Those words were spoken by Renee, standing upright in the center of an open area with a sword gripped in both hands.
While examining Reneeâs posture, Vera wondered.
âHow did it come to this?â
He had only meant to teach her how to hold a sword, but before he knew it, he was already teaching her how to wield it.
In the meantime, he thought that it was time for them to go back and rest.
âVera?â
âYes, Saint.â
âNow I just have to draw it downwards like this, right?â
Renee continued her questions with a very excited face. Her cheeks were slightly flushed and her smile was so deeply carved that the dimples exploded. Even her movements were energetic.
At that appearance, Vera inadvertently thought âItâs a good thing, anyway,â and approached Renee, dispelling the doubts he just had.
âYou are applying too much strength.â
It was to correct her posture.
Veraâs right hand overlapped with Reneeâs, and his left hand touched her lower back.
Flinch.
As Reneeâs body trembled, her tremor was transmitted to Vera.
Vera felt a sense of unease as he saw Renee pursing her lips together.
There was a stiff sensation on his left hand that was resting on her back. In his right hand, the soft skin of a girl who had never done anything rough was tickling his palm.
He felt like he was doing something he wasnât supposed to, and he felt guilty for some reason.
Nevertheless, one reason why he couldnât stop was because of the sensation of her skin against his. It continued to entice Vera, even though he thought that he was doing something wrong.
Itâs not wrong. Itâs just a matter of adjusting her posture.
Veraâs instincts pressed down on his sense of reason, rationalizing his actions.
âCould you relax a little?â
ââŠYes.â
Reneeâs answer came a beat late. Vera felt a piercing sensation in his chest at the faint tremor in her voice, and he steadied her.
ââŠI will show you the way.â
Shamelessly, he pretended to be calm and guided Reneeâs body.
He placed his left hand, which had been resting on her back, on top of Reneeâs other hand. It became an awkward posture, as if he was hugging Renee from behind.
A vertical slashing stance.
Even as he slowly drew her sword down, Vera had another thought in his head.
Being in this position, Vera couldnât help feel the height difference between him and Renee, and found his attention being drawn to it.
Her height barely reached his shoulders. When he glanced down, he could see the round top of her head. The way she held her breath and drew the sword down felt cute for some reason.
Flinchâ
Thinking such thoughts, Veraâs body jolted.
âVera?â
ââŠItâs nothing.â
Vera managed to answer and kept his mouth shut.
What in the world does âcuteâ even mean?
Surprised and jolted by his own thoughts, Vera frowned slightly and cursed inwardly.
ââŠThis damned Empire.â
Vera attributed his strange feelings to the Empire.
Wasnât that the case? He had been serving Renee without any problems for almost three and a half years now, but after entering the Empire, he started to see her differently.
It wasnât a strange or disillusioning story.
It was just that she looked like a young girl, not the Saint who was supposed to become the light of the world.
He remembered Renee, who wore casual clothes to visit the library. He remembered when she was sitting on a bench in the corner of the library and leaning her head on his shoulder.
That was not all. The small smile that always hung on her lips, her beautifully flushed cheeks, or the warmth and pressure that came from their interlocked hands came to mind one after another, stirring Veraâs insides.
That moment of that day overlapped with this moment.
The small and soft hands trapped inside his and her warmth that spread from there permeated his palms.
There was a hissing sound that felt like it was digging into his ears with every breath breath Renee took.
In addition, they were so close that it was difficult for him to breathe because Reneeâs body scent seemed to fill his nostrils. It was because he was worried that Renee might misunderstand his actions, and he was worried that she might think of himself as a scoundrel secretly sniffing her.
In a very stiff and tense manner, Vera guided Reneeâs sword. He tried to catch his thoughts that kept bouncing elsewhere.
Since Renee was so focused, he thought he should do his best to teach her the sword.
Of course, if Renee knew his thoughts, she wouldâve felt incredibly guilty.
It was because she hadnât been able to focus on the sword even for a single moment after they stood in that position.
The fact that she was here to learn how to hold a sword had already been erased from Reneeâs mind.
There was only one thought in Reneeâs mind right now.
âHotâŠâ
It was the thought of her face burning up.
Her heart was pounding as her whole body was trapped within Veraâs arms.
The back of Reneeâs head was hitting Veraâs solid chest. Thump, thump. A loud beating sound echoed in her ears, and both of her hands were caught between Veraâs hands and felt overwhelmed. She didnât know how to describe it, but if she had to, she would say that her lungs were being filled with his scent.
Renee, who was much more honest to herself than Vera, thought that it would be nice if he would just put down the sword and hug her tight like this.
A pleasant languor, as if thoughts had become hazy, was gnawing her whole body.
She thought that she could fall asleep right away like this if she just closed her eyes and leaned in Veraâs arms.
âŠNo, it was a waste to fall asleep. If she slept now, she couldnât fully enjoy this sensation.
She just wanted to feel the sensations of being held tightly and leaning against him.
She just wanted to be close to him all day, just like they were in the library.
Immediately after that thought came to mind, Renee opened her mouth.
ââŠShall we rest for a bit?â
It was like the day they went to the library. As the thirst piled up, her embarrassment fled far away. She just wanted it. Only that feeling remained, and there was no place for embarrassment to squeeze in.
ââŠYes.â
When Vera, who had answered, tried to remove his hands, Renee quickly continued.
