I kicked the wet ground and ran after Ibuki. One bothersome problem was the weather. Depending on the weather, there might be the possibility of getting stuck somewhere or getting involved into an accident. It was also a concern the fact that the sun would go down sooner than I expected and itâd be difficult to push forward without a flashlight.
The passing shower became stronger and the wind was also starting to blow more violently. The weather was just one of the bad circumstances. There was no advantage here. Visibility could only be maintained for a few meters due to the pouring rain. And even if it looked like I lost my way, thanks to the rain, the footprints of two people remained on the muddy ground, so it was easy to follow them.
Those footprints suddenly vanished. No, they werenât interrupted, rather they continued in the deeper forest. This implied that the path changed sharply and the persons intentionally bought themselves into the forest, they didnât go astray. Using the flashlight, when I aimed the light deeper in the forest, the two pairs of footsteps gradually were entering deeper and deeper. There was no reason why those people would put their feet in a dangerous forest like that.
Just to be sure, I tried to illuminate the regular route leading to the beach, but there were no footprints there and the ground was clean. With my hand, I cleared away the dripping rain from my bangs. Then I followed the footprints and went into the forest.
Naturally, the visibility soon got worse. It was safe to say it seemed night already. The ominous atmosphere floated around the dark forest but I pushed forward relying only on the footprints.
It happened about 30 meters after. In a moment, I felt a light entering brightly in my field of vision.
Immediately, I turned off the flashlight and concealed my breath. Staring fixedly at the direction of that brightness, I could see the light again. It was a flashlight. It was like it was sending off a signal. Ibuki and Horikita? No. Both of them wouldnât have anything to make a light. I quietly turned my feet towards that light and shortened the distance.
Hearing voices of people making small noises in the rain, I concealed myself. It didnât matter who was there and what they were talking about. The problem was that I discovered them. Grasping the situation was secondary.
And then, shortly after, the light of the electric torch went far off. It seemed to be over. Just to be sure, I approached cautiously. And then, thereâŠâŠâŠ
Near a big tree, there was Horikitaâs figure, covered in mud, who lost consciousness and she really looked like she was dying.
A keycard was dropped to the ground near her hand that had no force left. On her injured body, traces of excavated soil. Looking at the situation, it was confirmed that Horikita has been found out as the class leader by none other than Ibuki. After picking up the keycard, I hoisted Horikita up in my arms.
âUmâŠ.â
I felt a sense of discomfort when I held her in my arms. I sighed faintly and Horikita, slowly but surely, opened her eyes very weakly.
âDid you come to your senses?â
âAyanoâŠKouji-kunâŠâŠâ
Whether she could understand the situation, she uttered another faint comment.
ââŠâŠmy headâŠ.hurtsâŠâŠâ
âYou have a high fever. Itâs better for you not to strain to talkâ
âI seeâŠ.I, to IbukiâŠâŠ..but, why are you here?â
Even if I told her to sleep, Horikita would concern herself with this and that problem while her fever was still rising. Then, she started to understand the situation little by little.
âAs expectedâŠ..it was Ibuki who stole my cardâ
âI seeâ
âI canât be any more stupid than Sudo-kun and others. And Iâm usually the one who exposes the disgraceful behavioursâ
She closed her eyes lamenting a situation I couldnât do anything about.
âItâs not a trial where you should keep hiding for 24 hours. You can be open to attackâ
I intended to follow-up with something else but it seemed like it made Horikita sad. She was too injured and in a state of total heartbreak.
âIt could have been avoided if I knew how to rely on someoneâ
If you seriously wanted to protect the leaderâs identity, you would have to rely on trustworthy people from the bottom of your heart. Doing so, people would have protected the existence of the card on a 24-hours basis. But Horikita had no friends who could have done it.
She looked miserable and she was coughing a little.
