When she asked me if I wanted to commit suicide, I was silent for a moment.
After arranging my thoughts, I replied.
Although the sound itself caused the space to vibrate, I can feel that she was laughing.
[Interesting. Donāt you think you look too miserable and shabby in front of me?]
[Even so, you still donāt want to die?]
āMust it be now? Doesnāt everyone usually die eventually?ā
[Yes, thatās usually the case. In my presence, most people will go mad or become disgusted with themselves. If neither is true, they will abandon themselves and dedicate their lives to me in awe. Those who claim to be gods are no exception.]
After listening to the God of Slow, I wanted to ask questions, but God didnāt give me the chance to speak and continued.
[I still remember when you were anxious to die. How interesting. Motivation is a very important thing if one wants to survive, whether itās for immortality or the ultimate death. But Iāve never seen a being such as you, regarding your survival motivation so highly. Can moths that burn themselves to become sparks of fire really keep themselves in front of me?]
[Human beings need those reasons to survive. Is your life your own or just a means to achieve your goals? Donāt you think itās strange? Donāt you think the purpose and the means are reversed?]
I donāt know why. I want to answer her immediately.
But I restrained myself and sorted out my thoughts.
This is Godās question.
So even if I couldnāt give a perfect answer, at least I need to answer her discreetly.
I suddenly felt that I have heard those same words before.
Not long ago, but I remember when I heard this sentence.
It wasnāt a question then, but a warning.
āDonāt confuse ends and means.ā
It was the warning she gave me when she saw me practice the Poison Energy Skill for my growth regardless of danger.
Seeing me like that, Kiri Kiri had advised many times that I was too obsessed with my growth that shouldāve been just a means.
I needed to clarify my goal for my growth.
Although Kiri Kiriās theme is different from that of the God of Slow, when I think about it carefully, they are similar.
[Nothing is different. If you donāt want to be brandish as someone elseās sword, you canāt be manipulated by your own sword first. ]
[Well, if you know, Then there is no need to answer again because nothing is fixed at the beginning. Our role is to warn you not to trip over yourself. Thatās enough. ]
The God of Slow concluded the conversation by reading my thoughts without giving me the chance to answer.
Unconsciously, my taut body relaxed and my tension eased.
[Tutorial, the 40th floor of the hell difficulty cleared.]
[All abnormal phenomenons and injuries were recovered.]
[9000 points for clearance award obtained.]
[9000 points for first clearance award obtained.]
[There is a God who is optimistic about you. 1000 points obtained.]
[The God of Slow is watching you.]
[The God of Slow wants to give additional rewards. Will you accept them?]
I was a little alarmed at the sudden news of clearance.
Itās totally unexpected that clearance will be successful at this point.
Although it was whimsical, I responded to the message asking if I would accept the additional award.
Just then, instead of the next message, the God of Slow appears and asks me.
[What kind of reward do you want? You have accumulated a lot of contribution points in this stage. Iāll give you what you want within the limit.]
The answer has been clear for the God of Slowās question.
There is only one thing I want from God.
āI want information.ā
The first thing I want to know is all about God.
But I have cleared only one stage and there is no way to get such high-level information.
So I decided to get some information that could be the clue.
āIs this one of your many appearances?ā
I asked, pointing to the seemingly endless void.
[Correct. Why do you think so?]
āIāve seen a message where you picked up your pillow and threw it at the God of Adventure before. If your appearance is just the void, you canāt throw a pillow. So I can guess that you may have many different appearances besides the void. ā
Space vibrates and makes a sound again.
Slightly different from the laughter I heard before.
The laughter lasted for a while and then suddenly stopped.
After a moment of silence, the God of Slow said.
She spoke so decisively that I couldnāt find any more fault.
To be exact, I dared not to find fault.
If there are other appearances, then where, what are they, and how do different appearances interact with other gods, there are a lot of things I want to ask.
But the God of Slow forbids me to ask any questions related to this subject.
I ask the God of Slow who wished to hear something else.
āArenāt you reading my thoughts? Can you explain what I want to know within the scope of permission? Iām afraid the scope of your explanation will be narrowed down by my questions.ā
[No. Anyways, itās a reward. I canāt explain it to you without asking me. By the way, that one just now also counted as a question. I have deducted the corresponding contribution points, keep that in mind.]
Suddenly I felt that she is somewhat deliberately provocative.
Is it because of the pillow I mentioned just now or something else?
[Words that make me feel uncomfortable will also cost your contribution points. Again, I told you to forget that.]
Before the contribution points are consumed again, I stop thinking and ask questions I had prepared.
āAre the monsters that appear on Earth the same ones as the origin monsters that appear on the 40th floor?ā
[Yes. but there are few monsters with the essence. Other monsters may have similar things, but is nothing compared to the essence.]
āThen what God asks the apostles to do is to collect the essence and present it to the temple.ā
āThen is the essence of the origin necessary to become a God?ā
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