Su Sheng immediately shook her head, âIâm not.â
But her eyes flashed panic briefly.
Lou Qingwuâs sigh grew deeper, âMiss Wanâer, I said, if you change your mind, you donât have to worry about the agreement between us. Even if you canât get that file, I have other methods of getting it. So, just do what your heart wants to do.â
Su Sheng bit her bright red lips but didnât speak.
Lou Qingwu knew that she guessed right and didnât force her, she let her think it through.
âDoes he treat you well?â
Su Shengâs hand that held her tea cup, stiffened, and after a long time, lightly said one word, â .... yes.â
In fact, âwellâ wasnât enough to describe how she was treated.
In these few days, it was like she was teleported to a few years back, to a time when he hadnât betrayed her.
He was like a person on the edge, constantly cautious and on guard, carefully watching over her, as if sheâd disappear in a blink.
Apart from not speaking a word about back then, his love and concern for her, made her originally cold heart slightly move.
But once she thought of his relentless att.i.tude and mercilessness back then, her heart hardened and froze over again.
But when he appeared again, it started to move again.
This back and forth movement, made her feel as if she was about to go crazy.
But even so, she couldnât let go, she didnât want to leave âŠ.
Originally, she thought she did it for her hatred.
But after so many years, he only had to use his warm and gentle eyes, and she would fall apart.
She felt that this her, was especially useless.
Su Sheng lowered her eyes, the despair and grief in her eyes grew, âMiss Lou, do you think Iâm very stupid?â
She clearly knew how merciless he was to her back then, so hateful, but every time she saw how regretful and upset he was, she felt like her heart softened.
Lou Qingwu shook her head, âYouâre not stupid, you just âŠâ
You just loved Mu Yunqing too much back then.
So now, you both love and hate.
But she only hated herself more.
âTake good care of yourself. Sometimes, you just have to follow your heart.â
If it was possible, she wished that she could be happy and not bring her hatred with her for the rest of her life.
In this life, that wasnât the only option.
Su Sheng nodded her head, her eyes stayed lowered as her long eyelashes hid the emotions in her eyes.
She was uneasy, anxious and indecisive.
She wanted to take revenge, but she was also greedy for Mu Yunqingâs warmth.
If Mu Yunqing really âŠ. really was worth her throwing herself for him again, then, could she really act as if âthatâ never happened, back then?
Her mind flashed back to Mu Yunqingâs apathy back then and the warmth of today, she felt like her mind was about to split into two.
But in the end, she helplessly closed her eyes, âMiss Lou, I know.â
âThen thatâs good.â
She was really afraid that sheâd step onto the path of no return.
Originally, when she agreed for her to go meet Mu Yunqing again, it was because she felt like Mu Yunqing wasnât completely emotionless towards her.
But if there was still affection between them, then there might have been something else that happened then.
As long as they could communicate well, maybe there would be a light at the end of the tunnel for them.
But if they canât do that, and they only held onto their hatred, then they could only be destined for a sad ending.
But no matter what, there would be an ending and at least, when they left this world, they wouldnât have any regrets.
Su Sheng sat calmly, as if sheâd thought things through and decided on something.
She lifted her head up to look towards Lou Qingwu, and was just as she was about to say something.
But when she opened her mouth, her eyes carelessly fell on something and suddenly froze.
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TL note:
Su Sheng feels like a lite version of LQW?
Leave a comment and because thereâs gonna be something to make you feel even more indecisive up next xx