Iâm standing in front of the library staring at the door.
Itâs a door I have been in and out of in Conlerâs castle many times, but today Iâm feeling nervous.
âPhewâŚ.â
I came all the way here after inquiring about Gilbertâs whereabouts because I felt like I had to apologize and thank him for what happened with Baron Bruno.
And as expected, Gilbert was in the library.
Is it fortunate that heâs in the library that Iâm a little familiar with? If Gilbert had been in his room, I probably wouldnât have been able to breathe.
I took a deep breath and knocked on the library door a couple of times.
Itâs the first time Iâve tried knocking while entering the library.
But no sound was heard inside the library. I thought he didnât hear the knock, so I put a little more force on my fist and knocked harder, then I put my ear to the door, but there was no response.
Is he not in the library?
The library isnât a place you use by yourself. Itâs a place anyone can use. Should I just go in?
I opened the library door as carefully as I could. The door opened with a dull sound.
âB, brotherâŚ.â
I secretly called Gilbert as I entered the library, but there was no sign of someone inside the library.
There were a lot of books piled up in one place. Maybe Gilbert went out for a while while studying . I headed there carefully.
On the desk was a map of Conler territory. Lines were drawn in various colors as if he was weaving the shortest route that Rex said earlier. Seeing that there were many books related to the reclamation project, it seemed that he was continuing to study relevant things.
Youâre working really hard.
I didnât know you had to work this hard because youâre already born as a Conler.
Thatâs right⌠Iâm Conler, but I canât express this ability and I donât have magic. Unlike any Conler, people arenât afraid to get close to me.
Yeah, Iâm a bad girl, so I donât need any ability, do I?
I pursed my lips and looked through the books Gilbert used to read, they were difficult to understand because of my poor knowledge of the Imperial language.
Then I found a hardcover note in a luxurious leather case on the desk.
âWhat is this?â
Out of simple curiosity, I carefully opened the notebook. The part where the red string was inserted in the notebook unfolded right away.
Looking at the dateâŚâŚ It was like Gilbertâs diary.
Oh, I canât look at things like this without permission.
Privacy and security are really important.
Still, I couldnât stop my curiosity.
I looked with a clouded eye on purpose. White things are paper, black things are lettersâŚâŚ.
No, Mary.
Privacy is the most important thing between siblings.
I wonât read it all, just the latest one..
All right, I compromised in my own way.
[Baron Bruno came to harm the children. If father was here, he could probably punish him properly. Why canât I resemble my fatherâs wisdom and judgment? It bothers me that I said mean things to Bonita, too.]
âPfft.â
As I was reading the diary I laughed without realizing it. Gilbert is fifteen years old. It was just a diary of that age.
I take back the word that he looks like Grand Duke Estin. It seemed that he was trying to resemble Grand Duke Estin.
He kicked Baron Bruno out well at that young age, but this diary is filled with regret. It was pretty⌠cute.
âYouâre trying really hard.â
I could tell even without looking at the other diary. Itâs probably full of regrets and reflections like this. He would have looked back and whipped himself for one goal; Grand Duke Estin.
I carefully covered the diary. Then I came to the other side of the library where the parchment prepared by Rex was piled up and cut the paper as square as possible.
And I drew a pretty circle with a pen, I drew a girl and a boy with a smiling face. And I wrote âyou did a good jobâ above.
Itâs a little crude, but still good. I completed it with a mark.
Then I carefully inserted it into the diary that I saw.
I thought I should leave a mark because it doesnât suit Maryâs personality to sneak a look.
Thereâs nothing like this mark in the diary. Iâm proud for no reason.
I think I should say hello laterâŚâŚ.
I opened the door to get out of the library, I turned back to look at Gilbertâs books and notes on the desk.
âYouâre trying really hard.â
Iâm going to try hard, too.
After working hard to plan a business, Iâll make it to the top and prosper.
I was determined to do so, but suddenly the library door burst open.
âArgh!â
ââŚâŚwhat is it?â
Gilbert, who had been away for a while, appeared with a mug in his hand. I think he brought something to drink while studying. When I smelled it, it seemed like hot chocolate.
Thatâs right. If you read a book like that, your sugar level will drop so you need sweet food.
