Seol Jihu finally arrived at his parentsâ house.
Stopping in front of the main entrance, Seol Jihu stood still for a long time with his head dropped.
His heart pounded from fear of what was to come.
Looking back, every time he came back home, he had left thinking, âI shouldnât have come.â
Would it be any different this time?
He didnât think so. Thatâs why he hesitated.
Standing like a stone statue for some time, a laugh escaped Seol Jihuâs mouth.
In Paradise, he was a hero who was welcomed and acknowledged by everyone. But on Earth⊠he was no different than unrecyclable trash.
Thatâs what made him laugh.
âWhat are you doing there?â
Seol Jihu raised his head.
How long had he been there for? Seol Wooseok was standing on the staircase, looking down at him.
âYou said youâd be here by six. Were you just standing there for thirty minutes? Did your shoes get glued to the ground or something?â
Seol Wooseok chuckled before coming down and opening the main entrance.
He scanned Seol Jihu from top to bottom, then whistled.
âIya~ Youâre all dressed up in a suit. Is it because itâs Motherâs birthday? I see that you brought gifts too.â
âWell, itâs Motherâs birthday and itâs also been a whileâŠâ
âYou have something for me too?â
âOf course. Itâs nothing expensive though, so donât look forward to it too much.â
âHaha, thanks. You just came back from overseas, right? Arenât you tired?â
âDidnât you say you went on a business trip? You didnât go overseas?â
Seol Wooseok asked with widened eyes.
Seol Jihu shook his head.
âNo, it was domestic. I never went overseas. Though, I might relatively soon.â
âAh⊠I see. It was so hard to get in touch with you that I figured you werenât in Korea.â
âAh, that makes sense.â
Seol Jihu nodded strongly.
âEven the Reserve Forces called, you know.â
âAh, donât worry about that. I took care of it. Sinyoung has a workplace reserve force unit, so Iâm transferring there.â
âYou should have done that earlier. Anyway, letâs go in. Motherâs been waiting for a while now. Seonhwa and Seunghae are here as well.â
Seol Wooseok looked back at the house and then pulled on Seol Jihuâs arm. The latter resisted slightly and objected.
âHyung, wait. I gave this some thought, andââ
âItâs fine. I already let them know.â
âBut todayâs supposed to be a day of celebration. I can come back some other timeâŠâ
âToday is a day of celebration. Thatâs why we should have more good things happen. Are you really going to go back after coming all the way here?â
Before he noticed, Seol Jihu found himself walking up the staircase and standing at the front door.
Seol Wooseok punched in the password while holding onto Seol Jihuâs arm.
âYou told me, remember? That youâd visit once you finished paying off your debt.â
âI know. You must be uncomfortable. But thereâs going to be no end to this if you keep putting it off because of guilt. If you really want to seek forgiveness, donât run away. We canât forgive you if you donât come ask for our forgiveness.â
Seol Jihu couldnât argue because he knew his brother was right.
âCome in. And this time, make it clear. That you quit gambling and are working diligently.â
Seol Wooseok said encouragingly, then turned the doorknob.
Seol Jihu still hadnât prepared his heart, but the door opened cold-heartedly.
He first saw a middle-aged woman fidgeting nervously in deep concern. She jolted when she saw the door open, and her jaw dropped when she caught sight of Seol Jihu.
Seol Jihuâs mouth opened slightly, but no sound came out.
Seol Wooseok said clearly.
âAigoo, aigoo, my son⊠my second babyâŠâ
Seol Jihuâs mother walked up to him and squeezed his arm.
âAigoo, how can you not call even once until now? Do you have any idea how worried I was?â
âIâm sorry. I should have come visit soonerâŠâ
âHe said he wouldnât show up until he paid off his debts. Iâm sure heâll visit more often from now on.â
Seol Wooseok said with a smile.
Their mother couldnât take her eyes off her second son, whom she hadnât seen for a long time.
