Lu Shang was observed in the intensive care unit for the whole night. The next morning, he was transferred to a private room. Li Sui sat beside the bed, he just stared at Lu Shang, not daring to move.
Lu Shang was lying on the bed quietly, electrodes were stuck on his body, he was hooked to a ventilator. Lu Shang looked so frail, as if he would crumble with just one gentle touch. Li Sui reached his hand out to Lu Shang. His hands were cold to the touch and Li Sui couldnât feel a shred of warmth from it. His chestâs movements were also very small. Li Sui was terrified. What if it just suddenly stopped moving? Li Sui would lean forward to check every so often.
Now that all the sharpness and shine were stripped away, Li Sui noticed how Lu Shang was a lot thinner than the average person. Usually, Lu Shang would be wrapped in a thick layer of clothes in winter, so Li Sui didnât realize it. Now, wearing a loose hospital gown, his skinniness was as obvious as day; Lu Shangâs whole body looked thinner than usual. The neck was so frail and tiny that it looked as if one hand could envelope half of it. Li Sui could see Lu Shangâs neck shifting slightly along with his chest. Li Sui shifted his gaze to Lu Shangâs wrist, because of the surgery, Lu Shangâs white skin looked a little more sickly than usual, the blue veins were prominent as well.
The EKG machine next to the bed showed rhythmic lines. Li Sui enveloped Lu Shangâs hand, trying to warm it. But no matter how much he tried, the warmth just couldnât persist. Li Sui called out to Lu Shang lightly, but the person lying on the bed had no reaction to his voice, Lu Shangâs eyes were still shut tightly. Li Sui laid his head on the side of the bed, the smell of familiar shampoo flowed into Li Suiâs nose, the smell was able to calm him down a little.
A constant temperature of 22 degree Celsius was kept inside the room. It was fine when the sun was out, but at night, it could get freezing cold. The nurses were kind and brought Li Sui a blanket, reminding him to have something to eat.
Li Sui didnât have an appetite, he just ate a bit of the bread, forcing it down with congee. Around that time, old Dr. Leung visited, he checked Lu Shangâs temperature and added two new bottles of medicine.
âWhen will he wake up?â Li Sui asked.
âShould be anytime now. Arenât you going to get some rest?â
Li Sui shook his head in objection. Old Dr. Leung examined Li Suiâs arm, seeing that his wounds had healed a lot already, he let Li Sui be. The room was quiet to begin with and, when night came, only the sounds of nurses chatting could be heard. Li Sui leaned on the bed, listening to the vague chatter. He couldnât resist the drowsiness and fell asleep.
He wasnât sure what time it was, but Li Sui felt someone brushing his hair in his dreams. Li Sui opened his eyes immediately. Raising his head, he met a pair of quiet eyes. Eyes like still water.
âYouâre awake?â Li Sui sat up promptly, he was so nervous that his voice was a little rusty. âDoes it still hurt?â
Lu Shangâs face was extremely pale, hearing the voice, he closed his eyelids lightly and shook his head feebly. Lu Shang couldnât move much; he also couldnât speak with the breathing tube still in his trachea.
The doctor on duty was called, removing the tube, the doctor made sure everything was normal. That was when Li Sui finally felt a bit relieved. It was dark outside. Li Sui moved the bed up according to the doctorâs advice, he also got an extra pillow from the wardrobe. Gently, Li Sui lifted Lu Shangâs head and placed the pillow behind him, he then pulled the blanket up. Lu Shang didnât move an inch when Li Sui did all those actions, he was completely at the mercy of Li Sui. The two of them looked directly at each other. Face-to-face, Li Sui only needed to lean forward a little and theyâd be kissing. If Li Sui kissed Lu Shang now, with how weak Lu Shang was, he wouldnât be able to retaliate at all⌠Li Sui was shocked by his own crazy idea and he immediately looked away from Lu Shang.
When the sky began to brighten up, the doctor removed the electrodes on Lu Shang. Li Sui got some cotton swabs from the nurse, dipping it in warm water, he moistened Lu Shangâs slightly cracked lips. Lu Shang couldnât stay conscious for a long time; his consciousness was sometimes hazy. Feeling the moisture on his lips, Lu Shangâs lips twitched slightly. Li Sui continued moving the swab gently and, for some reason, his thoughts were uncontrollably attracted to what he was seeing.
Slowly, without even realizing it, the distance between them shortened. Lu Shangâs pale white face was right in front of Li Sui, so close that Li Sui could feel the warmth of Lu Shangâs breath. It was as if Li Sui was hypnotized, he couldnât move his eyes away from the slowly fluttering, thin lips.
