Chapter 2

When I was finally freed from my high fever, I remembered my past life.

I was a Japanese university student. I can remember attending school just fine so I don’t think I died from an illness. My memories go up to my second year so I must have died from an accident around that time.

There are parts of my past life that I remember vividly and others are foggy. I can’t even remember my last moments in the slightest.

However, the moment 20 years of my past life memories came back to me, I ate Fania’s soul. No, that’s not quite it. It would be more appropriate to say that I took over Fania’s self.

Fania’s seven years of memories are still inside of me. I also think of myself as Fania. It’s just, while I am Fania, inside me, there is also my Japanese past self. It feels as if Fania has become one with me.

There is also another big thing I remembered. That is, this world is inside the world of a BL game I knew in my previous life!

How is that even possible? I can’t even fully believe it myself. But even so, there are too many similarities with that BL game.

But why did my past self even know about BL games? Was I gay? A fudanshi? I can’t remember that either. Nonetheless, I can clearly remember the contents of that BL game.

“Dyed in your colors, you clad in mine”. I’m positive that was that game’s sappy title. The story had a cliché setting where a commoner enters a school for nobles. Yes, you guessed right, that’s our MC. The game’s default name for him is Louie Isis. He has azure hair coupled with green eyes. Although Louie isn’t drop-dead gorgeous, he has a delicate frame and an aura of frailty while also having a cheerful and positive personality. All the noble capture targets can’t help but be drawn to him.

The game events take place in a one-year timespan, you have to clear several events and reach the ending where Louie chooses his loved one.

The cliché of clichés.

The villain of that copy-paste setting is Fania. Me. Yes, I’ve reincarnated as the villain.

Fania is Prince Alfred’s fiancé. He was extremely jealous of Louie becoming romantically involved with Alfred. Gradually, that jealousy turns into hatred and using the power of his ducal family he constantly harassed Louie.

And so, his conviction near the end is set in stone. When it is revealed that he tried to kill Louie, Alfred and the other capture targets interrogate him about his crimes and arrest Fania. The duke immediately disinherits Fania and he is sent to a labor camp in the north.

That’s the extent of the villain’s, Fania, role. From thereafter there is not a word about what happened to him. Only a happy ending showcasing Louie and his captured target drowning in happiness.

I highly doubt Fania, the child of a high ranking aristocrat, could live safely in that labor camp.

It’s a BL game after all, so there’s a chance the small Fania was made the other prisoner’s plaything or exhausted his body to death from working in an unfamiliar environment.

No fricking way I’m letting that happen to me!

I began to curse on top of the bed.

I mean, how was Fania at fault?

Is it because he harassed Louie?

Don’t joke with me!

What about the prince who, while having a fiancé, got head over heels with another dude? What about Louie who pursued a prince, fully aware of the fact that he had a fiancé?

Would you say they’re not at fault?

What’s wrong with Fania giving a piece of advice to two morons with no sense of shame?

And don’t even get me started about the bystanders. I don’t know if they were scared of this country’s second prince status but everyone just went along with the prince and his gang. Not even one of them objected.

Even Fania’s father, Duke Arginia, disinherited him without a second thought. Whether he did it to protect his house or himself, that I don’t know.

Fania had no one on his side. He just allowed himself to be sent to the labor camp without complaining or putting a struggle.

On top of the bed, I clench my hands tight into a fist.

If this world were to follow the story of that game…

However, there are contradictions in the game’s story. Even if this world is the world of a BL game there are still girls. And it’s not like there are few of them, girls are also the ones giving birth. Even if I’m a duke’s heir, it’s weird for me to be engaged to royalty, not only that but to someone first in line of succession. Does that mean this country acknowledges relationships between people of the same gender?

I’m currently seven years old and I have not gotten engaged to Alfred yet nor do I want to become engaged to him. But, will a time come when we have to become engaged? Even if we do, I have no intention to live the same way as in the game.

If I hadn’t remembered my past life, I would’ve probably remained the same shy Fania that never says no and led a life according to the game. A life that awaits a cruel future.

But I remembered my past life. That can be a blessing in disguise. From now own I have no intention to abide by anyone, no matter what I’m told, or whatever someone forces me to do, I will live my life the way I want to. I’m not scared to be yelled at or punched.

After all, nothing is as scary as the game’s ending.