CH 34

The Crown Princess was already announced as Cecil and now they’re preparing for the marriage.

At that time, news came to me like bolt out of the blue.

The news that Cecil’s father died came to me.

At the same time as I was sad about the death of my friend’s father, I felt anxious that the original story was coming back.

Rather than worrying about my future, worrying about my friend came first.

After changing clothes, I headed with my brother to the place where Cecil’s father’s funeral took place.

My brother put a white flower in front of the portrait.

After the offering, my brother headed to Marquess Chloe and I headed to Cecil.

“Cecil… I’m here.”

Before marrying my brother, the female lead’s father died like the original.

I didn’t hear the reason, but according to the original, Cecil’s father was murdered.

They didn’t know who killed him.

The criminal who murdered the female lead’s father did not appear until the novel was completed.

“Ah… Yulia.”

But in the end, the story went as it was.

Just because the female lead and my brother are getting married, did you think that once Chester whispered that he loved me, the original won’t go as planned?

I’m foolish too.

I was fooled by my determination to escape from the original story.

This time, it made me face the fact that our  fate did not change. That fate never changes.

“It’s okay Cecil. You can cry out loud.”

“Yulia…:

“Yes, you’re very sad, right?”

I came to pay my respects, but I couldn’t stay for a long time because of my status. Above all, many mourners gathered besides me, and my brother came with me.

When I looked around, there was also Chester.

There’s no way he won’t come because he’s in the same faction as them.

This is how the villain became obsessed with the female lead.

At the news of the female lead’s father’s death, he came to the funeral to meet the female lead.

And after the funeral, he showed symptoms of obsession with her.

“Sniff…”

When I saw Cecil crying in person, the sadness was transmitted to me.

Cecil was crying so sadly that even I wanted to cry.

After Cecil cried out, she gradually regained his composure.

Yes. She can cry in my arms. I know the pain of losing someone precious. I remembered the past when I wanted to cry in someone’s arms, but I couldn’t.

“Yulia, you should go back now.”

“It’s fine, we’re friends. I can give you my dress.”

“Yulia…!”

I understand why the female lead becomes the female lead.

Because even just her crying like this made me want to hug her.

She was a person who could brought out sympathy from people.

“Cecil… You still have an older brother. You’re not alone”

“……”

Yes, Cecil still has a family left. It wasn’t very important, but Cecil had an older brother.

I thought by saying that, it could at least made her slightly relieved.

“…Yulia, thank you for coming. Truly.”

“I’ll come again tomorrow.”

Cecil nodded instead of answering.

That alone was enough of an answer.

When I came out, the wind blew and my hair fluttered.

When I roughly organized my hair and turned my head, I saw Chester.

When I saw him, I couldn’t breathe.

There were so many things I wanted to ask, but I just shut up and avoided him.

If I wait in the carriage first anyway, he will come as soon as possible.

“Yulia.”

“………What?”

I was just going to pass by, but Chester blocked me.

“If you have nothing to say, get out of my way.”

“Are you angry with me?”

“…I’m not.”

“Yulia, then why are you avoiding me?”

“Move…!”

That’s right. I didn’t want to see him obsessed with the female lead.

Until yesterday, I didn’t want to hear that the person who told me that he loved me was interested in the female lead.

“Did I do anything wrong, Yulia…?”

No.

“I’ll go with my brother and get going.”

I tried to avoid him, but he blocked me again with his body.

“Did I do something wrong today? Tell me and I’ll fix it.”

“There’s nothing to fix. So get out of the way.”

“Yulia.”

“I just want to go back. So you don’t have to care.”

Even if you’re interested in the female lead, I don’t have the authority to interfere, but if you’re obsessed with the female lead, that’s fate, and the story of the original is just the process of finding its place.

Why does my heart hurt? Why do I feel the throbbing pain?

If it goes according to the original, my heart will be aching because me and my family will die.

“Yulia. Did I make you nervous?”

“No.”

“I made you nervous. It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have made you nervous in the first place.”

Chester carefully touched my cheek and slowly swept under my eyes with his thumb.

“…What are you doing?”

“Your eyes are red. I don’t want you to cry for any reason.”

“I just… because my friend cries…”

She overlapped with my appearance left alone at my mother’s funeral.

It’s similar to how I cried alone in a corner where I couldn’t even cry out loud because I was afraid my family would be worried.

She looked lonely when she couldn’t cry.

I was lonely too.

I didn’t even want someone to hug me. I just wanted someone to be next to me. And losing your family is a sadness that you can’t adapt to even if it’s repeated.

“More than anything else, the appearance of her crying looked lonely.”

“Yulia, I won’t leave you lonely.”

He hugged me carefully. When I was held in his arms, his warm body temperature was conveyed to me.

“I won’t make you sad.”

“……Chester.”

“Because you look the best when you smile. I hope you always smile.”

As soon as I heard that, the anxiety inside me became dust and scattered.

How did I think that the person who said this didn’t love me?

Perhaps I was unconsciously influenced by the dream. Dream was just a dream, but it was because I couldn’t accept it as a dream.

There’s a person who loves me like this next to me. Above all, he is the first person to convince me again that unconditional love can exist since my mother passed away.

If it went according to the original, Chester should be next to the female lead, Cecil, not hugging me now.

He must have gone to comfort Cecil, who was in sorrow, and said he understood the pain.

However, the current situation was different from the original.

As the original, Cecil’s father passed away, but unlike the original, Chester was next to me

“…Chester, do you want me to smile?”

“I don’t want you to suffer from being sad and having your eyes red like now.”

I hugged Chester back.

I hugged him tightly, not particularly embarrassed.

His patting on my back was very nice too.

I buried my face in his chest.

“I don’t want to lose my family.”

“Yes.”

“Chester…I want to be loved.”

“Your family and I love you too.”

“……You must never betray me. When you say you love me it shouldn’t be a lie.”

Can I dismiss the original story now?

Can’t I just believe that Chester’s behavior of not showing interest in the female lead has changed the ending of the imperial family?

In this life, if I could protect my precious people, even if I were sacrificed I would do it.

“That can’t be a lie, Yulia,”

My heart pounded.

His gentle petting of my head was sweet.

I didn’t want to miss this warmth.

However, why does the dream keep bothering me?

Dreams that continue to make me anxious and the current situations that take place because I can’t completely escape the original story.

“Chester, don’t betray me.”

I dug into his arms. I put my ear to the part where his heart was.

I think I can find peace of mind by listening to Chester’s heart.

I focused my mind on the sound of his heart.

The sound of his heart was beating fast.

I don’t know if it’s because of me or not.

I didn’t know, but I decided to believe that he loved me.

I want to believe that this fast heartbeat is your heart for me, Chester.

“Don’t leave me.”

“I won’t. Even if you leave, I’ll be by your side.”

What do I feel right now? I don’t know myself either.