âWhen I was losing consciousness, I felt like I heard Ryuuenâs voiceâŠ..Thatâs odd, he should be retired since long agoâŠ.â
âYou were losing consciousness. Maybe you saw him in your dreamâ
âIf it was really a dream, it would be even worseâ
I wonder if she really heard Ryuuenâs voice. Even if she fell asleep and lost consciousness, her brain probably allowed her to wake her up by herself after she heard something. Itâs no wonder that she unknowingly picked up Ryuuenâs voice.
âIâm sorryâ
While I was thinking silently, Horikita apologized.
âWhy are you apologizing to me?â
âThatâs becauseâŠthereâs no else I can apologize to, except youâ
Hmm yeah. Itâs something that makes me think hard.
âIf you think thatâs bad, in the future try to make some reliable friends. Start from thereâ
âThatâs difficultâŠ..nobody is willing to be my allyâ
I laughed when I felt the signs of such a resigned masochism.
âItâs no use even if you laugh, itâs pitiful to make fun of someoneâ
âNo, itâs not that. I think, deep inside you, youâre starting to feel that you need alliesâ
âNobody said thatâŠ..â
The usual Horikita, now, would be insulting the other party but this time, there was another meaning to her words. The meaning included in her words was that of «exchanging and changing» oneself. Otherwise she wouldnât have said «Nobody who is willing to be my ally».
Still, it was not easy. Until now, nobody had any difficulties if he could change steadily and skillfully the way he was moving forward. Horikitaâs vacant eyes seemed to be looking at someone else through me, rather than at me.
âSuch a thingâŠ..I understood it since long agoâ
You should not live alone in this world. Both school and society consist of a huge amount of people.
âDonât talk. Youâre sickâ
I can persuade her to be quite but Horikita didnât stop her repentance. However, for Horikita, there are no alternatives other than rely on nobody. And even if she saw a new one, she couldnât choose it.
âWith my own strength, I will rise to A class. I will surely recover from this failureâ
Without strength, she grabbed my sleeve and made an impassionate appeal.
âIâm ready to be cursed by all the classesâŠ.I failed to that extentâ
âAccording to this schoolâs system, if you fight by yourself you canât go up to A class. We need classmatesâ cooperation at any cost. Itâs inevitableâ
She had no strength to keep her eyes open. So her eyes, in the end, shut. Horikitaâs faint grasp on my sleeve, actually, made me feel strong.
âItâs impossible to admit. Regardless of how hard it isâŠâŠ.. in the endâŠI am aloneâ
âAhh Shut up. Stop talking. Thereâs no persuasive or convincing power in a sick personâs wordsâ
I embraced Horikita a little strongly.
âYou canât bear heavy responsibilities. Youâre not that strong. Sorry to tell youâ
âYouâre telling me to give up? I have a dream that my brother will recognize my dream to be in A classâ
âI didnât say that. You donât have to give upâ
I looked down to Horikita suffering and groaning a little in my chest and added these words.
âIf you canât fight by yourself, itâs better to fight with another. I will give you a handâ
âWhyâŠâŠ.? Youâre not the kind of personâŠwho says such thingsâŠâ
âThen, why not?â
Itâs better for me to be intentionally vague. Shortly after, Horikita used up all of her strength and lost consciousness again. What I have to do now is carrying this out without being noticed by anyone. The easy choice would be to retire, but I donât know which one is the emergency button on the wristwatch. If the helicopter is dispatched for an emergency, the sound will echo all around.
âI confused the roadâŠitâs dangerous, dangerous..â
I was proceeding with the prayer to exit from the path but, unfortunately, I got out on a steep cliff.
Another step forward and I would have fallen. I tried to make light below. It seemed to be about 10 meters. Unfortunately, it looked like I was walking in the wrong direction. Anyway, should I retreat back to the original route? I tried to invert my direction slowly as to not to put a burden on Horikita, but right after âââ
Unluckily, the soil under my footing collapsed and I lost my balance.
If I were alone, I would have grabbed a tree branch and I would have stepped on it, but both of my hands were blocked with Horikita.
I fell. It was inevitable.
I curled up my body to protect Horikita but I tumbled down the steep slope at loss for what to do. For several seconds, I had the sense that I was flying. I canât remember clearly what happened after I fell.
