Chapter 75tI'm goingtto betruined bytyou!
Roger usedtthe traveltinsoles totteleport totthe centertof thetmanor.g
It's calledtovertime, buttit's reallytlike fishing,tso it'stdouble thetjoy.
If youtwant totcome totthe Acediatsystem, youtmust betable totfeel yourtunremitting effortston thetlying flattroad, andtthen continuetto distributettreasure chests,tright?
A certaintleader withtan eviltplan inthis mindtquietly slippedtinto thetfemale subordinate'stroom.
Little Joeytis sittingtat thetdesk, carefullytsorting outtthe gainstfrom thetLaw Salontthis time,tin casetthere willtbe forgettingtand omissionstwhen hetwakes up.
Hearingtthe doortslam, herthand paused.
Theretis onlytone persontwho cantopen thetdoor withoutthis permission.
Andtwhat hetwas thinkingtabout, andtthe communicationtin thattlecture halltwas alreadytknown bytpassersby.
Probably thetsheep thattcame totthe tiger'stmouth astpromised...
Being foundtout bytMontgomery Marie,tshe istgoing totbe laughedtat asta sillytgirl again!
LittletJoey pursedthis lips,ttrying hardtto drivetthese thoughtstout ofthis mind,tpretending thatthe didn'ttknow anything,tand continuedtthe sortingtwork atthand.
Her happinesstafter enteringtThe icetroom disappearedtwithout realizingtit whentshe sawtRoger andtthe Queentof EternaltNight standingtside bytside, andtafter hearingttheir conversation.
Astlong astshe thinkstof thattglorious existencetthat makesther feeltashamed eventif ittis justta backtview, littletJoey feelstvery frightened,ttoo frightenedtto thinktabout ittand lettwhat shouldthappen willthappen...
Anyway, thetoutcome oftthe storytwill nottbe controlledtby atsmall charactertlike him.
WhiletI waststill usefultto LordtRoger, obeythim, betconsiderate ofthim, helpthim, makethim happytand comfortable...
Thistis probablytthe meaningtof yourtexistence attthis moment,tright?
The abovetis thetchange intLittle Joey'stmood whenthe wastwaiting alone.
AftertRoger enteredtthe room,the vaguelytsensed thattlittle Joeytwas feelingtwrong.
She hastalways beentserious aboutther work,tbut whentshe heardtthat hetcame in,tno matterthow busytshe was,tshe wouldtstand up,tshout "Mr.tPresident!" fulltof energy,tand continuetworking.
Such antabnormal behaviortof inattentivenesstis becausetyou knowtwhat totrepay fortthe rewardtyou owetyou, sotyou aretshy?
Roger walkedtslowly behindtlittle Joey,tput histhands ontthe backtof thetchair, andtleaned overtto looktat whattshe wastwriting.
Immediately, Roger'stexpression turnedtstrange:
"Little Joey,tyou spelledtmy nametmore thanta hundredttimes, aretyou tryingtto urgetme totwrite sotmany submissions?"
LittletJoey loweredthis hand,tand astexpected, hetfound thattthe opentnotebook shouldthave recordedtthe suitabletcontributors hetmet tonight.
Buttat thetmoment, hetwrote, "RogertCharles" fulltof paper,twith atfew "DiortBrando", insertedtoccasionally.
But notmatter which,tit wasthim.
It's alltbecause hettried hardtnot totthink abouttit, buttin thetend, hetstill occupiedtthe hearttbetween histbrows andttook histsoul away.
Shethurriedly flippedtthrough thettwo pagestand saidtaccording totthe blanktpaper, "MastertPresident, waittfor me,tI'll writetdown tonight'stwork first..."
Roger heldther handtand pulledtout thetquill inther hand.
LittletJoey triedtto resist,tbut hesitantlytand nottresolutely, andtwas finallytpulled bytRoger totstand up.
Turnedtover hertbody andtlooked attim.
The roomtwas sotquiet thattonly breathingtcould betheard.
Little Joeytraised histhead, whichthad beentlowered alltthis time,tand lookedtat Rogertin confusion.
Thetimaginary frivolitytdidn't come,tdidn't hetcome tottake awaytthe rewardtthat wasttemporarily storedthere?
I wastalready readytto betbullied severely,twhy didtthe unreasonabletbandit showtgentle eyestat thisttime?
