Chapter 36

Chapter 36: 36

What I cut out and Uffi talks about is the desire I have. The thought that you should not make me king and the advantages if you get the throne. Of course, I’ll tell you all I can think about when I couldn’t be king.

My father, listening to Yufi, always looked difficult. My mother is distracted, but she still squeezes her expression to listen. The Knights of Sprout show confusion but remain silent, and Lord Grants has the same faceless expression.

“… to the point of becoming…”

After Uffi had finished talking, he opened for a little while and then his father exhaled deeply, trying to keep his body behind his back. And I look up at the ceiling just a little bit, and I close my eyes.

How much would I have done that? I felt a long time of silence. Father didn’t say anything, he just doesn’t move with his eyes closed.

“… it’s Grants”

“What is it, Your Majesty”

“The rest, I think, is impudent.”

Waking himself up, his rising father turns back to Lord Grants, who had refrained behind him. I can’t see that face because you turned your back on us.

“… Your Majesty. We, the Duke, are ready to offer ourselves to the kingdom.”

“I know…. forgive me, Grants. The rest, I always pretend to be your devotion.”

“Don’t let them ask you stupid things. It is the result of His Majesty’s reign. Whether I’m happy or not, I can’t help but think it’s impudent.”

“You don’t know how many young kids…”

My father, who returned his words to Lord Grants without strength, looks back. There was a tired look on his face like he’d given up.

“… it’s Uphilia. I only took your advice.”

“Your Majesty…”

“But. Let’s just say it’s still premature to admit it. Spirit covenant, indeed, that is a feat that the First King exchanged. It can lead to the legitimacy of the road to the throne. But there’s no reason why it should be you.”

So Father shifts his gaze to me. I take my father’s gaze straight.

“… it’s Anis”

“Yes.”

“Do you resent the rest? After giving birth to someone without magic.”

“No, not even my hair.”

“Then while you draw the” possibility ”… resent the remainder of keeping you away from the spiritual covenant?

To that, I had to stop the words, too. My father kept his spiritual covenant away from me. It’s not like you don’t know it if you say so.

“It doesn’t have to be Uphilia. It would be the same if you gave the” Spirit Contract ”. Then everyone will recognize you.”

“… but Father. My research suggests that spiritual covenants are probably impossible for me.”

“Not even like you! Did you demonstrate that?

“… no”

I didn’t actually try it. I’ve never even looked at it from a real example. I am merely speculating that it is impossible at the moment, and whether that is really impossible is not enough when it comes to verifying it.

I’m not saying I wasn’t interested. But if you still think that you didn’t stick to the spiritual covenant because of your father’s strong opposition, you can convince yourself.

I found a reason to give up myself. So I never looked at the means by which magic might normally be available.

“The rest, I wanted to keep you away from the throne.”

“… Father”

“It is Algard who will be king when a boy is born more than his ex. I was afraid that the wiser you were, the rougher the country would be. For example, you could have linked yourself to a powerful nobleman and targeted a king. I also thought about leaving the country before that. The rest… I was afraid of you, Anisphere. So in case there is, I don’t want you to be able to use magic properly. That’s what I thought.”

… Unexpectedly, my breath trembled.

I was surprised too when I realized you were holding my fist with nature.

“It still seemed loving that you were my daughter because you were smart. You turned away the throne yourself and did not have too much power, but you helped me reign. That you delivered the voice of the people is not something anyone can do. It was you who received the voice of the people and showed me what to do.”

“Father…”

“Laugh but good, Anisphere. I used you above all else, in fear of you. The name Father is a decorative, just a king. I was only a king. If you were inclined to magic, if I recognized its value, you would have soaked up there. It was convenient.”

… Oh well. So, as a family, you feel the wall, and as a boss, it’s convenient.

It hasn’t always been that way. It was what I thought. My father was only a king. Against me all the time, I’ve always been king.

“If it’s inconvenient, it’s good to deprive you of your freedom in the name of the royal family. Until then, throw it away.”

