Well then, I, Sakurai Makoto, have on this occasion become lovers with Tsubaki Soutarou. An outright BL development.
My first lover. I didnât expect to have a lover in my 2nd year of high school. Not to mention marriage, I thought I was part of a race that wonât have a lover in its entire life. Born as an unpopular woman, I thought Iâd live and die as one. Life sure is full of surprises, huh?
âMakoo? Iâll leave the change of clothes here.â
âAh, un.âTranslator: nakimushitl
Hearing a voice from the dressing area, I unconsciously hid even though he shouldnât be able to see me.
Sure enough, now that weâre lovers, things may be moving too fast to stay over (heart) at Soutarouâs house. Isnât it kinda dangerous to be alone together in this empty house? It may be late of me to say this after entering the bath but, I probs have too little sense of danger.
Itâs not impossible that Iâll suddenly be introduced to the society atop the bed. Approaching with that fluffy demeanor and releasing glitters behind him, CHOMP! âââŚâŚ I may lose my maiden virginity or male virginity. Thatâs the kind of person Tsubaki Soutarou is. Probably.
This sounds gossipy but, I wonder which am I? What if, itâs just a âwhat ifâ but if it really comes to the society atop the bed, am I the so-called seme or am I the uke? Just imagining the scene of sexual intercourse makes me feel like vomiting, but itâs not impossible for us to have that kind of relationship along the way.
Most BL genre manga have sexual intercourse. Some even have those scenes at the start, spanning about 5 pages. So much so that if this was a BL manga, the story development is too slow.
Translator: nakimushitl
Although thereâs a mountain load of things to ponder about, Iâll get dizzy if I stay in the bath any longer. Thinking itâs time I got up, I leave the bathtub.
This is a moment Iâm most unable to grow accustomed to. No matter how one looks at this body, Iâm a man. It doesnât have what it should, and has what it shouldnât. I may have to return to reality when this body turns back into a womanâs.
I change into the clothes Soutarou prepared. Although our heights are similar, our builds arenât so the clothes are saggy. Iâm moved at how it looks like a boyfriend shirt.
Read at the translatorâs site or moonbunnycafe.
When I return to the living room, Soutarou is preparing a cake. I almost forgot due to the many shocking and huge developments but, come to think of it, itâs Christmas today.
Sitting at the sofa, I watch Soutarou divide the cake.
âCan you eat fresh cream?â
âUn. I donât have a preference. Did you bake that, Soutarou?â
âWith my younger sister, yesterday. I thought it came out pretty well.â
The cake Soutarou prepared is a simple whole cake with strawberries on top.
Although itâs losing its handmade, oval shape, you can feel the human touch from it.
âWow, it looks yummy. Thanks for the food.â
Translator: nakimushitl
I push a fork into the divided cake. The sweetness is moderate and itâs very yummy.
It appears that Soutarouâs even going to make coffee. Is this what service that leaves nothing to be desired means?
Bathing in an atmosphere with such warm happiness, it feels stupid of me to think about the society atop the bed, seme or uke.
Itâs nice just quietly staying together like this. Thatâs right. Sorry, Soutarou, for having weird suspicions. Even if I called him a panda or clione, heâs fundamentally a doggy. Also, an otome game character wonât abruptly perpetrate vulgar things, right? Itâs the otome game characters who give dreams to girls, you know? Soutarouâs tentatively a girlâs ideal. He wonât, abruptly, right?
âMako.â
âNn?â
Soutarou who shouldâve been quietly eating cake next to me, is leaning against my shoulder.
He gently grasps my hand and entangles our fingers, placing a kiss on my cheek. Sniff sniff, he rubs the tip of his nose behind my ear, as though to sniff the scent there.
âUooi, donât betray me all of a sudden!â
âEh?âTranslator: nakimushitl
This atmosphere is that of an unpleasant pattern. Licking his lips with a slightly exposed, bright red tongue, heâs looking at me with strangely sensual eyes. This is probably that. The atmosphere where he wants to do something or the other with me. Soutarou has the expression of a male animal. Return my hope up till now!
âMako, has the same smell as meâŚâ
âDuh, I used the bath at your house.â
âI like you so much, Mako.â
I, whoâve been claiming to be the go-with-the-flow type, is already about to go with the flow.
Although I sometimes feel betrayed, I end up forgiving Soutarou because heâs cute. Is this the so-called âthe one in love is weakâ?
5 times more glitter than usual are appearing in the background. Ridiculously cool, so cute. This is my boyfriend? Girlfriend? Anyone would be surprised, deprived, suffice[1] to hear that.
Unable to bear this this âLetâs kissď˝â atmosphere, I travel to the world of delusions and watch from afar. Iâm amazed at the couples of the world who can bear such an embarrassing atmosphere and even kiss or whatnot.
âMe too.âTranslator: nakimushitl
âMe too?â
I meant that I like him too, but Soutarou acts like none the wiser and tries to make me say âlikeâ. Itâs no good that Soutarouâs more lively at times like this.