Staring fixedly, she reached out with her hands and gently caressed Seol Jihuâs face.
Seol Jihu stiffened up at a loss for what to do. Seeing her eyes glistening with tears, he felt guilty just meeting her eyes.
âMother, the food is going to go bad.â
Thankfully, Seol Wooseok stepped in.
âAh, I almost forgot.â
âWhat am I doing just making you stand there? Come in, Jihu, come in. Letâs eat first.â
Seol Wooseok passed the baton to his mother, and Seol Jihu was pulled inside once again.
His heart beast faster and faster and his mind was in chaos.
But when he arrived at the dinner table, his heart sank.
Three people were already sitting at the table.
Yoo Seonhwa, who was staring at him calmly; Yoo Seunghae, who was nervously clutching her older sisterâs hand; and Seol Jinhee, who was glaring at him fiercely.
He couldnât see his father anywhere.
âSit here, Jihu. You must be hungry. Hurry and eat.â
His mother pulled out the chair next to Yoo Seonhwa.
Seol Jihu couldnât sit right away.
He hesitated while looking at the shopping bags in his left and right hands.
âItâs fine. Hurry and sit.â
Noticing his hesitation, his mother urged him again with a gentle voice.
âHmph,â Seol Jinhee snorted. But just as she was about to say somethingâ
âHey, what did you bring?â
Yoo Seonhwa beat her to the punch.
âHm? Ah, itâs Motherâs birthday, andâŠâ
âYou brought sweet potato cake? Itâs handmade too. It must have been expensiveâŠâ
Seol Jihu was a bit taken aback that Yoo Seonhwa was talking to him so nonchalantly.
âItâs better than the one I or Wooseok Oppa brought, and sweet potato cake is your favorite tooâŠ. Mother, why donât we use Jihuâs cake for the birthday song later?â
âOf course. But jeez, he brought so many things. He could have come empty-handedâŠâ
âEii, itâs Motherâs birthday. I can tell Jihuâs spent a lot of effort picking these out.â
âSo embarrassing⊠Anyway, give those here and take a seat. Iâll go put the cake in the fridge.â
âN-No, Iâll do it.â
Seol Jihu tried to head to the kitchen, but he was stopped by his mother as she took the shopping bags from him.
âSit. Weâve been starving waiting for you to come.â
Yoo Seonhwa tapped on the seat, and only then did Seol Jihu hesitantly sit down.
The six people finally sat down around the dinner table.
âAh, Iâm starving. We can eat now that Jihuâs here, right?â
Yoo Seonwa said casually as an awkward silence filled the atmosphere.
Seol Jihuâs mother smiled brightly and nodded.
âOf course, go ahead. You too, Jihu.â
âWow, you really pulled out your best recipes for Jihu. Everything looks amazing.â
Only when Yoo Seonhwa nonchalantly mentioned this did Seol Jihu see what was actually on the table.
All sorts of delectable dishes were laid out on the table.
They were all food that Seol Jihu loved.
âThanks for the food~â
Yoo Seonhwa said in a bright voice and reached her chopsticks out.
Yoo Seunghae, who kept stealing glances at Seol Jihu, also carefully picked up her utensils.
Seol Wooseok also took a spoonful of soup, then grinned.
âThis is great. Having Jihu here really changes the flavor.â
âWooseok, when did IâŠâ
âIf only you showed off your skills normally. Hey, you should try some too. Itâs incredible.â
Seol Wooseok said casually. Thanks to him, the cold atmosphere seemed to melt bit by bit.
Seol Jihu carefully picked up his spoon before pausing.
A stinging gaze pierced his face.
Seol Jinhee was glaring at him with an expressionless, spiteful gaze.
Although her mouth was tightly shut, Seol Jihu didnât need to hear her out to know exactly what she was thinking.
âWhat qualification does someone like you have to eat Momâs food?â must be what sheâs thinking.
