After the kidnapping, I suffered for a full three days. My whole body screamed with muscle pain. The doctor told me that my ankle ligament was stretched and my arm muscles were injured.
I wasnât surprised because it was expected. Because I used excessive skills with the body of a 10-year-old child.
The kidnappers seem to have been lucky to preserve their lives. Well, Iâm not sure if I should say theyâre lucky because they were taken to the capital.
Whether getting killed for touching the bloodline of the imperial family, or getting silenced by the mastermind, their future will not be bright.
In fact, the scariest thing about this incident is not to get hurt.
What Iâm really afraid of isâŠ
The nagging.
Two days after my body recovered, I was called to my fatherâs study.
âDo you know why I called you?â
âAre you going to praise me for doing a good job in rescuing His Highness safely?â
I smiled awkwardly and opened my fatherâs heart.
Itâs a failure. Fatherâs expression hardened even more.
âUm, well, come to think of it, itâs not very safe. Because he was hurt.â
I muttered as I recalled Caesar, who was still lying motionless in his bed.
After a short sigh, Father spoke again in a slightly softened voice.
âHelena. Your mother and I already know that you are no ordinary child. Thatâs why Iâm worried about it.â
âDo you think Iâm so outstanding that I might beat my brother and take over the duchy?â
âYou donât have the will to do that, do you?â
âThatâs true.â
Indeed, my father. You know me so well.
âWeâre worried that youâll get caught up in something you canât handle because youâre too good. Like this time.â
UhmâŠ
Iâm not sure I follow.
I thought it was something worth doing, and I jumped in because I thought this would be the best thing to do. The results are all good, so why should I be scolded for this?
âI donât do things that I canât handle.â
âYeah, youâre a smart kid. But no parent wants their 10-year-old daughter to rush into a kidnapper.â
Is that so?
My father in my previous life said that he enjoyed the anecdote of me sealing the dragon.
âHelena. Why do you want to teach Leonard?â
âI think it will be fun.â
âDonât you want to hold a sword yourself?â
âItâs not that I donât want to, but itâs not fun because Iâm going to win anyway.â
âItâs something you, whoâs not motivated in everything, wanted, so I will listen to you. However, if you allow this to happen, you will be recognized as a âspecial childâ. I donât know if thatâs right or not.â
âBecause I might get caught up in something I canât handle?â
âYes. Viscount Noct is already impatient to take you to the capital. He wants to hire an excellent teacher and cultivate you properly.â
Hamilton said that? Another human being like my teacher in my previous life appeared.
Well, I donât think any excellent teacher would do better than me.
âEven so, do you want to teach Leonard?â
The life of a âspecial childâ that my father refers to is clearly contrary to my ideal of wanting to live quietly and lazily.
But I canât find anything else interesting.
Whatever I do, itâs just boring.
Iâll do what I want to do. I wonât do what I donât want to do.
Thatâs how Iâm going to live this life.
âI still want to teach.â
I answered in a determined voice.
***
I thought I should visit Caesar, but somehow I hesitated.
Maybe itâs because of the guilt that he got hurt because of me. If I hadnât hesitated and conflicted then, Caesar wouldnât have been hurt.
Eventually, on the seventh night, I planned to take advantage of dawn to visit Caesar.
I would just go there and check Caesarâs condition when he is sleeping. This way I donât have to deal with embarrassing situations.
Good. Perfect.
Thatâs what I thought.
â⊠Helena. Did you turn into a thief?â
This punk. Why arenât you sleeping yet?
Sneaking into Caesarâs room, I almost fainted when I saw Caesar sitting on the bed reading a book.
Trying to avoid the awkward situation of saying sorry to each other only to end up in a more embarrassing situation!
âW-Why arenât you sleeping?â
âI canât sleep. So, what are you doing in someone elseâs room at this late hour?â
Caesar, who had spoken up to that point, was startled with a sudden âhuhâ and covered himself with his hands.
âYou were going to attack me while I was sleeping!â
âShut up.â
You have a knack for making all my regrets disappear, you punk.
Sneaking around is a failure. I sighed and walked over to the bed and sat down.