The obvious dog ears protruding from his head and the tail at his back are shaking with expectation. His eyes and background are shining brightly, waiting for my âlikeâ. Although I think like and love doesnât have to be said again and again, itâs evidently different for him.
Like a dog asked to wait, his tail shakes left and right as he looks at me desirously. Heâs looking at me with eyes that shine with so much expectation, I feel like I must say it.
âMe too, well, kinda.â
âKinda? You only kinda have feelings for meâŚ?â
Soutarouâs shoulders drop in despondency, the ends of his brows lower and tears amass in his eyes.
âNo, um. Itâs nothing to cry over, right?â
âThe person I like told me âkindaâ⌠Itâs natural to feel sad.â
Although heâs hanging his head with a face on the verge of tears now, he peeps at my expression now and then.
âIs he about to give in?â âIs he?â Heâs probably waiting for that. Just a few months ago, even though heâs two-faced, he wouldnât show it so openly. When did he become so 100% cunning like this?
âDonât make such a pathetic face. Iâm easily shy. I canât simply say I like you and whatnot, the way you can.â
âEven though we kissed just now?â
His face forcefully approaches mine. In the end, he uses his upper body to try and push me down.
Donât tell me this guy is trying to be intimate with me on the sofa? I did think Soutarou moves fast, but I didnât think weâd be intimate so soon after becoming a couple.
âWait wait wait, Soutarou, hang on! I think this is too fast for us. Besides, I heard it really hurts and is dangerous for the one taking it in. Iâm not prepared so this is really, really impossible!â
Translator: nakimushitl
âI can be the one taking it inď˝â
Being smiled at so cheerfully, I donât know what I should do.
This is a first, a Soutarou whom I canât get words through to this extent.
âThatâs not the problem! Heart-throb Love Revolution is R15 so bed scenes are FORBIDDEN!â
âHeart-throb Love RevolutionâŚ? Whatâs, that, Mako?â
Soutarou is firmly in a mount position on my stomach. To put things simply, the order from the bottom is the sofa, me, Soutarou, the state of a hamburger.
âThere, calm down, we can come to an understanding through discussion.â
âNnď˝?âTranslator: nakimushitl
âWait, I say! âŚWoh?!â
Soutarou licked the kiss mark Ichigo-chan placed just now. I feel embarrassed, and at the same time, my waist gradually grows ticklish, severely making me feel like wanting to die. A strange sensation I didnât feel when Ichigo-chan sucked my nape.
I push Soutarou away with all my might and escape from under him. The current him is no good. My words canât get through. Although itâs not like escaping will do any good, what will I do if a mishap occurs like this? Wonât the Heart-throb Love Revolution for good kids turn into a densely BL adult game?
The best plan is to escape through the entranceway. Iâll contact him once his head is clear. Or, so I planned, but Iâm caught before reaching the entranceway.
My arm is grabbed and Iâm pressed against the wall. Forcibly kissed before I can even complain.
âMako, why did you run? Itâs turning me on even more.â
âYouâre scary, idiot! Where did my cute Soutarou go!â
âI havenât changed from before. If something changed, itâs just me liking Mako more every second. If something is changing, itâs because I like Mako too much.â
Although my chastity is facing a crisis, Soutarouâs words were so direct that I was almost moved.
After all, Iâm partial to Mitsuki, partial to Soutarou, partial to Bakumatsu Shishi Girlsâ Katsura Koharu. Iâm weak to the cunning and cute.
âEven though I like you so much, I steadily lose confidence because youâre like this. Is it a lie that you like me, Mako? Did you go out with me out of pity?â
âOf course not! I, too, ⌠I like Soutarou too. I think youâre super cute.â
Translator: nakimushitl
âReally? You really like me?â
Although his face is located higher than mine, why does it look like an upturned gaze?
This expression of a reprimanded dog gauging my mood, is unbearably cute.
âYeah, I like you. Iâm not nice enough to go out with someone out of pity. Iâm going out with you because I like you, Soutarou.â
âI like Mako tooâŚâ
âYeah, ⌠itâs obvious from your attitude.â
Soutarou clings onto me with a miserable expression. Smiling wryly at that, I strongly return the hug out of happiness.
âMy heart squeezes when I look at Mako sometimes, and there are times I canât endure even though I know Mako will hate me if I do that. I like Mako, if I like Mako more from now on, I may do something Mako is really against.â
âYour love is so heavy. But thatâs good.â
Not knowing what to do about these feelings, that makes two of us.
Things wonât go as per the scenario like in otome games or BL games. Although thatâs irritating and difficult, well, itâs not bad to experience life once or twice.
âSoutarouuu, my feet are cold. Carry me to to sofa.â
âUn, have more cake. Ah, right.â
Translator: nakimushitl
âWhat is it?â
Soutarou carries me and kisses the tip of my nose.
Whatâs with him, is he a kissing demon?
âMerry Christmas, Mako.â
âYeah, Merry Christmas.â
I let spill a smile at the voice so sweet you could add a heart icon at the end of the words.
This is probably the fault of having something like the magic of Christmas being cast on me, but I hope my words sound sweet to Soutarou too.