me, any other guy would have been in great joy. I wonât just suddenly fall in love.â
âBut ending it with an, âAh, I see.â reaction is a little bit rude, donât you think!? Iâm a beautiful girl, you know!? Why canât you be honest and feel shy about it!?â
âPlease realize that thereâs something wrong with you for admitting that about yourselfâŠâ\n\nâŠâŠWhy did it feel like he was indirectly saying I was the one scaring the other students away? That shouldnât be the case, right? Theyâre scared of Halfa-san, not me! This guy aims for the vitals! When I tried to look at my surroundings again, the students averted their eyes.
âI-I canât accept thisâŠâ
âReally, just what did you do? Itâs obvious that these students are afraid to make eye contact with you.â
Inukami-senpai expressed her doubts.
âOh, you didnât know? In the training grounds, Usato-sanâ Upu.â
I sealed Halfa-sanâs mouth with my hand. I used my other hand to make a gesture by pressing my index finger against my lips.
âThis is a secret, you got it?â I wonder if my message got across.
After seeing Halfa-san nod, I let go. I then turned to Senpai with a composed expression.
âNothing happened here, right?â
ââŠ.Yes, nothing happened here.â
ââŠ.This is way too suspicious, you know!? Your exchange just now is obviously suspicious! Just what happened while we werenât here!?â
I couldnât deceive Senpai. Her breathing became rough and she drew closer.
I knew she wasnât someone I could trick by using brute force but what should I doâŠ? As I was thinking of what to do about Senpai, Kazuki stopped her advance from behind.
âYou shouldnât inquire too much. Even Usato has one or two things he doesnât want others to know.â
âGuh⊠Muu⊠T-thatâs trueâŠâ
I didnât really mind if they found out, but if I could avoid it, then I would.
I mentally thanked Kazuki and directed my attention towards the mock battle. This time, Halfa-san threw a question at me.
ââŠ..Usato-san. Who is thisâŠ?â
Halfa-san looked at Amako who was hiding herself behind me.
âHm? Aah. This person is⊠A friend who Iâm going on this journey with.â
âIt seems like they possess magic too. But itâs different. I see a collection of white magic power around her⊠It feels similar to my magic eyes⊠No, maybe even more powerful? âŠ.I saw her during your training with Nack but just who is sheâŠ?â
ââŠ.Yeah.â
ââŠ.No, you donât have to say anything if you donât want to. Iâm well aware of the difficulties of possessing a magic similar to mine.â
It really saves me the trouble when youâre so understanding.
Amakoâs ability to see the future was special even among the beast kin. If Halfa-san knew this, he would definitely be able to deduce her identity.
Still, Halfa-sanâs magic eyes were amazing. Just by looking at Amakoâs magic power, he roughly estimated what her magic was. It was also possible that he just felt that their magic was similar.
âIâll change the topic. Iâve been entrusted with a message from Kiriha. She wanted me to tell you if I spotted your group.â
âKiriha?â
ââIt wouldnât look good if we were together so weâll be cheering from somewhere else.ââ
âI see⊠Thanks for delivering this message.â
âNo, donât mind it. Iâm personally happy that she would entrust a human to deliver a message. Itâs something Iâve never seen her do.â
Halfa-san was smiling at me like an idiot as if to say âMaybe something caused her to change her way of thinking.â
I ignored it.
It seemed Kirihaâs group was spectating at a different spotâŠ. It would be easy to find them though. They werenât hiding their faces like Amako. Itâs unfortunate that we canât observe the match together but thereâs not much I can do.
But I really wonder when Nackâs mock battle will be coming up. From what I heard, there werenât a lot of participants this time around so his turn should come up soon.
The match in front of me seemed like it was about to finish so I looked around⊠Then I spotted a boy with short black hair and a girl with twin tails confronting each other.
âAh, found him.â
âItâs Nack. And Mina is there too.â
Was Senpai also looking around? She stood next to me and looked towards where Nack and Mina were.
I was worried that Nack would be intimidated by Mina and it would affect his movements during the mock battle. But it looked like I didnât need to worry. Mina tried provoke Nack but he only had his eyes on the match.
It was the result of training, or more accurately, his heart had grown stronger. I felt like I was a little too harsh but the result was alright in the end.
âAll thatâs left for you to do is to defeat her.â
The bell rung, marking the end of the current match.
At the same time that the crowd of students cheered, Nack and Mina stood up to begin their fight.
Mina had a silver shield and, looking at her proud expression, it seemed like she thought there was no way her impenetrable defense could be broken by Nack. But if you underestimate Nack too much, youâll be in for a world of pain.
Healing others wasnât all you could do with healing magic. Mina was probably also the one who caused Nackâs healing magic to no longer properly function. Sheâll personally experience what I mean with her own body⊠Since Nack couldnât use healing magic on others, I didnât teach him my Healing Punch. It was a technique that could be used to knock others unconscious without hurting them. Nackâs attacks will deal real damage to Mina. She could even suffer a large injury if she wasnât careful.
âThis is why Iâm here. You donât need to hold back, Nack. Show your heartless parents and those guys who bullied you that none of them can match your speedâ Â None of them can catch up to you.â
The suffering you experienced in these 5 days and the results you obtained⊠Today is the day to show it.