The look of alarm on ZhouHeng's face disappears as soon as it appears. He adopts a stern countenance:
"Mr. Rong trusts me."
"That's right, if Mr. Rong doesn't trust you, he wouldn't have asked you to watch over me." I nod. I place my hands on my thigh and sit earnestly with my head bowed. "ZhouHeng ....... " I say: "I'm not feeling well." Acting as if he just heard an alarm go off, ZhouHeng immediately leans over:
"Where are you feeling unwell?" Looking at his agitated state, I suspect Rong YuJiang must have given him the condition that if I were to die of illness, he must be buried along with me.
"My hand is very cold, soon going to become numb."
"Hand?" That's right, my hand is deathly pale, just like my face. ZhouHeng starts to examine it, holding my hand, estimating its temperature. In that split second, I turn over my hand and grab his, pressing his hand between my thighs. Warm, separated only by a layer of clothing from my most sensitive organ.
"Don't move!" I warn him softly, smiling faintly: "If you move I will yell out s.e.xual a.s.sault." The bodyguards were at another table having lunch. They are at ease because ZhouHeng is at my side, why would they pay attention to what was going on under the thick tablecloth? It's often said that under the table deals are not easily detected.
"Mr. Huang, please conduct yourself with dignity." ZhouHeng's expression doesn't change and he looks at me calmly. Dignity? Ridiculous, the one that is taking advantage of the situation is him.
"ZhouHeng, if Rong YuJiang were to see this, how would you explain it?" I push his hand even further down, firmly pushing onto the organ under my clothes. How laughable, I've turned into a s.e.x maniac. I say: "ZhouHeng, think of this matter, from now on you need to remember this threat and listen to all my instructions." This is all but nonsense. Such a fictional matter, why would a big frog jump all over the place. ZhouHeng only burst out in laughter and gives me a light pinch. I react too late, shocked from head to toe. He says:
"Mr. Rong will definitely not doubt me. When he hired me, he already foresaw that this kind of things could happen. He said that Mr. Huang is really too playful, whether it is towards strangers or people beside you, you will always have the intention to seduce." Stupefied, I release ZhouHeng. I feel very depressed with the urge to throw up blood. Rong YuJiang, this is how you think of me. A complete s.l.u.t. b.a.s.t.a.r.d! I grab the vase on the table top and hurled it at ZhouHeng like a madman. ZhouHeng ducks deftly and evades the vase. The crashing vase alarms the entire restaurant. The bodyguards immediately circle around and surround me and my impulsiveness just like driving a carriage down a familiar path. I am forcefully pushed onto the chair. Again another ice-cold injection ...........
When I wake up, YuJiang is sitting at my bedside, calmly watching me. A distressed look in his eyes, acting as if he was even more blameless than me.
"ShengSheng, why did you cause trouble again? Why can't you behave just for one day?" I smile coldly, grinding my teeth:
"How can I not cause trouble? I'm but only a vixen or a s.l.u.t." YuJiang utters not a word and abruptly draws closer and leans over me. The familiar face is suddenly enlarged making me think of his delicate farewell kisses that he used to give me just before leaving. Staring blankly, I suddenly come back to my senses in a shock and turn my head away, hardening my heart.
"There are times when I really want to tear you to shreds." YuJiang whispers softly at my ear while gently caressing me, enunciating clearly: "I love you heart and soul and yet you betray me." I shiver with my breath stuck in my chest.
"Rong YuJiang. Don't you dare poisonously slander me." I bite my lower lip and glare at him hatefully.
"Me poisonously slandering people? ShengSheng, how outdated can you be? Do you know how much painstaking effort it takes me to protect you, to keep you from harm, allowing you to stay safely and free from worry at my side, not letting other people hara.s.s you?" Even when speaking of his hurt feelings, he still has the same manner, showing extreme consideration, softly and gently, showing deep sincere feelings. I shout hoa.r.s.ely:
"That's right! I'm only a degenerate s.l.u.t, guilty and deserving to die ten thousand deaths. You should quickly throw me into the rubbish heap so as to not defile your Rong mansion, and never meet me again from this point on!" He m.u.f.fles my screams. Using so much strength that I think that he wishes to suffocate me to death. He sees me with my eyes open widely full of fear and gently kisses me on my forehead. Softly and tenderly.
"ShengSheng, no matter how you misbehave, I will not let you go." YuJiang says: "I know you were always deceiving me, I know you never really loved me. But I really love you." I deceived him? Looks like the impostor was always me. Then I must be the worlds unluckiest impostor. I sob continuously under his palm, only regretting that I can't say it all out. But even if I could say it all out, what use would it be? Have I ever managed to beat him in words? "Do you know? We have crossed vast oceans and difficult waters." He hugs me and pulls me tightly into his embrace: "Other than you, there is no other person." I yell out crazily. I throw up a mouthful of blood on his shoulder. That's right, we have crossed vast oceans and difficult waters. All the things that happened before, how can I blot it all out? It's just too bad that I love you this much. It's just too bad that you only want me. Why must people have hearts? Even if madly in love, suspicions will still arise. Even if one is blissfully happy, there will be all sorts of tempting glory, wealth, and status nearby. Few can't help but grasp a little at these worldly things leading to the ruin of the sweet blissfulness.
You love me, but it's a pity that you don't trust me, you won't let me go. Thereby not letting yourself go. It's not that I don't love you, but it's a pity that I no longer dare to believe you. I won't forgive you, thereby not forgiving myself. I have no more tears, I can only throw up blood. I throw up on YuJiang's shoulder, and see him start to lose his head in panic, just like that day when I offered my naked chest to him in the car.
"YuJiang, what you said is right." I say weakly: "We have crossed vast oceans and difficult waters. What you said is right." Not waiting for the injection from ZhouHeng, I sink deeply into unconsciousness. Please don't enter my dreams. YuJiang, I'm already extremely weak and completely exhausted. Are you not tired?