Should I say that itâs fortunate that it didnât hurt Horikita somehow? I looked up to the sloped but with my state of still holding Horikita in my arms, itâs very unlikely for me to crawl up.
âI screwed upâ
However, now itâs not the time to be stuck here. This time I will carry the still unconscious Horikita on my back and Iâll go forward with a single lightstick in the forest.
Rain came without mercy hitting my body and robbing away my physical strength. The heat that came from Horikita on my back is not usual. If sheâs exposed to the rain any longer, it could be dangerous.
But, here, deep in the forest, there were no caves or other man-made shelters that people could use, so, there was no other choice but to rely on the power of nature.
Fortunately, the trees here were overgrown, and depending on the place, our bodies may stay relatively dry.
I looked around for big trees and then I moved us right under them. Of course, it was better than being directly under the rain, for the rich foliage prevented a lot of rain.
Gently, I left Horikita to lay down on the ground.
Her jersey most probably will get dirty, but this is something that we have to put up with at a time like this. I sat there putting Horikitaâs head on my lap.
Here, there was some relief as the surrounding area is cool, however, the humidity was so high that it felt damp and hot.
Horikitaâs condition wasnât good. I feĂČt her trembling as she curled her body from the cold.
I embraced Horikita holding her close to my chest as much as possible, hoping that the burden would be eased a little bit and just waited quietly for the time to pass.
How much time had already passed, I wondered.
Horikita finally woke up being her usual fierce self but she seemed to be absent-minded or maybe she was unable to understand the gravity of the situation in which we were.
âHow⊠Did you?⊠IâŠ.â
I wondered if she was temporarily confused, it looked like she didnât remember what happened a little while ago.
I explained what happened. However, I was a bit doubtful whether she understood it all clearly.
âThatâs what happened⊠I remembered everything, nowâ
âThatâs goodâ
âI donât know how good this is. Since I can remember my mistake, I feel the worstâ
If she could talk in such a self-deprecating manner, then, I was relieved for the time being.
âItâs almost six oâclock, Horikita. You might think that it is harsh, but you should retire. I guess your body is at its limit alreadyâ
She barely have come this far by pretending to be alright, but from now on this will no longer possible.
âI canât do that. We canât afford to lose 30 points, because of me⊠Wasnât I, the one who confronted Karuizawa and the others who used our points, carelessly? It will make me look like a total foolâŠâ
The penalty related to poor physical condition was severe. Speaking of the possible lost points alone, there were more than Karuizawa personally used.
She laid her arm bitterly over her own eyes, so that she could conceal the tears from her eyes.
âItâs not only that⊠The key card was stolen from me, too. You clearly understand what that meansâŠ?â
âD class will lose another 50 points.â
Horikita nodded her head slightly. Then, D class would have just a few points left.
âGo back alone and leave me here. If we do this, at least for now, I will be the only one absent from the eveningâs roll call.â
âAnd, what are you planning to do?â
âBy tomorrow morningâŠ. I will somehow return alone to the camp. If I manage to surpass my bad condition during morning roll call, then for sure we will be able to do something about retirement, tooâ
So we could pass this through with a minus 5 points. That was the target.
âThis situation isnât so easy, youâre pretty weak right now, and the teacher in charge isnât naive enough so that you get through this with a fake performance. Above all, it is impossible for you to get back on your own.â
âStill, I have no other choice⊠So that some points remain in D classâ
Aside from the key card case, there was still a possibility that we could protect some points in relation to roll calls and retirement. That was certainly not a small number.
âGo!â
Although Horikita was weak, I felt that behind her words, there was still some kind of an indomitable fighting spirit. She could stand all the strain on her own, but it seemed to be unbearable for her to involve others. Without saying a word, I rose up steadily, putting her head to rest on the base of the big tree. She really meant to set me free from this situation.
âI will leave you alone without hesitation, but if things go on like this, our classmates will blame youâ
â⊠Yeah. Thatâs correct judgment. It was my responsibility and itâs all my fault.â
Horikita praised my cold decision as being accurate. But she was just feeling ashamed of herself for growing weak. She embraced her trembling body to endure the cold.