“As a king, it was necessary. Even praising the decision, resentment, etc. And as a father, I don’t want you to think of me as a flirt, Father.”

“… what?

“Who has the fool to let the king do the scratching! I want you not to make me look like a rare fool that far!

… the place froze.

What’s your father talking about, Koz? He’s got a face, and Uffi puts his hand on his forehead and exhales. The Knights of Sprout are blowing out as much as they want, and Lord Grants is poking him with his elbow and hastily retightening his expression.

Raini also blows up in the back and feels signs he’s rushing to fix it. My mother is so open with her eyes open. I keep coughing like I’m trying to fix the place.

“That’s because he was my father. Besides, I thought you handled it like a proper princess when you were king.

“Are you serious about that?

“I mean it! So Father, Father was making you look like a proper father. Maybe that’s what it looks like, but it makes sense to be seen that way, and it’s worth it to think that way. I wasn’t behaving to wait for His Majesty the King to scratch! He was sweet because he was my father!

That’s what I mean. I’m not going to wave the king around on the boulder either. I was going to do something right. Yes, it’s just that even if your father was the king and your father was behaving as king, even if he was afraid of me. What the hell is wrong with that?

… To be honest, I’m not convinced in terms of emotion. But there’s only one thing I’m not convinced of.

“If I resent you, it’s just that you took magic from me.”

“But isn’t that what you were most thirsty for?

“That’s a misunderstanding. I didn’t want to be able to use magic. I wanted to be a wizard.”

“… I can’t convey my intentions. How is it different?”

“For me magic isn’t“ purpose, “it’s“ means. “The magic I had in mind was flying. A feat no one has yet accomplished, and what happens if we can fly. I’ve shown my father what it’s worth.”

“… improved transport convenience, accompanied by logistical developments”

“Yes. To me magic is a means of making someone smile. I am certainly dissatisfied with the fact that the magic itself was taken away. But that’s why I went down the path of magic, and now I am. It’s hard for me to think that I was… unhappy or something.”

That’s all, that’s all. Make me angry, Father.

“Didn’t you, above all, recognize my worth? Father.”

“… Anisphere”

“I didn’t want to be king. I didn’t want to vandalize the country. But still, there’s something I can do without being king, and I kept inventing in magic, hoping to help you, help the people. You and your mother were the first to recognize the value of the Wizards that I admired in denying them. Whatever that intent may be. I didn’t want to hear that.”

No matter who doesn’t admit it, I would have been glad if my parents would have been happy.

If it wasn’t even there, I’d be too miserable. At least I thought you were admitted.

“Was my value just sympathy? Then don’t play witch mountain games. I’ll have to punch you in the side.”

“… if that makes you feel better”

“Are you an idiot! Why aren’t you trying to discuss it! I told you to keep your father’s heart open and that I would not aim for the throne, please do not raise Al-kun as a priority! Didn’t you assert yourself with me! I was flashy for that, but I thought you couldn’t! Because you didn’t say so, and now you’re sinking on your own and regretting it?

“Mm, mmm…”

“It pisses me off! I’m mad at you. I am! That I didn’t trust anything! I was convinced! Do you want to make me so miserable that I didn’t have to tell you everything and I thought it was something I could do as a daughter to be convinced!?”

Really miserable! I thought it would be hard to say the truth because my father is a king, and it would be hard to say things to me, even though I turned my mind! No, maybe it’s out of line to be angry because I used it too, but if you say that, it’s war, Father!

“Never! With my guilt! Don’t be confused! We did make sense without words, and no, it was a little sporadic, but, uh, for what? It’s a little hard to judge, but I thought you came walking with me!

“That’s good enough. Don’t talk, you fool! I feel sorry for you just listening!

Father groans as he hands on his forehead like a headache. Because I say stupid things!

“Father did his best. It’s just that things were too unexpected to have the art of coping…. and the technique of solving happened to be in our hands. That’s all it is. Then, Father, as king, you can only order. If you still don’t feel well, say something to me as my father.”

