It was when I was around the age of nine that I started to realize I was living my second life and it would eventually begin to go downhill, and that I was in a position of great danger.
At that time, I understood that I had been reincarnated and the memories of my previous life were gradually coming back to me.
So without knowing the full plot of the âoriginal storyâ, I was living quite happily and ignorantly.
Until I met âhimâ, the person who would trigger everything.
âNo way. Thatâs a lie. This canât be true.â
My knees gave up, I slid down to the floor with a thud and burst into tears. Both my father and the young duke were so taken aback that they didnât know what to do. Even with their futile attempts to pacify me, I just wouldnât stop crying.
âWho wouldnât in my situation, I was destined to be executed and killed at the age of twenty!â
And now, I only have 10 years left to live! It was so unfair. So far, Iâve never done anything bad or cruel, I was planning on being a good-hearted person in the future too, like Iâve always been.
âLaure. Stop crying. Hmn? Dad already made up his mind about this engagement. Donât cry.â
âHicâŠâ
While I was eating the chocolate cake that my dad gave me to soothe my crying, I made a promise that dayâŠ
In order to survive, I will never, ever associate myself with the âmale leadâ.
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However, life never goes the way you want it to.
âHaaahâŠâ
I sighed. In the mirror set in front of me was a cute-looking woman, wearing a white dress with long pink hair and her eyes were filled with melancholy.
Laure Ecree.
The youngest daughter of Marquis Ecree. It was me.
11 years have passed since I first met the male lead.
There was no one who made eye contact with him for more than three seconds that did not fall in love with him, and there was no one who could ever resist him once they heard his sultry, low voice.
He was a very handsome and capable man. And with the Dukeâs family name, he could possess everything he wanted. He is someone without any shortcomings.
But even to a seemingly-perfect person like him, there was one thing that proved he was also human, and that was trauma, he got it after his family died in an accident when he was seventeen.
The Grand Duke of Rochester, Calix, used to have nightmares during those times. The horrible sight of his family members dying before him made the simple action of closing his eyes burdensome.
The young man, who was left alone after losing his family, lived in great solitude and remained very lonely in his vast castle for quite a period of time. It was me who stood by his side during those sad and empty times, Laure Ecree.
As his fiancee, I visited Rochester Castle almost every day, and in the summer I spent my vacations there.
At first glance, Calix seemed unapproachable, but in fact he was actually a fairly friendly person.
Even though I hadnât yet invested some feelings, while taking care of him during those times, I slowly grew to like him.
Despite the fact that I strived to never like him, my heart was naturally drawn and I couldnât do anything.
Eventually, I fell in love with him, and managed to survive to this point in time.
I still had a chance.
âShould I just run away now?â
I muttered, and with impeccable timing, Calix appeared.
âWhat does that mean?â
He walked out of the bathroom and was only wearing a blue gown. Through the loosely tied front, a hard-chested torso could be seen slightly.
âLaure.â
He approached me slowly as he called my name.
âPerhaps you donât really like this.â
He said with uncertainty.
âT-Thatâs not it!â
âDamn, I answered reflexively without realizing it. This was a great opportunity to refuse.â
âIf you donât dislike this⊠then, are you nervous?â
Calix brushed his hair backwards gently and asked. I nodded, trying to calm my pounding heart. Y-Yeah. Letâs say it like that. Though there are other reasons that can explain my anxious behavior.
âIâm nervous too, Laure.â
And then Calix laughed softly, his laugh was as sweet as cotton candy. Ugh, this is foul play! You shouldnât be this handsome. No matter how much of a male lead you are!
I wholeheartedly resented the writer even though I personally didnât know who they were. Itâs all that writerâs fault that I fell in love with Calix. If only even 0.1% of Calix was not likable, if only even 0.1% of Calix was not my typeâŠ
But whatâs the point of thinking about this now? Thereâs no use crying over spilled milk.
âLaure.â
âY-YesâŠâ
Hearing the sweet voice of Calix, I answered a little feebly.
Calix stared at me with his beautiful but sad sapphire eyes. He looked just like a haplessly rain-soaked puppy.
âUgh, itâs not good for the heart. If you look at me like this, Iâll have no choice but to give you everything you ask.â
To be honest, when the heroine of the novel âSiaâ appears in the future, I was planning on quietly giving the seat next to Calix rightfully to her.
According to the original story, Laure Ecree, who was wrapped up in jealousy, committed all kinds of evil acts, threatened Siaâs life, and ended up being executed.
I didnât want to die like that. I canât the blessing of my second life go down the drain just like that.
Though my feelings for Calix were sincere, they werenât in a deep enough stage that would make it unbearably impossible for us to break up. Fortunately.
If I had loved Calix enough to sacrifice my body and soul for him, like the original Laure, I would definitely suffer.
So, Mr. Male Lead, this beautiful night shall only be left as a pleasant memory.
I smiled softly at Calix.
âCalix, Iâm fine. Iâm just a little nervous. Y-You know⊠itâs my first timeâŠâ
âAh, how embarrassing.â
Looking at my cute blushing face, Calix laughed.
âIâll be gentle. Laure. I wonât let you get hurt.â
âI, I believe youâŠâ
My voice turned into a hushed whisper towards the end and I could feel the nape of my neck burn. Calixâs hand touched my cheek. I thought his hand would be cold to the touch, but instead his hand felt very, very warm. Thanks to this, my heart pounded even more.
âI like you, Laure.â
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âI like you too, Calix.â
âI know that your heart will change once âSiaâ appears.â
However, for the time being Iâm grateful that your heart is mine.
Suddenly, tears welled up in my eyes for no reason. I smiled broadly, wiping the water from the corners of my eyes as Calix held me tight.