It is hard when you are not dependent on others.
The weather was still stormy, and there was no sign that the rain or wind will end, soon.
âCan you really come back alone tomorrow morning?â
âYeah⊠Iâll be okâ
ââŠ. Horikita, do you really think that itâs alright not to retire in this situation?â
I blurted out unnecessary words.
âOf course I wonât⊠I do not have the option of retiringâ
It was quite convenient to keep fighting with an indomitable fighting spirit, but then again, it had no meaning if you lost in the end.
âHey. Why do you think we are driven to the corner, in despair?â
Horikita Suzune fought as hard as she could. And tried to finish the test without failing.
ââŠ. Please, goâŠ. Because I think of you as a friend, this is my requestâŠ.â
Horikita said this and suddenly pressed her lips.
âI am going to make it right. As, if it didnât happen at allâ
âNo. I think this is the worst part of itâ
âItâs alright. I⊠alone!âŠ.â
And when she suddenly stood up she shut her eyes again in pain. After all, it was a burden for Horikita.
âPlease, goâŠ.â
When she finished her sentence, Horikita lost consciousness, again.
I gently picked her up, shifted my position to make her feel even a little comfortable, and then, when I stood up, I looked up at the unquenchable darkness and I let out a sigh.
âIt would have been much easier, if you had retired by your own willâ
This stubborn princess will not resign from the exams until the very end.
Splendid. Yes, I think itâs splendid. Your ideas and actions were almost right.
But, unfortunately, Horikita, thereâs one thing thatâs definitely wrong. Only now, this moment, let me tell you in all honesty.
I have never thought of you as a friend or an ally. Iâve never cared about you as a classmate. In this world, winning is everything. The process to do so, does not matter. I do not care what the cost is. I am totally fine as long as in the end, I have my victory.
You, Hirata and everyone else are only the tools for that.
Itâs not my fault that Horikita was driven to this point. I just complied with it. So, donât blame yourself, Horikita. What I mean is that you were useful to me.
I walked down the muddy road, while lighting up the flashlight. My shoes were already covered with mud, and the inside of them was flooded.
I donât mind it anymore.
The first thing to do was to grasp an understanding of my location. When I went down the slope, without a doubt I drifted far from the base camp of class D. But I was sure if I turned the other way back, the distance to the shore should be way shorter. I can go through the woods that Iâve been walking for several days, relying on the map in my head.
âIt was close, after allâ
Eventually, I reached the beach. The ship was afloat and its lights were reflected in the sea.
Then, it took me a couple of minutes to return to the previous place and pick up Horikita who had been lying on the ground, without any strength left. Her beautiful face stained with mud. Although I lifted her up in my arms, there was no sign of her, regaining consciousness.
I took hold of Horikita and started walking towards the shore, instead of the base camp direction. I continued walking, the time was around 7 in the afternoon, when I barely managed to get there in time. The tents set up by the teachers were now folded so as not to be blown by the wind.
I went up the ramp on the pier and reached the deck of the ship. Then one of the teachers noticed my presence and ran up to me.
âYou are prohibited from entering here. You will be disqualifiedâ
âI have an emergency case. She got a high fever and now she is unconscious. Please, allow her to rest at once.â
As soon as I explained the situation, the teacher skipped the instructions and brought a stretcher. I laid Horikita down.
âIs she ok with retiring?â
âThatâs without a question. However, let me confirm something, please. Because it is not 8 oâclock yet, her roll call has no effect, right?â
It was fifty-eight minutes past seven, itâs almost certain that we are safe.
I must win the teacherâs promise, here.
â⊠Certainly. She is at the very limit, but you are out.â
âI understand. One more thing. This key card, I have to return it.â
I handed over the key-card from my pocket to the teacher.
âWell, then, I am going back to the examâ
I couldnât stay here. I was going down at the beach again, in the rain. With this, class D would lose 30 points with Horikitaâs retirement and I would end up losing 5 more points with my absence during roll call.
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