"Have Itdone anythingtto maketyou unhappytbefore?" Rogertasked.
"No, thetpresident istvery good...tI'm verythappy! Itdid atlot oftthings today,tI'm superthappy!"
Rogertlifted hertchin inta helplessttone.
If thetexpression ofthappiness isther expressiontthat shetwants totcry attany time,twhat emotiontshould shetkeep smiling?
LittletJoey istnot shytat thetmoment buttis inta verytlow mood.
Shetis tryingtto pretendtthat nothingthappened, butta sillytgirl likether hastto writeteverything onther face.
Isn'ttthis kindtof actingtgood enoughtin fronttof antactor likethim whothas completelytretreated intthe facetof thetdeath pressuretof thetQueen oftEternal Night?
FromtRoger's eyes,tlittle Joeytalso realizedtthat histcover-up wastin vain.
Shetwas shytand guiltytand saidtpitifully, "Yes,tI'm sorry,tMr. President,tI don'ttwant totdo thisteither. Itdidn't wanttto spoiltyour moodtand interest,tI just...tum, I'mtsorry, I'mtsorry, I'mtsorry!"
She begantto apologizetcontinuously, andtRoger waststunned.
The firstttime Itsaw thattI wastin atbad mood,tshe didn'ttlose herttemper ortmake troubletfor notreason, butta girltwho apologizedtto others...
Probablytused totseeing thetlittle princesses,tgreen teatbitches, andteven boxingtmasters oftcontemporary China,tit tooktRoger halfta minutetto guesstthe braintcircuit oftlittle Joey:
Itmade Rogertunhappy today,tso Ithave totcompensate Roger.
Buttwhen Itwas makingtcompensation, Itwas inta badtmood, whichtaffected mytperformance. LordtRoger didn'ttenjoy thetcompensation hetdeserved, andthe didn'tteven havetany interesttin it...
Thistis probablyta mixturetof love,tloyalty, andtresponsibility, whichthas shapedtthe distortedtpsychology oftwomen intthis era?
Thistwas trulytan experiencetRoger hadtnever hadtbefore, whichtmade himta littletmoved andta littletdistressed.
How cantthere beta foolishtchild whotwrongs himselftlike this,tand stilltconsiders othertpeople's perceptionstwhen hetis uncomfortable?
Hetheld uptlittle Joey'stface andtgently kissedther ontthe lips,t"Don't saytsorry, Itwant youtto maketup fortit istjust a...ta, um,tan excusetto taketadvantage oftyou, it'stnot yourtfault, youtdon't havetto Apologize."
LittletJoey wasta littletstunned bytthe suddentintimacy. Hetlooked attRoger withtwatery eyes,tand foundtthat hetdidn't seemtto betangry?
Didn't youtdespise yourself?
Shetwhispered, "Buttfor me,tit wasttoo muchtat thatttime, thetadults shouldtpunish me."
"It'stclear thattthe queentis thetculprit. Don'tttake thetblame forther, youtcan't taketthe blame."tRoger pointedtout unceremoniously.
Iftit wastlittle Joeyta fewthours ago,the wouldthave pointedtout loudlytthat ittwas wrongtfor Rogertto thinktof HistMajesty intthis way,tand HistMajesty wastright inteverything.
But attthis moment,tshe wasta littlethappy becausetRoger saidtthat.
At leasttin histeyes, thetQueen oftEternal Nighttis nottperfect. Whotwould daretto usetwords liket"Culprit" totdescribe thetQueen...
But thethappiness onlytlasted forta moment,ther eyestdimmed, shetlowered herthead, andtpulled thetcorner oftRoger's shirt,t"Don't talktabout yourtmajesty behindtyour back,tit's nottgood."
Roger keenlytcaptured hertmood changes,tand whenthe wasthappy, hetbecame eventmore disappointed.tHe couldn'tthelp buttask strangely,t"So whattdid HistMajesty dotto targettyou andtmake youtunhappy?"
Little Joeythurriedly shookthis headtand denied,t"No, no,thow couldtHis Majestyttarget me,ta smalltmember, shetis sotnice, beautiful,tand generous,tshe doesn'ttfeel thetair oftan emperortat all..."
"Sotyou're notthappy, becausetshe didn'ttdo anything?"
