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(T/N: Hereās the bonus chapter and one of my favorite! Enjoy fellas!)\n
It couldnāt be just because of the reasons Iāve heard before, he would be that overly eager to have Captain Jullius to marry me. I guessed there must be greater benefits he could gain for him to act that way. Captain Jullius fully entrusted his head in my care, then said,\n\nāI would also prefer to have Miss Epheria as my partner if I have to do a political marriage.ā\n\nāThen, once we get engaged, if in the future we meet someone we loved, we can just canceled out our engagement, otherwise we will continue as a couple and just marry each other.ā\n\nāCan we do that?ā\n\nāThereās nothing wrong with that so I think Ortzen would agree.ā\n\nāWell, thatās right.ā\n\nWithout a doubt, the condition will definitely adventageous for Captain Jullius, while itās not too bad for me. I donāt know whether if Iām going to be a clergy again, but if Iām not going back, then Iāll need a place to stay. That being said, fortunately I have considered to ask Captain Jullius to live with me.\n\nāCaptain.ā\n\nāHm?ā\n\nāDo you have any money?ā\n\nāI rarely spend my money, so I think I have some.ā\n\nāThen I guess there should be plenty amount of it.ā\n\nThe commander of Special Task Squad should be more or less earned as much as the leader of Imperial Knight Squad in terms of salary, right? Actually, the Imperial Knights salary are pretty low compared to the duties that come from their respective positions. Most of them consisted of nobles so they didnāt dwell on trivial matter such as money, unlike the private knights. Nonetheless, their salaries still canāt be considered as small amount of money.\n\nāWhen we get married, then you should buy a house with your savings.ā\n\nIf itās possible, I donāt want to sell the necklace. Captain Jullius nodded without any hesitation. My hand which was placed on the top of his head also moved along with his nod.\n\nāOkay.ā\n\nGood, then after getting engaged, Iāll slowly take my time to think about other important matters until we get married. I have to go back to Sofia who must be waiting eagerly for the news. I have to tell her that my engagement will still be proceeded as planned and for the time being we will stay in Special Task Squadās headquarters.\n\nāā¦, Miss Epheria.ā\n\nAs I stood up, Captain Jullius suddenly called for me.\n\nāWhat is it?ā\n\nHe hesitated for a moment before finally said,\n\nāCan I also touch?ā\n\nāWhat?ā\n\nWhat was he talking about? When I was puzzled by his question, he averted his eyes, unable to meet my probing gaze.\n\nāā¦, itās nothing.ā\n\nāWhat do you mean by ānothingā?ā\n\nI sat down again and moved closer to his side. Although he said itās nothing but Iām definitely sure itās not nothing.\n\nāWhat do you mean by ānothingā?ā\n\nQuickly spill it! After I asked him for the second time, Captain Jullius hesitantly started to tell me more about it.\n\nāBecause Miss often touched meā¦ā\n\nāI thought you didnāt hate it. Do you hate it?ā\n\nHe shook his head in a hurry.\n\nāNo, itās not like that. I mean, I alsoā¦ā\n
āI alsoā what? Ah, did he ask if he could touch me too? He didnāt have to be hesitant about that.\n\nāHere, touch me. I donāt mind at all. No, this is not the first time, is it?ā\n\nHe had embraced me before and alsoā¦ hmm. I couldnāt think anything other than that because he never touched me without any reasons.\n\nāā¦, is it really okay?ā\n\nāIs there any reason you canāt do that? I also have touched your hair and face.ā\n\nāBut I was told to always mind my actions because thereāre many differences on how I should treat men and women.ā\n\nāThat rules only applied if the man and woman are strangers to each other. We are about to be engaged anyway so itās okay.ā\n\nOf course he should never touch any women carelessly. But Iām his soon-to-be fiancee so it shouldnāt be a problem. Maybe?\n\nāBesides, thereāre no eyes watching us so itās okay.ā\n\nāIs that so?ā\n\nāYes. We can make a little trouble if thereāre no eye-witness.ā\n\nMy deputy said so. He told me not to leave any eyewitnesses if I was to be in a sticky situation where I had to do something that violated the law or against the norm. He said he could easily covered up the accident if thereāre no witnesses. Of course, itās best not to cause any trouble, but unfortunately things donāt always go as planned even if one wish for it.\n\nEven after I gave my consent and said there wouldnāt be any problems for touching me, Captain Jullius still couldnāt readily do it. Iāve told you itās okay. Should I give him another push and be more aggressive? Letās see, Captain Jullius is also a man, soā¦\n\nāDo you want to try touching my chest?ā\n\nāā¦, what?!ā\n\nCaptain Jullius was really taken aback and immediately moved his body further to the other side, away from me. Donāt men usually like to touch womanās breast? His reaction was unexpected.\n\nāAlthough I might be lacking in common-sense, but I think thatās something inappropriate to do.ā\n\nāWhy? Nobody sees it and we are going to be engaged to each other so I think itāll be okay.ā\n\nāā¦, no matter how much I think about it, I shouldnāt do that.ā\n\nHearing his unusual resolute remark, I became confused. Is that so? To be honest, I didnāt quite understand regarding this matter. In the past, I was being treated as a man even though I wasnāt one to begin with, so I couldnāt be totally considered as neither man nor woman. Thus, when it comes to the boundaries between man and woman, I donāt know much of it because I only learned from hearsay. Furthermore, since I was a clergy who couldnāt get married, I was never interested about it in the first place.\n\nāThen later you could ask Ortzen about what things are allowed to do when itās just two of us alone.ā\n\nāAlright.ā\n\nIf we didnāt know about something, then we could just ask someone in the know. Anyway, itās too much to touch my breasts now. What a pity, these breasts gave out a nice feeling when you touched them.\n\nāIt should be fine to touch my hands and face. You can touch my hair now but, when my hair was being neatly styled, you canāt touch it. It could messed up my hair.ā\n\nItās okay to touch my face because I only used light make-up on my lips and cheeks. Sillaās skin is white and clean so I donāt have to put heavy make up on it. Other than the smell of make-up, I also donāt like it when I have to use a lot of make-up because somehow it feels overwhelming.\n\nHere, now you can touch it to your heartās content. I gave him a consent look to touch me but his hands still didnāt move an inch. What, what else is wrong again now?\n\nāWhy donāt you touch me?ā\n\nāIt doesnāt have to be nowā¦ā\n\nāYou said you want to touch me too. Quickly give me your hand.ā\n
In the end due to my persistance, Captain Jullius finally reached his hand out. Somehow my heart beat faster as his big hand moved closer to my face. Because Iām an orphan, since I was a child, I was rarely getting any pats on my head or being carressed on the face. As I suppressed the urge to grab his hand ,-which was about touching my face-, to be bitten down, I felt his callous hand touching my face.\n\nCaptain Jullius carefully stroked my face as if he was touching a precious item that could easily broke if he was to put any slightest strenght while touching it, then he quickly withdrew his hand. What? Thatās all? Heās done? I instantly grabbed his hand which started to move away then bit it. I canāt break his hand so Iāll just bite it. After I bit down his long index finger until a faint bitten mark could be seen on it, this time he slightly touched my hair with his other hand.\n\nāMiss Epheria.ā\n\nI wanted to reply him but if I let go of the bitting, I thought he would stopped carressing my head so I just kept bitting his finger. Captain Jullius didnāt try to talk to me anymore and kept carressing my head for quite a long time.