âEveryone came, but you were the only one who didnât come. Youâre so petty.â
âAs long as I knew you survived.â
âWhatâs with that tone? Itâs uselessly solemn.â
Caesar smirked.
Seeing him smile makes me feel reassured. I thought he might be terrified.
Because heâs still 14. Because heâs still young.
It was such a harsh day for us.
âHowâs your injury?â
âItâs still burning. Itâll heal soon.â
âWill the scar remain?â
âWell.â
âWhat if you canât get married because of the scar?â
âHaha, I donât think anyone can see it because itâs on my back.â
âThatâs a big problem. Naturally, a man must have a genuine personality and white jade-like skin.â
âAre you pretending to be an old man?â
âCaesarâs personality is terrible as well. Your marriage prospects are bad.â
âWhoâs pointing out whose personality now?â
Caesar wrinkled his nose and grumbled. Then he avoided my gaze and muttered.
âWell, if you have nowhere to go, you can take responsibility for me.â
I could see Caesarâs slightly red cheeks even in the dark.
âI donât want to. Marrying into the imperial family, there must be a lot of bothersome things to do.â
âWhat is it that doesnât bother you!â
Caesar shouted because his face turned red. I shouldnât have made fun of him. Even so, itâs a problem if the sick childâs wound bursts due to high blood pressure.
âSince youâre in good condition, Iâll be leaving now. Itâs late, so go to sleep.â
âHey, are you going already?â
âWhat do you mean already? Itâs 3 in the morning.â
âUhm, well⊠thatâs true.â
Caesar muttered and avoided my gaze.
After getting out of bed, I thought about it for a while and sat back in bed.
Actually, there is one thing that has been on my mind ever since.
Caesarâs face became emaciated enough to worry about.
I took it for granted because he was a patient, but I suddenly thought there might be other reasons.
No matter how much sleep you get during the day, reading a book at 3 in the morning is a bit suspicious.
âCanât you sleep?â
I asked carefully.
Caesar just bowed his head without answering. However, a dark expression became the answer to my question.
âWhatâs the matter?â
I gently grabbed Caesarâs hand. Caesar closed his lips and hesitated for a long time, then opened his mouth in a voice full of dread, despite the lively voice from a while ago.
âIâm scared.â
Of course itâs scary.
âCause heâs only 14.
Right, he was that kind of kid. Instead of crying or feeling melancholy, he was a bluffing, blunt, and enduring kid.
I remember the day I first met him. He is a 14-year-old boy who is rather arrogant in order not to be intimidated by people who will not welcome him.
âIâm afraid to go back to the Imperial Castle. Theyâre all trying to kill me.â
âBut there will be those who want to protect Caesar. Someone like my father or the Viscount.â
âHow long do you think they will be able to protect me?â
Caesar said as if he were arguing.
âI donât want to die. I just want to give up the throne and go down to the countryside. I just want to live quietly.â
âEven if you give up the throne, Caesar will not be safe. Rather than leaving a remnant, it is neat to kill them altogether.â
Caesarâs face turned white at my unambiguous words.
This is what Iâve already experienced in my previous life. Of course, I was the one who murdered the half brothers.
âIt will be more dangerous. If you give up the throne, there will be no one to protect Caesar.â
âIâm⊠aware of that as well.â
Caesar clasped his face with both hands.
âI know. But what do you want me to do?â
âWhat do you mean? Of course you have to be emperor.â
âIs it that easy?!â
âWhy isnât it easy? Caesar is the first prince. 1st place successor. Thereâs no other condition thatâs as easy as this.â
âDonât say it so easily because itâs not your business!â
Caesar yelled at me.
Well. As I ascended to the throne after living as a wanderer, I donât think there could be any easier conditions than this.
But it cannot be explained that way. I leaned a little closer to Caesar and said.
âCaesar, listen. Humans are strange animals, so when the opponent weakens, they try to bother them even more. But a biting mouse doesnât even catch a cat.â
âWhat does that mean?â
âAt times like this, you donât have to run away, but you have to go stronger. You have to show them that if they touch you, their life will be ruined.â
Caesar looked astonished at my straightforward expression.