âHere.â
âYes?â
âLetâs just rest here.â
Donât move. When a look of bewilderment flashed through Veraâs face at her words, Renee lowered her head and added.
ââŠMy legs are shaking and I canât move. Letâs just sit down and take a rest like this.â
It was a brazen remark.
Even though she was practicing with the sword, all she did was swing the sword in place.
Fortunately, Vera was not in the right state of mind to pursue it.
Vera bent down slowly and sat down on the dirt floor with Renee locked in his arms.
Renee sat down on top of Veraâs thighs, then put the sword she was holding down on the ground.
âHands.â
When she showed him her empty hands, Veraâs hands overlapped over them, then intertwined with hers.
A strange atmosphere filled the air.
It was an atmosphere that came up when the twoâs hearts, which ran far away with nonsense thoughts even in the midst of teaching swords, met in the bean field.
Renee brought Veraâs tightly clasped hands to the front of her body, creating a position in which she was trapped between his arms.
Flinchâ
Veraâs flinching was transmitted to Renee.
Renee felt a pleasant feeling rise from it. She felt that Vera was conscious of her, and she felt satisfied with it.
Of course, she didnât say it out loud. If she asked if he was conscious of her, Vera might run away in surprise.
Instead of teasing Vera, who was trembling, Renee asked a question to distract him.
âHow much time has passed?â
ââŠThe sun is still up.â
It was a lie. The sun was slowly setting.
Vera lied to Renee for the first time in his life. At the same time, he didnât even realize that he was telling a lie.
He was pleased with this atmosphere for some reason. Having Renee locked in his arms was so satisfying that he thought he wanted to stay like this for a little longer, and so he answered without even looking at the sky.
âItâs relaxing.â
As for what was relaxing, neither of them said anything.
It was just a matter of saying that everything was relaxing.
âHow was Aisha?â
âShe is a talented kid.â
âThatâs a relief. Donât push her too hard.â
âI will keep that in mind.â
âHow are Marie and Rohan these days?â
âThey are working hard to purify the slums. Itâs a place with a lot of germs, after all.â
âI will go with them starting tomorrow.â
âI will let them know.â
Talk about daily happenings came and went. As if the sitting position was nothing, their conversation continued that way as if they were really doing the same thing as usual.
The two deceived themselves, deceived each other, and leaned back like that.
As if it wasnât anything significant, Renee spoke to Vera in a nonchalant tone and leaned the back of her head on his chest.
âThe festival is coming up soon.â
âThatâs right.â
âDidnât you say that the night market had a lot of attractions?â
âYes. The night market, outdoor performances, and auction houses held only during the festival are some of the famous attractions.â
âWhen are we going?â
The questions flowed like water. The option of not going didnât exist⊠at least not for the two of them right now.
âThe festival has so many things to see that I think a day is not enough to look around at everything.â
âThen we can go for a few days.â
âI will take it as that.â
âIâm sure the others are busy, right?â
âIt is indeed so.â
âThen weâll have to go with just the two of us.â
âIâm afraid that will be the case.â
Veraâs gaze was directed into the air, while Reneeâs head was bent toward the floor.
They were smoothly asking each other out on a date as if it was nothing.
âThereâs also the coming-of-age ceremony for His Highness the Second Prince.â
âYes, it is held at the Foundation Day Banquet.â
âI never expected Iâd go to a ball in my life.â
âYou will need a dress.â
âBut Iâm going to give a blessing, so I have to wear the priestâs robe.â
âThe ball will be held after the ceremony, so there shouldnât be any problem.â
âItâs a hassle to change.â
âThen just wear the roâŠ.â
âI will wear it specially because Vera wants me to.â
Tap.
Reneeâs index finger tapped on Veraâs fingernail. When Vera trembled at the touch, Renee spoke in a voice full of laughter.
âHow about a thank you?â
ââŠI am grateful.â
âOh, youâre grateful?â
Giggle.
When Renee let out a laugh, Veraâs heartbeat intensified.
In the empty field where the sun had set, they talked like that for a long time.
***
âOw, Iâm dying.â
Rohan felt his entire body ache as he trudged back to the mansion.
âWhat kind of damn neighborhood doesnât get cleaned no matter how much you purify itâŠ?â
It had been a week since he was assigned to purify the slums and he had continuously purified it by pulling out his divinity everyday, but it seemed like the slums lived up to its name.
The progress of the purification was too slow. Thanks to that, his suffering kept increasing.
âI should go in quickly and rest.â
If I have one big drink and lie down, I think I can forget this hard day.
As Rohan strode down the street with such thoughts in mind, he stopped and frowned at a scene that suddenly entered the corner of his eye.
He saw Vera and Renee sitting overlapped with each other in the middle of the field.
Rohan felt a sharp pain on his nape at the sight. His eyes started to turn bloodshot and he grinded his teeth.
âFuck.â
Someone who was suffering all day was just now on his way back, so he couldnât help but feel angry when he saw people sitting in a secluded spot right in front of him, flirting with each other.
Why does my vision have to be so good?
Rohan felt his blood rush backwards at the clarity of the two peopleâs expressions and the color of their flushed faces.
âAhâŠâ
Rohan shuddered at the throbbing in his side and the outburst of anger before moving again with a distraught look.
ââŠThe festival is the answer.â
The festival. He had to go to the festival.
Only the festival could soothe his heart.
Middle-aged and a bachelor, Rohan was now in his forties.
As he trudged along, blurry teardrops shone in the corner of his eyes.