Even without knowing anything, he still says he wonāt get angry with me.
Or that he wouldnāt dislike me.
However, Iām saved by such a Rodo.
Rodo removed my anxiety and guilt.
I donāt hate spending time with Rodo.
Aside from getting married and having children, I donāt hate being embraced.
However, that doesnāt mean I have no desire to go home.
I will never lose that feeling.
Itās been over a month already, and I feel that my chances of returning are getting lower and lower.
Even so, I want to go home.
āāno matter how much I love Rodo and even accept bearing his children.
Even as I grow older and on the verge of death.
I apologized for that, but Rodo probably didnāt understand.
He canāt control my will, and canāt help but say, ādonāt goā.
I belong to a family of four with a father, a mother, and a younger brother.
My younger brother looks like my father and very manly, unlike me, who looked like my mother.
Iāve always wanted to be like him.
But that might be because I knew itās impossible.
If they knew I like men, those three would distance themselves from me.
My parents now only have my younger brother, whoās five years younger than me, amid his rebellious period.
However, he used to hug me in the past.
Now my parents scold him more than me, his older brother.
The tears stopped, but I was still in Rodoās arms.
Rodo, whoās stroking my head, should have skipped work, and he would have to go back if that was true.
Iāll have to go back on my own.
However, itās hard to leaveā¦
After all, Rodo is the only person I trust other than my family.
ā¦no, even in my family, my younger brother would be the only one whoād miss me.
It wasnāt so after going into his rebellious period.
āKou, all right. Like. *****.ā
Rodo sweetly whispered while tapping my back.
I often hear the last word he said recently.
Itās a word I donāt understand yet, but I think itās a word that conveys goodwill.
When I think of my family, I feel like I can go home.
However, even though I donāt understand why I look this, I have no reason to want to get away from Rodo, who kept saying he likes meā¦
I thought I would hide my homosexuality for the rest of my life.
If my family and surroundings caught wind of this, Iāll be isolated and suffer lonelinessā¦
But Rodo is different.
Even if I say I like him as my guardian, heād still happily smile.
Rodo acts a lot like my guardian, but if I return to my original form, it might change something.
I canāt even hear sexual desire from Rodo, probably because of this appearance.
If I realize that Iām being looked at sexually, maybe Iāll naturally see Rodo as a romantic partner.
I know Rodo is not looking at me ālike a womanā, so I can honestly accept his feelings.
āKou, Rodo, beastification.ā
I think heās trying to cheer me up.
Certainly, Iām happy to be with the Akinist Rodo, and the time Iām stroking him is blissful.
I think I can spend as much time as I like.
Howeverāā
āNo. Now, work, no good.ā (No. Not working right now is no good.)
I donāt know the words for ālike thisā, so I said something with a similar meaning. (T/N: Kou meant to say, āitās no good like thisā which is referring to their situation.)
Even though Iām with you every day, Iām aware that you spoil me quite a lot for someone youāve only been with a little over a month.
Rather than being pampered, it feels more like ābecause itās Rodoā.
āRodo, hug.ā
Once you become an Akinist, you canāt pick me up.
ā¦thatās only natural.
He canāt lift me because heād have beast paws with extended claws.
It didnāt seem like he could retract it like a cat.
And although he has paws, thereās no squishy feeling on it.
āKou. ā¦okay. Hug.ā
I heard his happy voice.
It might be that for Rodo, being pampered by me would make him spoil me more.
As I said, Rodo spoils me.
Heād always pick me up and rub my back.
āāwithout saying anything, forever.
Being so spoiled, how long has it been?
Was it because I was patted on the back regularly that I fell asleep after that?
Itās not sweet time with me anymore, so you can let me go, howeverā¦
I canāt move because he firmly held me in his arms.
Even though I stopped crying, I told him to lift me, so itās hard to say that I want to go down now.
Even if itās not that, saying that would be selfish.
But I donāt want to run away from Rodoās arms.
Whether Iām harassing him or not, I donāt mind getting on Renās belly and making fun of him, but when he tries to hug me, Iāll resist.
I know I can move with magic, so I have a way to escape and from now on, I can escape before I could even resist.
Thatās why I wondered if I could marry Rodo if I couldnāt go home.
āRodo.ā
āWhat? Kou.ā
When I called out, I immediately got a reply.
āStomach, hungry.ā
I think dinner time has already passed.
Rodo always eats so much compared to me, but isnāt he hungry?
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ā¦as expected, is he enduring it?
āEat, go.ā
When I nodded, he stood up with me in his arms.
Why is he always swayed by me? Heās allowed to get angry, but Rodo is in a good mood.
He smiled gently and stroked my head.
Rodo would only smile likes this to me.
But heās sweet to me even before he said Iām his āmateā.
That doesnāt mean Rodo wouldnāt smile at others, but he wouldnāt look so sweet.
It seems that not only children but also adults are often scared by him. Is that why theyāre always at a distance?
We arrived at the cafeteria while I was being held up.
Itās later than usual, but Ren was there too.
It seems that he was drinking alcohol since I could smell it from the approaching Ren.
āStinky.ā
And this stupid rabbit even deliberately exhaled his stinky breath in front of my face.
āVine.ā
And with that, I quarantined him.
I took the vines from the cafeteria wall as they are and pulled him with it. As soon as his back was attached to the wall, his limbs, neck, and waist are fixed with vines.
You wonāt be able to get away from the wall with this.
I need an image to activate my magic.
So if I imagine Ren being restrained and stuck to the wall, that would be the case.
If Ruu and the others do this, I somehow feel like theyād prepare various things first.
Theyād also say something.
I think itās the so-called chanting that Iāve seen in games.
āKou, amazing.ā
āAmazing?ā
Where?
I just imagined it.
It seems like other people canāt imitate my way of doing magic.
I want to say you just have to āimagineā it, so why canāt theyā¦
āKou! ****!ā
Renās loud voice echoed.
I donāt know what he said, but he probably said something like ārelease meā.
(I havenāt learned the word for ābreathā yet.)
How should I tell him?
āStinky, haa, no.ā (Your breath stinks, donāt breathe in my face.)
He should understand it if I exhaled.
Ren nodded while frowning.
So I released the restraints.
Most people here have longevity and loves to drink.
It seems the same in every world as many people are drinking alcohol when they came to the cafeteria late at night like today.
Iām a minor and have never drunk alcohol.
Rodo also doesnāt drink, probably because heās with me.
Seeing alcohol being passed around, itās not like I canāt drink at all.
I donāt dislike alcohol itself, but I donāt like the breath of a person who drank it.
Because I squeezed my nose and made an unpleasant face, Rodo might just not drink anymore.
Will it change if I also drink?
ā¦but Iām not going to drink for now.
āKou, Captain*****? *******.ā
Maybe because heās drunk, he didnāt talk slowly like usual.
I know that Captain is Rodo, butā¦what did he want to say?
ā*****!ā
ā******!!ā
Rodo grabbed his arm with an angry look.
ā¦he looked determined, is it because of me?
Ren screamed painfully.
What on earth did he say?
Is Rodo getting angry?
ā¦he had never been angry, so I donāt know what to do to calm him down.