Under the purple glow of the evening sky, Martha stood with her mouth firmly closed.
After standing as still as a stone statue, until complete darkness surrounded them, she finally raised her head slowly.
âI shouldnât have lost.â
Martha clenched her fist. Her grip was so tight that her blood vessels were clearly visible.
âI shouldnât have lost to anyone until I found my motherâŚâ
Despite resolving to never lose until she achieved her goal, she ended up losing. And it was an extremely disgraceful defeat on top of that.
Sheâd twisted her own personality, became foul-mouthed and kept her distance from other people. But it was all pointless now that she lost with such an overwhelming difference.
âDamn it!â
Her foster father, Denier Zieghart, adopted her into the house Zieghart because heâd recognized her talent.
And yet, she lost to Raon Zieghartâ a collateral that was one year younger than her. She couldnât predict the kind of measures her father would take as a result.
Denier was a kind person, but that mightâve been an act. She needed to take into consideration the possibility of getting chased out.
âNo, I can never let that happen.â
If she got chased out, sheâd lose her last hope of finding her mother. She had to beg for that to not happen, even if she had to cling to his leg.
âHaaâŚâ
âMy lady.â
Martha was extremely nervous, to the extent that she didnât even turn back when her butler Camel called out to her.
âItâs a letter from Sir Denier.â
Martha finally turned around upon hearing that Denier Zieghart had sent her a letter. Her black pupils swayed like a wave.
âHere it is.â
Martha swallowed and opened the letter.
Martha, congratulations on your first defeat. Donât worry too much, as one defeat will not gain you the label of a loser. However, reflect countless times on why you lost, and how you lost. That self-examination will become the basis for your future growth. I wanted to visit you personally and comfort you, but my mission is taking longer than I thought. Iâm sorry I canât be with you.
It wasnât blame or mockery. It was a letter sent from a father who was worried about his daughter from the bottom of his heart.
Iâm still investigating your birth mother. Since I still havenât given up on it, you shall not give up either.
Martha folded the letter with trembling hands and put it in her pocket. She tried pressing the pocket, as if she were checking her wallet.
âHaaâŚâ
The letter was putting the broken pieces of her mind back together. The last part especially made her depression and anxiety, which used to press down on her shoulders, fly away.
âTell father that Iâll bear it in mind. And that Iâm really, really grateful.â
âUnderstood.â
Camel nodded, smiling lightly.
âBy the way, my lady.â
âHmm?â
âIf you are worried about the obedience that was wagered during the spar with young master Raon, it can be solved by pressuring the annex building. It can be silently taken care of, using the direct lineâs authorityâŚâ
âNo, donât do it.â
Martha shook her head definitely. Her pupils, resembling black pearls, shone with a clear light that was missing before.
âThe fact remains that I lost, and in the most miserable way, at that.â
She knew better than anyone the reason that she lost to Raon.
âThe defeat wasnât because of my carelessness. I simply lost, thatâs all.â
Raon sliced through her sword using that red aura. Since a swordsman had lost her sword, the victor was already decided at that point.
And yet, he threw away his own sword and fought her a second time, using his fists.
If she acted shamefully towards someone whoâd fought her like that, her father would be more disappointed in her.
âA Zieghart should keep their promise, even if it is a stupid one. Iâm sure Father would say the same thing.â
âCertainly. Sir Denier wouldâve said the same.â
âAs a daughter, I canât bring shame upon him.â
âIndeed.â
Camel visibly lifted the corners of his mouth and laughed, as if he were praising her.
âCamel, do you have a knife?â
âYes, I do. But whyâŚ?â
âGive it to me.â
âHere it is.â
Martha stared at the thin dagger Camel handed over for a while, then unsheathed it.
Whack!
Nodding with determination, she cut her ebony hair from the middle without hesitating.
âMy⌠My lady!â
âItâs fine. Iâm parting with my idiotic and ugly self from before.â
Martha smiled, letting the cut hair fly away with the wind. Her smile was shining like a snowflake.
âHuhâŚâ
Camel gasped, since he hadnât expected that to happen.
âPlease cancel the direct line training tomorrow morning.â
âPardon? Itâs not difficult to cancel it, but what are you planning to doâŚâ
âI have somewhere to go.â
Martha declared, entering the mansion.
Watching her back as she entered the mansion, Camel nodded kindly.
***
After finishing the daybreak training on the last day of the holidays, she immediately left her mansion.
Evading Camel and the maids, who were asking where she was going without even taking her breakfast, she went towards the annex building in the west alone.
It was pretty far away, but since the road was nicely paved, she could find it without any difficulty.
As she kept walking to the west, she could see a small house surrounded by a small garden.
âDoes he live there?â
Martha furrowed her brows, as it was small and shabby compared to the structures in the main building.
However, since the house she used to live in before she was adopted was way smaller than the annex building, it didnât incite any other emotion from her. She didnât care and kept walking towards the garden.
âSomebody is there.â
A blond body was squatting down at the flower bed, digging the ground and planting flowers.
âHuh?â
Marthaâs eyes widened.