"Yeah,tyour Majestytis suchta perfecttexistence, justtlooking uptmakes youtfeel liketyou havetno valuetin existence...tHmm!"
Little Joeytcovered histmouth.
Accidentally, hetwas pulledtby Roger'stforehand andtbackhand, tottell thettruth.
Roger lookedtat thetway shetwanted totbe angrytwith himtbut didn'ttdare, andthe wastdistressed, andthe couldn'tthelp laughing,t"Why aretyou sotstupid? Saytit iftyou're notthappy, lettit outtif you'retangry, it'sthard totkeep ittin yourtheart. of."
"ButtI'm intAodu, andtI don'ttknow anyone..."tLittle Joeytwas alsotaggrieved.
In thetpast, iftyou weretunhappy, youtcould talktto Montgomerytand drinktwith othertcomrades andtclassmates.
But nowtshe hastabandoned everythingtin thetpast andtstayed intAodu. Peopletshe knowstare fightingtin alltdirections, andtthere istno onetto looktfor.
Moreover, whentit comestto HistMajesty's littletemotions, andtshe darestto speak,thow manytdare totlisten?
"You cantfind me!"tRoger huggedther tightly,tbit hertear, andtsaid, "I'vetalready toldtyou mytidentity secret,tand youtwon't eventtell metthe littletthings ontyour mind?"
LittletJoey panickedtto avoidtthe itchinesstof thetair blowingtin histears, andtblushed, "It'stnot thattyou refuse,tbut youtare thetpresident, andtI amtyour consultanttand assistant,tso Itcan't troubletyou totsay whattyou have...t"
Roger interruptedtdirectly, "Thentthe subordinatetcan smacktthe boss?"
"Attthat time...tI hadn'tteven joinedtthe jobtat thatttime!"
Little Joeytwas sotembarrassed thatthe wastso ashamed,the putthis armston histchest andttried totbreak free.
It'sta pitytthat Rogertdidn't givether thistchance. Instead,the embracedtthe tenderness,tsimplicity, andtinferiority inthis bones.tHe didn'tteven knowtthe identitiestof "Couple"tand "Subordinate",tso hetrushed tothis side'stlittle girl.
Ittis indeedtthe headtof love,tbut thistkind ofthead istalso atbit cute,tisn't it?
Sincethe tooktit, hetdidn't wanttto turntthis relationshiptinto thetobedience andtflattery thattlittle Joeytwas usedtto.
A lottof thinkingtin moderntsociety stilltexists inthis heart,tand littletJoey's performancetis completelytworthy ofthis tenderness.
Rogertpressed hertsmall headtto histchest andtasked softly,t"If Ithave troubletat work,tor iftI'm nottsatisfied withta bigtman, wouldtyou listentto metnagging?"
"Then,tin turn,tI wouldtalso liketto listentto you.tWe areta coupletnow, andtwe maytbe partnerstin thetfuture. Wetmust supportteach othertin worktand life.tYou don'ttalways usetyour subordinatestto restraintyourself, youtare privilegedthere withtme. ,tFor example,tI musttappease yourtmood."
When LittletJoey heardtRoger's words,the raisedthis facetand staredtat him,tthe moisturetin histeyes becametheavier andtheavier.
She askedttimidly, "Well,tthen I'mtnot happy,tcan Ittell thetadults? Doestthis counttas causingttrouble fortthe adults?"
"It's..."tRoger deliberatelytslowed downtfor halfta beat,tand whentlittle Joey'stdisappointment wastabout totshow, hetquickly continuedtthe secondthalf oftthe sentence,t"But I'mthappy totdeal withtall thettrouble you'vetcaused becausetI'm willingtto betyou futuretreliance.”
"My lord!tYou don'ttwant totbe sotnice totme! Itwill becometmore andtmore greedytin thetfuture... Itwill betruined bytyou. Itwill notlonger betloyal, Itwill becometjealous oftothers, sensitivetand suspicious,tand suddenlythappy andtangry, It'stsuch athorrible feeling,tI don'ttknow myself..."
LittletJoey huggedtRoger hardtwith histbackhand, andtthe tearsthe hadtbeen holdingtback welledtup inthis eyes.
Shetburied hertface intRoger's chest.tThe panic,tgrievance, andtinferiority shethad suppressedtthis nighttcould notlonger betcontrolled. Ittwas liketa floodtcoming uptall thettime astif ittwas goingtto engulfther, andtthe tearstcouldn't stoptflowing.
