ââŚâŚI forgot my mother asked me to come back early today. Iâll have to hurry up.â
âOh⌠sure.â
Fortunately, Toby accepted my clumsy lie without hesitation.
So we started to walk again. We didnât hold hands again.
âMiss Melissa.â
ââŚ..yes?â
I was more surprised than I needed to be. Tobias will also know that I have been acting suspiciously since earlier. Somehow, my heart was in agony.
âTo Mrs. CollinsâŚâŚ.â
âMy mother?â
âWhen will I be able to greet her?â
âOhâŚâ
Itâs been a while since my mother asked me to introduce him to her as well. Iâm just avoiding it.
As for the reason, Iâm afraid if I introduce Tobias Miller to my mother, weâll admit that weâre lovers on that day.
Iâm afraid of us becoming each otherâs most important person. Iâm afraid that a kind of obligatory relationship will be established and Iâll have to disclose everything about meâcompletely exposed.
Iâm afraid that once he gets to know me he will finally leave me, and Iâm afraid that there will be no one else to give me blind affection.
Iâm afraid of starting a relationship without confidence. Oh, thereâs no need to be afraid of this. There wonât be anything like that in the first place, Iâm sure of it.
(T/N: as in sheâs confident this wonât even progress into a serious relationship in the first place)
People say. In order to love someone, you must first love yourself. Otherwise, itâs not true love.
Itâs not that I donât love myself, but in fact, I only love a small part of myself. I have affection for my enigmatic [like poetic or esoteric] and delicate sensibility, but I am incapable of loving my inferior exterior.
The external includes not only the appearance but also all the background and conditions surrounding me. Even the outward personality.
Itâs sad that I donât have confidence in myself because of these external factors. Because it is this external realm that defines a human being.
Thatâs what life is. In the end, people tend to judge your outward appearance.
Will there ever be a single person in this whole wide world who will find my faint and delicate soul hidden deep inside my thin shell and deeply love it?
When I was still a teenager, I had such similar thoughts.
But now I have become a person who knows very well that it is a vain hope. Even if you try to believe that fairies or mermaids exist, you canât do that anymore.
âMs. Melissa?â
ââŚ..Next time, Toby.â
âAh⌠As expected, I was in a hurry.âŚ.â
When I saw Tobias, who was sincerely sorry, my heart ached. This feeling, at least, kept my mood from going to the worst.
âNo, my mother is a very shy person.â
Even though Iâm lying, I havenât hit bottom yetâŚâŚ.
* * *
âSir Alan!â
When Alan entered the mansionâs parlor, the Longhornâs eldest son was already waiting for him. Malcolm jumped up from his seat and spoke politely.
âYou were looking for me? I wonder if I arrived too late.âŚ.â
It wasnât something that someone who was waiting should say. To that extent, he had a low posture, and his standing posture was also not upright, possibly due to his slightly bent back.
Alan, who subtly crumpled his forehead, replied to Malcolm, who wet his lips nervously.
âNo, letâs sit down.â
Soon after, a hot steaming teacup was placed in front of Alan. A porcelain teacup with a blue bird and a vine plant painted in soft colors. Malcolm watched enchantedly as the elegant fingers wrapped in his black gloves clasped the cup.
ââŚis this an offering of negotiations?â
âThatâs right. This tea is to broker negotiationsâ
Alan sighed with his eyes closed and brought the teacup to his lips.
The Hwa Empire was a great power in the East that had just started trading with the Sorne Kingdom. The culture of the East, which was elegant and organized in a new way that had never been seen before, created a sensation as soon as it was introduced to the royal family.
There were still very limited exchanges going on, and it was the Leopold family who was leading the exchange business on behalf of the royal family.
âThe tea is very good, Sir Alan. Youâre leading the exchange with Hwaââ
âStop running your mouth.â
In response to the cold response, Malcolm smoothed his dark brown hair as if embarrassed.
âOh, is that soâŚ.â
The Longhorn family, engaged in the textile business, was a family that had been making uniforms for a long time. In recent years, they have been expanding their business by starting to get acquainted with the capitalâs large dressing rooms, but recently, they have been struggling to make the royal family their business partner.
For them, the recognition of Leopold, who received absolute trust from the royal family, was nothing more than a gateway to enter the royal palace.
It was not a short period of time that the eldest son of the Longhorn family, Malcolm, had been working hard to please Leopoldâs successor. But, Alan, who had never looked at him for a second, suddenly called him directly like this.
âI have something to check today, so I invited you.â
Malcolm thought Alan wanted to talk about business.
âYes Sir Alan. What is it?â
âHave you recently gifted an outfit under Longhornâs name?â
âWhat?â
Malcolm, who was asked an unexpected question, was briefly lost in thought.
âIf itâs an outfit giftâŚâŚ.â
I had sent a dress to a lady, to whom I had disrespect at the victory ball the other day, as an apology, but how did he know?
