Chapter 30

“Fania, may I have some of your time?”

I entered Fania’s room. Fania was reading a book on the sofa; when he saw me, his eyes widened in surprise. It was no wonder he would be that surprised. It had been quite long since I last visited Fania’s room.

Once school started, I became extremely busy. The official duties that I had been handling prior to my enrolment in the academy didn’t lessen, and I still had to continue doing them. Everyday after I returned home from the academy, I was swamped with work until late night.

That shitty father of mine, he keeps giving more duties with me as the focus. Is this out of spite? Or is he bullying me? I even felt like giving him a non-lethal poison for once.

Just when Fania and I finally had our feelings requited, I didn’t even have a chance to flirt with him. Let alone that, I was no longer able to take care of Fania even a little. I couldn’t hug Fania. We hadn’t been kissing lately. I didn’t get to hail my love towards Fania.

Aaaah, I want to embrace Fania so much.

On top of that, we were in separate classes in the academy, I could only touch Fania during the brief recess. This Fania-deficiency was driving me crazy.

I really worked hard; these three days, I had been handling all duties in advance without sleep. All for the sake of meeting Fania.

There was something that I really needed to ask Fania by meeting him directly no matter what.

“Al~ Today you come to meet me.” Fania dashed closer like he would hug me right away after I entered the room. He didn’t hug me however.

“Yeah, today I can spend time leisurely with Fania.” When I said that, his face broke into a smile.

So cute. I’d pin him down right away ……That ran through my mind but I would keep it as a mere thought.

Once I sat, I patted on my thighs. It meant ‘come here sit on lap’.

Fania blushed and then complained, “I won’t let you carry me on your lap,” and so on, but he still came to sit by my side. I thoughtlessly chuckled and scooped him up to let him sit on my lap with our bodies facing each other.

“Uwah, Al!” My sudden move startled Fania, but I only hugged him tighter.

“I’m about to go crazy because I’m so Fania-deficient.” My straight confession instantly stopped Fania’s struggles. And then, he pressed his face on my chest.

“……..Um, me too.” A faint voice could be heard.

Fania is also saying that he is lonely that he couldn’t meet me, I am so happy.

I gently lifted Fania’s face, and kissed his lips. At first, it was only a light touch, and I immediately released his lips. Fania made a lonely face, like he wanted more as he glanced upwards at me, which nearly made me lose my control. I licked Fania’s lips, pried them open and then slithered my tongue inside. This time, we had a deep kiss.

“Mn, mmnhh” I even felt that his moans were too precious to be wasted.

I nibbled and played with his lips like I wanted to snatch everything until I was satisfied. Letting go of his lips, a streak of silver liquid thread formed, while Fania was wholly enraptured with his moist eyes.

If it is now, would he tell me the truth? Am I a coward to ask him at this moment? Even then, my cowardly heart feared the possibility of Fania actually dumping me away in laughter.

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But there was something I wanted to ask Fania, something I had to ask, “Urm, Fania, regarding your classmate Sara, what is her to you?”

Depending on Fania’s answers, I might turn into another person…..

After enrolling in the academy, Fania immediately became close to Sara. And that went to an extent where he held the other’s hands to leave the classroom and skipped a class together. Just what did they do…..?

Afterwards, they were always together. During recess, he would come to the restaurant to have lunch, but other than that time, I heard that he spent time mostly with Sara.

Among the students in Class 3 where Fania was at, I planted some people to keep an eye..ehem, guard Fania. This was purely for protection purposes. This was absolutely not a means to prevent Fania from cheating. I was beside myself when I received reports from these people. Among these, there were incomprehensible reports like ‘Thank God! We’re so blessed with an absolute feast for the eyes!’ or ‘Two bisque dolls1, too precious’.

This made me want to instantly rush to Class 3 where Fania was at, then declare ‘Fania is mine’ to everyone there, and remove anyone who dared to come close to Fania. Class 3 was a class where lower nobilities were mixed with commoners. If I, a royalty ever came here, it would stir a panic. I was stopped by my close aides, so I couldn’t even step foot there.