Recalling the highway rest area incident, Seol Jihu was about to place down his spoon, whenâ
âWhatâs up, Jinhee?â
Yoo Seonhwa said to Seol Jinhee.
âYou should eat, too. The foodâs going to go cold. You donât want to miss it.â
âItâs good! Why, are you feeling unwell? Do you want to go rest inside your room?â
Seol Jinhee heaved a dumbfounded sigh.
She took her eyes off Seol Jihu just barely, then picked up her chopsticks in a snatching motion.
Yoo Seonhwa glanced at Seol Jihu fidgeting with his utensils before picking up a large, juicy piece of steamed short ribs.
âAnyway, arenât you being too adamant? I thought youâd call me at least once.â
âThe offer I made. You know, about working at the cafe together. Eh, judging by that face, you must have forgotten all about it.â
Seol Jihu blinked twice. He vaguely remembered Yoo Seonhwa making such an offer. He had forgotten about it because he had no interest in it.
âAh, I found myself with a large sum of extra money some time back because Jihu paid off his debts in one go.â
As everyoneâs gaze fell on Yoo Seonhwa, she explained as if it was nothing.
âI tried to coax him into running the business with me.â
Seol Wooseok looked shaken. Their mother was shocked, and Seol Jinhee was alarmed.
âU-Unni, are you serious? Are you crazy?â
Yoo Seonhwa ignored her and continued.
âBut he declined right away.â
âYep. I thought heâd take the bait if I waved it right in front of him, but he refused right away. I thought he was just acting proud and would call me back in a couple of days, but never mind calling, he didnât even text me.â
Their motherâs complexion brightened.
Seol Wooseok nodded his head in satisfaction, clearly thinking, âI knew it. I was right.â
Seol Jihu looked at Yoo Seonhwa in a renewed way.
He didnât expect this at all.
He was prepared for the worst given all the horrible things he had done to Yoo Seonhwa, but for some reason, she was welcoming him.
He could tell just by how she covered for him.
âYou must really like your current workplace.â
Yoo Seonhwa removed the bone from a piece of short rib, cut it in half, and placed one into her mouth and the other on Seol Jihuâs plate.
ââŠYeah, itâs hard, but fun. Iâm enjoying it there.â
âThatâs not good. If you enjoy working too much, youâll become a workaholic.â
Yoo Seonhwa smiled bitterly, then gestured at his bowl of rice.
Encouraged by her consideration, Seol Jihu took a spoonful of rice. And when he placed the steaming rice into his mouth along with the well-cooked braised short rib, he closed his eyes unknowingly.
Seol Jihu found the food delicious without even the slightest exaggeration.
It had been so long since he had his motherâs homemade food that he almost teared up.
His pounding heart had also stopped.
âOh yeah, how did you end up getting into Sinyoung?â
âYeah, tell us a bit about it. Iâm sure Mother is dying to know as well.â
Yoo Seonhwa and Seol Wooseok talked to him constantly. Seol Jihu knew they were trying their best not to make the atmosphere awkward.
Thanks to their show of goodwill, Seol Jihu opened up more and more.
âI just got to know them through workâŠâ
âActually, what I want to know is how you know Director Yun Seohui and Manager Yun Seora.â
âHuh? How does Hyung know Miss Yun Seora⊠or rather, Manager Yun?â
âYou werenât picking up my calls at all, so I called your company and your manager picked up. She praised you like there was no tomorrow.â
âYep. She was so excited when she was talking about you that I thought she was bragging about her own kid. She sent a card and a present for Motherâs birthday too. Also, she said you saved her life? What does that mean?â
ââŠShe said all that, huh.â
Seol Jihu shook his head. He appreciated Yun Seoraâs compliments, but it seemed she said something unnecessary.
Seol Wooseok observed Seol Jihu carefully, then asked.