âRaon Zieghart?â
Sheâd thought he was a servant, but he wasnât. The one who was planting flowers was Raon Zieghart, who made her taste defeat for the first time.
Raon dusted off his hands and stood up. It looked like he noticed her as well.
âWhatâs the matter?â
ââŚâŚâ
Martha didnât respond, standing in front of the flower bed that Raon was taking care of. The flowers looked fresh and healthy, probably because heâd just watered them.
âHe has this kind of hobby?â
Sheâd thought he was too precocious, so she was surprised at finding a childish side to him.
âWhat should I do?â
The reason that Martha visited Raon was simple.
She wanted a rematch.
She kept thinking about her defeat after reading her fatherâs advice, but she couldnât remember how she lost.
Since she couldnât remember, she had no idea how large the difference in abilities was between them, and whether there was any way of making up for it or not.
In short, she couldnât reflect.
Therefore, she needed a rematch.
She wanted to determine the difference between her and Raon by fighting him with a clear mind.
âHaaâŚâ
Martha sighed heavily and lifted her head. She carefully opened her mouth while looking into Raonâs eyes, which were as calm as a lake.
âI want to try fighting you again.â
âNot admitting defeat is a bit disturbing.â
âNo, Iâm not refusing to admit to having lost so easily. I just canât tell how I lost, and I came looking for you in order to figure that out.â
ââŚâŚâ
Raonâs eyes shone for a second. He seemed to think it was unexpected.
âThen, whatâs the offer?â
âWhat?â
âFor a loser to challenge the victor once again, youâd have to give something away, wouldnât you?â
âHell no! You donât need a prize in order to fight!â
âI do.â
âUghâŚâ
Martha groaned lightly.
âThis is why.â
Because he never wanted to come out at a loss, sheâd felt like Raon wasnât actually a child.
âYou donât have one? Itâs troublesome if you donât.â
Raon crossed his arms, showing that he had no intention of fighting.
âHmmâŚâ
âWhat shall I do?â Martha thought as she looked at Raon, biting her lip. Then she looked at the flowers below.
âShall I try stepping on it a little?â
Since he was taking care of the flower bed at that hour, he mustâve loved the flowers. If she provoked him by harming them a little, he would probably attack her.
âYou must like the flowers, although that doesnât suit you.â
Martha secretly moved her foot towards the flower bed.
âNot really.â
Despite her expectations, Raon shook his head while tapping his trowel.
âWhat?â
âI said I donât like flowers, and I donât understand why people like them either. I was only taking care of them because of my mother."
ââŚâŚâ
Martha, who was about to step on the flowers, suddenly stopped.
âWhy? Arenât you going to step on them?â
Raon tilted his head while smiling slightly. It seemed he was already aware of her intentions.
âDamn it.â
Martha cursed and pulled back her feet. Hearing that heâd been taking care of the flowers for his mother, who loved the flowers, she didnât feel like stepping on them anymore.
âShit.â
She clicked her tongue. As she was about to turn around, the annex buildingâs door opened and a beautiful woman with her long hair tied back ran out towards them.
âRaon!â
âEh?â
Raonâs eyes, which were as cold as ice, were suddenly flustered.
âMo-mother.â
âI was wondering why I couldnât find you, but you were taking care of the flower bed for me. But who is this, a friend of yours?â
Her eyes were filled with curiosity.
âIs she Sylvia Zieghart?â
The woman who left the household in order to be with her beloved, then returned in order to save her child. She was the familyâs disgrace and was said to belong in the trash.
Maybe it was because sheâd had a similar experience, but she didnât look like trash to Martha, but a courageous mother who lived for the sake of her beloved child.
âSh-sheâs not a friend, she is nothing. Iâll handle it here, so please go back.â
It was a rare sight to see Raon stuttering.
âShe is also pretty. Black hair and black pupils? Ah! Youâre Martha!â
Sylvia smiled brightly while clapping her hands.
ââŚâŚâ
Martha silently nodded.
âI heard you sparred with Raon, were you hurt anywhere?â
Since they were similar to the mother that she missed so much, she could tell that Sylviaâs rose-colored eyes held real worry about her wellbeing.
âIâm fine.â
âThank god, I was worried.â
Sylvia smiled lightly.
âI heard big brother Denier had brought in a very talented child, but there was more to it.â
She thoroughly examined her, and told her that she was really pretty, too pretty.
âBut what brought you here?â
âI had something to tell him. Iâll return since Iâm done now.â
Martha bowed her head and was about to leave.
Growl.
The result of skipping breakfast after her daybreak training occurred.
âAhâŚâ
Marthaâs face turned completely red. When she was about to run away, something warm caught her hand.
It was Sylvia. She flicked her finger while smiling.
âLetâs eat before you go.â
She didnât know why, but Martha couldnât shake off that thin hand of hers.
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What was this?
Raon furrowed his brows, looking at Martha, who was sitting across from him at the dining table.
âI donât even know anymore.â
He could understand Sylvia inviting Martha to eat before she left after hearing Marthaâs stomach growling, since Sylvia is a very kind person.
However, for that crazy girl to be led to the table and modestly wait for the food to be brought out was something unimaginable for him.
