He Jin also wanted to be as brave as Qin Yang, but it was too difficult for him.
Because of his previous family experienced, he cared a lot about how the others thought of him. He tried every possible way to create a perfect façade, he was afraid to make mistakes, and for this reason, he was hypersensitive to every look thatâs evil, prejudiced and judgmental.
The last thing that the counsellor said was like a whip hitting heavily on him. He dared not raise his head anymore.
That wasnât a serious criticism, but more like a reminder. That reminded him of his childhood experience, when he had to kneel on the floor and let his mother beat him. She kept yelling and insulting him, âyouâre shamelessâ, âyou only know how to playâ and âyouâre uselessââŠeven though his mother later apologized to him, and he had forgiven her, these insults are like labels and theyâre tattooed deep in his heart. Every time he tried to act a bit differently, he would instantly feel ashamed of himself. This is tearing his soul apart.
He Jinâs bracelet suddenly vibrated, it dragged him out of his fear. It was Qin Yangâs call.
âHeyâŠâ He Jin took a deep breath.
âWhere are you?â Qin Yang asked.
When hearing his voice, He Jin felt calmer, and he almost burst into tearsâŠ.Qin Yang was his sin, but also his savior.
âI was in the faculty office and was asked about working as a researcher after graduation.â He Jin said plainly.
âOh? Have you made up your mind?â Qin Yang asked with care.
He Jin took a deep breath, raised his head and looked at the sky, âIâve given up, I want to look for a job after graduation.â
Although he couldnât be as brave as Qin Yang, He Jin also wanted to make a move for him. Even with a small action like this might get him hurt.
Qin Yang, âalright. Whatever you do, Iâll support you. Do you want to go out for dinner and celebrate?â
He Jin, âis it worth celebrating?â
Qin Yang laughed lightly, 'silly you, donât you know that itâs a reason for me to treat you? Your EQ is really low.â
At night, when they were having dinner, He Jin wanted to act more casually. He didnât mention about what the counsellor had told him. When Qin Yang told him excitedly about what happened at the tennis court that afternoon, He Jin laughed along.
After dinner, when they were on their way returning to their dormitory, they saw a few classmates who had worked together with He Jin in the student club before. One of them had perceived He Jin as his competitor, but He Jin had never really cared about it. When they saw He Jin and Qin Yang, they were shocked, and started laughing at them. One of them intentionally said loudly, âoh my God, I didnât expect them to be this kind of peopleâŠâ
Both of them heard it. Qin Yang glanced at them coldly, he held He Jinâs shoulder and left. When they were a few steps forward, He Jin deliberately kept a distance from him.
Qin Yang felt bad about it and tried to comfort He Jin, âdonât care about what they said.â
He Jin lowered his head and replied with âumââŠsigh, he only wanted to be in love, but he had chosen a difficult path.
When they went to class the next day, He Jin obviously sensed that people around were looking at him weirdly. In just about two days, he got a message from Tong Xuan, asking about him and Qin Yang. This time, He Jin had nowhere to hide.
He just didnât reply, and he ignored the peopleâs questions and gossips. At the same time, he gave a call to his counsellor, declaring that heâd given up on being a researcher. Professor Li expressed his regret to He Jinâs decision, but he didnât attempt to change his mind.
On the surface, He Jin was fine with Qin Yang, yet he was feeling greater pressure inside. He was also getting quieter, as the surrounding environment made him want to escape. He imagined being in a place where no one knew about him and Qin Yang, just like in Snowtown, then they could be together as much as they wanted.
Qin Yang also felt that something was wrong. He felt like he had to steal every moment alone with He Jin, and itâs really not the kind of relationship that he was looking for.
At the end of April, when Qin Yang got online alone, Wild Crane was asking about how he was doing, as Dead Water and Nine Hall had already told him about Qin Yang and He Jin. Then, Qin Yang told him what heâs been worried about.
Leisure Cloud asked strangely, âwhy donât you move out?â
Wild Crane, âyeah, when I and my brother were in University, we moved out already in our second year!â
They were like some an excellent reminder which cleared Qin Yangâs mind instantly!
At night, when he got offline, Qin Yang instantly looked for He Jin for this matter.
âMoving out?â He Jin was a bit shocked, as this suggestion seemed to be way beyond his usual thinking.
âDonât you want to live with me?â At this time, the two were standing at the entrance of the staircase. Qin Yang gently pulled him, holding He Jin in his arms. He was touching the hair near He Jinâs ears, âwe will look for a small studio near the school. When we have classes, weâll come here. But we wonât have to see our classmates often.â
He Jin was still a bit worried, âthen what should we do with our dormitory? We have to continue renting it, no?â
âThen weâll keep renting it. You can actually keep your stuff here, and Iâll buy new furniture, blanket and whatnot.â When Qin Yang mentioned about âblanketâ, he sounded very flirtatious, âitâll be at most 3000 yuan per month, itâs totally worth it, since weâll have our personal space and quietness.â
Qin Yang had wanted to say, âdonât worry about the rentâ, but heâd learnt his lesson, and he knew that doing so would only hurt He Jin. Seeing that He Jin was still hesitating, Qin Yang persuaded him even more, âweâll build a home of our own, a space that only belongs to us. What do you think?â
He Jin was struck by this suggestion, and he was completely moved by it. After saying, âIâll considerâ, he first returned to his room.
At night, when he was lying on his bed, he kept turning as he was simply too excited. As the surrounding environment had been pressurizing him too much, he was really looking forward to moving out with Qin YangâŠit had to be the craziest thing to do during his college years!
The next morning, Qin Yang called He Jin in a sleepy tone, and he told He Jin that he had been looking for a studio until midnight.
It turned out that he wasnât the only one who lost sleep. He Jin was speechless, âhow come you started looking so soon?â Although he was complaining, it was obvious that he was looking forward to it.
Qin Yang noticed his excitement, and he grabbed this opportunity, âobviously, youâre just one floor down. And I can only say good morning to you every day. Itâs really not niceâŠwhen we live together, weâll be seeing each other every day.â
He Jin couldnât help but blush and his heart was beating quickly, âhow are the studios that youâve found so far?â
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When Qin Yang heard it, he instantly smiled, as He Jin seemed to have already accepted it, âIâve chosen a few, and Iâll check them out with the agent this afternoon. Do you want to join me?â
âUm, Iâll see if I have the time to.â Although he said that, when Qin Yang called again in the afternoon, He Jin quickly went to join him.
After checking out different studios for three days, the two had picked one thatâs just within 500 km from the University. As itâs nicely decorated and clean, the rent was around 600 yuan more expensive those in the same district. They needed to pay 3800 yuan per month.
He Jin found it a bit too expensive, but Qin Yang really liked the studio. He Jin thought about the 400,000 yuan thatâs left untouched in his account. If he shared the rent with Qin Yang, he might be able to afford it. He Jin thought about pleasing his lover and decided to accept it.