âSpeaking of which, there are some things I heard through the grapevine⊠Do you have something big going on at work?â
âI know youâre in Miss Yun Seoraâs team, but Miss Yun Seohui was pretty close to you too. I donât know the details, but I heard Sinyoungâs inner structure is complex. Director Yun Seohui had everything under her grasp, but I also heard Manager Yun Seora is doing quite well recently.â
Seol Jihu blinked. His older brother knew Sinyoungâs inner hierarchy better than he thought.
âHow do you know all that?â
âIâm the manager of Haesol Research Institute. I hear news about people in the same line of work whether good or bad. Especially if itâs a large corporation like Sinyoung.â
But Seol Jihu couldnât help but wonder if Seol Wooseok was probing him because he was also an Earthling.
âIâm not a fan of this Yun Seohui person.â
At that moment, Yoo Seonhwa cut in.
Seol Jihu furrowed his brows.
âNo, how would I know her?â
âThen why do you say that?â
âNo reason. I just donât like her name. But donât forget it. You know my intuition is pretty good, right?â
Seol Jihu acknowledged it readily.
âStill, donât worry too much.â
âOh? Where is this confidence coming from? Arenât you just an employee?â
When Seol Jihu spoke plainly, Seol Wooseok showed a hint of surprise.
âWell, to tell you the truth, that problem was a bit stressful in the beginning.â
âIâm sure it was. Office politics are like that.â
âI wasnât a fan of that. You know, other people forcing me to take a side when I just want to focus on my work.â
âNot something you can control, is it?â
âThatâs why I gritted my teeth and swore to get strong so as to avoid any underhanded schemes.â
âOh? Youâre talking like you got yourself a strong backer.â
âI wouldnât say that⊠but I can just quit if things go wrong. There are plenty of people who want me.â
Seol Jihu muttered as he stuffed his mouth with a spoonful of rice.
Talking while eating made the food all the more delicious.
Their mother gently closed her eyes as she watched Seol Jihu, Seol Wooseok, and Yoo Seonhwa chat.
She was indescribably moved.
Just how long had she waited to see this scene once again?
She felt like she returned to the happy days of the past.
However, her jubilant mood died down when she saw the empty seat at the table.
Soon, she got up quietly, making an excuse of going to the bathroom. She then opened the master bedroom door and went in.
Inside, the father of the family was lying on the bed, watching TV.
âDear, are you really going to do this?â
She sat down on the corner of the bed and pleaded.
âJihu mustered up his courage to come. Heâs walking on eggshells because youâre not thereâŠâ
âAt least come show your face and hear him out. Seonhwa said she offered to have her cafe be signed under both of their names and that he declined right away. The old Jihu would never have done such a thing.â
The father continued to watch TV with a stone-cold expression.
He muttered gruffly in reply when the mother raised her voice.
âIâm doing what you wanted, arenât I? You told me not to come out.â
âThatâs becauseâŠâ
âI donât wanna see that bastardâs face either. Just seeing him drives me mad. What, you still want me to come out?â
âIâm only holding it in because itâs your birthday and because Wooseok begged me when he never once made a request of me his entire life. Otherwise, I wouldnât have let that bastard step one foot inside this house!â
âIâm boiling with rage right now, but Iâm suppressing myself. If you understand that, donât ask me to come out. I feel like Iâm going to blow up every time I hear his voice.â
With that, he turned around and faced the wall.
The mother tried talking to him a few more times, but he didnât even reply and only raised the volume of the TV.
In the end, she sighed and left, quietly closing the door behind her.
She returned to the dinner table with a troubled look on her face, then met Seol Jihuâs eyes.
She quickly put on a smile.
âYouâre eating well. Doesnât Sinyoung feed you?â
âN-No, I eat every meal. I guess your food is still the best.â
âHaha, do you want more?â
She took Seol Jihuâs bowl without even waiting for a response and filled it with rice until it formed a small mound.
It was a lot, but Seol Jihu didnât refuse. He felt like he could eat however much he wanted because the food was better than anything he had in Paradise.
âMom, do you hear these squeaks?â
Seol Jinhee asked, taking advantage of a brief lull in their conversation.