Maybe when she cut her hair, she also cut out her bad temper.
âRaon loves meat stews. Thatâs why we always have at least one stew on the menu.â
âAh, I see.â
Sylvia kept smiling. Raon wondered what she was so happy about, and Martha kept responding with a lowered head, as if she was embarrassed.
What is that girl doing? Wasnât her personality different?
âI donât know what's going on either.â
This was the first time since heâd been born into house Zieghart that heâd encountered such an unexpected situation.
The food was brought out soon enough. They were stews, roast beef, vegetables, and baked bread.
âYou are one year older than Raon, right?â
âYes.â
âAre you having any difficulty with training?â
âNot really.â
Sylvia kept talking to Martha while dining, and Martha also kept answering immediately, despite eating.
âHuhâŚâ
Raon tilted his head.
âSeriously, whatâs up with her?â
The first thing Martha would do when someone talked to her was swear. Heâd never imagined seeing her acting so favorably.
âHmmâŚâ
Raon gulped down the stew, unable to tell if he was consuming it through his mouth or his nose.
âWe are very good at cooking, but the quality of the meat is a bit worse than the main building. Make sure to chew it well to digest it better.â
ââŚâŚâ
Marthaâs hand, which was holding the fork, trembled upon hearing Sylviaâs advice.
Since she could start rampaging soon, Raon readied himself to stop her. However, she lowered her head once again and started eating.
Raon wasnât knowledgeable about human emotions, but he felt like Marthaâs hands were expressing some kind of sorrow and yearning.
âThank you for the meal.â
The awkward meal finally ended, and Martha stood up.
âHow was the taste?â
âIt was tasty.â
âIâm glad. Please be friends with Raon from now on.â
Sylvia stood in front of the door, waving her hand at Martha.
âYes.â
Martha unexpectedly gave a normal answer and left the annex building.
âSeriously, what was that?â
She clearly came to pick a fight with him, so he couldnât understand why sheâd suddenly started acting like that.
Did she eat something off?
âProbably.â
Human emotion was really difficult to understand.
***
As soon as she left the annex building, Martha bit her lip. She felt like she was going to cry otherwise.
She looked similar.
Her face, the color of her hair, the clothes she was wearing, and even her voice was different. However, those rose-colored eyes were too similar to her missing mother.
That was why she couldnât shake her off when she caught her hand.
Raon mustâve thought she was crazy.
It was the first time she saw his eyes shivering so much.
Sheâd considered leaving, but she was glad she stayed to finish her meal. Sylviaâs gentle gaze and voice, andâŚ
When she heard her telling to chew it well, which was the nagging that her mother used to give all the time, Martha really felt like she was with her mother.
That was why she wanted to find her mother even more now.
âWhite Blood Religion, those sons of bitches.â
The ones that took away her mother were the White Blood Religion, one of the five demons. She was going to find her mother at all costs, even if she had to kill all those fanatics.
Resolving herself over and over, Martha returned to the main building.
âMy lady, where have you been⌠Huh? No way, were you crying?â
Camel, who was sweeping in front of the door, widened his eyes.
âWhat are you talking about?! I would never do that!â
Martha wiped away her tears and shook her head. She quickly opened the door and was entered the mansion, but then she stuck her head out.
âCamel, can you get some high-quality beef for me?â
âBeef? Of course I can. But what are you going to use it for?â
âI need it for something, so leave it in front of my room once you get it!â
Martha responded, then immediately closed the door and ran up to her room.
âHaha.â
Camel gently smiled while watching her.
âI wonder if she realizes she looks a lot better now than before.â
***
The next day, Raon was headed towards the training ground as soon as he finished his daybreak cultivation. Like always, he was the first one to arrive.
His head was filled with various thoughts because of Martha visiting him the day before, but he decided to think of it as a silly dream.
After a light warm up, he started to train the âCombination Swordâ. As the sun rose, the children started to enter the training ground one after another.
While he was swinging his sword and listening to the trainees' idle chatters, everyone suddenly fell silent.
When he turned his head around, Martha was walking in through the training groundâs wide-open doors.
The trainees were staring at her with their jaws dropped, probably because of her short hair.
âRaon Zieghart.â
Martha stopped in front of Raon.
âI canât retrieve the words I have already spoken. Iâm not going to try making up for everything Iâve done so far with some kind of sloppy apology.â
Her eyes were even calmer than the day before. They looked like a motionless lake.
âBut Iâll keep my promise.â
âPromise?â
âThe promise that we made before the spar, that the loser would obey the winner.â
She turned around after saying that. Her eyes were saying that sheâd completely admitted her defeat.
âItâs bigger than I thoughtâŚâ
For her to change in such a short period of time, she wasnât the average narrow-hearted person. Although, he still couldnât understand why she stayed for the meal the day before.
âWhy the hell are you blocking my way? Fuck off!â
While Raon was tilting his head, Martha kicked away Dorian, who was awkwardly standing in front of her.
âAww! So-sorry.â
âTsk.â
She clicked her tongue and returned to her usual seat.
Raon smirked. It looked like her attitude towards him was the only thing that had changed.