CHAPTER 95 ā CHATTING WITH THE PAST AND- (PART 2)
That after-party betrayed expectations and gave birth to some dark histories. Still, I donāt think anyone regretted going. Itās just that everyone either enjoyed or had bitter memories. Nagatsuki might have regretted it a bit, actually.
āIt sounds like you didnāt have a boring time, Koto-chan.ā
āIn my free time, I mostly do my household chores, go work my part-time shift, or just study. As a student, itās better to move around if you have free time.ā
āI think I heard one unstudent-like thing in the mix.ā
Ran retorted, but itās nothing. Iām doing practically the same as I did before, so it canāt be helped. And then Isami and the other three would appear and make a ruckus everyday. It takes me back. For some reason I remember mostly suffering, but once things have passed, they become good memories.
āIām not dissatisfied with my current life. Iāve experienced a lot of hardships after becoming a girl, though.ā
āPersonally, it feels really weird to think about. Iām interacting like I do with Souji, but your appearance is so different that itās perplexing.ā
It doesnāt really seem that way, though. While they occasionally show signs of confusion, itās barely observable enough to count for me. Rather, Iām more surprised that theyāve adapted this much. After all, they believe that a dead person is still alive but as the opposite sex.
āIt doesnāt look like it to me, though.ā
āLike an actress would let her emotions be read so easily. The same goes for Ran.ā
āIf the manager shows any weaknesses, thereās no telling what kind of demands people would try to pass. The industry is pretty dark, you know.ā
Each profession has their own circumstances. Though I wouldnāt know it all since I mostly did office work. Itās common to wear masks when interacting with people. Occasionally you might let your true emotions slip out. In general, itās frustrating when you fail.
āStill, for that Souji to have been reborn into such a beauty, itās a real shocker. I was also shocked when we made you wear girlsā clothes, but this time itās for real.ā
āYou mean that time when all the girls toyed with me? That was a real dark history for me, so please donāt remind me about it.ā
It was for a school festival event, I think. Each class would pick a boy to make pretty and have them compete. For some reason, they chose me. Personally I think we shouldāve gone with the funny choice of picking a beefy guy, but we were blinded by the prize.
āWell, arenāt you making good use of that experience?ā
āLike hell I am. As for how to live as a girl, Iām referencing the previous Kotone.ā
Itās only possible because I share her memories. If I had no memories at all, it could have been disastrous. Not knowing how to even wear underwear would be terrible. Itās only those kinds of things Iām referencing and none of her ways of socialising.
āI never would have imagined how tough it is to live as a girl.ā
āOnly someone whoās experienced life as both a man and a woman can say that. If I became a man, Iād probably think the same.ā
I imagine a random person suddenly having changed sex. I likely wouldnāt have had so much trouble if I was the same sex. Since Iāll just have to live like before. However, if I think about the next generation, another problem appears. Even if my family picks a partner for me, itās just a bother on my end.
āKoto-chan, do you have a fiance? If you do, could you introduce him to us?ā
āYouāre definitely going to sabotage it. Unfortunately, I donāt have anyone of that sort. Besides, thereās no one Iām romantically attracted to.ā
āWith your consciousness as a male still remaining, thatās only natural. Isnāt that such a relief, Ayaka?ā
āIāll put my trust in those words. And Koto-chan, time for a change of clothes.ā
Why? Do you hate the jersey that much? Ayaka is creeping forward with the roomās complementary yukata in one hand and itās scary. I turn to Ran to ask for help, but sheās just indifferently sipping her tea. This isnāt good.
āRan, could you save me?ā
āI want to see it as well, so be a fine sacrifice.ā
I got sold out. In that case, then any resistance would just be useless. I learned that from experience back at high school. Still, Even if I say that Iāll just change by myself, they never listen. They say that thereās some sort of romance in forcefully stripping people. The thoughts of the sacrifice are of no importance.
āJust do what you want.ā
āWhen youāre not resisting, itās not really interesting. You were always like this even before.ā
āIf nothing I do can change things, then Iām not wasting my energy. Actually, if you think so, then stop it. Iāll obediently change.ā
Compared to being forced to wear it, doing it myself is infinitely better. And although I said that, in the end Ayaka is changing me out of my clothes. Moreover, Ran is helping out. Why? They work together for these kinds of stuff, I guess theyāve got a good compatibility.
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āIāve been thinking about it, but your appearance doesnāt really match your age. No matter how you cut it, you really donāt look like a high-schooler.ā
āI know that. Iām well beyond twenty on the inside, after all. Thanks to that, people I meet for the first time think Iām a college student.ā
āIf you were in casual clothes, we wouldāve thought the same. Perhaps whatās inside is affecting your outward appearance.ā
Thatās a decent thought. And so Iāve finished changing, but itās really embarrassing. When I was a boy, I enjoyed the liberating feeling but as a girl now, I hate how exposed I feel. Mostly at the breasts and thighs.
āAs I thought, youāre oozing with sexiness. Thisāll make the boys happy.ā
āDonāt tell me youāre going to take a picture of me and upload it?ā
āI wonāt upload it in my blog. Iām sending it to the den, though.ā
Them, huh. The den, the rogueās den, is the name of the group exclusive to our classmates. From how thereās always someone replying in the chat, I guess everyoneās still friends. Iāve chatted there too, but right now Iām avoiding even peeking. After all, itād be weird for the current me to join in.
āIsami would likely go wild.ā
āHer reaction is the easiest to read. She might even come charging into this place.ā
āWonāt I be the one most affected by that? I always have to lower my head because of you two.ā
In exchange, Ran snapping is the scariest. Compared to her, me getting ticked off is still cute. Though according to the people who have seen me getting seriously angry, Iām the scariest one. In that regard, I canāt deny it.
āWell then, letās line up side by side, the three of us. Naturally, with Koto-chan in the middle.ā
āItās definitely because you think my reaction would be interesting.ā
Iām between two girls. Moreover, these two have grown a lot more attractive since high school, not feeling conscious would be impossible. You might think that itās fine since weāre the same sex, but I still have some male consciousness inside. Still, I guess itās better than being sandwiched between men. Kotone would likely feel instinctual rejection.
āYup, I got a perfect shot. Koto-chanās expression is as anticipated, adorably blushing red with embarrassment.ā
āThatāll be to commemorate this field trip. This definitely was an unexpected harvest, but in a sense, itās the best thing to ever happen.ā
āFor me, Iām tired of the consecutive surprises. So, will you let me go after uploading that?ā
āIād like you to stay for a bit longer. Arenāt you also curious about everyoneās reaction?ā
Well, of course Iām curious. Those fools either react the way you expect them or in a way you canāt imagine. My emotions are split between excitement and worry. Iām sure Ayaka didnāt expose that itās me. Since if she did, things would go out of control.
āImmediately, a message arrived. Is it from Isami?ā
āToo bad, itās from a friend of mine. Kaori, huh. Did something happen?ā
Thereās still some time before lights out. So it shouldnāt be about that. Rather, she might have messaged me because she found out that Iām not in my room. Those two should be the only ones that know that Iām with Ayaka and Ran. I donāt know what my classmates think, though.
{Who are you really?}
A completely unexpected message hit me. Thanks to that, my head was absolutely blanked out.