Protagonists ïŒæČćȱ (Shen Dai -MC), çżæ«äș (Qu Moyu -ML)
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After folding the saliva towel, Shen Dai went to find other things to do. Anyway, it was impossible for him to stay there for Qu Moyu to stare at.
Qu Moyu followed Shen Dai around the house, asking about this and that and their functions. Many things about newborns are very strange in his eyes. Soon, he sneaked around to Qiuqiuâs bedside.
The child-rearing nanny felt that Qiuqiuâs sleeping position could be improved, so he was wrapped tightly with only one head exposed.
Qu Moyu thought it was a little funny. The little thing that was always showing its teeth and claws and crying now looks like a big sushi roll where he canât even move his hands and feet. Itâs very interesting. He couldnât help but stretch out his hand and lightly poke Qiuqiuâs fat cheeks with his fingertips.
Shen Dai came out of the bathroom and saw Qu Moyuâs movements, he whispered in between his breath, âDonât touch him!â
Qiuqiuâs two eyebrows twitched like caterpillars and then his eyelids began to tremble. He had just opened his mouth while whimpering and drooling, but suddenly his mouth opened wide, and he began to cry in his sleep.
Qu Moyu retracted his hand in fright, took two steps back, and glanced at Shen Dai with a guilty conscience.
Shen Dai hurriedly walked over, patted Qiuqiuâs little chest and whispered, âShh, darling. Darling, itâs alright. Go to sleep.â He released a soothing pheromone and said to Qu Moyu, âYou stand still. Far away.â
Qu Moyu touched his nose and retreated to the wall dejectedly.
Shen Dai bowed his waist and patted Qiuqiu lightly with one hand. He pulled the bangs that were hanging in front of him behind his ears with his other hand, revealing a clear jaw and a long, fair neck. When he looked at Qiuqiu, the corners of his eyes curved. With a smile on his face, his pale pink lips opened and closed in a soft tone, which looked indescribably gentle.
Qu Moyuâs heart thumped a few times. His omega was coaxing their child to sleep. Such a picture deserves all the warm and beautiful descriptions in the world.
As Qiuqiuâs cry faded, Shen Dai breathed a sigh of relief. He sat down beside the bed, constantly releasing pheromones to comfort his child while watching the little baby fall asleep peacefully.
Qu Moyu was so far away that he couldnât see Qiuqiu even with his neck stretched. Shen Dai still turned his back to himself. As an alpha father, he was more and more eager to participate. So he couldnât help asking in a low voice, âIs he asleep?â
Shen Dai turned his face and gave Qu Moyu a cold look, the meaning was self-evident.
âUh, let him sleep. Iâll go out first.â Qu Moyu went out in despair. He decided to try to take a closer look at Qiuqiu tomorrow when he was awake. After buying so many toys, there might be something that Qiuqiu will like.
When he went downstairs, he saw the childcare nanny was chatting with Uncle Heng. Qu Moyu glanced at her and motioned her to come over.
The two walked aside and Qu Moyu said, âI have read your resume. You have been a paediatric nurse for more than ten years.â
The nanny smiled and said, âYes, Mr. Qu.â This is where she has an advantage over ordinary childcare nanny that she can enter such a wealthy family.
âOkay.â Qu Moyu nodded, âYou can help me pump some Qiuqiuâs gland fluid, so that it wonât be discovered by Shen Dai.â
The nanny was stunned.
âIs it possible to do it at home?â Just like drawing blood, plunging a needle into the gland to extract it, at least thatâs what Qu Moyu knows. He was not sure if it can be done on a baby.
The nanny said hesitantly: âYes.â She asked, âMr. Qu, can you tell me what it is for? I need to know the amount of extraction and how to store it.â
âTo measure the pheromone level.â Qu Moyuâs eyes sank as his thoughts were surging. He was going to take Qiuqiuâs gland fluid to the hospital he invested in for testing. If it was A-class, it would be better. Otherwise, the Qu family wouldnât even give Shen Dai a straight eye.
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Qu Moyu went to the company for a meeting in the afternoon. When he got home, it was past dinner time. He took off his suit jacket and handed it to Aunt Lan and asked, âHow did Ah Dai eat today? The nutritionist gave him the meal. Does he like it?â
Aunt Lan said: âAh Dai said he likes it. But you know he is not a picky eater. Even if he doesnât like it, he wouldnât say it. I observed that he probably thought the old duck broth was a little greasy but he still drank it. He ate a small bowl of meat and vegetables, as well as a bowl of rice. The overall appetite was not too much but not too little.â
âWhat did the nutritionist say?â
âHe said that Ah Dai didnât take care of himself well after giving birth and he was very tired. Now, he is relatively weak, but he has a good foundation. As long as he eats well, sleeps well, feels good, and cooperates with some exercise, he will gradually get better.â
Thinking of Shen Daiâs thin appearance, Qu Moyu felt uncomfortable: âMake him fatter as soon as possible.â
âMaster, I think you can consult a doctor about something.â
âWhatâs the matter?â
Aunt Lan whispered: âI asked a little today. Ah Dai has never been in estrus since he gave birth to Qiuqiu. Omega usually will be in estrus within two or three months after giving birth. This estrus is helpful to indicate that all the functions of the body have recovered. If he does not get an estrus for more than three months, it proves that the body is not very good and needs to see a doctor.â She finally said, her expression darkened, âThis is what I knew when I was taking care of your mother. She was at that time⊠not very goodâŠâŠâ
Qu Moyuâs face changed. His mother was depressed after giving birth and suffered great physical damage. Later, she never conceived a child again. As for whether she was unwilling or unable to become pregnant again, he did not know. He only knew that his father and mother were a couple who were married, âmarkedâ and bundled grudges, love and hate for each other. they torture each other in a long life. If it was not for the mother who gave birth to an S-class alpha like him, his father would never accept that he has only one child in his life.