âWhere does a young lady from a precious family learn such harsh words?â
âIs that important now?â
âI canât do that. Iâm not confident. I am not as strong as you.â
âNo, Caesar is strong. You risked your life to save me.â
âIt was just the body moving. The truth is, I wanted to run away because I was scared.â
âNo one who has achieved any great achievement has done it without fear. Itâs scary, but you can do it.â
Everyone is like that.
Me too. Because I did that.
âUnless you are a fool, listen to me. Donât run away from this.â
âHelena, I⊠Do you think I will be able to become emperor safely?â
âLetâs make it happen. Thereâs nothing that can just be done, Caesar.â
I looked at Caesar and said forcefully.
âItâs okay. Iâll stay with you. I will make you emperor.â
It was only then that Caesarâs expression relaxed.
He was probably desperate for someone he can fully trust.
I understand. Me too, because I did.
A âspecial personâ is always lonely. Yes, I know what my father is concerned about.
Even so.
Even if itâs beyond my control, I want to be on his side.
âAre you relieved now? Do you think you can sleep?â
âI donât know.â
After Caesar lay in bed, he stared at me with his eyes wide open.
âSometimes I feel like youâre way older than me.â
âNow you know, baby boy.â
âBut I am older than you.â
âYou canât sleep alone because youâre scaredâ.
âUntil today.â
Saying so, Caesar grabbed my arm. Like pulling me into the bed.
âSo, just sleep here for today.â
Men and women are different, so what are you talking about now?
Well, as long as my mother doesnât find out, it doesnât matter. He and I are still young.
Eventually I crawled up onto the bed and laid down next to Caesar.
âThanks.â
Caesar murmured so, and then closed his eyes. His expression seemed relaxed, so I closed my eyes in peace.
Come to think of it, I havenât told him thank you for saving me yet.
I thought so late, but it was hard to open my eyes again. Well, thereâs nothing we can do. It is too much to ask a 10-year-old child to stay up until dawn.
So the two of us held each otherâs hands and passed through that long and terrifying night together.
***
That summer was as short as long.
The wound on Caesarâs back eventually left a scar.
Hamilton was eager to take me to the capital until the last day, but my father firmly refused.
On the day of separation, as when Caesar first came, the hall was followed by a grand procession of greetings.
When Caesar came and stood before me, I suddenly thought that his dark hair had grown quite a bit over the summer.
âTake care, Your Highness.â
I greeted him by bending my knees slightly and then straightening them, just like the first time. Unlike then, Caesar smiled softly at me.
âIs Helenaâs only student, Leonard?â
When asked out of the blue, I glanced at Leonard standing next to me and looked at Caesar again.
âThatâs right.â
âWell. I canât beat your own brother, so Iâll yield first.â
âYes? What do you mean?â
âTeach me swordsmanship too.â
Ding!
Ah, I wish this sound effect was attached to the people around me, not me.
In particular, Hamilton should be given an extra-large size.
âHow? Iâm not going to the capital, am I?â
âItâs okay. Every summer Iâll come here. Will it be fine, Duke?â
Caesar looked at my father and laughed.
Even in this sudden situation, my father did not panic and replied, âYou are welcome at any time, Your Highness.â Itâs really in contrast to Hamilton, whose face has lost color.
âYou promised, right? You will stay by my side until I take the top spot.â
Well. Uh, you see, I made that promise because I was worried.
In embarrassment, Caesar smiled mischievously and reached out to me.
âWhat do you think? Will you accept me as a student?â
⊠Thereâs really no reason to refuse.
It was an offer I coveted because I wanted to teach such a genius.
I smiled and looked at Caesar.
âIâm kind of tough, Your Highness.â
âIâm a bit stubborn, Master.â
âAlright. Letâs do our best.â
I took Caesarâs outstretched hand and shook his hand. Just like when I first met him.
âIâll come back when summer comes.â
Caesar said with a refreshing smile.
But I feel that his smile has changed a lot from that of a 14-year-old. At least his eyes were no longer the eyes of a refugee.