Chapter 18

Eyes like the brightest star of the dawn, looking at me as if they were piercing through me.

It was a gaze as emotionless as the silence of midnight.

Gilbert-sama is a lovely person whose emotional state is easy to understand when he opens his mouth, but his mood changes drastically when he becomes silent.

I had expected him to say, “What are you talking about, you stupid woman?”

The light that occasionally shines through the dim clouds reflects on the lake and glistens. The dense forest landscape and the mysterious lake suddenly seemed so beautiful.

It is a strange feeling, as if we are the only two people left behind in the world, and yet we feel that everything will be all right.

I was a little puzzled and was somewhat embarrassed, and at the same time I wanted to run away.

This is not right. It’s just not right.

I tried to let go of his hand as if nothing had happened, but he grabbed me. He pulled me closer and brought my face closer.

I could feel the aggravating heat in his eyes as he looked at me.

“Are you sure?”

I wondered for a moment what he was talking about, but before I could give him a response, our lips collided.

Because of the difference in our size, I am completely enveloped in his arms as he embraces me, and I cannot move.

I had no reason to refuse or resist, so I was a little surprised, but I put my hand on his back to accept it.

His body is hard and firm. The arms around my back didn’t go so far as to embrace me, but rather to cling to me.

Through the gap between my lips, I could feel a large, voluminous tongue slipping into my mouth.

It would not fit inside me unless I opened my mouth hard, and I could feel the physiological tears seeping out of my eyes at the pressure that seemed to reach my throat as it was pushed in gingerly..

His lips cover my mouth entirely.

‘Mmm, oooh…’

Muffled breaths, sweet moans and the sound of muffled water echoed in the silent forest. I writhe in agony.

I pulled away for a moment to catch my breath, but then our lips met again, as if we couldn’t miss each other.

At some point, he  held me up on my knees. He was hugging me so tightly that I couldn’t even move.

“Oh, mmm… mmm…”

My head is foggy from lack of oxygen.

After a long kiss, as if I am being eaten, my lips are gently sucked several times.

Eyes with a ferocious glint in them are watching me closely.

Since I could not breathe properly and my body was not strong enough, I lay limp for a while in Master Gilbert’s embrace.

The kisses were intense and deep and lustful, completely different from those of yesterday. For me, it was a proper first time.

It was something I had not experienced before either.

Rafael-sama was gentle and I was moderate, so we only held hands but nothing more. I had thought that this kind of thing would only happen after our marriage.

Now I have already given everything to Gilbert-sama. Besides, according to Astaroth, only after I give birth to Gilbert-sama’s child will he be qualified to be king, so I guess there is no particular marriage ceremony, and I have no problem with how much he touches me.

I understand that Gilbert-sama wants to take out his pent up desires on me, but I think he may be being a little too aggressive.

Isn’t the first kiss you exchange in a mysterious forest usually more innocent?　I wonder if it is difficult for a person who has been celibate for a long time to experience the sweet and sour phases of love, I am not sure. All I know is that Gilbert-sama loves me after all.

I felt restless and fluffy, so I leaned against Gilbert’s chest. A splendid collarbone can be seen through the gap in the loosely open collar.

“…Lydith, you used to make fun of me, but you’re just like me, aren’t you?”

“…What are you talking about?”

‘”Or did you have a man in your country whom you loved? Who touched you?”

I tilted my head and heard the annoyance in Gilbert-sama’s voice.

“I swear to you, my body is pure. I’m learning about such things, but it’s only classroom teachings, because … noble daughters are decent for the family reputation. I can understand your apprehension in front of a pretty girl like me, but it really was my very first time…”

Being devoured so violently and being suspected at the same time, even I can’t stand it.

I thought I had to explain it properly, so I looked up at Gilbert-sama.

I can clearly see the flicker of desire from Gilbert-sama’s gaze as he looks down at me.

He has been making his pure body sultry for a long time that once his hoop comes off, he never knows when to stop.

I am so lovely that I could be mistaken for a pure and innocent forest fairy, with my cheeks uplifted and my eyes moist with tears, that even reason should easily collapse like a house on the sand.

As for me, I am ready to give everything to Gilbert-sama whenever he wants it.

However, on that memorable occasion when Gilbert-sama discards the pure body he has cherished for 200 years, I would like to have a romantic setting instead of outdoors like this if only for a moment.

I am a beautiful and considerate girl, so I want to be particular about what I wear and what underwear I wear.

I heard that there is a certain kind of clothing that can end a virgin’s virginity, and I would like to try it on Gilbert-sama, who continues to value chastity so much that it is incomparable to people around here. Just a little curiosity..

“It was so… intense, even though it was my first time, but please be a little more gentle next time.”

I think mutual understanding is the key to this kind of thing.

I know how it feels to have his reasoning melt away in front of me, but I don’t want to be attacked like an animal every time I’m at work, and I don’t like to be rough with him as he appears to be rough.

The beginning is the key. I have to discipline him properly right from the beginning.

“…Really, you don’t have a lover in your country?”

“I don’t have one. You seem to be very concerned about it.”

“At first, I thought you were expelled from the country simply because of your personality.”

“…Gilbert-sama, while you love me this much, could you please say something loving to me?”

Every time Rafael met me, he would smile gently and say, “Cute Lydith,” “My Lydith,” and “I love you,” as if it were a daily greeting, but Gilbert-sama may not good at expressing himself in words.

I know that Gilbert-sama has missed me from the first moment he saw me, and now that he is holding me in his arms, his hateful words have no power of persuasion.

I’m just one step away.

“You’re the one who’s making me do it!”

“Gilbert-sama, you’re terrible…!”

I suddenly had a flash of inspiration.

Now is the time to show my strength like Cynthia, as Cami-sama had said.

I can’t be like Cynthia, but it would be wise to take a cue from her good points.

Here and now, I will shake and tremble like a jimmy snail.

Now Gilbert-sama must be as happy as a bug falling into a bug’s hole.

“….Stop it, Lydith. I’m talking to you, who is rude and arrogant. You don’t have to pretend to be some stupid woman.”

“What…?”

“That’s not you, right? You’re the one who thinks that if you say that in your gut, most men will melt.”

I know exactly what he is talking about.

I just behaved like Cynthia after all. It seems that I am still lacking in that skill.

But still, Gilbert-sama is more observant than I expected. I was surprised

“But even I have my ideal first.”

“Ideal, huh?”

“Yes, like this.”

I put my hand on Gilbert-sama cheek.

He looked at me suspiciously and I pulled him closer to me, giving him a soft kiss.

Gilbert-sama’s eyes widened as if he was stunned.

I smiled wistfully and whispered in a small voice.

“…I love you. Please don’t let this be the last time.”

Gilbert-sama turned his head over, rubbing his forehead against my shoulder, and let out a groan, though I couldn’t quite make it out.

If you think that someone who has been pure for 200 years can beat me, you are mistaken.

In other words, I don’t need to be Cynthia-san.

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