âAunt Lan, I understand.â Qu Moyu said, âDonât tell him these things.â
âOf course, young master.â
âIs he still in Qiuqiuâs room?â
âYes.â
Qu Moyu went upstairs. Aunt Lanâs hesitant, small voice came from behind: âMaster, please be good to Ah Dai.â
Qu Moyu walked to the door of the room, knocked twice and then opened the door.
The nanny was playing with her cell phone while Shen Dai was reading. They were both sitting on the sofa beside the crib.
The nanny stood up, pointed to the crib and whispered, âThe young master is asleep.â
Shen Dai also put down the book, as if to prevent Qu Moyu from coming to wake Qiuqiu up again.
Qu Moyu stretched out his hand towards Shen Dai: âQiuqiu is sleeping. You should go back to our room to rest.â
Shen Dai stared blankly at Qu Moyuâs hand, but did not move.
âAh Dai, letâs go.â
Of course Shen Dai knew that he couldnât sleep here, because the nanny would be sleeping here. And also because Qu Moyu wouldnât let him. But he didnât want to be with Qu MoyuâŠ
The nanny lowered her head. She didnât look at them when she shouldnât and didnât ask when she shouldnât. But the atmosphere was really embarrassing.
âAh Dai.â Qu Moyu called his name again and said softly, âBe good.â
Shen Dai stood up abruptly, walked quickly to the door, crossed Qu Moyu, and went out directly.
Qu Moyu chased after a few steps: âDonât be angry.â
Shen Dai lowered his head and did not speak.
Qu Moyu took Shen Daiâs hand and walked upstairs.
As soon as he entered Qu Moyuâs bedroom, Shen Daiâs hair stood up. Everything here has been restored as before and the traces of destruction when Qu Moyu and himself spent the susceptible period here are long gone. But those memories are still fresh in his mind. Those sounds of violence, chaos, sweetness, and pain. Fragments of the paintings all rushed into his mind the moment he stepped into this room full of the smell of ebony wood pheromones, reminding him of a lot of things he didnât want to recall.
It seems that all kinds of emotions between him and Qu Moyu have erupted in this bedroom. He has cried, laughed, screamed, begged, explained, and was accused. The entanglements between them are the biggest sins in his life. So this room carries the heaviest sin. It is the place he thought he would never set foot on again in his life. But now he seems to be trapped in it.
Qu Moyu noticed Shen Daiâs stiffness and naturally he also vividly remembered those good and bad memories. He said softly, âIf you donât want to sleep in this room, weâll change it. But you still have to sleep together with me.â
Shen Dai withdrew his hand, unwilling to reveal his fear. He said coldly, âWhatever.â
Qu Moyu took Shen Dai into his arms and dropped a few gentle kisses on his forehead: âListen to me, Ah Dai. I really want to have sex with you. I want to have sex with you every day. But I donât want to force you. I promise to give you the best experience, just like before. Can you accept it? Hmm? Okay?â
Shen Dai remained silent.
Qu Moyu raised his chin and kissed his lips: âAh Dai, I really miss you. Do you miss me?â
Shen Daiâs heart was trembling. He had been so deeply immersed in Qu Moyuâs tenderness that he actually had not seen his pretence. He couldnât extricate himself. It is not until he sees the personâs true face that he knows which side of Qu Moyu a person can touch depends entirely on whether it is useless, useful or harmful to Qu Moyu. His ârelationshipâ with Qu Moyu, which happened to be such a gradual process. So he saw that Qu Moyu was polite and distant to him at first and then he was pampered and rewarded like a pet and he finally turned his face ruthlessly. He came face to face with his cruelty.
Now he is âusefulâ to Qu Moyu again. Even if he just wants to sleep with him. He will no longer be confused by Qu Moyuâs âtendernessâ, because he has seen the bloody coldness behind it. It can all come from the same person.
âI really miss you and I really like you.â Qu Moyu stroked Shen Daiâs soft hair, âNow that youâre back, let us start over.â
Shen Dai was held in Qu Moyuâs arms, but his body was still cold. He suddenly realized that after experiencing so many painful tortures from those he once loved deeply, his greatest emotion towards Qu Moyu was not hatred. But it was fear.
It was the fear that he was powerless and irresistible when facing Qu Moyu. The fear that he was severely suppressed from all sides. The fear that he knew that he would be bruised over and over but he had nowhere to escape.
He was afraid of Qu Moyu. And he was especially afraid that Qu Moyu would in fact treat him well.
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Next update: 2022.07.20
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*Translatorâs note: You know itâs that feeling when you hope that someone you love will love you back and you were full of delusions about that person and then you realise that that person will never love you and then youâre heartbroken beyond repair. But now that that person is back and trying to win you over, you are afraid of giving in to the same delusions which had broken you before. It was that fear. At least in my opinion, that was what SD was afraid of. And I know how that feels. -K