I would never doubt it when he told me that he loved me. Even then, Fania was a guy, so obviously he would prefer to embrace someone rather than to be embraced.

“Sara? She’s a nice girl. A bit wild though. Oh, so you know about Sara.” Fania asked me back in bafflement.

“Do you like Sara?”

“Yeah.” Hearing Fania’s instant answer without any hesitation, I knew my heart darkened. A helpless feeling whirled inside me as I faced Fania who smilingly answered while on my lap.

Now I can’t let Fania go to the academy anymore. Before entering the academy, Fania had told me how he dreaded going there. Just why didn’t I fulfil his wish then? No matter how they said this is a compulsory education for noble children, I could’ve done something. Remembering myself at the time, how revolting.

Should I just embrace him until he collapses, and never let him out of the room ever again? We’re engaged, so it should be okay? My darkened eyes gazed at Fania.

“Ufufufu. Actually this is personal information, so I shouldn’t leak this, but Al is special, so I’ll tell you. But you definitely cannot tell this to anyone else.” Fania who was oblivious to my dark heart, put a finger in my lips like he was being mischievous about it.

“Sara, you see, actually likes Zernite. From what I could see, I think Zernite also is not entirely averse to it. He even even went out of his way to say that Sara is cuter than me. Really, everyone knows that, he didn’t need to say it.” I froze listening to Fania’s words.

“No…… Fania is way cuter.”

“Eh, that? That’s where you’re pointing out? Al, you haven’t seen Sara yet, so that’s why you can say that. Sara is just super-duper cute, you know. But wait, not that, we’re talking about Zernite here. Spring is coming for Zernite, I’m telling you. What a thing to look forward to.” Fania giggled.

“Fania, are you okay with that?”

“With what?”

“You like Sara, don’t you?”

“What are you talking about ‘like’?” Hearing what I said, Fania on my lap was noticeably in a huff. His cheeks were bulged like a squirrel. So cute.

“Th-the one I li-like in that way, is only Al. Al, how can you say that!”

“Fania!!”

He hit my chest like a drum, and I hugged that slender body of his. All the dark emotions that deposited inside my heart like dregs, they dissipated away.

It was already evening. Fania finished his bath and all that was left to do was sleep, so he was clothed in pyjamas. Softly I slipped my hand from below the hem of his top.

“Ah…” As my hand moved, Fania squirmed his body, but he didn’t seem to dread it. Far from that, he even clung on me.

Fania was leaning on me, so from one hand, I used both hands. I touched Fania even bolder. From his abdomen, to his back, and then when my fingers reached the bumps on his chest, Fania’s top was unbuttoned, unveiling his white skin to my eyes.

My lips travelled all over him. From the nape of his neck to his clavicles. And also the bumps on his chest.

“Ah, Al. Al~” Fania trembled, and he gripped tighter as he clutched on me.

“I won’t give you away. Not to anyone. You’re my belonging.”

When we were small, I was scolded by Fania for saying the same thing. He told me not to treat people as objects. Regardless of how many times Fania would scold, Fania was still my belonging. I would not give him to anyone else.

“Fufufu, when we were little, I was told that by Al. I got mad back then though. But, please let me say it as well. Al is my belonging. I won’t hand you to anyone.” He chuckled as he said that, yet the hand that clung to me was trembling, and his eyes were glistening with utter solemnity.

So tantalizing.

I removed all pieces of clothing on Fania.

“Yo-you can’t, Al.” Fania showed a resistance for the first time. As I leaned my lips close, he extended the hand on my shoulder.

“You don’t like it?” I asked, and he shook his head with his still blushing face, then said with a faint voice, “This is the sofa.”

Something was about to explode inside so I desperately reined it in; I then stood up while still carrying Fania.

Briskly, I walked towards the sleeping chamber. While my self-control was still intact.