âWere you surprised?â
âYes?â
I was looking at the mug in Gilbertâs hand for a long time when I heard Gilbertâs voice, so I answered in surprise.
Are you sorry?
But who would knock before entering the library?
âŚâŚit was me before.
âAre you here to read?â
âOh, noâŚ.â
âIf not?â
ââŚto find brother Gilbert.â
âMe?â
I wiggled my fingers without realizing it. As if he was quite surprised to hear that I had visited him, Gilbert asked back, pointing at himself with his index finger.
âWell, what happened the other dayâŚâŚ I was going to apologize.â
âWhat happened?â
Gilbertâs fine brow frowned, not sure what Iâm really apologizing for.
But really⌠Heâs handsome.
If Grand Duke Estinâs black hair and black eyes showed age and strange sexiness, Gilbert was a face that showed the elegance of a minor.
Grand Duke Estin must have had this face when he was young.
Gilbertâs future was spoiled by Grand Duke Estin.
âLast time with Baron BrunoâŚâŚ.â
âAh.â
Only then did his eyebrows unfold beautifully as if the question had been solved, but soon it frowned again as if something had been questioned. Gilbert reaffirmed.
âDo you have anything to apologize about Baron Bruno?â
âI think I shouldnât have stepped upâŚâŚ.â
âOh, thatâs true.â
Gilbert nodded with his signature arrogant expression as if he was convinced only then.
Thatâs right, but Gilbertâs words made me feel sour for no reason, so I lowered my head, slightly stuck out my lower lip, and tapped the floor with my shoe nose for no reason.
Thump~
An awkward silence lingered in the library for a moment, and I relaxed my eyes and stared at the dazedly floating sunlight.
âGood job.â
âWhat?â
âYou shouldnât put up with it when an outsider touches Conlerâs honor.â
I didnât know how to receive such praise from Gilbert, so my heart beat faster and stronger. An ugly duckling was recognized by a swan!
âT, thank you.â
âFrom apologies to thanks.â
ââŚâŚfor your help.â
âFather will punish Baron Bruno anyway.â
âBut you came forward and helped meâŚâŚ You know.â
Gilbert laughed in a low voice at my hesitating remarks.
âBrother!â
ââŚâŚ.â
âI felt so reassured because you were by my side. Even without the Grand Duke!â
I closed my eyes and shouted.
âYou donât have to scream like that. I can hear you.â
âOh, Iâm sure you do. Iâm sure you have a great hearing.â
What am I saying?
I was so embarrassed that I was just saying anything. Even a moment of silence felt like a pretty long time.
âOh, I heard the story.â
âWhat?â
âThe story of Rex.â
âAhâŚ.â
âI guess the reason you acted weird was because Rex didnât want to talk about it in person.â
I nodded cautiously. I thought I did very well in my own way, but it looked weird to Gilbertâs eyes.
Thatâs possible.
Okay.
No, but does he need to call me weird?
The way I tried to force myself to talk must have seemed ridiculous.
âMary Conler.â
âWhat?â
I was grumbling to myself and suddenly Gilbert called my name.
I looked at him with bunny eyes in surprise, but Gilbertâs eyes softly folded and he smiled
Gilbertâs unexpected smile was like a twinkling star in the night sky.
No, but why are you smilingâŚâŚ?
Did you remember my weird self?
âGood job.â
âWhat?â
âYouâve grown quite stronger than I thought.â
Gilbert patted me carefully on the head. That hand feels like a big brother.⌠I felt strange.
For some reason, I felt the heat rising on my cheeks, so I turned my head slightly and fanned my hands.
Now, as I was about to leave Gilbert to continue his studies, the library door burst open. It was a pretty excited Bonita.
Am I the only one who knocks on this castle?
âGrand Duke Estin is back!â
When Bonita said that Grand Duke Estin had returned, Gilbert and I immediately left the library and went out. Before I knew it, Rex was next to me.
When the butler opened the door, Grand Duke Estin, Hestia, and Lucas came in.
âHave you been well?â
âHere you are, Gilbert.â
Grand Duke Estin greeted Gilbert by handing his coat to the butler. Gilbert canât find the gentle atmosphere he just felt in the library.