âSqueaks? You mean like a mouseâs?â
âYep, I think thereâs a rat stealing our food.â
She spoke as if she had been waiting wholeheartedly for this moment.
The atmosphere suddenly froze.
Though she didnât say it outright, everyone knew who she was referring to.
Seol Jinhee raised the corner of her mouth. She had been gritting her teeth looking for an opportunity to cut in, but couldnât because of Yoo Seonhwa and Seol Wooseok constantly talking to Seol Jihu.
âYouâve eaten enough, so why donât you go back? Way to be so tactless. I donât know what I expected from a rat.â
âWhereâd you lose your conscience? On one of your thieving sprees? Iâm surprised you can swallow all that food. I guess youâve forgotten about all the shit youâve pulled.â
Seol Wooseokâs voice also turned cold.
Seol Jinhee twisted her mouth defiantly. Giving a sidelong scowl at Seol Jihu, she turned to Yoo Seonhwa and raised her voice.
âOh yeah, Unni! What happened with that?â
âYou know what Iâm talking about. I introduced you to a guy last time, remember?â
âItâs about time you get yourself a man.â
âThat Oppa is super famous in my department. He was the campus model! His face and figure are top-notch, his personality is great, and heâs from a wealthy family. He wasnât interested in other women, but when I showed him one of your pictures, it was love at first sight for himââ
Tak. The sound of chopsticks hitting the table rang out.
Seol Jinhee trailed off before she could finish saying, âHe begged me sooo much~â
Yoo Seonhwa was staring at her with an expressionless face.
Seol Jinhee knew Yoo Seonhwa well enough to know that this was what she did when she was angry.
ââŠYeah, you did introduce him to me. Without me ever asking for such a thing.â
âI clearly rejected him, saying I didnât have the time to be dating because I was busy with opening my cafe. But you gave that psycho son of a bitch my cafe address as well.â
âThen he actually came to the cafe and asked to see me, giving your name as reference. I told him there was a misunderstanding and told him to go back, but then he freaked the hell out and threw a fit, so I had to call the cops on him. I thought I already told you.â
âYou apologized to me multiple times for that incident. Saying you didnât know he was like that. You also said youâd never do it again, remember?â
âYou and I both know this, and it should be a thing of the past, so why are you suddenly bringing it up?â
Seol Jinhee became lost for words. To be completely honest, she was trying to provoke Seol Jihu, knowing how much head-over-heels he was for Yoo Seonhwa, but Yoo Seonhwaâs reaction was slightly different than what she was expecting.
âYouâre obviously trying to provoke Jihu or make him uncomfortable. But thatâs the best you could come up with?â
Seol Jinhee frowned as Yoo Seonhwa exposed her intent in a sharp tone.
âDo you have to put it that way, Unni?â
âUnni⊠Are you fine with this? Why are you doing this? Are you two back together or something?â
âThatâs not something for you to worry about.â
Yoo Seonhwa replied coldly.
âI understand that youâre angry. Then you should talk to Jihu afterward. What are you doing at your motherâs birthday celebration? Donât you see her face? Have you thought about her feelings?â
âBe quiet. Donât raise your voice.â
Seol Jinhee clenched her teeth.
âThe matter between Jihu and me is something for us to deal with. You donât need to butt in unnecessarily. Donât try to use our relationship to vent your anger either. Got that?â
Yoo Seonhwa said decisively.
She was the same, both now and in the past, and hated others interfering in her relationship.
Seol Jinhee shot up from her seat angrily.
She was so frustrated that her eyes were welling up in tears.
Not having expected to be treated in this way, she grew spiteful and glared at Seol Jihu hatefully. Then, just as she was about to hurl more insultsâ
âTry saying just one more thing.â
Yoo Seonhwa shot back at her sharply.
âLeave if youâre not going to sit still and eat quietly. Donât ruin the mood.â
Seol Jinhee turned around and ran off at the speed of light.