No, I mean, did that matter in the first place?
âI sent a dress to a person to whom I had disrespected but why are you asking?â
âAh.â
Alan, with his long legs slowly crossed, buried himself deeply in the antique mahogany chair and opened his mouth.
âOne day, a woman who is always dressed in shabby looking clothes suddenly appeared in an expensive dress and credited Longhorn.â
ââŚâŚ.â
âArenât my close aides stationed all over the street?â
Alan Leopold has led various charitable projects that even the royal family had neglected, such as relief projects for the poor and support for childcare centers across the country, not matching his cold atmosphere.
Even the royal family admired the anecdote that the beggars, who seemed to dominate the street, were impressed by the good faith, stopped their evil deeds, and became loyal to the Leopold family.
âI wondered if the recent pickpocket case was raising its head again, but fortunately, it doesnât seem to be.â
âYes⌠I did give her a gift.â
Even though he was ten years younger than Malcolm, he couldnât help but admire his magnanimity in caring for street security. At that moment, Alanâs lips opened in a beautiful arc like a painting.
âDo you have anything else to apologize for?â
ââŚ..What?â
Malcolm, who did not understand the intention of the question, thought for a moment whether he heard it correctly. By chance, are you reprimanding or warning me for doing something that irritates you?
âNo sir, itâs not a particularly special attachmentâjust a one-time flukeâŚ.âŚ.â
Fortunately, Alan, who muttered softly, drank the tea. In a straight, yet strangely overbearing attitude without any disturbance.
Malcolm couldnât even fathom what was fortunate, but he couldnât help but shudder.
âYour business is over, so you can go back.â
Alan, who had put the cup down before he knew it, got up. A nice smile hung around his mouth.
Malcolm hurriedly opened his mouth.
âExcuse me, Sir Alan! The uniform of the Royal GuardâŚâŚ!â
But even before his words were over, Alan left the parlor.
* * *
Returning home, I went straight up to my room. It was clear that Julia would follow in, so first, I hid the stalkerâs letter between the books in the bookshelf.
âIâll help you take off your clothes!â
As expected, the door opened wide and Julia entered.
âYes, please.â
There is no more expensive dress in my closet than this one. Perhaps thatâs why Julia handled my clothes with a more careful touch than usual. It was the same when she dressed me, with a light excitement read in the movements of her hands.
âJulia.â
âYes, lady.â
âDo you want to try this on?â
Julia stopped moving at my words.
âMe, me, me?â
âPfftâŚâ
I couldnât help but laugh at her stunned response. I never had the bearings and attitude of a rich lady towards a maid. Julia knows that.
First of all, I am not a rich lady, and I have never had a dress like this before, and Julia was not exactly a maid.
Once our house had several servants, there was a widow working as a maid with a child. She ended up dying in a carriage accident. When my family declined and all the servants left, the only remaining one was the late widowâs orphaned child who could not stand on her own feet and that child was Julia.
Sheâs too clumsy to officially call her a maid, and technically, itâs not even an employment relationship, so sheâs closer to a family than a servant. Julia is such a child.
âAfter you try it on, just put it well in the closet. Do you want me to help you wear it?â
âI, I think I can wear this much by myself.â
Unhidden excitement was reflected in Juliaâs voice.
ââŚ.Thank you.â
âDonât Mention it.â
When I smiled brightly, Julia, who hugged the red velvet dress to her chest, hurriedly left the room. whoo, After sighing a little, I finally pulled out the letter I had stuck between the books.
For a letter sent by a stalker, it was quite full-fledged and sealed with wax. It was my first time seeing a seal, but it seemed to have the word âElwood.â written on it. My Lunoa language skills are not perfect, but they are probably right.
Elwood. Itâs a name Iâve never heard of. Like Tobias, he may be a nobleman who hasnât been in the capital for a while, or who doesnât often appear in society.
Anyway, as I received this letter, I became a little more convinced in the idea that the stalker would be a person who has settled down here in Florin to some extent. There is also a possibility that he may be a Lunoa person or a person based in Lunoa.
However, the moment I opened the letter, my eyes opened wide. It was because I encountered completely unexpected content.
This was more of a one-sided requirement than a letter.
The letter, which was ambiguous to call it a letter, ended with an unknown sentence.
âMel! Melissa!â
At first, Mrs. Kearneyâs cry that called me came. I shivered as if I had seen a nightmare.
âCome on down!â
Anxiety was read in a somewhat urgent voice. As I rushed down to the first floor, I saw an old gentleman standing on the front door.
Apart from male Leadâs behavior, female lead also isnât likable because it feels like sheâs using Toby too much. Sheâs not trying to forget Alan. If she werenât the main character, sheâd get cursed so muchâŚ
Honestly, male lead is just a real stalker. Can he be like this? Really?
Did viola get a broken heart? Alan, youâre such an insidious person.
I thought something was between Alan and Malcolm well itâs not ig I feel sorry for that guy