One little kiss? Just one peck, he wonât even notice it, right?
Li Sui closed in on Lu Shang, he pecked Lu Shangâs lips ever so gently. Quickly he drew away from Lu Shang, so fast that he didnât even get the chance to savor the sensation of touching those lips.
It was but a simple action, yet, to Li Sui, it was as if he had stolen a world treasure. He was engulfed by satisfaction, it washed away the tiny shreds of guilt in his heart. Apart from sweetness, he felt a latent sense of nervousness, his heart pounding non-stop, both of his ears red. Lu Shangâs eyelashes trembled slightly, Li Sui snapped back, his body froze, but he promptly regained his composure and left the room.
Li Sui got a jar of cold water; he drank three whole glasses to calm himself down. It was as if a mixed tape was playing in Li Suiâs mind, the image of Lu Shang flashed by, then what Dr. Leung said was replayed, followed by his inappropriate actions just now. His reasons and impulses were battling each other, just like a bee who had fallen into a closed bottle, bumping around randomly to get out.
âLi Sui? What are you doing here?â
Li Sui had yet to finish tidying up his thoughts, but hearing the voice, he turned around. Meng XinYou was standing at the door, looking at him curiously.
Li Sui stood up immediately, he raised the cup in his hand, âIâm just drinking some water.â
âWhat about Lu Shang, how is he?â
Li Sui put the cup down, âHe is sleeping, Iâll bring you to him.â
The two of them walked in the hospital corridors, Meng XinYou continued staring at Li Sui. The subject of observation felt anxious, he felt as if his secrets were being seen through, so he turned to Meng XinYou and asked, âUmm⌠Is there something on my face?â
Meng XinYou smiled, âYou have breadcrumbs on your face.â
Li Sui was a little shocked, he awkwardly touched the corner of his mouth. As expected, there were breadcrumbs.
The second Meng XinYou neared the bed, she pat the side of Lu Shangâs face a few times, âWakey, wakey, stop sleeping already.â
Li Sui was startled by Meng XinYou, he couldnât stop himself from grabbing Meng XinYouâs arm, âHis surgery just ended.â
âItâs fine, it wonât kill him.â Meng XinYou said nonchalantly while waving her hand.
Li Sui wanted to say something but glancing at the person lying on the bed, he swallowed the words back.
Lu Shang was awake.
âMy father asked me to come visit you.â Meng XinYou sat down on the bedside chair. She picked up an apple and started peeling it with a knife, âCan you hear what I am saying now?â
Lu Shang seemed a little tired, he lowered his eyelids slightly.
âIâm going to discuss some matters with him, do you mind leaving us alone for a bit?â Meng XinYou smiled at Li Sui.
Li Sui was conflicted. He looked at Lu Shang. Their eyes met, Lu Shangâs eyes were calm, so Li Sui obediently left the room.
Meng XinYou waited for the door to close, then she shrugged, Do you see that? Heâs cautious of me.â
Lu Shang didnât speak, but his eyes were judging.
âDonât look at me like that, Iâm just playing with him, I come in peace.â Meng XinYou kept her head down, peeling the apple in her hand. She cut out a piece of the fruit and put it into her own mouth, âSo you have found someone to deal with the problem with Chan Zhuang?â
Meng XinYou stopped Lu Shang just when he was about to speak.
âDonât speak, you donât need to tell me why. I know you have thought it through already, Iâm only here to confirm that, Iâll leave after confirming.â
Lu Shang stared at her and nodded his head.
âOkay then⌠Eh. Donât move, thereâs something on your chin.â Meng XinYou used her fingertip to brush it off, after confirming it as breadcrumbs, she laughed, âWere you pretending to sleep?â
A hint of laughter showed in Lu Shangâs eyes.
Meng XinYou said teasingly, âSay, I heard from Uncle Yuen, he stayed in the hospital the whole time you were in surgery.â
Lu Shangâs gaze shifted to the door.
Meng XinYou sighed, âLu Shang, Lu Lao Ban. Are you still capable of doing what you set out to in the beginning?â
Lu Shang closed his eyes, wearing an expression that screamed, âI refuse to discuss this.â
âFine, fine. Youâre the patient here, I wonât mention that anymore. Happy?â Meng XinYou continued peeling the apple, âIf you are going to protect him, no matter what the reasons are, we will respect you. However, itâs fine if you are just playing, donât get hooked, the consequences are too big.â
Hearing that, Lu Shang closed his eyes, not opening them for a while.