“… as king, as father?

“I’d be fine with either, if Father cares”

Take my word for it. Father pushes silence. Then after a deep sigh, Father turned his tired eyes to me.

“Anis, how could it be Uphilia… at least something that Uphilia wouldn’t have thought of so far if she wasn’t the other guy!

“……………………… Yes?

“It is still good for Uphilia to be king. No, rather, in the sense that I won’t make you king, it’s best to raise your hands and welcome them! That’s where Algard’s engagement was originally intended! But in order to do that, we have to take Uphilia from Grants! Don’t you know how much I can’t get my head up on Grants!?”

“I don’t know!? Why did the story roll over there!?”

I don’t know why it’s bouldering. Why did you talk to me?

“Bullshit! You couldn’t even educate Loc with me. It’s hard to tell you to do the king! Think of all my hard work that will stop me from getting my head up on Grants!

“I don’t know. Is that so!? And what?!? What’s that misleading way of saying it!

“What a misunderstanding! I thought you said if you were going to fall in love for a long time, you’d be a girl!

… I said… I did say it!

“No, hey, uh, no”

“What?”

“That’s not how I relate to Uffi!

What are they misunderstanding, Father!?

“… Uphilia?

“… ha. Well, I’m prepared to dedicate my life. I was wondering if it would be different if you said so.”

I say with a troubled look on her face somewhere, with Ufiria putting her hand on her cheek. Then Father opened his eyes.

“What is it!?… or do you keep making me mistake! You stupid girl!

“There are elements that piss me off right now!?… There you are!!”

If you say that from time to time, you certainly can’t help but think so! Yeah!

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Then my mother, who had remained silent until now, threw a quiet inquiry at me.

“… so, anise. What about it, actually?

“Yes, Mother?

“Leaving aside your perceptions, it just seems to me that Yuffi came to you to marry you.”

……………………

No, wait, wait. Hot as a fire on my face all at once. Cover your face and squat.

That’s what I see, I see it!? No, I see it… I see it!?

“There’s no precedent in the law for marriage on the same sex. But this isn’t a de facto dowry? Anis.”

“No, come on, Mother”

“What are you waiting for? Indeed, as a queen, let us say that it is the muscle that will allow you to fulfill your spiritual covenant and use magic before you are able to speak of the throne. But I see that Uphilia has the qualities to make up for it. Honestly, I even think it’s a good idea to make up your mind.”

“Wow, my feelings.”

“You don’t want to be king, do you?

I shut my mouth unexpectedly to inquire in my mother’s tender voice.

… I don’t want to be. Because that’s the same heart after all.

“It is a bold hand to welcome Uphilia to my royal family for this reason, but even as an individual if it can be used as a shield for legitimacy. It’s not painful to take Uphilia away from the Duke of Magenta for that… that’s why I’m asking how you feel.”

“Duh, why?”

“You said you’d make Uphilia happy, didn’t you?

“That’s… I told you,”

“Uphilia says she’ll be happy to be next to you, even if she’s cut off from her family, right? Whatever your thoughts, are you prepared to reward them? Annis, you know the weight of becoming king better than anyone.”

“… it is, though”

“If your feelings are not for Uphilia, if Uphilia is going to be royal, I must advise her to make a fiancée. Whether you’re king or Yuffi is king, the inheritance problem hasn’t been solved.”

To Uffi, my fiancée? Again? Yes, the inheritance problem hasn’t been solved whether I am or Ufi.

… it is.

“I don’t like it.”

“… Dear Anis”

“Uffi suffered scattered. I decided to protect Yuffi from the burden of being hurt. If it’s someone Yufi chooses for herself, it’s good if that’s a good person. But if not, I won’t allow it. That’s the atonement that the royal family has made to Uffi, and I don’t want Uffi to think that without making amends.”

“Well, that’s no problem.”

My mother speaks up softly…. That, I don’t know, this unpleasant feeling.