Koong, koong, koong, koong! Loud stomps rang out consecutively from the stairs.
KWANG! It was then followed by the sound of a door being slammed shut.
Still, Seol Jinhee had achieved her intended goal.
The joyous mood had plummeted to a new low.
âWhyâd she have to bring that up all of a sudden? EhewâŠâ
Seol Wooseok murmured as he locked his fingers behind his head.
Seol Jihu said with a bitter smile.
âDonât be too harsh on Jinhee. Itâs my fault anywayâŠâ
âWell⊠the highway incident was really badâŠâ
Seol Wooseok scratched his head.
ââŠAnyway, now that weâre on this topic, what about you? Do you have a girlfriend?â
Seol Wooseok asked to liven the atmosphere again.
âThereâs no way he doesâŠâ
Yoo Seunghae muttered softly. Seol Wooseok widened his eyes, hearing her speak out for the first time.
âJihu Oppa having a new girlfriend?â
âWhy? Jihuâs not bad, and Iâm not just saying this as his older brother.â
âNo, thatâs not the problem.â
âMm⊠how should I put thisâŠâ
Yoo Seunghae trailed off as she stole glances at Yoo Seonhwa.
âI doubt anyone can handle Jihu Oppa at this point⊠Thanks to a certain someoneâŠâ
âWhat are you trying to get at, Seunghae?â
Yoo Seonhwa asked kindly. She spoke with the voice of an angel, but Yoo Seunghae hiccuped and shook her head immediately.
Then, she shut her mouth.
Even then, she continued to give Seol Jihu pitying glances.
But thanks to Yoo Seunghae, the atmosphere livened up a bit, and Seol Jihu showed a faint smile.
âNo one has asked me to officially go out yet. I havenât really thought about it either.â
âWhen you say âofficiallyâ and âyetâ, does that mean you have someone in mind?â
Yoo Seonhwa asked in a playful tone while giving him a coy look.
Seol Jihu felt a prick in his conscience.
âYouâre avoiding my eyes. It must be true then. Why, did you meet a pretty, kind-hearted, big-breasted woman who spoils you at your work?
Seol Jihu jumped in a startle.
âS-Spoil me? N-No, I was scolded not that long ago.â
âUh, heâs at the company as a consultant of sorts⊠Heâs old. A grandpa. Heâs usually strict and serious, but heâs still nice to me. I love working with him.â
âMmn, since youâre saying all that⊠I can picture what kind of a person he is.â
Yoo Seonhwa nodded her head.
âHe seems like a nice person. You should heed his advice. Treat him well too. Donât disappoint him.â
Yoo Seonhwa smiled faintly.
She looked at Seol Jihu and winked.
Though there was a bit of a hiccup, the dinner ended without a hitch.
Seol Jihu washed the dishes, Seol Wooseok prepared fruits, and Yoo Seonhwa cut the cake.
The group gathered around the table to sing âhappy birthdayâ, then they took some time to open up the presents Seol Jihu brought.
As he brought a gift for everyone, the atmosphere was quite lively.
Seol Wooseok took one look at his new wallet and swapped out his money and cards on the spot.
Yoo Seonhwa looked at a pair of underwear and nodded her head approvingly.
Yoo Seunghae twinkled her eyes looking at a brand new makeup set.
Seol Jihu responded to their words of thanks with a silent smile.
It was fun, but a little unfamiliar at the same time.
He recalled such a sight being common in the past, but now, having everyone laughing and talking in one place seemed new.
What was important was that the thought of returning to Paradise was nonexistent in Seol Jihuâs current mind.
He found it mysterious no matter how much he thought about it.
It was at this moment that he caught sight of his mother happily hugging the red pajamas he bought her.
He bought other, more expensive things for her as well, but she was examining the pajamas excitedly like it was some sort of treasure.
Staring at her blankly, Seol Jihu quietly said.
