Lysia glanced back at Artizea. Artizea replied with a calm face,
âIâm sorry, Miss Lysia.â
âDonât be sorry.â
Lysia gave Cedric a hint not to be angry with Artizea and left.
Cedric confirmed that the door was closed and approached Artizea.
Artizea said,
âYou are angry.â
âBecause I am not the first person you discuss such an important issue with.â
âDid you know?â
Cedric wiped his face once.
âYou started refusing to sleep in the same bed, so how could I not even notice that something was wrong?â
âYou pretended you didnât know until now.â
âBecause I never thought it was a baby. I thought you wanted to hide it, so I was going to wait until you make up your mind and tell me. Now, I thought you would.â
There seemed to be no more concerns in her heart. So, he thought that her health had somewhat collapsed.
He kept getting reports from the doctor about her health.
It was said that she had a bad digestive system and she sometimes vomited until midnight, but it wasnât out of the question considering Artizea didnât eat well in the first place.
Then, it could just get better. The doctor said so.
He doesnât know if she wasnât seeing the doctor, but he knew Artizea was taking care of her body, so he endured it.
He believed the promise and waited. Because she said sheâd talk about something really important.
But he was slowly reaching his limit.
When he heard that Lysia had rushed into the Capital, he knew something was really wrong with her.
So he immediately called and questioned the doctor. The doctor turned pale, knelt before him and apologized.
[âPlease forgive me, Your Majesty. I didnât mean to tell a lie, but the Empress has commanded those words not to come out of my mouth because she would make a decision.â]
[âItâs nothing else, but the health of the Empress. If anything happens to the Empress while I am unaware, Sir will be held accountable.â]
Cedric almost threatened him until he got an answer.
[âShe has conceived.â]
The doctor said, trembling in fear.
Cedric sat by the bed, where Lysia had been sitting, and then stood up.
It felt like his stomach was burning, so he drank two cups of water but it didnât go away.
It wasnât that he didnât understand the situation. The Empressâ pregnancy was something everyone would be delighted with. She just had to be more careful than she was.
She didnât have anything to reveal to anyone until she was in a stable state. Even more so if it was a baby she couldnât bear to give birth to.
Better if no one knows. Artizea would have judged that, too.
âStill, you should have told me. I need to know. About your body and your baby.â
Cedric returned to Artizeaâs side again.
âBoth are my responsibility. Why didnât you tell me?â
âI didnât mean to hide it. I didnât mean to let it go and take responsibility alone without saying anything.â
Artizea said calmly.
âI wanted to check as many possibilities as possible before making a decision. Itâs about my body, so I should check it first.â
âPossibility? Whatâs the possibility? Doctors will try to figure out which method is least harmful to your body.â
âI didnât say it because I know youâd say that.â
Cedric looked at Artizeaâs face and was silent for a moment. Then, he said with a painful expression.
âAre you planning to give birth?â
âIf possible.â
âOut of the question!â
Cedric half shouted.
He, too, had heard the story from the doctor and had come to a half-final conclusion.
If she wants to end this pregnancy, the sooner the better. For now, it can still be ended by taking a less toxic drug without doing too much damage to the body.
Considering Artizeaâs health, the doctor emphasized the meaning several times that it was better.
In fact, in the context of hearing those words from the doctor, Cedric should have guessed Artizea was going to give birth to the baby.
Had she decided to end it right away, she would have done it already.
But he didnât even think about it because it was improbable.
âAre you going to leave me and Leticia?â
âI have no intention of risking my life.â
âYou almost died once when you had Leticia! At the time, the doctor said you would be fine, so this time is. Much more!â
Cedric clenched his fist.
âNow, the doctor said that you will die with certainty, so what do you mean youâre not risking your life?â
âCalm down, Lord Cedric.â
âOne child is enough. No, it didnât matter if I didnât have any. I still regret telling you to give birth at that time.â
âMy health problems arenât caused by having the baby.â
âItâs because that damn god gave you an imperfect power. Whatever the cause, you are already not healthy enough to have a baby!â
Artizea was quietly listening to the words he was pouring out with a smile.
Then, she realized that now she wasnât afraid of Cedric at all.
She had no fear of physical pain, nor fear of being hated.
So, she held out her hand. Cedric grabbed her hand.
âTia.â
He lowered his head and rested his forehead in the palm of her hand.
âDonât be reckless. Even if you donât know how many days you have left, you promised to try to stay with me and Leticia as long as possible.â
âI want to give birth.â
âTia.â
âBecause there is a possibility. Iâm not giving the rest of my life to the baby. If Miss Lysia is by my side, I can stop at any time in any situation.â
âAre you planning to put a knife to your stomach again?â
âI can recover without any aftereffects. That alone is far safer than other pregnant women.â
âNot dying doesnât mean youâre safe.â
âI think itâs an acceptable risk.â
Artizea grabbed Cedricâs hand that was trying to get angry again and shook it. Cedric suppressed his anger.
âTia.â
âDuring TiciaâŠâŠ I didnât know anything about giving birth to a baby. In fact, if Lord Cedric hadnât told me to give birth, I would have erased the child without hesitation.â
ââŠâŠ I regret it.â
âYou canât do that. Without Ticia, I would have never known that I was a person who could fully love others.â
Artizea said softly.
âThis time, I have decided. You told me to.â
âThatâŠâŠ It meant the opposite. I didnât mean that I wanted you to have a baby while hurting your body and mind.â
âI just want to try as best as I can. Or do you not want a second one?â
âThatâs not true. Itâs not like that!â
âWhether it is a child who resembles me or a child who resembles Lord Cedric, this time, I will be able to cherish and raise them.â
âTiaâŠâŠ.â
âTrust me that I have become the person who can do that.â
Cedric didnât say anything anymore. It was because he understood very well why Artizea said that.
He lowered his head for a moment and looked down at the hand holding him.
âI regret holding you.â
âYouâve succeeded in another unlikely task.â
âItâs no laughing matter.â
Cedric said in a cracked voice.
âThere will be no third.â
âReally?â
âTia, please. Promise me youâll give up right away when youâre in danger.â
âYes. I have no intention of exchanging my life for it.â
âIf something went wrong with you, many people will resent it.â
âBut I know you will love them in the end.â
âStop trusting me now.â
Cedric moved to the edge of the bed. And he hugged Artizea.
âI told you. I canât stand losing you anymore. I will really resent it.â
âIt was Lord Cedric who taught me that the more people you love, the better it gets.â
Artizea said, burying her face in the nape of his neck. A soft, warm breath tickled his skin, and Cedric grimaced slightly.
âThen, I must blame myself first.â
âIf you carry two babies like Ticia, you may feel resentful towards yourself.â
âTia, Iâm not joking.â
âI know you will always do well.â
Artizea smiled and ran up along his jawline with her index and middle fingers. And she touched his bluntly closed lips.
âTiaâŠâŠ.â
Cedric tried to get a little more angry, but in the end he couldnât.
He lowered his head and pressed his lips to Artizeaâs. His stomach churned and the inside of his eyes was sore.
A mixture of pain and joy glided up to his throat. Cedric sighed in his troubled heart.
That sigh disappeared inside Artizeaâs lips. The breath he exhaled returned and rested sweetly on Cedricâs lips.
Unlike when her tears disappeared into his mouth, the kiss didnât taste salty.