The sky had just brightened, the food stalls under the hospital had opened already. Li Sui ate some random food to fill his stomach. He was going to bring some porridge to Lu Shang, but looking at the huge number of cars, he hesitated, worrying about food hygiene.
When he got back to the room, Meng XinYou had left, leaving behind a bunch of apple skin on the bedside table. The doctor came in to take Lu Shangâs blood, Li Sui immediately went up to hold the medical cotton for him.
âYou can have some liquid food, but if you feel extremely uncomfortable, there is no need to force yourself.â After telling Lu Shang, the doctor turned around to talk to Li Sui, âIf he has any signs of a fever, notify me immediately.â
âOkay.â
After the doctor left, Li Sui helped Lu Shang pull the blanket up, hoping Lu Shang could be more comfortable lying down, âDo you want to sleep a bit more?â
Lu Shang looked at him then he shook his head.
For some reason, Li Sui felt guilty again. He turned his head to the side, hoping Lu Shang wouldnât see it on his face.
âYou ate only this in the past two days?â Lu Shangâs gaze went to the unfinished bread, it wasnât even the fresh ones, but the packaged ones from convenience stores.
âI ate other things too.â Li Suiâs eyes were big, his eye bags were very obvious after the past few days of insomnia.
Lu Shang stared at him, suddenly he reached his hand out and squeezed Li Suiâs hand lightly, âIt must have been hard.â
Li Sui held onto Lu Shangâs hand, the IV drip needle was still inserted in the back of Lu Shangâs hand, the skin around the needle was slightly blue. âYour disease, will it heal?â
Lu Shang didnât reply to his question straightforwardly, âDeath is inevitable for everyone.â
Li Suiâs eyes were watery, âBut, Dr. Leung is so good at treating illnesses, even he canât do anything?â
Lu Shang comforted him with a soft voice, âHe isnât omnipotent either.â
Seeing that Li Sui was at the brink of tears, Lu Shang said after consideration, âDonât be sad, Iâve been like this since the day I was born. Sometimes it gets a little serious, but, look, Iâm fine now right?â
Li Sui wasnât convinced by Lu Shangâs words, he begged, âPlease teach me. Teach me about the things related to your company, the business with brother Zuo. I want to help you.â Lu Shang was surprised, he continued listening to Li Sui. âDidnât you say Iâm like a turtle? When you canât move anymore, I can support you from behind.â
Lu Shangâs hand tightened, then he let go again. If this sentence was spoken by someone else, Lu Shang would think that person was just sucking up to him. However, as the words came from Li Suiâs mouth, it felt different. This child had nothing, there was nothing to gain from his actions either. When he said he wanted to help, he really meant it. Li Sui had given his pure, loyal heart in Lu Shang, trusting him completely.
As if knowing Lu Shang didnât want to reply, the nurse came in, interrupting them, âDo your legs feel sore?â
Naturally, she was asking Lu Shang. Li Sui lifted up the corner of the blanket slightly, he couldnât help but gasp. As the legsâ blood circulation were hindered by the lack of movements, Lu Shangâs legs were swollen, cold to the touch.
âItâs fine.â
Luckily, the nurse was experienced. She looked at the patient information board tied on the back of the bed, knowing that Lu Shang had laid there for two days already, it was clear to her that Lu Shangâs legs must be in bad condition. She actively pulled her own sleeves up and put on a pair of gloves, she walked up to the bed and began massaging Lu Shangâs legs.
Lu Shang naturally frowned; he didnât say anything. With how things were now, he didnât have any strength to retaliate. If it was Leung ZiRui, he could still complain a bit when he couldnât accept the treatment. But now facing a young lady, he didnât feel right stopping her, especially knowing this was good for him.
âAllow me.â Li Sui had been observing the nurseâs movements, he remembered the method and was quite adamant in trying himself.
The nurse didnât object either, perhaps she felt uncomfortable being stared at, so she left the room willingly to get the medicine.
Li Sui was a lot taller than the nurse, leaning forward would be too hard, so he decided on kneeling instead. Li Sui was afraid heâd hurt Lu Shang, so he held his strength back, massaging Lu Shang with feather light strength. After a few moments, Lu Shang surrendered, his shoulder trembled slightly.
Li Sui raised his head to look at Lu Shang, the later used his pale lips to force a smile and said, âIt tickles.â
As Lu Shang spoke, the protrusion at his throat rolled up and down. Due to his frail state, his soft skin seemed to be even softer than usual. Li Sui couldnât help but find the Lu Shang nowâŚerotic.