“If you set a precedent for Yuffi entering the royal family, you will also be able to take your prospective children as adoptive children. The premise of a spiritual covenant will be necessary, but it will be a challenge for you to work out. If you can’t accomplish that, you’ll have to turn to them and give birth to an heir.”

“… Mother”

“Or if you’re just going to let me retire… maybe I’ll try my best too. It would be desirable if he were my brother.”

“Yes!?”

“Say what, Sylphine!?”

My father’s barbaric voice overlapped. Does that mean your mother’s gonna have a baby now? No, no, ’cause even your mother’s getting pretty old, and you don’t know if you can do it, do you? It’s also a question of whether you can give it to me safely and have it!?

“Orphans, brace your belly. Sure, I’m old too, but now I have anispheres. I will also be able to find ways to withstand childbirth.”

“No, it is, but”

“What do you do with all the burden on your children! The first step is for parents to fulfil their responsibilities as parents. We miseducated our children. If the parents don’t take the blame, who will!

My mother drank it and my father was sad enough to flaunt my shoulder. No, I do look if they tell me to find a way…!

“If I could set up another son, I would also have a proposal to make Anis or Yufi king of the inner connection. It’s time to prepare the means, Orphans. Or will you have a concubine now?

“… I don’t intend to”

“If so, please do your part. I was also clouded by the cuteness of my child when I realized that my eyes had not yet been clouded.”

My father looks sinister at my mother’s words. Well, Father loves Mother. If you say you don’t like being called concubine now, I don’t know how you feel…

“It won’t be too late for Uphilia to be king after all his hands have been put out. It’s not like I want to take my child away from my parents. That’s good, Grants!

“Ha, as the queen pleases.”

“Matthew, you too! I’ll be working for the Kingsguard Knights from now on. Don’t let me tell you I’m a dull castle worker.”

“Ha!”

Matthew, known as the Knights of Sprout, stretches his spine.

The air on the field was taken to my mother at once. So confused, my mother takes her seat and walks up to me.

“Parents travel before their children. I thought you guys would be left… but there seems to be a lot left to do. It’s not going to be easy to hide.”

“… Mother”

“If that’s what you raised, your parents take responsibility for it…. but Anisphere. You are responsible too. That’s a responsibility you have to fulfil before you can be royal. And the first thing I should have done to you as a parent.”

“… what would that be?

“Be happy,” he said. That’s what I’m gonna teach you. We are a royalty, a symbol, and we cannot escape being bound. We did teach you to admonish, but we didn’t bother to teach you because we thought you were made of nature. We don’t live to be tied up, we live to grasp happiness in our hands. “

My mother’s hands wrap my cheeks. My mother has a pale grin that seeps through her regrets.

That’s… I’m sure it’s not just me, it’s what you wanted to tell Al.

“You loved us. I really didn’t know you cared that much. Because I thought it was vegan. You’re a liar, but you were never a tough kid. No, I’m sure she was the one who had to put her hands on it.”

“Such a thing…”

‘Cause I’ve been a childless kid since I had memories of my previous life, Brad.

He could certainly have been an overdone kid. Because you can’t do magic, think about giving the throne to Al, and behave like that.

“You were not a child to be tied to. You just looked free and made it look that way in your forgiveness.”

“No, it was vegan too…”

“Then our eyes would have been cloudy not realizing the kindness of caring for others. You’ve lived like that for the people, for us, for Algard. It’s too tragic to tie you up like this.”

You don’t have to think of it that way. I was free enough to do it, and I didn’t think I was unhappy. Sure, I’ve thought of it as cramped, because that’s normal as royalty.

But there are no objections. Are you not sure you can tell me well, or did I, really, just want you to say that and admit it?… ‘Cause can you say you’re sweet? I don’t think so, normal. Because being nice to others was normal.

“So look a little further in the face of Uphilia…. you seem blunt to other people’s feelings and your feelings?

My mother’s words whispered so in my ear, and the fever on my cheek, which was about to cool down again, soared.

Face Uffi. Well, I wonder what that means to face it. Making me think about what that means again, I was unintentionally stunned.