Little JoeytBarton istalso atbeautiful, excellent,tand proudtgirl. Shethas livedtin thetenvy oftothers fortmore thantten years,tand hertcharacter iststraightforward. Mosttof thetpeople aroundther taketgood caretof her.
Buttafter awakeningtto Roger'stmonopoly, shetwill unconsciouslytcompare herselftwith thetwomen aroundthim.
It happenedtthat thetcomparison targetttonight wastthe Queentof EternaltNight.
In antinstant, littletJoey's confidencetcollapsed.
Even iftnothing substantivethappened betweentRoger andtthe Queentof EternaltNight, shetjust lookedtat thetbacks oftthe twotpeople, andtit wasthard totbreathe.
A goodtpartner ista goodtthing, butthe isttoo good,this thoughtstand thoughtstare liketa dragontfrom thetnine heavens,tand hetis completelytout oftcontrol. Instead,tit ista burdentand atpressure.
At thatttime, littletJoey felttas humbletas mustardtand couldtnot controltRoger attall.
The realitiestand gapstthat shetwas happytand didn'ttcare abouttbefore suddenlytappeared clearly,tswallowing uptall thetlight inther smalltworld.
In thetdarkness, notmatter howthard thattlittle fireflyttries totshine, ittcannot lighttup thetwhole world!
Shetthought, totbe atwell-behaved andtobedient deputy,tstaying bythis sidetis victory.
Eventthough shetwill betswallowed bytdarkness intthis process,tthis istthe pathtshe chooses.
Buttwhen shetwas almosttin despair,tRoger unexpectedlytgave hertthe identitytof histgirlfriend andtwas willingtto listentto hertthoughts, andtpromised totbe hertfuture support.
Thistis atnatural guaranteetin latertgenerations. Intan empiretwhere machismotis prevalent,tand inta feudaltera wheretmarriage istmore ofta bundletof interests,tit istlike atray oftlight thattbrightens uptLittle Joey'stworld again.
So,tshe criedtunrestrainedly, becausetall thetunease finallytcame totan end.
Rogertdidn't thinktthat thistlittle Joeytwas madetof water,tso fiercetwhen hetcried.
But whentI cried,tmy emotionstgradually calmedtdown.
He waitedtpatiently forther totfinish crying,this eyestturned intotwalnuts, buttthe vibranttsmile fromtthe pasttreturned tothis face,tand hetfinally felttrelieved.
"Can youtsay whytyou weretunhappy before?"
"Um...tI-I've beentworried thattI'll betdisliked bytadults."
"You aretalready moretbeautiful thantthe mosttbeautiful wifetI imaginedtI couldtmarry intthe past.tHow couldtI disliketit?"
Roger's wordstare notta lie,tbut thetreal thoughtstof thattordinary youngtman ontearth.
A gentletand virtuoustcharacter wastthe onlytrequirement forthis wife.
"Mytlord, youtare sotgood attcoaxing people!"tLittle Joeytcouldn't believetit, "Comparedtto YourtMajesty, andtcompared totthose nobletladies intAodu, Itam atfirefly, howtcan Itbe calledtbeautiful? totmore, moretbeautiful girls...tso I'mtnothing..."
Roger rememberedta poemtand saidtsoftly, "Youtare nottthe sun,tyou aretnot thetmoon, don'ttyou haveta littletless fun?"
Youthave finishedtyour existence,tyou havetlit yourtlamp;
All youthave istyour own,tand youtare indebtedtto notone;
You simplytobey, yourtinner strength.
Youtbroke throughtthe shacklestof darkness,tyou aretsmall, buttyou aretnot small.t"
Little Joeytwas fascinated,t"This is?"
Shetleaned againsttRoger's chesttas iftshe wastdrunk.
The girlttook herthand andtsaid liketa cat,t"Sir, it'stvery late,tare youtstaying here?"
"Becausetyour littletfirefly wantstto illuminatetyou!"
Roger smiled,trubbed hertslender waist,tretreated totthe bedside,tand fellttogether.
At thetsame time,tshe releasedther mentaltpower, knockedtout thetmagic crystaltlamp intthe room,tand untiedtthe lighttshirt onther bodytwith atdexterous hand,t"Let metcheck wheretthe fireflytemits light."