When K said, âyou are not going to be happyâ, it went right straight into He Jinâs mind. Heâs right, living under other peopleâs expectations is not something that he wants. For the last twenty years, he wasnât happy at all.
âHowever, among us, there are still some exceptionally lucky people. They are not necessarily homosexuals, they can have feelings towards the opposite sex too, and such is called bisexuality. When these people cannot bear the pressure from the society, most of them will give way to the realityâŠbut Iâm not, Iâm purely homosexual.â K shrugged his shoulders and looked at He Jin, âwhat about you?â
He Jin was shocked for a while. When he thought of his relationship with Tongxuan, about the âpeacefulâ times that he had, they were surely not comparable to his feelings toward Qin Yang. Itâs quite easy to determine which person has triggered his real emotions inside.
âI donât knowâŠâ This late awakening made He Jin not so sure of himself anymore. He once imagined himself having found a girl that he liked, and thatâs to comfort himself. However, when facing both Qin Yang and Fire, the mask that heâd been wearing, the self-hypnosis that heâd been doing to himself were crushed to pieces a long time ago.
K, âif youâve never felt sexually aroused by a woman, then you can be sure that youâre homo.â
He Jin thought to himself, the conclusion that has never been accepted, should be accepted now.
K observed his expression and smiled, 'so, youâve never had it, right?â
He Jin, ârightâŠâ
Indeed, not only to Tongxuan, He Jin hadnât thought much about those things since he was raised under very strict supervision. He had been taught to suppress all the instincts that an adolescent should have. Even though in University, when He Jin heard of his neighbors talked about porn and female celebrities, he didnât feel interested at all. No wonder Monkey always told him that heâs living like a monk.
Therefore, when he reached 23 years old, the only person who could arouse his sexual interests is Qin Yang.
K almost knew the whole picture now, he guessed, âhey, is it the handsome guy that came the other day?â
He Jin lowered his head, his neck almost formed a 90° angle, âyeahâŠâ
K laughed instantly, âhaha, see! I told you that he wants to pursue you!â
He Jin was so embarrassed that his hands kept sweating, âI only knewâŠlast night.â
He only knew last night that Qin Yang is Fire, and realized that the person he likes is waiting for him as well.
K answered with an âahâ, and he seemed to understand what was happening, âdid he tell you the truth? OhâŠhe even picked a day before the Valentineâs Day, how romanticâŠwait, are you in a bad shape because of this? Is that why you didnât sleep well last night?â
He Jin sighed, âyeah, I guessâŠâ
K finally got it, butâŠisnât it a good thing? Then why was He Jin looking so sad? âDonât you like him too?â K asked.
He Jin shook his head. Although he had already guessed that Qin Yang and Fire are the same person, then all his worries that he had while he rejected Fire shouldnât exist anymore. However, He Jin still didnât feel like taking his rejection back.
First of all, itâs all because of the earlier deception. Once He Jin thought of being fooled around by those âtwo peopleâ, he really wanted to beat Qin Yang up!
Again, and also because of the reality, the family background of He Jin is too different, and given how serious Qin Yang to this relationship isâŠthis is no longer a casual relationship, thereâre too many things for He Jin to consider.
K, âthen why do you look sad? If you like him, then be with him already!â
He Jin moved his lips. He was indeed overthinking. He always liked to look for problems. For some other people, these things arenât even worth the discussion.
He Jin changed the topic and asked, âK, then do you have a girlâŠehâŠboyfriend?â
K burst into laughter and shrugged his shoulders, âI have a few sex partners but not a boyfriend.â
He Jin, ââŠsexâŠpartner?â
K, âyeah, itâs quite a mess in our circle. Since weâre the minority, and we arenât accepted by a lot of people, we donât have a lot of choices. You know, men think with their bottom half, and not a lot of people want to spend time on real relationshipsâŠwhen time goes by, youâll know how small this circle is, maybe the one youâve slept with yesterday will be with another guy the next day.â
He Jinâs mouth twitched, âwhatâs the auction?â
K smiled, and started to introduce some specific terms in the gay circle of A city. When one mentions âthe auctionâ, it doesnât really mean that theyâre going to sell somebody, it means letting everyone know that thereâs a high-quality choice on the list, and for a lot of people, it would be an extreme honor to flirt, or even to have a short, casual relationship with these single people.
âI donât think your friend is in our circle, if he is, he wouldnât still be single. He Jin, listen to me, heâs a gem and you shouldnât hesitate anymore. Be with him already.â K said.
He Jin squinted, let alone guys, Qin Yang is also very popular among girls. For someone like Qin Yang, anyone would think that itâs a pity if heâs singleâŠ
âby the way, â K got close to him and he suddenly looked very experienced, he whispered, âto my observation, Iâm sure your friend is good at that aspect. Itâll feel awesome to do it with him.â
He Jin, ââŠâ
How the hell could he tell?â He Jin was confused, is K actually Qin Yangâs spy? Why is he mentioning only his good things?
In the end, He Jin didnât take a day off, he rested for half an hour in the staff lounge before continuing to work.
Qin Yang arrived at around 7 pm. Without entering, he intended to look at He Jin being busy in his car. He wanted to see him yawn, drink his espresso, greet every customer with a smile, or chat with his managerâŠ
On Valentineâs Day, A city was full of red roses everywhere.
Not far from the corner of the street, thereâs a trolley selling roses, Qin Yang was hesitating whether he should buy a rose for He Jin.
He has received the flower that He Jin sent him in the game. The heart that had been stumbled relentlessly the other day was finally cured a little, but heâs still in a bad mood, just like after having a serious illness, he still felt depressed and tired.
Translations by AsianHobbyist Website.
After sitting for half an hour, and seeing that the florist was leaving, Qin Yang jumped out of the car and rushed over to buy one.
The rose was about ten yuan, and the thorn on the flower stem was removed, itâs no longer stinging on hands. Qin Yang brought the flower back to his warm seat, and started hesitating as to what excuse he could use to give this flower to He Jin.
At 8:30 pm, K used his elbow to touch He Jin, âhey, thatâs your boyfriendâs car, right?â