âThereâs⊠something I want to tell you. To be honest, IâŠâ
âHuh?â Seol Jihu doubted his ears.
He instantly raised his lowered head. His mother was looking at him with a gentle smile.
âI heard everything from Wooseok. Arenât you working for a proper company now?â
âAnd you paid off your debts.â
âAnd you really quit going to the casino?â
âYes⊠I wonât go to the casino ever again. Until the day I die.â
âGood. Then itâs fine.â
âWooseok said it was true too, and thatâs enough for me. Thereâs nothing else that I want. I always knew my son would eventually pull himself out of the mire.â
Seol Jihu dropped his jaw, then closed it again.
He couldnât look his mother in the eyes.
Looking back, she was always like that. Loving, trusting, and supporting him unconditionally.
He had let her down and betrayed her countless times. Just how much did he hurt her with his actions?
[You donât understand your parentsâ feelings even the slightest bitâŠ!]
It was just as Jang Maldong said.
His mother must have a lot of things she wanted to say, yet she prepared a feast because he came back, and showed unwavering love for him.
Seol Jihu couldnât begin to fathom just what she must be feeling on the inside.
He could only clench his teeth and cover his face with his hands.
âDonât worry. Iâm really fine. Iâm your mother. If I canât understand your feelings, who would?â
She gently patted his back.
âYou just have to make sure never to do it againâŠâ
While Seol Jihu did his best to pull himself together, she gazed at the master bedroom.
A deep sigh escaped her mouth in secret. She clearly looked like she wanted her husband to come out.
Noticing this, Seol Wooseok slowly sat down next to Seol Jihu.
âWooseok, itâs fine. Donâtââ
âI just have something to talk to Jihu about real quick. What are you going to do?â
Seol Jihu slowly raised his head and looked at the master bedroom. He knew his father was home.
âYouâre going to see him, right?â
Seol Jihu didnât answer.
Instead, he slowly got up from the couch.
He walked toward the master bedroom.
Jang Maldong also told him.
To at least give them a proper explanation.
Though he thought thisâ Seol Jihu stopped in front of the door.
It wasnât that the thought of going back didnât cross his mind.
This was enough for him to go back and tell Jang Maldong that he went to see his family.
Maybe this would be better for everyone involved as well.
Such temptations made him hesitate.
But every time he tried to rationalize his thoughtsâŠ
[Saying something so laughable⊠Are you in any position to be making that decision�]
[You almost ruined other peopleâs lives as if your life wasnât enough, and youâre saying what?]
[You think money was the problem? You think everythingâs over after throwing them an envelope of money?]
Jang Maldongâs scolding resounded in his head like thunder and scattered the vile thoughts away.
Though his hands started to shake, though his heart began to pound, Seol Jihu took a deep breath.
Seol Wooseok and Jang Maldong seemed to be pushing his back to hurry up.
Following this force, Seol Jihu knocked on the door and turned the door in a trance.
As the master bedroom door opened, he slowly walked in and closed the door behind him.
A movie was playing on the TV. It was a famous movie that even Seol Jihu recognized.
Seol Jihu stared at the TV endlessly before slowly turning his gaze.
His father was lying on the bed, staring fixedly at the TV screen.
He must have heard the knock or the sound of him coming in, yet he wasnât even sparing him a glance.
He cursed him out in the past but didnât ignore him. Like the saying, indifference is more fearful than criticism, his intent was clear.
Never mind ignoring having a second son, he was refusing to even acknowledge his existence.
âJust what should I say?â
Seol Jihu stood silently for a while at a complete loss for words.
Eventually, he decided to get his honest thoughts off his chest.
âIâm not saying that I am ashamed of getting addicted to gambling and hurting everyone.â
âOf course, I regret that too⊠but Iâm ashamed that I only came to see you now.â
His father still didnât say anything.
He must have steeled his resolve to ignore anything Seol Jihu said as he kept his eyes fixed on the TV.
âTo be honest, I didnât want to come.â
Seol Jihu continued quietly.
âYou were the one who said so, Father. That I should never do something to feel sorry for again. But I couldnât keep that promise, so I figured⊠maybe it would be better if I never showed up in front of you again.â
Suddenly, a scoff rang out.
âWell, you thought well.â
His father finally spoke.
âThatâs the best news Iâve heard all day. So then whatâs the reason you crawled in here?â
âIf you did as you said, I would have at least thought you had a sliver of conscience left in you.â
ââŠBecause I was ashamed.â
âIf you know that⊠No, never mind. Iâm done being tricked by your words.â
âTo tell you the truth, I got scolded. I even got beat up.â
Seol Jihu smiled faintly.
It was a sorrowful smile.
âThereâs an old grandpa at my workplace. I told him about my situation⊠and he got furious and raised his cane at me. He said I shouldnât be making the decision so shamelessly when I almost ruined other peopleâs lives. Strangely enough, he said the same thing you did. That I shouldnât think this matter is done and over with just because I returned the money I owed.â
Seol Jihu lowered his gaze.
âThat I should put myself in your shoes⊠So I did. And I finally understood how much of an idiot I was back then.â
Right, Seol Jihu felt a lump in his heart whenever he thought about his last visit. It was so stifling and suffocating that he wanted to run away, saying it wasnât going to work out.
No, he had been running away.
[Back then I, what? I? See that!? You caused them so much grief for years, yet youâre not even thinking about their feelings and only thinking about yourself!]
After being scolded by Jang Maldong, he suddenly had a different thought.
âHave I⊠ever begged for their forgiveness?â
He never said that he was wrong, that he was sorry.
Afraid of being rejected, he made excuses for himself, thinking someone like him didnât deserve to be forgiven. So, he never said it out loud.
He just hoped his family would understand him after seeing his money, after seeing him timid and scared.
âŠWhat a goddamned fool he was.
During a brief lull, a sound floated out from the movie playing on the TV screen.
âHow can you forgive him?
âEven if I want to, I canât.
âThat guy said heâs been forgiven already.
âIn the movie⊠the female lead goes to the prison where the murderer who killed his son is locked up.â
âBut what the murderer says to her is pretty shocking. He says that God already forgave him. Even though⊠before forgiving himself or seeking God for his forgiveness, he should be asking the victim for forgivenessâŠ. I initially cursed him out, seeing how he unloaded the burden from his chest on his own. But when I thought about it carefullyâŠâ
Seol Jihu gave a bitter smile.
âI was no different than the murderer.â
âI wasnât in any position to be cursing anyone. Iâm ashamed that I learned that only now.â
In truth, Seol Jihu knew that doing this wouldnât change anything.
Perhaps he might never repair his broken relationship with his family.
But he refused to run away any longer.
He deserved to be cursed out, he deserved to be ignored, and he deserved to be beaten.
Since he treated his family like trash, it was only right that they treat him like trash as well.
That was the Golden Rule that he decided to live by.
âSo Iâm finally ready.â
âIn front of my family⊠Iâm ready to live as a criminal for the rest of my life.â
The fatherâs eyebrows twitched.
âThereâs⊠a lot Iâve wanted to say after seeing you. I wanted to make excuses⊠that I paid off my debts, that I quit going to the casino, that Iâm living my fullest life with my own abilities. ButâŠâ
Seol Jihu swallowed hard.
âThereâs something I need to say before any of that.â
At the same time, he slowly got down on his knees.
He placed his hands on the floor and bent his back until his forehead was touching the ground.
He finally poured out the sincerest words from the bottom of his heart.
At that moment, the fatherâs eyes turned to the side, albeit slightly.
Seol Jihu clenched his teeth.
With a trembling body, trembling hands, and a trembling voice⊠he said again.
âIâm⊠really sorry⊠Father.â Please go to https://www.novelupdates.cc/The-Second-Coming-of-Gluttony/ to read the latest chapters for free